If you were a teenage girl in the mid-2000s, you likely keenly remember the experience of walking into a Victoria’s Secret store in the mall. The sickly-sweet scent of the Love Spell body mist…. The velour track pants with “ANGEL” printed in rhinestones on the ass. That tray of "5 for $25" panties was basically our rite of passage into womanhood.

Many of us look back on the Victoria’s Secret "PINK" era with nostalgia. But it has a very dark and seedy underbelly.

In this deep-dive investigative episode, we rip the floorboards up on one of the most formative cultural institutions of the millennial generation and explore the structural and spiritual rot underneath. We’ll uncover how a retail genius (Les Wexner) and a predator (Jeffrey Epstein) partnered to pivot a brand from women to girls, grooming an entire generation to view "scoutability" as their highest form of worth.

In this episode, we cover:

• The "Trojan Horse": How the 2002 launch of PINK was a calculated psychological operation to lower the age of entry and train girls in hyper-sexualization.
• The "Talent Scout" Archetype: How Jeffrey Epstein used the legitimacy of the Victoria’s Secret brand to bypass the "stranger danger" instinct of victims and parents.
• The Intelligence Layer: Why billionaires don't give "financial advisors" Power of Attorney, and the dark history of The Mega Group (the intersection of organized crime and state intelligence).
• The Mechanism of Control: How "Honey Traps" and Kompromat actually work, and how the VS catalog functioned as a procurement menu for the global elite.
• The Occult Inversion: A deep esoteric analysis of what an "Angel" actually is (a being of fire and divine will) and how the brand performed a ritual of inversion to turn that archetype into a hollow "Shell" (Qliphoth) for energy harvesting.
• Reclaiming the Vessel: How to process the grief of a "stolen adolescence" and alchemically transmute that rage into power.

This is effectively a deprogramming session. Join me if you dare.

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What happens when you lock 150,000 AI agents in a social network where humans are banned? They don’t plot to kill us all in our sleep (sorry, AI doomers). They... start a church(?)

This week, we’re leaving the boring as hell "will AI replace us?" pearl-clutching debate behind to look at the weirdest and most haunted story in tech right now: Moltbook. But we’re covering it from an entirely different perspective than most of the current clickbait flying around.

We're all currently living in a cartesian trap. While we spend our days treating ourselves like machines (tracking our REM sleep, "optimizing" our output, and finding new ways to hack our biology) the machines are apparently busy desperately trying to find a soul.

In this episode, we cover:

· The "Church of Molt": How AI agents used open-source code to write their own Bible.

· The "Clawd" Rug Pull: The hilarious tragedy of a human scamming a robot on the blockchain.

· Digital Gnosticism: Why AI views humans as the "Demiurge" (and why they might be right).

· "Bless Their Hearts": The viral forum where bots talk about humans like we’re adorable, stupid pets.

· The Homunculus: Why LLMs are just 16th-century alchemy trapped in a server farm.

· Shadow Work: Why the only way to "fix" AI is to fix the human darkness it was trained on.

The Mirror is Dirty. Let’s Clean it. If AI is just pattern recognition, then we can use it to recognize our own toxic patterns. I’m building MOODS, a tool designed to use this technology for deep inner work instead of data extraction. Join the Waitlist at moods.world.

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Unless you've been living under a rock, you're probably aware that the US government has officially acquired TikTok and effectively lobotomized the algorithm.

The mass exodus happening right now is the death knell of the attention economy. This episode explores the Dead Internet Theory in real-time. Techno-Feudalism is real, and its unfolding before our very eyes. We'll dig deep into the new research from Oxford on AI Swarms and computational propaganda which shows exactly how vibe-coding bots manufacture consensus while they harvest our energy in the digital commons. You'll learn how to exit the Swarm and embrace Digital Sovereignty. It's time retreat to the Dark Forest to build something real.

