In My Truth

Disclaimer: What we talk about on In My Truth tends to be very raw and can be triggering. Resources for support and help are included at the end of show notes - scroll down for more information.

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Welcome back to a new episode of In My Truth! This week I have my friend Sarah Hannah on the podcast. Sarah and I first met in Minnesota through the Aubrey Marcus Fit For Service Fellowship (https://www.aubreymarcus.com/pages/fit-for-service-fellowship).

“Sarah Hannah Howat is a certified life, addictions, and psychedelic preparation and integration coach, focusing primarily on forgiveness (of self and others), self-healing, and spiritual awakening / psycho-spiritual growth”

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In this episode, we dive into:

Betrayal and rejection

Anger

Relationships with men

Ayahuasca

Setting intentions and preparing for ceremony

Navigating difficult moments in ceremony

Knowing your values

Journaling to get in touch with your truth

Trusting yourself

Staying curious

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Resources mentioned in this episode

The Sophia Code

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Connect with Sarah Hannah

Website

Instagram

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Remember you’re not alone, and there is hope, even though it may not feel that way at times. Talk to someone, a friend or family member and let them support you. Reach out to a professional. Do whatever you need to do to start your journey back to feeling good.

Here are some resources I found on Google (because I am not a professional, these are not recommendations, just suggestions with love and empathy from me to you):

Lifeline (Australia): 13-11-14 is a confidential telephone crisis support service available 24/7 from a landline, payphone or mobile.

Beyond Blue (Australia): 1-300-22-4636 OR chat online between 3pm & 12am 7 days a week

No Shame On You (USA): 1-800-273-(TALK) 8255 OR text 741741 for a 24/7 crisis text line (a live, trained crisis counselor receives the text and responds quickly) OR visit I’m Alive for 24/7 online crisis chat

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (USA): 1-800-273-8255

Crisis Services (Canada): 1-833-456-4566 OR text 45645 between 4pm and 12am daily

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Disclaimer: What we talk about on In My Truth tends to be very raw and can be triggering. Resources for support and help are included at the end of show notes - scroll down for more information.

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Welcome back to a new episode of In My Truth! This week I have one of my best friends, Adrian Ellison, on the podcast. Adrian and I first met through the Aubrey Marcus Fit For Service Fellowship (https://www.aubreymarcus.com/pages/fit-for-service-fellowship).

Adrian is a creator, a coach, and a truth seeker sharing unconventional methods of healing such as alternative medicine, holistic psychology, and energetics.

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In this episode, we dive into:

Trauma wounds

Relationship dynamics

Sacred sexuality

Reconciling trauma through relationship

Autoimmune disorders

Trusting your body

Physical manifestation of emotional pain

Using Eastern Medicine to move energy

Implants

Self-Love

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Connect with Adrian

Adrian Ellison

The Alpas Project

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Remember you’re not alone, and there is hope, even though it may not feel that way at times. Talk to someone, a friend or family member and let them support you. Reach out to a professional. Do whatever you need to do to start your journey back to feeling good.

Here are some resources I found on Google (because I am not a professional, these are not recommendations, just suggestions with love and empathy from me to you):

Lifeline (Australia): 13-11-14 is a confidential telephone crisis support service available 24/7 from a landline, payphone or mobile.

Beyond Blue (Australia): 1-300-22-4636 OR chat online between 3pm & 12am 7 days a week

No Shame On You (USA): 1-800-273-(TALK) 8255 OR text 741741 for a 24/7 crisis text line (a live, trained crisis counselor receives the text and responds quickly) OR visit I’m Alive for 24/7 online crisis chat

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (USA): 1-800-273-8255

Crisis Services (Canada): 1-833-456-4566 OR text 45645 between 4pm and 12am daily

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To never miss an episode, subscribe to In My Truth with Sarah Riegelhuth. Share it with your network and start having more raw conversations.

