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After ten years of the #amwriting podcast, KJ, Jess, and Sarina are marking a milestone—and a transition. In this episode, the longtime hosts reflect on what the writing world looked like when the show began and share their best advice for writers trying to do meaningful work. They also pass the microphone to Jennie, who will carry the podcast into its next chapter.

Moving forward, Jennie will keep the show focused on helping writers do their best work and make smart decisions about their writing lives. Expect familiar features and new conversations, including Write Big solo episodes, Book Lab breakdowns of listener submissions, coaching sessions with writers across genres, and Margin Notes exploring the thinking behind creative choices.

The mission remains the same: helping writers play big in their writing life, love the process, and stick with it long enough to finish what matters most.

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Transcript

Jennie: [00:00:00] Hi, I’m Jennie Nash and you’re listening to the hashtag am Writing podcast. The place where we help writers of all kinds play big in your writing life, love the process, and stick with it long enough to finish what matters most.

KJ: Hey everyone. I’m kj and you are listening to the hashtag am Writing podcast, the place where we help writers of all kinds play big in your writing life, love the process, and stick with it long enough to finish what matters most.

So today is a big day. We’re we’re

Jess: big day.

KJ: Yeah. We’re celebrating the 10th year of the hashtag am writing podcast, which I have to say is officially the longest I’ve been able to sustain any job-like thing. Um, and we’re announcing that we’re going in a new direction. So this is really cool. After a decade of talking to y’all, um, Jess and I and then [00:01:00] Sarina, who is at minus a decade. I don’t wanna, um, have decided to step back and hand over the reins to Jennie.

Jess: Yeah

Jennie: It is, it is such a big milestone and such a big deal. And before we. Actually say goodbye to the three of you. I mean, it’s not forever. You’re coming back as guests, all of you, all the time, hopefully.

KJ: Oh, heck yes. Absolutely. You, you, you and I have already planned all the things, so don’t get too excited and, and weepy here folks, but things are just, things are gonna be. New and fresh and more interesting and, uh, more craft filled and more inspirational. When I need inspiration to write, I look for one of our episodes.

That’s Jennie. So I think this is gonna be, this is gonna be great.

Jennie: I think it’s gonna be great too. But before we actually say goodbye, I mean, 10. Is a long time and I thought it would be fun to ask you all what it was like 10 [00:02:00] years ago when you started, and Sarina 10 minus whatever the time is, but what was the writing landscape like as a whole maybe for you, and then all this wisdom, all these years that you’ve shared.

What’s, what’s the thing that sticks in your head the most is what you would want to leave with, with the listeners, what is the your best piece of writing advice from all of this time? So. Jess, why don’t you start? You’re the og.

Jess: Well, I, I definitely wanted to start. For those people who have not been around since the very beginning, you have to understand that it’s really horrifying when people say they go back and like start from the beginning because, um, and we’ll be posting pictures in the show notes.

I have a ton of pictures throughout the years, but we originally, um, we, we would go into this little, I had a tiny, tiny house and we would go into the eve space off of my daughter’s room. And it was raw insulation with a light bulb, and we sat on the floor and it was [00:03:00] like. Maybe at the tallest point, maybe four feet high, so you had to kind of crawl in.

And I have a picture of us, um, podcasting from inside there. And it was, and it was very hot in the summer. It would get very, very hot. My house did not have air conditioning and um. But it was delightful and it was this thing that we had talked about doing for such a long time, and I was so proud of us.

And mainly it was kj. KJ was the one who said, we’re not gonna talk about this anymore, we’re just gonna do it. So she got us into gear and just brought her stuff over to my house in her basket and said, let’s go. Let’s do it. And we bought microphones and everything and it was. It was a big new adventure.

And if you had said, then, how long do you think this is gonna last? I don’t know that I would’ve said 10 years. But there’s, you know, then Sarina came in and, and Sarina has, has been a part of this as a guest since the very beginning too. And a couple of things that I wanted to share were that one time Sarina and KJ and I, uh, were doing a [00:04:00] double, a double header episode and I forgot to hit record for both of them.

And so. We did this incredibly fun, very long episode, broken into two pieces that, um, it went off into the ether and. I did learn from that. And then at the same time, by the time we were sort of on our game enough to be able to really interview people, we went up to Maine to interview Richard Russo and we went to record at his daughter’s wonderful bookstore in Portland, Maine.

And um, I had three modes of recording. I had, um. Two microphones and I had a handheld digital thing that I had on the table between us and, um, mode one failed and mode two failed. And so the only thing we had was, you know, our little digital handheld on the table in between us. So. There’s a lot of stuff like that.

There was the moment I got to text KJ and tell her that we were getting David [00:05:00] Sedaris, there was the day she emailed me to tell me that we were getting Anna Quinlan. You know, and I just so many cool things that, um. It makes me so happy that we’ve produced something good out of all of that. And one last thing.

The, the, the thing that I think I’ve learned the most is there is no one right way to do this. That every single time I hear about, like whether it’s the, you have to write, writer write every day, you have to write every day, or you have to write in a certain way, or you have to write in a certain place, or you have to write with the door closed, or you have to write with the door open, all of those things.

Um, none of those are rules. None of them are rules. They’re things that people do and I’m really glad that I’ve had the opportunity to talk to a lot of people about all the different ways they do it.

Jennie: That’s amazing. Um, kj, do you remember this, uh, light bulb and no insulation time?

KJ: Oh yeah. I don’t remember the time you didn’t record particularly just ‘cause it happened more than once. And [00:06:00] the other thing I would throw in is that the more famous, the guest, the. Less interesting. They were, it was almost

KJ: always true.

Jess: It wasn them. It was, yeah. I think we got all jacked up about like, I don’t know. It just,

Jess: I don’t know.

Wasn David Sari’s advice to young writers was the worst.

KJ: Yeah. It advice really was

Jess: anyone has ever given, it

KJ: was,

Jess: yeah, a writer. He said, don’t submit your work. Don’t ask. Don’t try to get you, wait for people to read it. Wait for people to ask you if they can read it.

KJ: Yeah,

Jess: that’s which this, this is,

KJ: this worked for him. He is an NF one and it will not work for you.

Jess: Right. Yeah, I think that

KJ: my favorite, I’m just gonna, I’m just gonna lay it out there. I’m not even gonna put any caveats on that. That won’t work.

Jess It won’t work.

KJ: No. I think it’s always been the most fun when we get in deep into the craft and anytime someone is too practiced with their answers or it’s the same answer they’ve given a million times.

You’re [00:07:00] right. It was cold and it was, um, it just wasn’t good.

Sarina: Y…

Jennie Nash launches a brand-new Hot Seat Coaching series on the podcast—real, on-air coaching sessions where listeners get to hear a story develop in real time.

In the first episode, Jennie brings #amwriting podcast producer Andrew Parrella out from behind the microphone as he begins work on his first novel. Fresh off completing the Blueprint challenge, Andrew shares his gothic horror premise: a Dracula-inspired story set in 1920s London, where Abriana Harker—the daughter of Mina Harker—faces a string of mysterious deaths unfolding against the backdrop of the suffrage movement.

Jennie and Andrew pressure-test the blueprint together, refining the novel’s central point, exploring how Van Helsing’s legacy shapes the world of the story, and identifying ways to strengthen Abriana’s role so the plot is driven by her choices. Andrew leaves with clear next steps—and this is just the beginning: he’ll return in future episodes as Jennie continues coaching him through the process of developing the novel.

You can connect with Andrew via his website AndrewParrella.com

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Transcript

Jennie: [00:00:00] Hi, I’m Jennie Nash and you’re listening to the hashtag am Writing podcast. The place where we help writers of all kinds play big in your writing life. Love the process, and stick with it long enough to finish what matters most. Hi, I’m Jenny Nash and you’re listening to the hashtag am Writing podcast.

This is something new. It’s a hot seat coaching episode where we’re gonna work through a real challenge in real time with a real writer. And today. I’m joined by a really special guest. His name is Andrew Perella, and he has been the producer of this podcast for many, many years and is stepping out from behind the microphone to write his first novel.

Andrew participated in the Winter Blueprint challenge that we recently completed. Which is to say he answered all 14 of the blueprint questions during our challenge and, and produced a [00:01:00] finished blueprint. And so I wanted to get on with him and talk about what do we do next? How do we go from there to the next thing?