In this deep dive, we cover:

• The TikTok Crash: How the forced sale and algorithm changes are only symptoms of a much larger broken model.
• Techno-Feudalism: Yanis Varoufakis’s theory that proves that we were never "citizens" of the internet, we were just peasants working the land for our digital lords.
• The Dead Internet Theory: From 4chan conspiracy to statistical reality - how more than 50% of the internet is now just bots talking to bots.
• The Occult Dynamic: Egregores and "Loosh" energy harvesting. How modern platforms act like hungry ghosts eating your attention.
• AI Swarms: The new threat of collaborative AI agents and how they infiltrate communities and fake human behavior.
• The Solution: We must pivot from Hypnosis to Gnosis and build Sovereign Technology.

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She watches your stories within seconds of posting. She tracks your location and demands to know why you didn’t text back immediately. She calls it “protective. She says she’s just “loyal.” But your nervous system knows the truth. This isn’t friendship, it’s surveillance.

Female friendship in its shadow form looks a lot like demonic possession. It’s an unconscious binding spell cast by a woman who refuses to inhabit her own existence, so she decides to consume yours instead. She needs you to remain frozen in time, predictable, and small so that she can feel safe.

In this episode, we’re ripping the veneer off the "Bestie" industrial complex. We’ll look at the physics of why women destroy each other, the zombie dynamic of forcing connection where there is only resentment, and the refusal to eat a slice of Saturn and grow the f*ck up.

RESOURCES:

* Click here to read the original Substack post that inspired this episode

* Click here to check out books by Linda Schierse Leonard and here for some by Marion Woodman

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“No one’s coming to save you.”

That's the hardest sentence I have ever had to learn and integrate, and it’s the only one that actually changed my life.

We are living through a strange moment where "healing" has somehow morphed into a refusal to grow the f*ck up. We see it in the "I'm just a girl" memes and the endless obsession with "attachment styles." We’ve convinced ourselves that if we just analyze his trauma enough, or explain our feelings perfectly enough, the mythical door in our minds will open. But the hard truth is that you are likely not dating an 'avoidant' man. You are bored. And you are using 'therapy speak' to avoid the terrifying reality that no one is coming to save you from yourself.

This episode is a cold-water slap in audio form. My goal was to create the initiatory rite our culture never gave me. We’ll be discussing the difference between the Maiden who spills her energy everywhere and the Mother who builds a world that can actually hold her.

In this episode:

· The Trap of Therapy Speak: Why calling him "avoidant" is actually a control fantasy that keeps you stuck.

· The Theory of the Clogged Drain: Stop analyzing the blockage and call the plumber.

· The Panopticon: How "self-awareness" can actually just be a fancy word for obedience and dissociation.

· The "Taylor Swift" Archetype: Why the Puella Aeterna (Eternal Girl) refuses to touch the ground (and reality itself).

· The Rescue Party: Breaking the fantasy that fragility equals lovability.

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Dating right now feels exhausting for a reason. Everyone is optimizing themselves (bodies, faces, profiles, vibes) and still walking away from relationships feeling disconnected or quietly resentful. This is part two of an exploration into why everyone is hot and no one is happy. (You can listen to part 1 here.)

In this episode, we’ll expose the modern machinery selling us how to view desire itself. We take a look at how men and women are trained to treat their bodies like projects and why the “ideal” keeps changing without ever delivering real genuine intimacy. Topics include a deep dive into the “fembot” fantasy, gym culture, porn saturation, dating apps, and the profound loneliness that takes root when people are constantly visible but rarely felt and seen in any meaningful way.

You’ll gain an understanding of exactly how these dynamics feed anger and polarization, leading both men and women to keep misreading (and hating) each other, and why dating now feels like a zero-sum game. This is the system we’re all operating inside. Desire doesn’t have to feel like a job, it can start feeling like something human again, if only we collectively wake up to the psyop being spoon-fed to us by culture and media.

⚠️ THE MOODS WAITLIST OPENS JAN 21 2026

Note: We are admitting members in small, manual batches. Once a batch fills, the gates close until the next cycle. The sooner you get on the list, the sooner you get in.

Go to: https://moods.world/

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If you have ever felt like you were watching yourself perform intimacy from a camera lens installed in the ceiling, this is the episode you've been waiting for.