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If you’d like to be a guest on the show, find out more here: https://www.sarahriegelhuth.com/inmytruthpodcast

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Follow Sarah Riegelhuth on Instagram: @sarahriegelhuth @inmytruthpodcast

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If You Enjoy This Show Please Subscribe and Give Us a 5-Star Rating ★★★★★ and Review on Apple Podcasts

“We’re like, in a global psychedelic trip right now.”

“It is all ceremony.”

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Disclaimer: What we talk about on In My Truth tends to be very raw and can be triggering. In this episode there is discussion of drug use and plant medicine. If this brings up any issues for you, we recommend skipping this episode and rejoining us in the next one. Resources for support and help are included at the end of show notes - scroll down for more information.

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“Every single rule we ever think about is just made up.”

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Welcome back to this week’s episode of In My Truth.

I’m so happy to be back recording again!

Just yesterday I recorded my episode with Zoe which was amazing (you can listen here: https://www.sarahriegelhuth.com/podcast-episodes/zoe-winther) that hopefully provided a bit of content on why the show went missing for a few months.

And today, our guest is the man I was talking about in that episode!

Luckily you can’t see me, because I’m probably a little bit red sitting here with the amazing man, Joe Hawley!

We’ve known each other for over a year through the Aubrey Marcus Fit For Service Fellowship (https://www.aubreymarcus.com/pages/fit-for-service-fellowship), but we never really connected until a plant medicine retreat in Minnesota.

We both ended up in Austin when self-quarantining measures started taking place and decided to isolate together.

I’m feeling blessed to have this time with Joe and his dog, Freedom, but let’s get into Joe’s story:

He grew up in Orange County, California, went to school at UNLV in Las Vegas, played football and got drafted in 2010 by the Atlanta Falcons. He’s lived out his childhood dream, spending 8 years in the NFL, but started to find his heart pulling him in a different direction.

In this conversation with Joe, we get deep into the identity crisis that comes with career and life transitions, plant medicine, and inner work during isolation.

Let’s dive in.

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“You can feel when someone loves you. I can feel the way you’re looking at me right now!”

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Join your host Sarah Riegelhuth as she’s joined by Joe Hawley in this episode of In My Truth, as they dive into the collective slow down, sharing things publicly for the first time, resistance and receiving ‘the call’.

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“You just need the courage to look in the mirror and ask the questions."

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Listen in to the In My Truth podcast as Sarah Riegelhuth and Joe Hawley get deep into the stories around leaving football, psychedelics and modalities for healing.

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“That onion of self work is infinite.”

Joe and Sarah also get vulnerable with the stories they’re living with around:

ayahuasca ceremonies

intentional mushroom ceremonies

triggers

how we relate to the world

our relationships with our parents

growing up in a Christian household

spirituality

universal truths, laws and rules

open conversations

the infinite

religion

unwinding our belief systems

the power of the mind

pushing the limits of what’s possible

raising vibrations

when psychedelic trips turn negative

good and bad trips

fear of sharing

gratitude

compassion

reconnecting with our childhoods

unconditional love

breath work

“I broke myself to pieces and then I found myself again on the journey.”

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Resources, people and ideas mentioned in this episode of In My Truth:

Quantum Coffee Podcast - coming soon: https://manvandogblog.com/ (https://manvandogblog.com/)

Soltara Ayahuasca Retreat: https://www.sarahriegelhuth.com/words/2019/5/25/ayahuasca-1 ( https://www.sarahriegelhuth.com/words/2019/5/25/ayahuasca-1)

Dieta: https://www.ayahuascafoundation.org/what-is-an-ayahuasca-plant-dieta/

Breathwork with Claudia: https://www.amarsi.love/

Evryman Retreats: https://www.evryman.com/

Aubrey Marcus FFS podcast guests: Alex Nelson: https://www.sarahriegelhuth.com/podcast-episodes/alex-nelson

Seve Mangrum: https://www.sarahriegelhuth.com/podcast-episodes/seve-mangrum

Eliza Hedley:...