And he agreed to do that to help show our listeners how it goes. And I’m so excited about it because. He just did incredible work and also has so much work to go, so hopefully we’re gonna get to, we’re gonna get to follow Andrew as he does this for a few episodes and bring you along on the journey. So welcome Andrew from Behind the Microphone.

Andrew: So much work to go. Thank you, Jenny. I’m really excited to be here.

Jennie: So Andrew is, has a long career in public radio and is a producer of podcast for many people and is a storytelling guy, you know, as well as a sound guy. So this is, this is a big move. I feel like this is a right big move for you for sure, for deciding.

This is the time to embrace the fact that you wanna do this thing. Does it [00:02:00] feel like that to you?

Andrew: It, it feels like a right big move for me that I’m kind of prioritizing now this writing project for me. I’m prioritizing my project, um, over, over, uh, the projects of others whom, whom I help with projects.

Yeah. So this is a big, big a right big moment for me.

Jennie: It is totally a riping moment and. You’re in the hot seat personal coaching, which I, I really appreciate you being willing to do So, um, where we stand today is, as I said, you, you finished the blueprint, you did all the work, you did the thing. So I’m just curious to sort of check in.

How do you feel? Do you feel like that’s an accomplishment? Do you feel some momentum? Like, what, where are you feeling, what are you feeling? Um,

Andrew: I, I feel like it is a, a really big accomplishment because as we were working through the blueprint, I was getting feedback, uh, from you and KJ Dium about, uh, about, uh, how I was, how I was creating my [00:03:00] blueprint.

It got me, it forced me to think about the book in some very real terms, in ways that I hadn’t yet, and in ways that, you know, I had been kind of thinking about the book in more abstract notions. Um, and like this was putting pen to paper, uh, on so many things to think about, you know, beyond the, beyond the simple plot structure.

Um, and I realized as I was going through this. How much I hadn’t yet considered, and I think this helped to show me where the holes in my story were. Um. And he, even, even as I’ve finished, quote unquote, finished the blueprint, it’s like I finished one inter iteration of it and like already the story has changed since I first started work on the blueprint.

And so already I know I gotta go back and start reiterating on, on, on this, uh, uh, as we go along here.

Jennie: Yeah. I mean, and that’s the point, right? Yeah. Is the whole point is this is a tool that reveals. [00:04:00] What’s working and what’s not working? Is this what I want? Does this reflect my vision? And you get to, to play with that wet clay of the idea.

So that’s really what what we’re doing. But the reason that I thought you’d be such a good candidate for coaching live in this way is your story. It really hangs together in so many ways. It’s so great in so many ways and it, it would be easy to feel like, oh, I’m, I’m not that far. I got this. I could, I could start right?

I can start writing. Yeah. But I hope, I hope what we’re gonna show is, is really pushing yourself to answer core questions is gonna just make it so much stronger.

Andrew: Absolutely.

Jennie: So, um, all that being said, do you. What do you think the best way to share what you’re writing with our listeners is? Do you think reading your book jacket copy feels good or do you wanna just say it out [00:05:00] loud?

Andrew: Um, I feel like the book jacket copy, I. Um, that I, that I wrote doesn’t quite, doesn’t quite capture, I think in many ways what I think the book is going to be so Well,

Jennie: and we’re gonna actually get

Andrew: to that. So I, and we’re gonna get to that, I think. Yeah.

Jennie: So why don’t you just, just share what, what it is.

Andrew: So, uh, the premise of the book is this happens, uh.

Uh, the, the novel, it happens 20 years after the events of, uh, Bram Stoker’s Dracula. Um, and so. It involves some of the same characters, and then it also involves the next generation of these characters. So these, those characters children. Um, the, uh, our protagonist is a Abriana Harker, who is the daughter of Mina Harker, who was, um, kind of the female, uh, lead in, in, in Dracula.

And she was, she was bitten by Dracula in, in the original novel. [00:06:00] Um, and she is, uh, someone who is defended, um. Uh, by her, uh, by her friends and, and counterparts in, in that story, Abriana is her daughter. And Abriana is now facing a similar challenge. There are bodies that are turning up around her circle and uh, they appear to have similar injuries that Dracula’s victims had 20 years ago, and some people recognize that and are.

Going to begin trying to unravel the mystery. And this is all set against the backdrop of the universal suffrage movement, which is also happening in, uh, you know, 1920s London, where, where the novel is, novel is set. And so in broad strokes, that is, that is the, the, the primary premise of the book.

Jennie: So the genre is horror.

Gothic and I, I did some, some digging. I’m not a big reader of horror, so I did some digging into the genre to make sure that that was right. Because there [00:07:00] there’s also thriller elements. There’s mystery elements. Mm-hmm. There’s, you know, there’s other elements and it is, I always liked to, to test. Is this right?

Is this right? Could it be tweaked? Could it be better? And it feels, it feels like there’s really no question about the genre. Right. Do you feel that

Andrew: I, I feel that, I feel definitely, definitely feel that. And I think I, I, like gothic is, is, is a genre that I really enjoy and I want to develop some of those gothic themes in the story a little bit more than I have so far.

But yes, I think gothic and, and horror is very much where, where this, where this book lives. Yeah.

Jennie: Yeah. And that is something I wanna talk about for sure when we get to the inside outline. But I wanna start with, um, the second question of the blueprint is what’s your point? And I know this is something you’ve struggled with a little bit.

Yeah. Um, but so the current point that you have here is. I feel like maybe this came from me. So, [00:08:00] uh, I, it’s, you can’t change the world without upsetting people. The more you want to change, the more people you upset, and that’s fine, but it, but it doesn’t, it does, it doesn’t feel like it captures. There’s a real moral, philosophical debate at the center of your story.

Right.

Andrew: Yeah, absolutely. I think, you know, the, the characters are certainly, uh, in the midst of a paradigm shift, you know, there’s the, there, the, the world order is changing as, uh, as suffrage is, is being opened to more and more people. Um, and times a world order like that changes. There are people who are for it and there are a lot of people who are against it.

And so I think that’s. That’s an element in, in play here in the, in the novel. And that, and that’s something that I wanted to explore. And obviously there are parallels in current times as well for, uh, for this, for this sort of change. So I think that’s, I think that’s, that’s certainly, that’s certainly part of, uh, of, of [00:09:00] the story.

Yeah.

Jennie: So I was, when I, when I review a blueprint, and for anybody who’s, who’s got one all on the page and, and you, you like it and it feels pretty good. The step is to, to really pressure test everything. So I, I read through the whole thing. I love looking at a blueprint. A blueprint as a whole rather than piece by piece.

And in this particular case, it’s like this. Yeah. This point feels bloodless, which is something we definitely don’t want in this story. So I went back to your why and your why is really powerful and really personal and really political. Um, it’s, it’s fiery, it’s articulate, like there’s so much about your why that I.

You can see my comments on the page. Mm-hmm. Not the listener, but Andrew can Right where I was going. Great. Yes. Very powerful. Awesome. You know, it’s just, it’s excellent. And you had some lines in there [00:10:00] about the, the monster in this story is not the vampire, but a man who is refusing to change with the times basically.

And. That felt to me, given everything else you’re saying about the parallels between this, the milieu of this story and the milieu we live in right now, the, the fraught. Climate, political climate. Cultural climate that felt more potent as a point. And I, I wondered what you thought about that.

Andrew: Yeah, I mean, I think that that is as mu that is as much a part of the, the premise as I’ve conceived it, as, as anything else that I’ve, I’ve said, um, you know, the, the, the.

Spoiler alert, the the murders aren’t being committed by, by the vampire, uh, or vampires. Uh, the murders are being committed by an old white dude who is not [00:11:00] happy with how the politics are shifting under his feet and how the world is changing around him, um, and is trying to, at all costs, prevent that from happening, even sacrificing a bit of his own humanity in, in the process.

And so I think that is. Is is something that certainly resonates, but I think it yeah. Is, as you say, there’s a passion, there’s a blood there that in in, in the why that didn’t quite make it to my point. Um,

Jennie: yeah, yeah, yeah. So I would suggest for the next iteration mm-hmm. To, to really push that point and.

