You might have heard the phrase ‘black out drunk’ before, which might evoke images of someone asleep or passed out. But that’s not what it is. Blacking out is when you’re conscious and walking around, but can’t remember anything afterwards. And that’s what has happened to journalist Sarah Hepola, dozens of times.

Drinking became a normal part of her life, like a lot of people; a social lubricant, a way to meet new people, and a party starter. But as the nights got more and more hazy, she realised she needed to make a change...

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