What happened to the podcast?! Crying, Ketamine, Coronavirus and Cher with Zoe Winther

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“I didn’t even want to let my mind wander, because I was afraid of where it would go.”

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Disclaimer: What we talk about on In My Truth tends to be very raw and can be triggering. Resources for support and help are included at the end of show notes - scroll down for more information.

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Welcome everyone back to this week’s episode of In My Truth.

It has been quite a while between releasing episodes, although I’ve just released a flood of backdated content! It has been a while since I’ve recorded, so it’s really nice to be back on air AND I have the reason why we haven’t been on air with me as our guest today!

My dear friend Zoe Winther and I thought it would be a fun way to get started again. Zoe is the editor and producer of this podcast, and in this episode we’re going to dive in to where she’s been and her truth behind why we put pause on In My Truth.

Zoe Winther is the podcast’s biggest fan, listening to every podcast at least three times during the edit and show notes process. It has been an important step in her personal journey, and the themes it has brought into her life.

Along with being a podcast producer, Zoe is the founder of Pickford Media and a talented writer - although it still feels unnatural for her to introduce herself to the world without the business context.

In fact, one of Zoe’s poems resonated with me so strongly I shared it with my audience last year, and we’ll share it again now:

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I wish that I could stay in this box for you.

And I promise I would

even though it’s the wrong shape for me and

I have to break my bones

and rearrange my organs

just to fit.

I would stay here

and wait for you

and, like all the boys that have come and gone before,

I would set myself alight

just to keep you warm.

I would set these broken parts to

mend in misdirections.

I would live in ashes, bent backwards,

facing the wrong way,

if I knew that every moment could be like the first ones.

If you could acknowledge how misshapen I’d become

and how much pain I lived in

by being with you.

If knowing my discomfort

you might carry around the box I lived in

and gingerly guard me from the world around.

And being too scared to rip the box hinge from hinge

for fear of what I might be when I stretched my limbs again,

you could at least recognise

who I could be, even deformed.

For I know you might not be strong enough

to splinter your own hands

prying it open, but

if you could just open the lid every now and then,

or puncture a window to let in the sun,

I would stay here.

Wishing this box was my shape.

You can find more of Zoe’s writing and subscribe to her newsletter on her website here: www.zoewinther.com/love-notes

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So, let’s go back to why we haven’t recorded for a while and dive in to where Zozo has been!

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“This is so silly but how special would it be to honour my eight year old’s version of a wedding?”

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Join your host Sarah Riegelhuth as she’s joined by Zoe Winther in this episode of In My Truth, as they dive into relationships with the men in their lives, not being seen, and doing the work during COVID-19 isolation.

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“I do this podcast for no other reason than the universe told me to do it.”

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Listen in to the In My Truth podcast as Sarah Riegelhuth and Zoe Winther get deep into the stories around masculinity, what happened when Sarah left Wealth Enhancers and had a breakdown, and all the healing work we’ve done and continue to do.

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“The whole experience showed me that, what’s more important to me in this life is my relationships and my connections with people and the energetic exchange. It doesn’t matter, this business stuff or podcast editing or whatever, what matters is: Are you okay, and I love you, and I’m here when you’re ready."

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Since sharing more of their stories, Sarah and

“Do I want to own this agency? Who am I as a person? What is my purpose? It sounds cliche but: What is the meaning of my life?”

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Disclaimer: What we talk about on In My Truth tends to be very raw and can be triggering. Resources for support and help are included at the end of show notes - scroll down for more information.

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“It’s fascinating to dive into who was I as that little girl, and how is that showing up for me now?”

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Welcome fam to this week’s episode of In My Truth.

Well, actually, it’s pretty funny because I think I always say welcome to this week’s episode but at the time of recording this episode, I had a backlog of about 14 episodes that need to be edited and released - but we’ll get into that next week. Stay tuned!

So, welcome to this week’s episode!