It’s gonna keep changing, it’s gonna keep, um, you know, getting refined as you go. But I think it’s important to move it forward as you keep writing. So the, um, yeah, something that’s, that’s fiery and that’s, um, about, ‘cause that’s a, that’s a, you’re flipping an important trope in a. In a [00:12:00] classic novel, right?

Mm-hmm. That it, it’s not the vampire. So like, why that? Why, why are we flipping out? What is that showing us? What is the point of, of doing that in the story? That, so I would really play with that. Um, does that make sense? Mm-hmm.

Andrew: Yes, it does. Okay. Yes, it does.

Jennie: Okay, so the next thing I wanna talk about is your super, your super simple story.

Mm-hmm. And. What’s interesting about the super simple story is, I mean, I love everybody always. Here’s me say this, who’s listened to me for very long, but I love a constraint on in creativity. And this, trying to get this story in a really short space often reveals something. And what it, when it was revealing to me is, so you’ve got, you’ve got a abriana, she wants to, uh, become a doctor.

Because of her mother’s, [00:13:00] her mother died in childbirth with her. Um, so that’s the, that’s the storyline. You’ve got the murders that are happening and, and then you’ve got the universal suffragette movement, this political debate that’s going on. So there’s these three threads and. Even in the super simple story, it was feeling a little bit like they’re disconnected.

I don’t think they’re disconnected in your mind. I think they’re disconnected on the page.

Andrew: Okay.

Jennie: So I wanted to just ask you to articulate that a little bit more. ‘cause you hint in the um, book jacket copy later, AA has things in common with Finn halting who’s. Her uncle, the Vampire Hunter. Are you comfortable sharing what those are?

Andrew: Yeah.

Jennie: What those commonalities are?

Andrew: Yeah, I think, I think, [00:14:00] um, uh, Abraham Von Helsing is, is a character from the original novel, um, and he helps guide the team to, uh, uh, find, track down and destroy Dracula. Um. In the world of my novel, his understanding of vampires changes as he’s, as he continues to do research on them.

And so he’s discovered, he’s discovered more about them. That will spell out a little bit more in the, uh, in the novel, but. First and foremost, and one of the, one of the primary roles he plays in the, in, in the original novel is a, as a doctor. And that’s one thing that Abriana really admires about him. He becomes a bit of a, a, um, a surrogate.

Parent to her with her mother dying and her, uh, her father’s grief, turning into a little bit of emotional distance from, uh, from Abriana. And so von uh, van Helsing kind of fills that gap and so she associates her. I think her desire [00:15:00] to become a doctor stems from both her birth, you know, ultimately killing her mother, but also because, and, and, and wanting to prevent that from happening to other women, but also because she’s seen, you know, van Helsing.

Perform his, his service as a doctor. He, she’s seen it in action and what it can do and wants to, and wants to, wants to emulate that. And so, and, and I think one of the, one of the things that, that I get excited about is incorporating a little bit of like historic realism into, into the novel as well. And there was in, uh, the 1920s a, a medi, the London School of Medicine for women.

Um, it had it, it had been. Open for a, a decade or so. It was still a fairly new school at the time. And so that there was an, uh, a real place that she would’ve been able to go and get an education is something that, uh, is something that I’m, I’m excited to have part of, part of the novel and like that school wouldn’t have been possible if it was not for the Women’s Liberation [00:16:00] Movement, which resulted obviously in the universal.

In the universal suffrage movement. And so all of that I feel, kind of ties, ties together in a way that I haven’t explained very well in my super simple copy, super simple story explanation there.

Jennie: So, so that’s what I’m trying to get at is Adrianna is not just some random young woman. No, I mean she’s, she’s very clearly descended from.

A, a particular, uh, family who’s had a particular thing happen and you know, there several generations. So have you designed her as a protagonist using those elements of the family yet, or, or is it more kind of just convenient that she’s there? Does that make sense?

Andrew: I think so, [00:17:00] and I think it’s probably somewhere in the middle.

I think I like the idea of tying her into these characters that who have an existing history, and it then gives her a little bit of, a little bit of, uh, gravitas for the listener when they, when they start digging in that maybe they, maybe they, maybe they have read Dracula, are familiar with those characters and so, okay, this is the next, this is the next generation.

But yeah, I mean, I think Abriana reflects. A lot of other things that, that aren’t in, that aren’t represented in the original novel. Um,

Jennie: I guess what I, I guess what I’m saying is it feels, one of my concerns is it feels as if you could write this story about Adriana and not have her beat from this family.

She could, she could be kind of. Anyone Gotcha. In this [00:18:00] situation? Gotcha. Does that, am I, am I missing, am I missing that? What would make, you know, let’s just, um, I know there’s, there’s several women in the novel who have, have important roles. So I’m gonna pick a name that’s not them. Let’s say that, uh, there’s a young woman, Catherine, you know, not connected to, um.

Ben Helsing not connected to her mother, not connected to that whole thing. And same time period, same motivation. She wants to be a doctor. Maybe she had someone in her family die, and that’s her motivation. You know, like suffrages, like that whole story could still play out with Catherine. Uh, am I wrong? I want you to prove me wrong.

Andrew: So like, yes, it could, I feel like, I feel like one of the things I like about tying in Van Helsing is it, it presents a red herring, um, in the sense that it’s like, oh, we all think. [00:19:00] That we’re gonna find out vampires are responsible for all of these deaths. Um, like, I don’t know, like, and I, and I can kind of slow burn the, you know, the reveal of vampires in general and, and, and how they end up not actually being the antagonists in this By, by which is So by borrowing, by borrowing his name and sharing his glory a little bit.

Yeah.

Jennie: Right. But back to Catherine, our, our mm-hmm. Mythical protagonist.

Andrew: Yeah.

Jennie: Same thing could happen there. Everybody thinks, oh, the vampires are back. Um, Catherine, you know, they, they keep happening around her. She’s gotta figure it out. You know what I mean? So,

Andrew: well, so, so

Jennie: is

Andrew: Yeah,

Jennie: no, go ahead.

Andrew: The question, the question I, I think that I’ve been grappling a bit with too is do we exist in a world where.

Is, does the novel, does the world of the novel, a place where people [00:20:00] have recognized the efforts of Van Helsing and that vampires exist? Is that, is that common knowledge in this world, or is all of that still unknown to folks?

Jennie: Okay, this. Is the piece that I’ve been missing.

Andrew: Okay.

Jennie: That’s exactly the piece that I’ve been missing.

That’s totally it. That, so here, this is world building. If anybody’s writing anything with magic, fantasy, sci-fi, even just straight up history, and maybe it’s a retelling or a re um, imagining, you often know those, those questions for sure. And especially for where for. My understanding, I, I’m, like I said, I’m not a horror reader, but I do know a little bit about Dracula, but the, it was a, a sort of science versus, um, like science played a big role in that.

What [00:21:00] can we know? Mm-hmm. What can we prove? What is, what is unknowable?

Andrew: Mm-hmm.

Jennie: Those sorts of things. Absolutely. So that, you’ve gotta know that here. Mm-hmm. Has it been proved? Is it. Accepted knowledge. Is Van Helsing a hero who’s locked away in his lab continuing to, you know, with funding and whatever to research his thing?

Or is he some. You know, recluse who was shamed in the public eye and people think he’s crazy, like that’s gonna color everything. Mm-hmm. Okay. And that’s gonna be, that’s gonna then be the answer I’m looking for. Like, why Adriana as our protagonist and not Catherine. Right. So she’s gonna have that, you imagine her going to medical school with.

Those two different stories behind her, how different it’s [00:22:00] gonna be when she shows up in the classroom and people know, you know, or when they know who she is.

Andrew: Right? Yeah.

Jennie: So there, there’s a real, the reveal to the reveal to the reader about her connection and who she is and then her, her reveal to the society she lives in about.

Who she is and you know, the meaning she makes from all that you know, and did, no matter what you decide about Van Helsing, she then you have to all just also decide about her. Does she agree with the prevailing wisdom? If everybody thinks he’s a hero, does she think he, he is too? Or does she think he’s kind of whacked and then, um, learns otherwise or, you know, like the or, or the other way

Andrew: around?

