So many of us have experienced a before and after.

A “before” you knew that life was fragile… and an “after.” When you can’t go back. You can’t un-know. You are changed. In this episode, my friend Jess joins me to share about her recent miscarriage journey. Although Jess shares about the loss of a child, she speaks to the emotional undercurrent of loss in a way that I think will deeply resonate with many different experiences of sorrow.

In a week full of holiday celebration, the complexity of holding both grief and joy together can often times feel overwhelming. What Jess does so beautifully is put words and phrases to the experience of loss in a way that feels anchoring, truthful, and sacred. As you’ll hear in our conversation, she does this through the wise and painful work of staying present to herself, God, and to her own heart. 

One of the hardest questions to answer in life is not “Does God exist?” but “Is God kind?”

Sometimes, unspeakable things happen at the hands of others. Trauma of any kind often shatters are capacity to trust ourselves, God others, and the world around us. When we feel left in our pain, holding more questions than answers, it can feel like we’ve been given the raw data that God is not good.

In this conversation, my Jennifer joins me to share her story of spiritual and sexual abuse from a church leader. Through her lived experience, she puts words and phrases to the disorientation that comes when life doesn’t make sense, and how to begin a healing journey when you doubt if you’ll ever be able to trust again. This conversation is beautiful, honest, and also one of Faith & Feeling’s most downloaded episodes yet.

How we walk into room will always carry evidence of our formation.

The way we act, if we get big or small, whether our voices soften or louden, if our shoulders hunch or straighten, whether we anticipate acceptance or brace for unbelonging...it all tells a story. A story about something we’ve lived. In those moments when it feels like you don’t fit in and that shame-filled question wells up inside... “why can’t I just be normal like everyone else?” ....there’s always a deeper question: what is your definition of “normal”? Where did it come from, and when did you learn that you did not meet that standard?

This conversation with my friend Amina is one of Faith & Feeling’s most downloaded episodes. Through her story, she shows us that when we read rejection into a room, its roots can often be traced to pivotal moments of self-rejection in our childhoods that are still living inside of us today. Together, Amina and I process what it really looks like to belong, when to trust the invitation of others, and how to walk into a room as your own friend.

Have you ever wondered why you get dysregulated?

Another way to describe this term is the inability to control your insides. It’s those moments when everything seems out of sorts. All of us experience emotional dysregulation. But, so often, we can get dysregulated without even realizing it. So, how do we begin to notice & listen to what are bodies are trying to tell us? In this episode with licensed therapist David Floge, we talk about what emotional dysregulation is, what it can feel like in our bodies, and practical ways to self-regulate.

This conversation is such a fun combination of clinical insight and personal experience. My hope is that you’ll find it practical (and you’ll also laugh, because some of the stories that David and I share are really funny!). 

With 2024 coming to a close, I’ve been reflecting on this first year of Faith & Feelings. 

What a year. I just want to say how grateful I am for this community. Thank you for sharing this podcast and inviting others to be a part of it. Because of this, we are ending the year with tens of thousands of downloads and an actively growing community of listeners. And I just want to say thank you. 

In this brief update, you’ll hear some personal reflections on the year, as well as what’s coming up next on Faith & Feelings in December (hint: I’m re-releasing 5 of your most favorite episodes!). My hope is that these listener’s favorites will encourage you, reinforce some of what we’ve learned together, and create space for deeper reflection as you go from one year into the next. 

*I’d love to hear your suggestions for episode/series topics for 2025! Email your ideas to me at [email protected] or DM me on Instagram @__taylorjoy__.

What is the ultimate goal of interacting with an emotionally immature person? To stay in control of our own mind and feelings.

While we can’t change the person, we can learn ways of interacting with emotionally immature people without sacrificing or losing parts of ourselves. When we learn how to keep an observational perspective, we can stay centered, no matter how the other person behaves. This also helps to keep us in our thinking brain instead of falling into our emotions or a fight-or-flight reaction.

In this episode, I talk about 3 three practical steps for interacting with an emotionally immature person: (1) detached observation, (2) accurate assessment, (3) and re-entering the relationship in a different way. I also explore how grace is often misused today, and I emphasize what it truly looks like to extend real grace — the kind of grace that Jesus died for — in our relationships.

Hitting a wall is not an if, but when.

We all have this experience, typically several times throughout our lives. Suddenly, the ways that we learned to cope with childhood wounds and unmet needs begin begin to fail us in adulthood. Unhealthy coping patterns catch up with us. Our souls often begin summoning us to a deeper, inner change through emotional or physical symptoms like panic, anxiety, depression, anger, a continual sense of low-grade agitation, addictions, or other dysfunctional attempts to numb our pain.

We feel stuck. We want to change, but we don’t know how. It’s here, where God longs to meet us, opening our eyes to see the truth of ourselves, our stories, and who he’s created us to be. In this episode, I offer common signs that you might be hitting the wall, and I also talk about how to begin opening ourselves to God to bring transformation into the deepest parts of ourselves.

Are patterns from your past impacting how you show up to your life and relationships today?

How we learned to cope with childhood wounds and unmet needs often become the dysfunctional patterns that we live out in adulthood. This is one way that the impact of emotionally immature parenting can leak into our adult lives.

Healing starts with noticing and naming these patterns. When we invite God’s spirit into this process, change begins. I talk about 2 ways that we may have reacted to emotionally immature parenting as children (internalizing or externalizing our pain), and how these childhood coping styles might be showing up in our adult lives today. In her research, psychologist Lindsey Gibson found that most children of emotionally immature parents are internalizers. I also highlight 8 common patterns of internalizers in adulthood and offer practical steps for change.

From the time we entered the world, we all began crafting a story that helped us make sense and give meaning to the painful things that happened to us.

As we absorbed explicit and implicit messages from family members, authority figures, and peers about who we were and what the world expected of us, we gradually began forming a narrative that explained our lives to us… a narrative that grooved itself deeply into our hearts. This story helped us, as children, to know what we needed to be and what we needed to do to stay safe in the world.

However, this story becomes a broken story when lived out in adulthood. I talk about why it’s so important to get to know your childhood story, and I also offer some practical steps for exhuming the hurtful events, unchallenged, taken-for-granted beliefs, and unhelpful internalized messages from our childhoods that may still be ruling our lives today.

We all need someone who reads us well and believes in us.

This is the essence of what security feels like in a relationship: knowing that the other person sees you, understands you, and celebrates who you are. But what happens if you didn’t receive this kind of nurturing love as a child?

There is essentially one way to provide this kind nurturing love that we all need to develop and thrive, but there are many ways to frustrate a child’s need for love. I talk about 3 things every child needs from their parents, and I also unpack 4 types of emotionally immature parents by psychologist Lindsey Gibson.