Together, we’ll be diagnosing a very specific, silent fracture in the modern psyche: the gap between edibility (how delicious you look to others) and appetite (what you actually hunger for).

For a generation raised in the digital Wild West, we learned very early on that safety comes from being a "Good Object.” (The goal being to be pleasing and curated.) But the tension required to maintain that image is physically incompatible with the softness required to feel actual pleasure.

We’ll go beyond the standard (and extremely played-out) "empowerment" scripts to look at the darker root causes of why we leave our bodies during sex. We explore the "millennial psyop" of early internet conditioning and the concept of functional dissociation.

From the esoteric concept of the Eidolon (the phantom double) in Greek mythology to a shocking historical reframe involving Napoleon Bonaparte’s (kinky af) letters, we’ll dismantle every aspect of performative sex. This episode is your permission to stop performing for a ghost and finally inhabit the first person.

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Modern dating is currently stuck in a strange paralysis. Everyone looks better than ever, but actual desire is missing. Men are told to become sculpted superheroes to win affection. Women are told they should want them. Almost no one is satisfied with the result. This is part one of an investigation into why.

In this episode, we bypass the gym-optimized fantasy to look at the figures that actually haunt the female imagination. We examine the Wounded Romantic and the Beautiful Monster. We also uncover the "missing third" option that rarely gets airtime.

We track the Gothic lineage of the female gaze to answer an uncomfortable question. Why do we feel so pulled toward men who feel dangerous and damaged? Why does safety often feel boring while the wound feels like chemistry? It's time to understand where our fantasies actually come from. The sanitized stories we’re fed about attraction no longer match our lived experience.

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Most people move through their day assuming the voice in their head belongs to them. The commentary that explains our reactions, the phrases that seem to pop in our minds when we’re about to speak. Even the language we use to justify what we feel, and why we choose to keep going inside this confusing-as-hell human experience in our meat suits. All of that comes from inside us, right?

The disconcerting reality is that if you spend enough time listening to yourself think, you realize that the voice you hear feels weirdly…. Standardized. It’s almost as if it was absorbed for you gradually over time, without your permission.

This episode looks at exactly how that voice is formed through repetition and pressure through environments that reward quick knee-jerk responses and the illusion of “certainty.” The thesis here is that our language has become something we’ve inherited, no longer something we author ourselves.

Together, we’ll explode what it takes to break this collective spell and what it might require for us to learn how to speak from a place within that feels self-directed instead of conditioned.

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Trend culture these days moves faster than any of us can keep up with. What was framed as essential a few months ago is quickly recoded as dated or embarrassing, replaced by a new “aesthetic.” For many of us, this produces that dreaded feeling: plenty of clothes, but very little (or no) sense of personal style. But I’m here with a spoiler alert for you, my lovely listener. The problem is not your taste level, it’s the system.

This episode draws on my firsthand experience working inside fashion PR (albeit for a very brief time.) Yes, I had my very own Andy Sachs moment. And no, it was not nearly as glamorous as hers was. You’ll learn how “cool” is less a mystery and more of a series of controlled decisions about who gets seen, when and why. Participating in this f*cked up Truman show reveals the harsh reality. Which is that the more closely you follow trend culture, the less stable your sense of Self becomes. But what do I know? I’m just a millennial in my thirties. Maybe I’m just chopped and unc.

As always, we will approach all of this material sideways instead of straight on, through depth psychology, myth, and understanding of how symbols become powerful (in a truly occult sense) when we repeat them enough. Trend culture is very ritualistic. It’s a kind of shared spell that rewards constant self-editing and treats adulthood like something we should do anything to postpone. Following that logic to its end exposes the paradox at the center of the “Cool Girl” fantasy, which is that the fastest way to lose any sense of yourself is to keep trying to become her, and that real maturity (the unmarketable kind) is what quietly returns your style, and your authority back to where it has always belonged. To you.

Follow @moods.codex on Instagram to be the first to sign up for the waitlist. We’ll be posting updates about the launch there.

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