Jennie: Yeah. Or the other way around. Yeah. Yeah. Right. So yeah, this is the piece that’s missing is I feel like you have, and this is what I felt the second I heard you talk about your story. I’m like, oh, this could be so [00:23:00] good. Like, this is so potent, but you’re like, you’re missing it. You’re just, it’s like it’s, it’s like it’s not landing as as solid as it should, and I think this is why.

Right. I had not been able to figure it out, but. And you have, so I gotta make sure I understand the character. So a Adriana’s dad is the brother of Van Helsing.

Andrew: Uh, they’re not related in the original, in the original novel. They’re, they’re, uh, they’re just friends. Okay. Okay. But they’re, but they’re clo Okay.

They’re, they’re close friends. And because Van Helsing ultimately saved both of their lives, uh, he is kind of a, a, a surrogate uncle. So, uncle, uncle in quotation marks. Yeah,

Jennie: yeah, yeah. Uncle is Is an honorific.

Andrew: An honorific, exactly. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Okay. Yep.

Jennie: That confused me. Okay. So I thought that there was a direct lineage there.

Andrew: Right.

Jennie: But there’s not No,

Andrew: no genetic link. Yeah, yeah, yeah. [00:24:00]

Jennie: But a link through. Her mother a link to Van Healthing Through the mother.

Andrew: Yes.

Jennie: Um, and, and what happened to her. So, okay. Yeah. We have to understand his role, who he is, what he’s doing in the world, what people think of him. Mm-hmm. Um, and also this is important for.

Just the environment of your story, because we’ve got this division, political division around the suffragette movement. Is there, is there o, are there other, um, like, I wanna say mood, like what’s the mood of the place where she’s, this story’s taking place? Is it, you know, a creeping sense of doom on many levels?

Uh, is the do the vampire, like, is the fact, oh, maybe the vampires are [00:25:00] back. Does that make sense for the times? Um, like you and I are talking right now in 2026, um, during very extreme political upheaval and also during the time when there’s this been this kidnapping of this prominent. Um, media personalities, family member that hasn’t been solved.

And there’s this sense like, well of course this is happening now. Like this, you know, is there a weird, are we gonna have a, um, famous serial killer? Story unfolding in our time. Right. Like, that’s what I keep thinking, right? Like there’s a sense of, of course these things are going to start happening now ‘cause things are, feel so unstable and unsettled.

Andrew: Yeah.

Jennie: Is that what’s going on there? [00:26:00]

Andrew: I mean, I think potentially yes. I, I’ve, because yeah, I feel like this, it, it, it, it was an unsettled moment politically. And also a little bit medically as they as like the medical establishment is transitioning from miasma theory to germ theory. And that was kind of late, late, uh, 19th century, early 20th century.

But like there’s, there’s kind of been a, a paradigm shift there. So I think, I feel like yeah, there does wanna be, as you were saying, kind of like this constant, creepy. Creepy feeling. Yeah. I’m like, I’m like to lean into the gothic, like I thought, like, I really want that to pervade every, every chapter, every page.

I want that kind of like creeping sensation that that doom is around the corner. Um, that, that

Jennie: Right. And doom for many sources. Right. Because I think that that’s kind of one of your points.

Andrew: Mm-hmm.

Jennie: Is well, what I’m going back to what [00:27:00] the point, point was. The point we’re kind of, um. Leaning toward is people who review, refuse to evolve.

When the world demands, it can become monsters. So the world is evolving in many different ways and probably getting the opportunity for a lot of different people to have to evolve in a lot of different ways. It’s not just one way. It’s not just like, oh, get on this bus, or you’re missing. Get on, you know, what’s the metaphor?

Like you’ll miss the boat if you don’t get on the boat. But it feels like there’s all kinds of boats one, one might miss here, right? Um, I think so. And so that’s that. Yeah. Okay, so, so in terms of what to do next, I think your, your homework here is you’ve gotta get to know Van Haling. Yeah. And the, and the world a little bit better.

So I would do some character [00:28:00] development work on, on him and what the world thinks of him and what a Brianna’s stepping into the, the light by. Insisting on going to medical school does to Van Haling. Does it delight him? Does it challenge him? Does it, um, you know, what does he think of that? I think that’s important.

Andrew: Yeah.

Jennie: Um, to know too.

Andrew: Yeah.

Jennie: Um,

Andrew: a couple, a couple of things that are occurring to me. I think I had taken for granted the reader’s knowledge of the events of Dracula, and I don’t think I can do that. I think I need to. To develop these characters for my own, as you’re saying, I, I gotta, I have to develop Van Van Hels, the Van Helsing character.

I have to develop him for, for my own purposes for this novel. Um, which makes a lot of sense.

Jennie: Well, that’s actually a really good question. You defined your ideal reader in a way that I thought was. [00:29:00] Completely delightful. Like she was so fleshed out. She felt like a, a full on character and I was like, oh, I know that.

I know that woman. I loved it. It was great. But an important piece you missed in that is you said that she enjoys books about. London, the city and maybe some horror and gothic, but what is her relationship to Dracula, your ideal reader? You need to know that.

Andrew: Yeah. Yeah.

Jennie: My, you know, this is what’s funny sometimes about being a book coach is I always say that the, the writers, the god of their own story, I can’t possibly know everything that the writer knows about what they’re writing about, what they’ve read, what they’ve thought, how they’ve lived, any of it.

And, and in this particular case, I don’t read. I don’t read horror. I, I, I could barely tell you the, the bear outlines of Dracula if, if press, [00:30:00] um, I mean, I know the, you know, cartoon, the cartoon version. I, I, I could tell you a little more about Frankenstein only because I, against my will, watched the recent, um.

Retelling.

Andrew: Oh yeah. I haven’t actually seen that yet.

Jennie: So I say against my will because I was like, oh my gosh, this is too much for me. But um, you need to know if, so here’s a perfect, let me finish my sentence. You need to know if your reader is a fan, is a reader, is a immersed in the gothic world, is gonna know all these things.

Know all the tropes and know all the connections or not. And the, um, perfect example of that is, remember that book, um, pride and Prejudice and Zombies?

Andrew: Yes.

Jennie: So that appeal to people who love Jane Austen.

Outro: Mm-hmm.

Jennie: Like, you’re probably not gonna read that book if you’re not a Jane Austen [00:31:00] fan, but if you are a Jane Austen fan, you’re, you cannot wait to get your hands on that.

And. Also probably if you’re a zombie horror fan, you know, you would delight in that even if you didn’t understand the depths of the Jane Austen piece. But that book spoke to such a very particular audience that turned out to be a massive audience. Right, right. So, yeah,

Andrew: yeah, yeah.

Jennie: You know, I think you need to make a decision.

Are you writing for someone like me who’s, who’s like, I don’t know, like I think when I first read it, I was like. Who’s Ben Sing? And you’re like, he’s the famous guy from the thing, right? So are you writing for someone like me or does your, a avatar, your ideal reader hear, you know, does she watch the movie?

Does she, does she read the books? Does she gobble that stuff up?

Andrew: Right? Yeah.

Jennie: What, what is your instinct right now?

Andrew: Singling out one or the other is going to, is going to change [00:32:00] how I write the book. Um. What is my instinct? Uh, I dunno. When I think about the character that I, that the character of the reader that I fleshed out in the blueprint, um,

Jennie: yeah,

Andrew: I don’t think she necessarily would have read Dracula.

She might be familiar with the story, but she might not have, um, uh, have read, uh, Dracula itself.

Jennie: Okay. So yeah, let’s get to, let’s get really clear on that. Mm-hmm. Because it’s gonna really change. And for those listening. The ideal reader. Oftentimes people think it’s just a throwaway part of the blueprint because they kind of can just picture, you know, generally who their reader is.

I mean, first of all, no part of the blueprint is the throwaway. Uh, something really important can come from any one of these. So really go back to your ideal reader. And think about them in relationship to their story. ‘cause this [00:33:00] conversation reveals how drastically you would change the writing of this book, depending on your ideal reader’s relationship to the, to Dracula.

Andrew: Yeah.

Jennie: And, and there’s no right answer. Either answer’s. Great. Right. So, um, so that’s, I just put that on the list of, of things too, um, that you’re gonna be thinking about. Um. So once you get that, so yeah, the understanding of of Van Healthy’s re reputation in the universe right now is going to be the way that you bring your reader up to speed a little bit.

