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Ryan grew up in western Wi and is from a family of cops on his mother’s side, farmers, trades people and laborers on his fathers side. Ryan initially followed in his father’s footsteps in the trades as an electrician, but while working on new home construction of sever police officers, he did some ride a longs and was hooked. Ryan worked as an electrician at night so he could attend Wisconsin’s Police Recruit academy during the day to become a licensed peace officer in WI. In the late fall of 2005 Ryan graduated and was hired as a Deputy at a small rural Sheriff’s Office in Western WI where his grandfather and uncle had spent their entire careers, although Ryan’s career would only be 11 short years. During his career Ryan worked in Corrections at the County Jail, eventually taking a promotion to patrol, and then worked as a dual certified K9 handler doing narcotics detection and criminal apprehension receiving his K9 training and certifications through St Paul MN PD’s elite K9 training program, one of the best in the world.

Wisconsin has unique and unhealthy relationship with alcohol. Ryan came into law enforcement already addicted to alcohol but was consuming what was considered acceptable by his local standards. During his career Ryan found easy access to other prescription medications through his doctor while trying to cope with PTS and pain management. The combination alcoholism and endless pills would eventually lead to his downfall in October of 2016 in very public and embarrassing way.

Ryan got sober, but struggled with his mental health until he eventually took a giant leap of faith and tried a psychedelic healing retreat through a non-profit called The Siren Project, who specializes in sending first responders to Mexico where they can legally partake in “sacred medicine” ceremonies. It was there that Ryan finally found relief from his demons and his healing journey began.
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Kenneth Strange Jr. is a former FBI Special Agent and DOJ Special Agent-In-Charge, Private Investigator and Award-Winning author.  A Spanish-speaker, Arabist and member of the FBI’s Joint Terrorism Task Force (JTTF), he has recently published a Best-Selling true crime memoir, “A Cop’s Son: One G-Man’s Fight Against Jihad, Global Fraud and the Cartels.”

Strange served with three distinct and distinguished US Government Agencies pursuing criminals and bad actors including some of the most heinous criminals in the world. His service to those agencies brought him into direct conflict with Jihadists, International Fraudsters, and the Cartels.

This true crime memoir has been hailed as ‘gripping’ and ‘compelling’ by Ray Kelly, former two-time NYC Police Commissioner, and Bill Bratton, former NYC Police Commissioner and LA Police Chief, as well as several others prominent in the genre.

His hobbies include hiking, reading and traveling (he has traveled to 65 countries). A former state of California Private Investigator (PI), he is married to an RN, has two adult children and lives in Ventura County, California. He recently became a grandfather for the first time. 

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Angel joined the NYPD in June 1992 and worked patrol and anti-crime until 2004, eventually being moved to the 48 Detective Squad, Burglary Robbery Apprehension Module

In 2005 Angel was Promoted to Detective and began a specialized detail in the Joint Terrorism Task Force (JTTF) in 2007.  Throughout is time in the JTTF Angel was the case Detective for Operation Rapid Return finding Abdel Hameed Shehadeh a Staten Island Jihadist who was attempting to enlist in the U.S. Army and then defect to the Taliban so he could conduct an attack on U.S. Troops. Then being assigned as the case Detective for Operation High Rise, subject Adis Medujanin and Co-conspirator to Denver subject Najibullah Zazi.  Angel disrupted the planned and coordinated NYC subway suicide bombing plot, which was Osama Bin Laden’s last attempt to attack the U.S. before he was killed.  To have taken place on 9/11/2009. 

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 ​Michael Anthony  Palazzo was  born and raised in  Quuens.He was raised in a small neighborhood called Maspeth,a predominantly Italian neighboorhood. it was a neighborhood that if your family didn't own a business you became cop or fireman  or a gangster or somewhere in between.

Michael was heavily involved in athletics  growing up and never really wanted to be a cop.His father Pasquale,who was a Correction Officer on Rikers urged him to take all  the police tests in New York  just in case his athletic plans fell through.In 1997 Nassau County police came calling  and he had scored very high.He was hired and his 21 year  Police Career began.He loved the action  and was hooked from there l protecting and serving  the community He began to specialize in DWI arrests  and was recognized  with numerous awards and made  over 3000 DWI arrests 

