<html>In this vulnerable and emotional solo episode, I open up about my struggle with perfectionism and failure in both my personal and professional life. I share deep realization about the root of my self-punishment and the painful childhood experiences that shaped my nervous system's response to overwhelming emotions. I confront my inner demons and invite you to join me in the journey of acknowledging and embracing all parts of ourselves. Tune in to this powerful episode and be reminded that freedom lies in accepting and working through our wounds.The video I mention in this episode is at <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNVfBeKTt24&t" target="_blank">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNVfBeKTt24&t</a></html>

In this vulnerable and emotional solo episode, I open up about my struggle with perfectionism and failure in both my personal and professional life. I share deep realization about the root of my self-punishment and the painful childhood experiences that shaped my nervous system's response to overwhelming emotions. I confront my inner demons and invite you to join me in the journey of acknowledging and embracing all parts of ourselves. Tune in to this powerful episode and be reminded that freedom lies in accepting and working through our wounds. The video I mention in this episode is at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNVfBeKTt24&t

In this vulnerable and emotional solo episode, I open up about my struggle with perfectionism and failure in both my personal and professional life. I share deep realization about the root of my self-punishment and the painful childhood experiences that shaped my nervous system's response to overwhelming emotions. I confront my inner demons and invite you to join me in the journey of acknowledging and embracing all parts of ourselves. Tune in to this powerful episode and be reminded that freedom lies in accepting and working through our wounds.The video I mention in this episode is at <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNVfBeKTt24&amp;t" rel="noopener noreferrer">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNVfBeKTt24&amp;t</a>

I hit myself in the face: My struggles with self-harm

Meaningful conversations with folks choosing integrity over approval - homesteaders, healers, artists, makers, and parents growing regenerative, non‑mainstream lives (inside of, but not crushed by, the mainstream). If you’re multi‑passionate with '1000 tabs open', tired of self‑doubt and the fear of what others think holding you back from taking action... and you're seeking clarity, confidence, and connection that resonates with and regulates your nervous system, then welcome, you're in the right place.

We explore regenerative agriculture and homesteading, home birth and ancestral nourishment, alternative and plant medicines, barefoot living, and conscious communication that improves relationships and restores self‑trust. Expect gentleness over hype, curiosity over certainty, and belonging over performance.

Past guests include The Holistic Psychologist, Roaman (Music), Brooke McPoyle of Musical Breathwork, Rachelle Seliga (Innate Traditions), Chef Pete Evans, and many more voices living beautifully inside of -but not of- the mainstream.

What you’ll hear:
- Gentle, honest stories that turn overwhelm into one clear next step
- Language and practices for compassionate, sovereign relationships
- Courage to be seen as your wonderfully weird (and wise) self
- Nervous‑system‑aware approaches to creativity, livelihood, and community
- Real‑world rhythms: home birth, ancestral foods, tending soil, barefoot living

Format and cadence:
- Mostly interviews, occasional solo guidance and reflections
- New episodes when the conversation is truly ready (quality over quota)

Host:
- Nathan Maingard - coach, musician, and fellow wanderer - tending a warm hearth where the curious, courageous, conscious misfits can gather and remember our worthiness together.

If you want an ethical, grounded space to slow down, hear resilient stories, and take the next aligned step toward the life you actually want, join us on The Conscious Misfit.

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Meaningful conversations with folks choosing integrity over approval - homesteaders, healers, artists, makers, and parents growing regenerative, non‑mainstream lives (inside of, but not crushed by, the mainstream). If you’re multi‑passionate with '1000 tabs open', tired of self‑doubt and the fear of what others think holding you back from taking action... and you're seeking clarity, confidence, and connection that resonates with and regulates your nervous system, then welcome, you're in the right place. We explore regenerative agriculture and homesteading, home birth and ancestral nourishment, alternative and plant medicines, barefoot living, and conscious communication that improves relationships and restores self‑trust. Expect gentleness over hype, curiosity over certainty, and belonging over performance. Past guests include The Holistic Psychologist, Roaman (Music), Brooke McPoyle of Musical Breathwork, Rachelle Seliga (Innate Traditions), Chef Pete Evans, and many more voices living beautifully inside of -but not of- the mainstream. What you’ll hear: - Gentle, honest stories that turn overwhelm into one clear next step - Language and practices for compassionate, sovereign relationships - Courage to be seen as your wonderfully weird (and wise) self - Nervous‑system‑aware approaches to creativity, livelihood, and community - Real‑world rhythms: home birth, ancestral foods, tending soil, barefoot living Format and cadence: - Mostly interviews, occasional solo guidance and reflections - New episodes when the conversation is truly ready (quality over quota) Host: - Nathan Maingard - coach, musician, and fellow wanderer - tending a warm hearth where the curious, courageous, conscious misfits can gather and remember our worthiness together. If you want an ethical, grounded space to slow down, hear resilient stories, and take the next aligned step toward the life you actually want, join us on The Conscious Misfit.

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