Right? Like famous Vampire Hunter still doing his thing or, or. Famous vampire hunter, you know, shamed and, uh, not doing his thing. Um, that’s, those are gonna tie [00:34:00] together,

Andrew: right? Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Jennie: And cement down the world that we’re coming into, um, more.

Andrew: Absolutely. No, I can, I can see how that will change things.

Yeah.

Jennie: Okay. So, um. We’re not gonna have time to dig, to dig into this yet, but I just wanna touch on it so that, um, when you’re doing this work, you can be thinking about, um, thinking about this piece, but the, um, there’s a cause and effect trajectory that’s obviously what the inside outline is. And at some really key places in yours, you miss an opportunity to to tie in.

So we always want our protagonist to have agency to be making the [00:35:00] decisions that cause things to get worse or cause them to be in a worse position or, um, and, and there’s several places in your inside outline where. Things just sort of happen, which is the plot, and then she sort of happens to be there.

But if you understand better these parts of her and her connection to this, uh, the not her uncle now, uh, her, this guy, uh, and her connection to what’s happened with her mother and those things, then we wanna use that to push the story. To push the, so the plot has to serve the story. So the things that happen are gonna push your character in ways they don’t wanna be pushed to make decisions that are gonna then push them further and, and they’re gonna get deeper and deeper each time.

And [00:36:00] you have a murder mystery. So each murder, we wanna feel more and more as if. She is boxing herself in by what she does. By what she thinks. By what she believes, by what she wants. And the, the CLO is gonna squeeze her to the point where she asks to make a, a big decision, you know, comes, that’s the climax, comes to that like, will I, in this case, um, confront.

Uh, both the murderer and her father is kind of where it all ends, so,

Andrew: yeah. Yeah.

Jennie: You know, it’s not gonna be just like, and now we arrive at a place where she confronts the people. It’s gotta be like. Gut wrenching along the way. Right,

Andrew: right.

Jennie: So, um, there’s a lot to say there, and I made some comments on the outline, which, which you’ll see [00:37:00] sort of my thoughts and thinking there, but I actually think that this conversation we’ve had is gonna be the solution because the, the big question I had was, is it coincidental that Adriana is.

These murders are sort of following her around and people think that it, she might be responsible. Is that coincidental or is there something real there? Yeah. Do you know the answer or not?

Andrew: I, I, I’m, I’ve been thinking about that and I think there are ways that it’s not entirely coincidental. I mean, obviously she’s not causing the murders, but I think, I think yes, I think there are things that she does that prompts these.

That prompts these women to become targets of the murderer.

Jennie: That’s what I hoped you were gonna say. Yeah, because that’s what’s gonna, that’s like, it’s, I think this was on the page and maybe you didn’t realize it, but. [00:38:00] Being friends with Adriana is a little dangerous,

right?

Andrew: Yes. Yes. I think that could be, that could definitely be part of the part, part of the, part of the theme there. Yeah.

Jennie: So that, that shouldn’t, that shouldn’t be coincidental. Well, and this is what’s so, so great about the blueprint and showing it to a critique partner or a writing group or an editor or a book coach, is.

Somebody else can say, do you see that you’re doing this thing that’s actually really cool? Or do you, do you see that you’re not doing this? Like it’s things are just revealed. So,

Andrew: yeah. Yeah, yeah. Absolutely.

Jennie: So let’s just wrap this up. Your next iteration, you’re gonna work on sharpening your point. You’re gonna work on sharpening the super simple story so that the Dracula connection is clear.

Dracula connection to your [00:39:00] protagonist is, is more clear and you’re gonna under in order to do that. You’re gonna understand then Helsing, the world that we live in and what his relationship of that world is 20 years after Dracula. What, what is happening with him? What is happening with the world? And and that’s gonna help inform the connection between your.

Protagonist in these things. And then I think you already answered the ideal reader, but just make sure that you’re comfortable with that, that she’s not a super fan. This is not a insider. Um, folks who know and love and read Dracula, it’s, it’s more someone like me. He was a little clueless. And then if you have time to dig into.

How that all plays out in the cause and effect of the inside outline. That’s, that’s where I would go. [00:40:00] So it’s, um, I had an agent, my first agent, way back in the day, used to say, run it through the typewriter one more time because we were actually writing on typewriter. Yeah. Right. Back in the day. And, uh, that’s kind of what I feel, you know, with these ideas in mind, like, run it all through one more time and let, let it all flow through One more time.

Um, and we’ll see where it goes.

Andrew: Excellent. No, this sounds good. This is, this is some good homework. I’m looking forward to, to digging into this now.

Jennie: I know. I can’t wait to see too, and I hope our listeners have enjoyed, uh, going along on this conversation and gotten some inspiration for what, how to pressure test your own, uh, blueprint.

And if you’re not doing the blueprint. Uh, also fine, but pressure test what you’re writing. Uh, this is just a tool for doing that, but there’s this kind of questioning and making sure that things are not [00:41:00] assumed. That’s, that’s the key, right? It’s that you, you sort of make these assumptions, but we have to articulate them and pin them down so that we can use them to make a much better story.

Well, thank you Andrew. Really thank you for being willing to, uh, expose yourself in this way. Come out from behind the mic, uh, share your journey. It’s not easy to do that, and I appreciate it.

Andrew: Well, it’s, it’s fun. Thank you for pushing me outside my comfort zone. Uh, I’ve really enjoyed this.

Jennie: I have too. So, uh, for our list.

Thanks for joining in. Now let’s get back to work.

Outro: The hashtag am writing podcast is produced by Andrew Perilla. Our intro music aptly titled Unemployed Monday was written and played by Max Cohen. Andrew and Max were paid for their time and their creative output because everyone [00:42:00] deserves to be paid for their work.

It’s very rare for me to demand that the readers of my #AmReading substack pre-order something. And the bar to be my “Just One Book” is high. But here we go:

The book is The Fountain—debut speculative fiction from Casey Scieszka—and you’ll want to read it, but even more, you’ll want to hear us talk about what it took to pull this big, beautiful novel from her Tuck-Everlasting-loving soul.

And here’s the question her agent asked her that is now stuck on a post-it on my computer and may be my next tattoo:

How can you reveal these things in action?

Casey is reading:

Open Throat by Henry Hoke (“It’s funny and deeply tender and unlike anything I’ve ever read.”

Follow Casey on Instagram and Substack: Spruceton Inn.

Transcript Below!

EPISODE TRANSCRIPT

KJ Dell’Antonia

This is the Hashtag AmWriting Podcast, the place where we help you play big in your writing life, love the process, and finish what matters. I am KJ Dell’Antonia, and today we’re talking with Casey Scieszka. And I meant to ask Casey how to pronounce her last name before we started. How’d I do?

Casey Scieszka

I think you did great. Especially over in Poland, we say “SHESH-kah” over here, but I’ve been corrected many times. I think it’s supposed to be more like what you said. So… bravo!

KJ Dell’Antonia

Okay… SHESH-skah… SHESH-kah… all right, off we go. Y’all, you’re going to want to know how to spell it, because you’re going to want to order Casey’s debut novel, The Fountain, and it is spelled S-C-I-E-S-Z-K-A. But to carry on with my introduction, Casey is a ridiculously well-traveled innkeeper in upstate New York, and we are just going to let that fantasy sit there for a minute without talking about the amount of snow she’s going to be shoveling tomorrow, because we’re recording this in January and are talking about the fact that I can see her and she is wearing a full-on puffer. So… romance, Hallmark, innkeeper, debut novel—all the things—and also a puffer and snow shovels and pipes and, yeah. You will hear this episode just as Casey’s first book, The Fountain,, comes out, and that is what we’re here to talk about, because I happened to have gotten an advanced copy of it, and I happen to actually have read it—which does not always happen—and even more relevantly, loved it. Therefore, here we are. And Casey, welcome to Hashtag AmWriting.

Casey Scieszka

Thank you so much. I am so thrilled. I’m like really just beyond that you enjoyed it so much.

KJ Dell’Antonia

Ah, I’m so—I’m, I really did. I will be encouraging everyone to pick it up. It’s mind-boggling that it’s not… and it is your debut. So I’m going to go ahead and—is it, is it really? Like, I mean, I know it’s your debut, but like, is it the first book you’ve written? Oh no, you’ve, you’ve got a kind of a memoirs situation out, right?

