For years and even decades you have been under the control of the high level narcissistic spouse. 

How to disengage from the high level narcissistic spouse after separating from them:

Activating your creativity: writing, painting, drawing, sketching, gardening, cooking, photography, sewing.

Deepening your intuition - deep insights that come through your unconscious filled with wisdom and light. Intuition is beyond reason, thought or study.

Honoring your solitude: quoting from Anthony Storr: "The creative person is constantly seeking to discover himself, to remodel his own identity and to find meaning in the universe through what he creates." Learning to appreciate your own company.

Dr. D.W. Winnicott, psychoanalyst and child psychiatrist developed the concept of the capacity to be alone.  Dr. Winnicott explains that first the baby is in the mother's presence especially in the early months. Dr. Winnicott writes about the baby is allowed to "just to lie back and float" and the "opportunity that the baby has to experience separation without separation" in and out of the mother's presence. 

Your spiritual practice is personal to you. This can encompass traditional religions and going to church, meditation the style that works for you, prayer, the holy books. 

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