Little did he know in November 2009  his life would change.He was diagnosed with End Stage Renal Failure .After 2 months of dialysis  he underwent a  sucessful kidney transplant  and returned to full duty 1 year later However Michael was not done with his battle.  On May 30 2023 after 13.5 years the transplanted kidney had failed  and it was back on dialysis and back to needing another kidney.However this time would be an entirely different battle for his life.During the evaluation  for a new kidney the doctors discovered  4 blockages in his heart.Now facing death in the face he underwent a 6 hour  open heart surgery.It was the toughest mental and physical battle of his life.The journey wasn't over .On November 27 2023 after a grueling  6month the Queens native received a Kidney from his Mom which saved his life allowing him to share his story with other who are battling tough times mentally and physically 

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Sherrie Allsup is an international speaker, educator, and subject matter expert with lived experience. She speaks on topics such as sexual assault, sexual abuse, trauma, and suicide. Sherrie is a survivor of long-term sexual abuse, trauma, and suicide attempts. After much hard work and healing she became the founder and CEO of Courage Starts With You. For victims, Courage means telling someone and reaching out for help. For law enforcement, Courage means looking beyond the traditional victim interview technique to recognize how and why victims of assault may act differently than victims of crimes.  

She purchased a cemetery plot, purchased the outfit she wanted to be buried in, and made the decision that morning was going to be the day Sherrie Allsup no longer lived to endure the pain she lived daily throughout her life. Yet, those were not the cards that she was dealt. That was the moment that she began to take her power back. Sherrie Allsup’s journey took a profound turn when faced with the contemplation of ending her life, she instead chose to reclaim her power. She now travels and shares her story to shine a light on the lifelong challenges that sexual abuse and trauma leave behind.
Her pieces of training are centered around shining a light on the dark epidemic of sexual abuse and assault. She is also a member of RAINN (Rape, Abuse, Incest, and Neglect Network). She says, “Trauma victims almost live plan to plan or we wouldn’t survive.” Embracing Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) psychotherapy, Sherrie embarked on a new chapter. In her own words, “This sentiment encapsulates her life, where she navigated each moment with a flickering flashlight, battling the pain that haunted her daily. Determined to break free from the past, she decided that the grip of her father’s years of abuse is not going to define her”.
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Dom is the only child to immigrant parents from Italy, all about the ideas and practice of morals. He started his career in Law Enforcement in 1997 as a juvenile detention officer then became a Hudson county Corrections Officer. In 2000 he graduated from Essex County police Academy, as a Hudson County Sheriff Officer, the following year in 2001 took his oath as a  Bayonne Police Officer 

During his career as a BPD he encountered many stressful moments. The biggest form of stress came when their infant son passed unexpectedly in 2008.  

In 2013, Dom encountered a life changing event after being charged with use of excessive force resulting in him being sentenced to 42 months in prison.

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George T. Drost, a distinguished attorney and curator of art, has a life story that mirrors the resilience and triumph of the human spirit. Born in former Czechoslovakia during one of the darkest periods in history, George's early years were marred by the harsh realities of World War II. His parents were compelled to divorce, and his father faced the brutal fate of being forced into a work camp under the Gestapo.

In a heartbreaking decision to protect their family, George's parents chose to leave him in the Czech and sought refuge for his brother in Austria to escape the clutches of the Gestapo. It was not until George turned four that the family was joyfully reunited in Austria. The journey to the United States followed a time when anti-European sentiments were prevalent. In the face of adversity, George was instilled with the importance of assimilation, a lesson that would shape his future. Assimilate at all costs.

Despite the distance from his homeland, George never forgot his roots. His connection to Czech heritage became even more evident when he assumed the role of honorary consulate to The Czech Republic. This position allowed him to bridge the gap between his adopted home and the land of his birth.

Realizing the significance of the narrative, George enlisted the help of Nicki Pascarella to bring his father's story to life in a modern context. The collaboration resulted in "THE QUIET HERO," a best-selling book that not only chronicles the personal struggles of George's family but serves as a testament to the resilience of the human spirit in the face of adversity. Through his legal career, diplomatic role, and curatorship, George T. Drost has become a living example of turning personal history into a source of inspiration for generations to come.