Casey Scieszka

I wrote like a young adult travelogue with my now husband that he illustrated about when we lived like in China and West Africa and wound up literally out in Timbuktu. So I had some experience that way, but that was nonfiction and for a totally different audience. All that said, this novel is my first published one, but you better believe I have a bin in the drawer.

KJ Dell’Antonia

That’s what I meant.

Casey Scieszka

Drawer. (laughing)

KJ Dell’Antonia

Yeah. Yeah. So, The Fountain, is—just as briefly as possible—it’s the story of an immortal woman who really would like to die, for excellent reasons, because immortality is a weight that is really, really heavy, and you convey that beautifully and wonderfully in this book. And so I want to just start right off—I maybe should let you describe the book—and then I’ll just warn you that my next question is going to be, “Man, how did you have the guts to swing for the fences like this?”

Casey Scieszka

Well, I think it probably began when I read Natalie Babbitt’s Tuck Everlasting as a fifth grader in English class, which is about a family that—or a little girl who comes across a magical spring that an immortal family is guarding, and then she has to decide, ultimately, throughout the book, what she’s going to do with this information and this knowledge while other people are hunting it down as well. And those questions just haunted and delighted me for decades, and I kept returning to them, and at some point I was working on a novel, had a whole manuscript going, was deeply frustrated, and I started a little something on the side where I was like, this will just be a short story. We’ll see where this goes. This is nothing, and I think, because… I don’t know, maybe you’ve experienced this before too, where if you’re not looking it directly in the eye, sometimes it can just take off, and it all of a sudden had a life of its own. Essentially, this grown-up version of Tuck Everlasting, where it’s about a woman who has come back to her small hometown in the Catskill Mountains, where she was born in the 1800s, 214 years later, to figure out what did this to her so she can reverse it and finally be released.

KJ Dell’Antonia

Wow, you really have the… the short pitch. What’s your book about? Down! Congratulations! That’s a tough one. Yeah, you, you nailed it. That is what it is about. And I will say that it took—one of the things that I loved about it, and that I like in a book—is that not only was I not sure at some points what the protagonist wanted for herself, I was not sure what I wanted for her. All I knew was that I wanted “something” for her. And that makes for a really interesting reading experience. Because normally, you know, you find yourself sitting there going, well, just, you know, just tell the person, or just, you know, kiss them or accept your reality, or you’d normally—you know what you want—like, take the ring, Frodo, or whatever. Or don’t take the ring, Frodo. And now there’s no book. But, and in this one, we didn’t. How hard was—was that for you to write—sort of, I don’t know… did you know what you wanted the protagonist—or what you wanted the reader to want for her? Or…?

Casey Scieszka

Yes and no.

KJ Dell’Antonia

How did you feel about that?

Casey Scieszka

Right. Yes and no, and yes and no. I think when you’re writing, ultimately, later on in draft, you have to be very clear about what your character wants. But in the early process, I had no idea. The whole thing, like I said, began as a short story, and that’s really just the first chapter or two, and then I was essentially hunting with her. When I was writing that first draft, I was like, what are we looking for? What has happened in the past 200 years in your life that would make you feel one way or another? And then every time I had a different little angel or devil on my shoulder, whatever you will, who was the—well, what about this point of view? What if? Wouldn’t this type of—wouldn’t someone say, well, living forever would be amazing, because you could share that type of science with other people, and you could, you know, have these wonderful medical advances or, you know, things like that? I could then have other characters essentially embody those, those other points of view as well. Although, I’m really glad that you say that in your reading experience, you still weren’t quite sure what she wanted, because I definitely didn’t want, you know—I mean, no, no author wants characters to just be symbols for points of view.

KJ Dell’Antonia

Oh yeah, no, absolutely not. And I should say that I know that she wants to reverse this. That’s never in question. But this sort of—there—you’re always aware of the question of what does she really want? Because that’s kind of only part of it to want…

Casey Scieszka

Right.

KJ Dell’Antonia

An end to this pain, but, but why and what other alternatives there are. And then, of course, I just—I did not know how you were going to end it. I could not imagine how you were going to land that plane. It must have been a tough one. Did you always know where you were going? We will not in any way spoil this.

Casey Scieszka

Right. No spoilers.

KJ Dell’Antonia

No, no spoilers.

Casey Scieszka

I’d say that about halfway …

In this Write Big episode, Jennie Nash is joined by AJ Harper, author of Write a Must-Read: Craft a Book That Changes Lives—Including Your Own, to talk about a more meaningful way to define success as a writer. AJ shares her concept of writing a “Top Three” book—one that becomes a reader’s personal favorite, the kind they keep forever, recommend constantly, and return to again and again. Together they explore why chasing external metrics like speed, bestseller lists, or book deals can distract from what really matters, and how focusing on writing something truly beloved often leads to those wins anyway. Links from the Pod:

Ep 416: The Art of Helping Writers Do Their Best Work, with AJ Harper

Write a Must-Read, AJ Harper

Love Medicine, Louise Erdrich

The War of Art, Steven Pressfield

Hello and welcome to Nerd Corner with Sarina and Jess! I love these episodes because I will never, ever know as much about the publishing industry as Sarina Bowen, and I learn so much from her. This week, she answers a question she got from a listener, paraphrased thusly:

Dear Sarina, I want to support you and your work, so which format of your books do you profit from most?

The fact that we live in a world where any reader is interested in the answer to this question soothes my troubled soul.

So let’s break it down: hardcover, paperback, audio, ebook? What about borrowing from the library? What about subscription services such as Kindle Unlimited?

Here are a few helpful links that expand on the topics we discuss in this episode:

The Top Five Reasons Pre-Orders Matter

In this Write Big session, Jennie Nash talks with podcast co-host Sarina Bowen about what it really feels like to finish a book—especially the anxiety and pressure that can come with “finishing energy.” Sarina shares a powerful mindset shift: there is no summit in a writing career. You may reach the end of a draft (or even launch day), but the work doesn’t magically get easier—there’s always another book. The key, she says, is learning to love the hike itself and stay connected to your curiosity so you can keep showing up.

Our Goals for 2026:

Jess is gonna finish a novel.

Sarina is going to figure out what she wants a long haul writer career to looks like.

KJ is going to write this book as hard as she can and for as long as it takes.

Jennie is going to claim her authority in the writing space.

Our Words of the Year are …

Meanwhile: Fan of Heated Rivalry? You’ll want to read these books by Sarina Bowen!

Ready to talk about your own goals and words? COME ON IN. We are here for that!

Hey - if you’ve been curious about becoming a book coach, Jennie’d like to invite you to a live training she’s doing on February 4th, at 5pm PST / 8pm EST. She’s going to be talking about how to become the kind of book coach writers love to pay. You can sign up at bookcoaches.com/live

WOTYs … in the episode! If you want to know what was so funny, you’ll have to listen.

Transcript Below!

If you love us enough that you got this far…

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EPISODE TRANSCRIPT

Jennie Nash

Hey everyone, it’s Jennie, and this is the Hashtag AmWriting Podcast, the place where we help you play big in your writing life, love the process, and finish what matters. All four of us are here today to talk about our Word of the Year for 2026 and our goals. This is one of our favorite episodes to do, and we’ve all been kicking our words around, and we’re ready to share them with you. So Sarina, do you want to go first?

Sarina Bowen

Okay!

Jennie Nash

I just know you are kind of ready.

KJ Dell’Antonia

Right off the diving board. No throat clearing, no chit chat. Yeah, we’re just alrighty.

Sarina Bowen

All right, so I’m Sarina, and I write novels, and pretty much that is all I write. So my goals tend to look kind of the same from year to year, but my, but how I feel about them, changes. So in 2026 I plan to write two to three books, and when I do, I will be rolling off of two contracts with two different publishers. So that means that the other part of my 2026 is really asking myself what I want to do next. Because, you know, finishing energy is a really hard thing, but I’ll be like extra super finishing energy here, because I’m finishing a commitment. And, you know, I used to have goals, like, I’m going to write more books. I’m going to write all the books. And I don’t anymore, because there were, there was a while there where I only wrote books, and then last year, I did a really nice job of meeting my goals that I would also go and have more fun and take more vacations. And it worked. I did that. It turns out that planning fun takes a lot of energy and time. Oh my goodness, it was I, you know, I so I was either off having a wild time, or I was like, you know, nailed to my desk, and, yeah, so I need to do a slightly better job of that this year. Although looking at the schedule, it’s a little hard to see how, because I’m spending a big chunk of March and part of April in Australia and Hong Kong, and then...

