quoting from my book: Freeing Yourself From the Narcissist in Your Life: 

"Like water cascading down a falls, compliments and tributes must flow to the narcissist at all times. He/she expects and counts on this praise. He/she recounts endless stories of his triumphs and expect s others to tell him/he "how wonderful he is." The slightest interruption in this unguent tide is disconcerting and disturbing to the narcissist. Reactions can range from feelings of being slighted and hurt to uncontrollable rage...Devotees spin an elaborate web, a golden aura, around the narcissist. They fawn, they glow... There eyes glaze as their head tilt in is direction. Under a light or heavy trance, followers are hypnotized by the narcissistic lure...Living only to please and appease an imperious narcissist, combined with mounting erosions of their individual opportunities, faithful followers eventually become hate-filled enemies."

You research the narcissistic personality and follow your intuition and wisdom and recognize that you have been in a non-relationship with the high level narcissist. Give yourself credit for the work that you are doing. 

Practice self care: get the sleep and rest that you need, eat nourishing food, hydrate well, do movement and exercise that works for you, develop a spiritual practice in the way that you define this, spend time in Nature for restoration and calming. 

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