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Michael Martyn can be summed up in a handful of words. He is a father, a husband, a veteran, a brother to 5, and a former foster child. While these words may be accurate, they give no justice to the many difficult situations and circumstances that Mike had faced throughout his life. At four years old, Mike lost his father to a car accident and continued living with his mother, who by most accounts, wasn’t the tender, caring, loving mother that most moms are. Mike suffered abuse after abuse at the hands of his mother, and multiple stepfathers and boyfriends of his mother. He watched and did his best to defend and protect his 5 younger siblings. Mike had been placed in institutions over a dozen times. He stayed at shelters, group homes, foster homes, couch surfed, and slept on park benches. Mike is now 38 years old and with the help of his last foster father, managed to graduate high school and enter the workforce. Mike successfully completed multiple professional clown training programs where he learned the skills to work as a birthday party clown and found the time to visit sick children at hospitals and was praised by the staff and family as a delight, and a wonderful change for the families and children facing the end of their life. Mike is a graduate of EMT school where he took that training to Lodi, NJ as a volunteer and paid EMT. At the age of 20, Mike joined the NJ Army National Guard. While in the Army, in the summer of 2008, Mike deployed to Camp Bucca Iraq where he served with pride alongside some of the most incredible men and women the United States Army has ever seen. Mike completed his term in the NJ Army Nation Guard in 2012 with the rank of Sergeant. This would prove to be one of the proudest accomplishments according to Mike, but not the most helpful. Mike began attending counseling sessions at the VA hospital in East Orange where he received a diagnosis for PTSD. Mike began a new chapter in his life in 2014 when he met his current wife, Katie. (some apparently call her Lauren (yes they do Mike)) Mike and Katie share 3 beautiful children together, Nora, Hope, and Mikey. Mike now spends his free time with his children.

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 ​Justin Kase, a trailblazing entertainment aficionado, emerged into the industry at just 16, rubbing shoulders with legends like Chucky Brown, Lenny Wilkens, Dikembe Mutombo, and Steve Smith as the Atlanta Hawks' ball boy. Mentored by luminaries Ryan Cameron & Greg Street, he found his calling, journeying from HOT 98.1FM in Greenville, South Carolina, where he dazzled as an on-air personality, production maestro, and promotions ace.
Co-founding the acclaimed Zaytoven Radio with Humble Gee, Justin contributed to its Sirius radio triumph with beats known for shaping hits like "Usher - Papers," "Gucci Mane - So Icey," and "Gucci Mane feat Oj Da Juiceman - Make The Trap Say Ay." Venturing forth after two years, he remains connected to Zaytoven and Roland from Digital Dope Radio, sustaining his legacy.
Transitioning from 16 dynamic years in radio, Justin pivoted to a thriving photography venture, gracing publications like the New York Times, People Magazine, and the New York Post. His lens has captured luminaries like Tray Chaney, Nappy Roots, NLE Choppa, LL Cool J, Tana, Georgia NAACP, and a host of others, establishing him as a luminary in the field.
Navigating personal challenges, including marriage-induced stress and depression, Justin grappled with Adderall abuse, spiraling into a tumultuous phase with cocaine. Seeking redemption, he embarked on a transformative journey, voluntarily embracing rehab in September 2017. Emerging after 90 days with newfound clarity, a counselor's advice led him to photography, reigniting his passion and driving his sobriety.
Four years on, Justin Kase stands as one of the preeminent celebrity photographers in the southern landscape, using his lens not only to capture moments but to illuminate his own triumphant tale of resilience and redemption. 

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Nancy Nugent (no, she’s not related to Ted), was born and raised in Northern NJ and still finds herself here despite the many, many thoughts she’s had about living out of state. She’s found it’s truly hard to give up the Jersey card, but she did at least move to a different county when she left home. Growing up, the only law enforcement knowledge Nancy had was because of her grandfather, who had retired as a police sergeant long before she was born. Nancy had absolutely no intention, desires, or even thoughts about getting into anything related to law enforcement, public service, etc. but many years ago in college, when picking the mandatory elective courses, Nancy chose what she figured to be the least sleep inducing class, Intro to Criminal Justice. As a result of that one class, Nancy ended up adding a Criminal Justice major to her Communications degree and, after realizing going the actual police officer route wasn’t a desire, has now had a career path which started in police dispatch, detoured to fraud and federal background investigations, and then came back to dispatch, where she has spent the last 9 years in two departments growing from dispatch trainee to her current title of supervisory dispatcher. She has heard things ranging from super sweet to absolutely heartbreaking, has acted as an unintentional therapist, and has been screamed at and called every name in the book by complete strangers, all while keeping track of various rules, regulations, people, their personalities, and their preferences. 

When not at work, Nancy gets out of dispatch mode the best she can and tries to spend time with her significant other, friends, and family, but mostly gets ordered around by a 12 year old, 30 pound pit bull mix named Trooper (who is absolutely NOT named after the state police). She’s found exploring various hiking trails and other outdoor spots to be the best mind clearing activity ever. Nancy also lives to be the fun aunt to her two most awesome nephews. 

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