Jennie Nash

Wait you can’t just throw that in and not say why. [laughing]

Sarina Bowen

Oh, well, I’m, I’m visiting. I’m doing four reader events in Brisbane, Sydney, Melbourne and Perth.

Jennie Nash

It’s so exciting, so exciting.

Sarina Bowen

And you know, time will tell if accepting this invitation was, in fact, a good idea. When I get home, I will be—it’ll be June, and I will be launching my second book of 2026, which is a romance and so, but, but then, you know, I will have turned in half of what I’m turning in this year, and I will be able to have big thoughts about what I do next. And that is the thing that is going to be hard about this year, not turning in files, but, you know, deciding what does it mean to me? And also a thing that I realized last year, while balancing my busy life is that in this job, there is no summit. It’s not like you climb that big hill and then you stand there and you hear an angel choir, and then you know that the only thing that greets you after writing a big novel is that you will pretty soon, eventually write another one. So you have to enjoy the hike itself. And I am really working on that.

Jess Lahey

I actually have just—I have just to address what you just mentioned Sarina, I have put in my calendar in June. Since we love to—I happen to love the mid-year check-ins on goals. I put a little note to self, to future Jess to revisit Sarina’s goals at mid-year so that we can talk about maybe what that second half of the year, what comes next, stuff is going to look like. So, expect that to come back around.

Sarina Bowen

Okay, I hope there’s some clarity by then, so I’ll get right on that.

Jess Lahey

Well, and I would also like to mention that you mentioned, you know, all the work you’re doing and doing fun and stuff like that. You also went back to skating this year, and you, I have loved watching you learn, relearn something fairly new, and gain skills and get determined to like, be able to do that. What’s it called, when you change the side of the blade you’re on? When you turn?

Sarina Bowen

Yeah, all that edge work...

Jess Lahey

It’s very exciting.

Sarina Bowen

And those three turns. Yeah. So that is part of my leave the house and have fun plan, and that has worked out really well. It—when you do something that’s so outside of your usual, like, we could just stipulate by now that I’m pretty good at writing a novel, because I have turned in a number of them and sold a number of them, but I am really not good at skating. So when you take yourself so far out of your element, and you do something that is so foreign to you, you learn, relearn all those weird little tricks about how you learned anything, and the fact that last year I could not do a three turn to save my life, which is where you turn around on one foot. And I tried and I tried and I tried and I tried to trick myself into it. And I’m like, okay, I’ll take off on two feet, but land on one. I just every single thing didn’t work. And then this year, now I can do it. And also, I woke up at four in the morning once and thought I could do a waltz jump tomorrow, and then the next day I did, in fact, just do a waltz jump. And I hadn’t even been thinking about it. It wasn’t even on my list of things I was going to try that week. So learning something really, really new is really just great for your brain and your attitude. And I don’t know what the next thing that I do like that will be, but, yeah, I’m a fan.

Jennie Nash

But I must reflect back to you that a few years ago, you were, I think the goals had to you were working so hard and just, you know, book to book to book to book and, like, look at you now .You’re going on all these trips, and you’re learning to ice skate, and I know you and KJ are learning Mahjong.

KJ Dell’Antonia

Mahjong, yes.

Jennie Nash

And you write in coffee shops like, you’ve kind of really changed that, that vibe. It’s cool.

Sarina Bowen

I have! I did it right? Like I said, I’m going to have more fun. I’m going to learn to write out of the house. Like I sat in a room and said to you that this was going to happen. And I did, right? But the, but then, but then, writing the actual books, it magically did not get easier. So I am having more fun, but it’s still hard, and that’s how I’m coming to this new realization that, like you know, I need to stop being surprised that the actual job is hard, but it’s just like a piece of the fun that I’m having, and if and I can only write books that I’m probably going to enjoy, because it’s still hard and it still takes a lot of hours.

Jennie Nash

That’s amazing. I feel compelled to ask you, what are you most enjoying about what you’re writing right now?

Sarina Bowen

Well we are at maximum finishing energy, because …

Anyone who ever listened to Jenna Blum do interviews on the A Mighty Blaze podcast will not be one bit surprised to hear that we had a great time talking all things writing but most specifically writing BIG—which Jenna has absolutely done with her current book, Murder Your Darlings. Murder Your Darlings is a contemporary thriller and a real departure from Jenna’s very popular historical fiction—a departure that’s totally in keeping with Jenna’s own enthusiastic, passionate personality. As her agent said, her earlier work was elegant and restrained (although still powerful) but in this one Jenna lets herself loose. We had a wonderful time talking about it, and I know you’ll have a great time listening.

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Hey, this is Jennie. Happy New Year! If you’re a subscriber to the Hashtag AmWriting Podcast, you can join us in our Blueprint Challenge, which is starting on January 12. We’re going to be working on new book ideas, books where we’re stuck, and books that we’re revising, and using the Blueprint framework to help us get unstuck, get clarity, get confidence, and move forward. KJ is leading the charge this time with some write-alongs, some Ask Me Anything sessions, and all kinds of good stuff to help you on your way. I’ll be jumping in as well, and I’ll be cheering you as you get your books into shape and get ready to write forward in 2026. Details are in the show notes, and we’d love to have you join us.

EPISODE TRANSCRIPT

Multiple Speakers

Is it recording? Now it’s recording—yay. Go ahead. This is the part where I stare blankly at the microphone. I don’t remember what I’m supposed to be doing. All right, let’s start over. Awkward pause. I’m going to rustle some papers. Okay, now—one, two, three.

KJ Dell’Antonia

Hey, writers, KJ here. I just interviewed Jenna Blum, and any of you who have listened to her when she does the interviews on the A Mighty Blaze Podcast will not be one bit surprised to hear that we had a great time talking all things writing, but most specifically, writing big, which Jenna has absolutely done with her current book, Murder Your Darlings. Murder Your Darlings is a contemporary thriller and a real departure from Jenna’s very popular historical fiction, a departure that is totally in keeping with Jenna’s own enthusiastic, passionate personality. As her own agent said, Jenna’s earlier work was elegant and restrained, although absolutely still powerful, as you know if you’ve read it, but in this one, in Murder Your Darlings, Jenna lets herself loose. We had a wonderful time talking about it, and I think you’re going to have a really good time listening. Jenna, welcome. Thank you so much for joining us for the Hashtag AmWriting Podcast.

Jenna Blum

You’re so welcome. I am the one who’s honored to be here. Thanks for having me.

KJ Dell’Antonia

I am really excited. So, listeners, as you probably heard in the intro, which I haven’t recorded yet, I asked Jenna to join us because she’s doing a big thing. She’s making a jump into a new genre for her, and I can totally relate, and I suspect many of you can too. Her new book, which is out approximately now, as you hear this, is kill your dollar, Kill your darlings. [intended title: Murder Your Darlings] And it is one of those, like, if somebody wrote a book just for me, it would be this kind of book, or this possibly exact book, which is such a thrill. It’s, you know, that combination of the thing that makes me my buy now list, which is, isn’t a thing like that thing where you’re like, if you tell me the book is about such and such, I’m like, yes, yeah, just, just take my money. So it’s that, plus that really great, commercial, friendly, accessible, like the voice I want to read. It’s not—I mean, I don’t know if any of those adjectives thrilled you—but easy reading is hard writing, and nobody knows that more than me, and you do that very well.

Jenna Blum

That is so kind of you, KJ. Thank you. So I’m going to rudely start out by issuing a small correction, but the...

KJ Dell’Antonia

Oh no.

Jenna Blum

Actually, no, no, it’s fine. It’s Murder Your Darlings. And they’re...

KJ Dell’Antonia

Oh, okay, sorry.