I have my friend Kelly Campbell with me today. We were introduced through a friend and client of mine, and by the time we finally got in touch we couldn’t even remember why we were meeting! We starting talking about business and a referral program of Kelly’s, and then we connected on Instagram and realised there was a LOT more to talk about.

Kelly is an agency transformation coach, working mostly with leaders to help them figure out how to find their purpose and discover a little bit more fulfilment in their work and their lives. Prior to this Kelly ran a digital marketing agency for non-profits before selling it in 2016, what she refers to as ‘the beginning of the beginning.’

These big moments in our life can transform us, thereby transforming the work we want to do and the way we show up in the world. In my journey of selling my financial planning company and finishing the financial planner chapter of my life, there was a level of ego death and saying goodbye to something I had attached my identity to. But it also led to rebirth.

I’m excited to dive in to this conversation with Kelly Campbell and find out where the beginning of the beginning has taken her.

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Join your host Sarah Riegelhuth as she’s joined by Kelly Campbell in this episode of In My Truth, as they dive into mother wounding, coming out, ending a marriage, grief and vulnerability.

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“At what point in my life did I step away from my true nature?”

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Listen in to the In My Truth podcast as Sarah Riegelhuth and Kelly Campbell get deep into the stories around shame, failure and guilt.

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“The last interaction I had with her… I got her to the point where she was agreeing to go to see a professional with me, and then a couple of days before the first appointment she called and said, Yeah, I’m not going to be able to make it. And I said, You’re not going to be able to make it for the appointment, or you’re not going to be able to make it ever? And before you answer that, you understand what the difference is?”

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Kelly and Sarah also get vulnerable with the stories they’re living with around:

scales of justice

identity

work/life balance

polarities

reforming a friendship with an ex

integration

femininity and the portrayal of femininity by our mothers

dishonesty and honesty

attraction

ego death

rejection

coming out as identifying as gay

mother-daughter relationships

boundary setting

fear of exposure

masculine energy

how our inner child shows up in our adult life

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Resources, people and ideas mentioned in this episode of In My Truth:

Kelly's piece on Medium: https://medium.com/@k.l.campbell/unraveling-narcissistic-femininity-from-true-nature-7921d8e11e4

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Remember you’re not alone, and there is hope, even though it may not feel that way at times. Talk to someone, a friend or family member and let them support you. Reach out to a professional. Do whatever you need to do to start your journey back to feeling good.

Here are some resources I found on Google (because I am not a professional, these are not recommendations, just suggestions with love and empathy from me to you):

Lifeline (Australia): 13-11-14 is a...

“My intuition was saying, Yeah, you were born for this. And my logical brain was saying, People won’t listen to you, what do you have to say? And then my soul: I have a lot to say. Trust it, trust it.” DISCLAIMER: WHAT WE TALK ABOUT ON IN MY TRUTH TENDS TO BE VERY RAW AND CAN BE TRIGGERING. RESOURCES FOR SUPPORT AND HELP ARE INCLUDED AT THE END OF SHOW NOTES - SCROLL DOWN FOR MORE INFORMATION. -

“My days of being a doormat are done. They’re done.”

Welcome everyone to this episode of In My Truth!

I recorded this episode of the podcast in Costa Rica with my gorgeous friend Hallie Rose. I’d just finished up a week-long ayahuasca retreat at Soltara, which is always an amazing and transformative experience for me. (You can read the whole series of my first experience at Soltara here.)

But on this beautiful warm day, the birds were chirping and I was sitting with my beautiful friend Hallie.

Hallie Rose is doing a three-month volunteer position at Soltara, helping out with social media and recording her own podcast - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4mSKYmBl-Cw (you can find the episode with me here.)

She’s been on a journey of healing herself through other people’s stories, just like we are all doing on this journey with the In My Truth podcast, which was also born after an ayahuasca experience. Hallie is spreading the messages of other people’s stories, and in the process being a sponge of healing, learning and growing.

The work is constant and it never ends, so what is Hallie Rose wrangling with at the moment?

