Happy New Year! 

Well, how do you all feel now that 2020 is behind us? 

I know we’re all relieved. But we can’t fool ourselves, things will carry over. Although, I do think we’re better equipped to handle hard things because of it!

2020 was a big wake-up call that many of us needed to learn to appreciate what we have because it’s not always guaranteed.  Or, to appreciate what we didn’t have!

Flipping through Instagram you see so many funny things. Someone asked, “What did Covid give or do for you?” There was a comment saying, “It gave me a fat ass and a zitty face! And to make it worse, it also gave me a fat face and a zitty ass!” Thought that was hysterical!  But, the struggle is real!  

Well, for me last year, allowed me to start this podcast while I was furloughed during the first shut down. My first episode uploaded on June 12, 2020. I’m grateful I was able to have that time to start this.    

Truthfully, I wish I had more time to spend on it. I work a full-time job and have other responsibilities which can get exhausting. You know?

Last week, I started thinking about pausing the podcast for a bit.  I’m in the process of designing a website for it and I really need to get new equipment and learn new things which takes up so much damn time!  Ugh! I thought that might be my best option.

And, then to make things worse, I was listening to Ed Mylett’s podcast and one of his guests posed the most annoying question! Well, it’s the most annoying question to me.  His guest asked the listeners, “Do you know your WHY?” I thought, “God Bless America! Here we go!”

I didn’t turn it off though.  Even though I hate to hear it, I know it’s important. I think I find it so annoying because the next thing “they” normally say is, “You must know your WHY before doing anything else!” Like don’t move! Freeze! If you know your why then you’re free to go. If not, you’re a loser and get to work, dammit!

Here’s the thing, I know my WHY! Still annoys me though. This podcast is about my WHY!  

You’re probably thinking, “April, why should I give a shit about your why?”  Well, you shouldn’t! But I want you to know your WHY!

Ask yourself that question.  Ask, “why do I do the things I do?” And then grab a pen and paper and just start writing. Don’t even think about what you’re writing … just write. Maybe start by writing the names of everyone that is important to you.  It helps you understand yourself … well hopefully!  If it doesn’t… ask why!

I know I’m the one being annoying now! 

I bring this up because I was in bed staring at the ceiling a few nights ago contemplating pausing this podcast so I can catch my breath. And, as I was seriously considering it … my WHY popped in my head. 

But then so did another thing Ed Myletts’s guest mentioned in that same episode.  He said, “now write your WHY to your avatar person.”

Truthfully, I had to look up what avatar meant. LOL! I was like, “Great just another thing to do and what the hell does avatar even mean?”

In case you’re a dumb ass too … avatar is a figure representing a person. I’m just kidding.

This haunted me all day.  I listen to Ed Mylett on my way to work in the morning and I was still thinking about it at night.

He said, “Who would benefit from your why”?

I thought, “Ok, this will be a great way for me to start 2021 and maybe give me my podcasting mojo back. Perfect, I’ll make up an avatar and speak to her.”