Jenna Blum

Popular phrase. And one of the reasons I call the book Murder Your Darlings, as opposed to kill your darlings, which people tend to gravitate to, is that the book is really about writerly appropriation in the biggest way, about story thievery in the biggest possible go big or go home kind of way. And the phrase kill your darlings is itself an appropriation, which I didn’t know until I started writing this. But the original phrase is Murder Your Darlings. It was coined by a gentleman called Sir Arthur Quiller-Couch in 1914, and he was giving a lecture on good writing, and he said, whenever you think you’ve done something exceptionally clever in your manuscript, by all means, put it in, and then go in and take it out: murder your darlings. And then William Faulkner ran with it, and Stephen King ran with it, and it became really popularized. And I thought, how cool to go back to the original in a book about appropriation. So it’s Murder Your Darlings.

KJ Dell’Antonia

It’s also—that’s better. I can’t believe I got it wrong, because it has this great cover with the quill and the blood. And I—it that’s, that’s better. It’s just it, I don’t know, kill your darlings has also become a very glib phrase. So to switch it to Murder Your Darlings kind of makes—kind of gives you that record scratch moment of like, oh, oh wait. Oh! Right? So I like it.

Jenna Blum

I appreciate that. Thank you. I mean, I myself was thinking, kill your darling, so I love to, sort of like, care what of that phrase, that Murder Your Darlings had a sort of a weightier sound to it. And despite, like, the joy that I had in writing about writing, and I hope all your listeners just like me, I’m—my must order now books are all about writers, about writers about writing, especially fiction about writing. I had so much joy in that, but the book also has some pretty weighty subjects at its heart as well. So I feel like that weightier murder is somehow indicative of...

KJ Dell’Antonia

Well, that brings us really well to the next question that I wanted to ask you, which is, what was your intention around this? This is definitely, you—now I think probably we step out with every book, but this is you stepping out and playing big, which is, you know, is a new theme that we’re talking about around here. So what was your intention for Murder Your Darlings? What did you want it to be?Jenna Blum

I love that you’re doing the go big or go home theme. I always think that way. I’m not a quiet writer, not probably, not a quiet person.KJ Dell’Antonia

You’re not really, no, not—that’s not what I would say. Oh, Jenna, she’s so shy and retiring...yeah. Yeah.Jenna Blum

So I had so much joy and so much fun writing Murder Your Darlings, because all I had to do was unpack my life. She’s such a wallflower. My sister saw a photo of me with a megaphone at a—as an activist at a rally, and she’s like, nobody here is surprised. This is what I’ve been living with for all the years. Anyway. So my intent with this was really just to have some fun, honestly. I have been working on historical fiction, and I’m known primarily for historical fiction, and I was working on historical fiction when the idea for Murd…

This is a Bonus Episode, which means that it doesn’t have any of the beautiful audio engineering from our amazing team.

In this Bonus Episode, Jennie Nash talks with physician-writer Carolyn Roy Bornstein about how one Blueprint exercise brought clarity to a long-stalled book project. By identifying a single ideal reader, Carolyn was able to see exactly who she was writing for and shape A Prescription for Burnout with purpose and focus.

They discuss why audience clarity matters and how the Blueprint can unlock momentum at the right moment in the writing process.

Our guest, Carolyn Roy Bornstein, MD is a retired pediatrician, narrative medicine teacher, and author whose work explores the healing power of reflective writing. Her forthcoming book, A Prescription for Burnout: Restorative Writing for Healthcare Professionals, will be published by Johns Hopkins University Press. Carolyn draws on her clinical experience, her own journey through trauma and recovery, and her work with healthcare trainees to help writers—and caregivers—find voice, purpose, and resilience through the written word.

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If you don’t opt in (how-to below), this will be the only Blueprint-related email that comes your way. (So no worries and no extra emails for those of us having a normal chaotic writing season!)

And for those of you who haven’t yet signed up—WHAT are you waiting for? This is a killer deal—put in an hour a week (okay, maybe more some weeks) and you could have a blueprint in hand by March—with a cohort, AMAs, write-alongs and plenty of help. Last chance—or at least, this is the last time we’ll prod you. If you decide to jump in next week, we’ll be here.

Want to learn more? We published a whole series about the joys and benefits of the Blueprint:

* What the Blueprint is and why Jennie made it

* Introducing the winter book coach hosts

* Overcoming Pantsing Pitfalls: How the Blueprint Method Can Save Your Story

* The Blueprint is the Solution for Time-Strapped Writers

* How to Use a Blueprint for Revision

* Befriending the Blueprint

* Using Mindfulness to Master the Blueprint

Not yet a paid subscriber? There’s still time—in fact, there’s still a special deal in place for those who want to jump in: 20% off an annual subscription until 1/15/25, and you can spend the next ten weeks figuring out what you want this book to be, instead of writing 250K words over the course of the year to achieve the same thing. Ask me how I know.

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Once you set those things up, you’ll get all the future Blueprint emails and podcasts (and if you’re joining the party a bit late, just head to our website and click on Blueprint for a Book Winter 2025 in the top menu).

In this Write Big session of the #amWriting Podcast, Jennie Nash talks with author and book coach Janet Fox about a powerful decision: buying back the rights to her first novel and reissuing it on her own terms.

Janet shares her journey through traditional publishing, what it took to reclaim ownership of her work, and why legacy—not trends or permission—now guides her creative choices. This conversation is a clear-eyed, inspiring look at what it means to stop waiting and start owning your writing life.

In this episode:

* What it really means to buy back your book rights

* Why “out of print” doesn’t have to mean the end

* Publishing as a tool—not an identity

* Self-publishing, kid lit, and changing industry realities

* Ownership, legacy, and writing from the heart

This episode is a powerful reminder that your work belongs to you—and that writing big often begins with claiming what you’ve already made.

Mentioned in Episode

* Darcy Pattison

* 100 Covers

* BookFunnel

* Draft2Digital

* Jane Friedman newsletter

* Janet’s Substack

Guest Bio

Janet Fox has worn many hats—English teacher, oceanographer, rock band singer—but her favorite is “award-winning children’s author.” She’s written thirteen books for kids and teens, from science nonfiction to mysterious middle grade to swoony YA. Janet holds an MFA from Vermont College of Fine Arts and is an Author Accelerator Certified Book Coach. She lives in Montana with her husband, and their lively yellow lab. When she’s not writing, she helps fellow storytellers find their voice and bring their best work to life. Her stories are full of heart and always have just a touch of magic. Find her here: janetsfox.com

Join the Blueprint Sprint

Starting January 12 and rolling though February, KJ Dell’Antonia and Jennie Nash will lead you through the 14 foundational questions that every writer should ask of themselves and their book, whether you’re just getting started, are mid-draft or starting on on the whatever-number revision with weekly assignments, live events, workbooks and updated access to all the Blueprint resources. All you need to do is be a paid subscriber and stay tuned—we’ll let you know how to get signed up.

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What if you want even MORE? Then you could be one of a very few #AmWriting subscribers who join our first ever Blueprint Sprint cohort. 6 weeks of working together and write-alongs, 5 group-only live sessions, which will be recorded for anyone who can’t attend and a members-only community dedicated to helping you create a Blueprint that leads you to the book you want to write, ending with direct feedback from me and from Jennie on your flap copy and 3 page Inside-Outline.

We’re keeping this small on purpose—we max out at 10 and we might drop that down—so applications to join this group open today and will be evaluated on a first-come, first serve basis. Once we have 10 people, we will close down the application, so get yours in early! Early-bird pricing is $1000 until December 22, after that the price goes up to $1200 (if there are spaces left by then).

What are we looking for? 10 writers who are prepared to commit to the process and to the cohort, who do what they set out to do when they set out to do it, who welcome constructive feedback and are willing to do what it takes to build a blueprint for the book they want to create. Writers who know that sometimes you must look a hard truth in the face and cut your losses, that what goes in the scrap heap is rarely resurrected but that the scrap heap is a necessary part of the work. Writers who won’t take no for an answer, but can hear “not this” and feel both disappointment and a burning determination that the next effort will be the one that gets there.

Also: no a******s.

What will you need to apply? We want to hear about your professional and publishing backgrounds, but no publishing experience is necessary. We want to know where you are with this current project, but “still noodling” is a fine answer. The primary requirements are first, a readiness to do the work and second and more ephemerally, our sense of what makes a cohesive cohort.

If that sounds like you, here you go—the time to apply is now.

Links & Resources

* Learn more about the Blueprint tools

* Substack about how each genre has a different primary goal in the Blueprint

* #amwriting Episode about the Blueprint origin story and why it’s such a powerful tool.