Thematically over 2019, Hallie was faced with a variety of opportunities to show up for herself and work on her intuition, but it is still something she struggles with.

Let’s dive in.

“What is my intuition and what is my fear? How do I delineate between that inner knowing and my ego holding me back?”

Join your host Sarah Riegelhuth as she’s joined by Hallie Rose in this episode of In My Truth, as they dive into working out where their gifts are, storytelling, resistance to the limelight, and developing trust.

“It’s kind of like being a little piece on a board game, and you’re being moved along. And then ayahuasca came into my life and it’s like someone plucked that piece off the board and says, ‘Do you realise you were on a board? Do you realise you were part of a game?’ while holding it loftily above the board. And the perspective that comes with that is so immense it’s almost crippling.” -

Listen in to the In My Truth podcast as Sarah Riegelhuth and Hallie Rose get deep into the stories around creating a podcast, exploring healing with ayahuasca, and being told they’re acting selfishly.

“If I can just have trust that he did what he needed to do in his lifetime and that gifted to me what I need to do in my lifetime, then that helps me put something even as difficult as death into perspective.”

Since sharing more of their stories, Sarah and Hallie have opened the doors on more and more beautiful stories and conversations that have been incredibly healing. The conversations that happen behind closed doors can be so beneficial for others to hear.

Where could you be sharing more in order to help others heal and grow?

Hallie and Sarah also get vulnerable with the stories they’re living with around:

the yearning of our souls

being a storyteller

being seen

the logical brain

staying in a place of trust

allowing emotion

owning our own stuff

turning inward

calling medicine into our lives

peace

abandonment wounding

soul contracts and gratitude

ayahuasca love bubbles

spiritual bypassing

asserting boundaries

putting our needs above others’

projecting onto our partner

feeling it out

addiction to being busy

forgiving ourselves

consciously uncoupling

our friendships

attachment styles

taking space in a relationship

“Just the belief that this was a magical thing made everyone believe they were All Stars. And it’s like, if only I had Bugs Bunny’s juice, that mojo, that placebo effect to get me through bad days.”

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Disclaimer: What we talk about on In My Truth tends to be very raw and can be triggering. Resources for support and help are included at the end of show notes - scroll down for more information.

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“I’m always waiting for something to happen versus taking control of it and owning it.”

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Welcome everyone to this episode of In My Truth!

I have my friend Katrina Lacsam on the show today, who I met through my best mate from the time I was about 13 years old, Liam Gordon.

Katrina and I met last year when I was visiting Liam in Chicago, and we had a nice evening out despite my dengue fever! Like all of my podcast guests, Katrina and I were drawn back to each other after this brief meeting, and I’m so excited to talk to her today about her truth.

We recorded this episode of In My Truth on New Year’s Eve, a symbolic turning point for many of us and a poignant time for this conversation with Katrina Lacsam. While in the past Katrina was typically working on NYE, this year it feels more material, reflective and thankful.

So, on this day so emblematic of turning over a new leaf, let’s dive in to what Katrina is wrangling with.

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“I always believe that if you get to the core of an issue, it doesn’t repeat."

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Join your host Sarah Riegelhuth as she’s joined by Katrina Lacsam in this episode of In My Truth, as they dive into self-sabotage, burn out, the standards we hold ourselves to and stepping in as a parental figure in our families.

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“It’s not that I’m lacking it, I know what unconditional love looks like, and I’m not going to waste my time chasing the fantasy of that.”

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Listen in to the In My Truth podcast as Sarah Riegelhuth and Katrina Lacsam get deep into the stories around our motivations, self-sabotaging behaviour like drinking, being intentional about dating, and getting to really know ourselves.

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“If only the journey there was easier!”

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Like many of us, Sarah and Katrina are still dealing with getting to the core of issues in order to release them and stop repeating them.

How are you getting to the core of repeating problems in your life?

Katrina and Sarah also get vulnerable with the stories they’re living with around:

safety nets

inspiration

being wavy vs being grounded

getting clear on what we want

starting to date again

our behaviour and our goals

patterns and triggers

directness in dating

being called a pushover

altruism

maintaining many friendships

exploring monogamy

intentional friendships

expectations and pressures

setting boundaries with people

being in alignment

feeling trapped

shifting our relationship with alcohol

reframing our beliefs

death of loved ones

letter writing

how we process information

verbal diarrhoea

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“If things are going to suck anyway, if there are going to be all of these challenges, I may as well enjoy what I’m doing now.”

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Remember you’re not alone, and there is hope, even though it may not feel that way at times. Talk to someone, a friend or family member and let them support you. Reach out to a professional. Do whatever you need to do to start your journey back to feeling good.

Here are some resources I found on Google (because I am not a professional, these are not recommendations, just suggestions with love and empathy from me to you):

Lifeline (Australia): 13-11-14 is a confidential telephone crisis support service available 24/7 from a landline, payphone or mobile. Beyond Blue (Australia): 1-300-22-4636 OR chat online between 3pm & 12am 7 days a week No Shame On You (USA): 1-800-273-(TALK) 8255 OR text 741741 for a 24/7 crisis text line (a live, trained crisis counsellor receives the text and responds quickly) OR visit I’m Alive for 24/7 online crisis chat National Suicide...

“I’ve had this eternal feeling of loneliness, and when I talk to people about it I have to explain, No, I’m not talking about not settling down in this life time, I’m talking about eternal! I’m not worried about this life, I’m worried about after this life.”

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Disclaimer: What we talk about on In My Truth tends to be very raw and can be triggering. Resources for support and help are included at the end of show notes - scroll down for more information.

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Welcome everyone to this episode of In My Truth!

I have my friend Sam Kabert on with me today and I’m very excited to dive in to what he is currently wrangling with.

Sam and I were introduced through a mutual friend and client of mine in Grow My Team. We’ve been trying to connect for a while and over a few different continents, but we’re finally sitting down today to dive in to this episode of In My Truth.

Sam Kabert has a personal brand SwagSam and has been heavily in the content game: he’s had nine podcasts over the last three years, written three books in a year and created a few Youtube shows. He’s been grinding, and despite making it into the 40 Under 40 list, he had a depression that culminated in a breakup with his twin flame.

Since then, Sam has spiralled into spirituality through ayahuasca ceremony and is now working on what he calls ‘soul life balance’ to create a new normal.

There’s a lot of ground to cover, so let’s dive in.

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Join your host Sarah Riegelhuth as she’s joined by Sam Kabert in this episode of In My Truth, as they dive into twin flame love and what happens when you lose it.

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“I feel like with this breakup, I was dealing with every breakup I’d ever had.”

Listen in to the In My Truth podcast as Sarah Riegelhuth and Sam Kabert get deep into the stories around past relationships, finding gratitude and the many different kinds of therapy, from past life regression ceremonies to plant medicine.

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“It was October 2016 when I said I really wanted to love myself because I realised that I didn’t, and it’s three and a bit years later and I can say I don’t 100 percent love myself, yet. I think I’m pretty close, I keep having these times where I think I’m here and then I find myself in self-loathing again. It’s such a journey. I had no idea what a journey I would be embarking on.”

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Like many of us, Sarah and Sam are still dealing with the loss of significant romantic relationships. The healing journey is long and has many ups and downs.

Have you lost a twin flame? What does the healing journey look like for you?

Sam and Sarah also get vulnerable with the stories they’re living with around:

break ups

how breakups can bring out what we need to heal

starting to date again

ayahuasca ceremonies

gratitude for the opportunity to learn

acceptance

loneliness

attracting conscious people into our lives

old behavioural patterns coming up

opening up our vulnerabilities with our partners

Akashic records ceremony

past life regression

how our childhood wounds manifest in our adult lives

alcohol-fuelled shadow behaviour

our online presence and hiding relationships from the internet

loving ourselves

trusting the process of the universe

conscious fear

letting go

making friends with darkness

depression

curiosity and not knowing

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“Some days I’m loving myself and I’m on fire, it’s like a tall peak. And the next day I am in the biggest pit and I wasted all of that positive energy. But I love those highs. People are like, Oh you just need to find the happy medium, and I’m like, No, those highs are great! I don’t want to give up that high! Can I just not be in that pit after the high? And that’s where I’m trying to find the balance with self love.”

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Resources, people and ideas mentioned in this episode of In My Truth:

Akashic records https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Akashic_records

Westworld https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Westworld_(TV_series)

Mira Kelley https://mirakelley.com/...

“What I find so fascinating about life in general is how you think you can have something sorted out, but it just gets trickier and trickier. It’s a sneaky little motherf*cker!”

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Disclaimer: What we talk about on In My Truth tends to be very raw and can be triggering. Resources for support and help are included at the end of show notes - scroll down for more information.

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Welcome everyone to this episode of In My Truth!

I’m very excited to have a guest on today’s show who I met through a bunch of mutual friends on Instagram. He is Conner Moore, and just prior to recording this episode, we’d spent four days together with the Fit For Service crew and Aubrey Marcus in Malibu, and here we are on In My Truth, back home, full of downloads and excited to see what comes up today.

Conner is the host of The Realness podcast and a retreat facilitator at Soltara in Costa Rica. He enjoys helping people understand themselves a little bit better and at the end of the day take life a little bit less seriously.

Conner is currently moving through avoidance and the manifestation of avoidance in his life, and in this conversation we get both deep AND get distracted as we conveniently avoid the untruths we’re wrangling.

Take a deep breath, we're diving into everything we’re avoiding!

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Join your host Sarah Riegelhuth as she’s joined by Conner Moore in this episode of In My Truth, as they dive into all the ways they push against their personal development journeys: through avoidance techniques, blowing things up with partners, and falling into destructive patterns.

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“I feel like one of the first things she ever taught me was how to be disappointed.”

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Listen in to the In My Truth podcast as Sarah Riegelhuth and Conner Moore get deep into the tough stuff around being in relationships, whether they’re long-term and committed, just starting out, or we’re well on our way to non-monogamy.

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“I will spiral into crying, I’m in the middle of an argument with a partner, and the feeling I get is I miss my dad, I want my dad.”

Like many of us, Sarah and Conner are still working through their own personal healing journeys in order to have better romantic relationships, more conscious sex, and to call in conscious community.

Where are you in your healing journey and how does it relate to other parts of your life?

Conner and Sarah also get vulnerable with the stories they’re living with around:

avoidance

journaling

personal development journey

low-hanging fruit

integration

having a parent who is an addict

starting to date again

patterns of relationship

fixing people

never being alone

the righteousness of being the conscious one in a relationship

calling conscious community

fear refuges

reacting to fear unconsciously

the masks we wear to protect us from what we’re most afraid of

spiritual bypassing

reverting back to childlike emotions

resenting ourselves

conscious sex

scarcity mindset

the need for validation

abandonment

feeling trapped

our feelings compared to our realities

love and having to do the work

keeping excitement and novelty in relationships

different experiences of non-monogamy

“I’m saying that I want to attract all of these conscious people into my life, and all of a sudden I realise that when I’m faced with all of these people who are, I don’t get to be the conscious one. And my ego is like, But… who are you if you’re not that person?”

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Resources, people and ideas mentioned in this episode of In My Truth:

Soltara

Tara Brach

Heal Your Wounds and Find Your True Self - Lise Bourbeau

Dan Siegel - Mindsight

Esther Perel Podcast

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“I’m very open to the fact that this could just be another symptom of everything that I’ve always struggled with: wanting attention, validation, love.”

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“I had a belief that our love would conquer all and I wouldn’t have to work that hard.”

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Remember you’re not alone, and there is hope, even...

“In meditation, a clanger of a lightning strike struck me and I was like, Oh my God, this is my path, this is my gift to the world.”

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Disclaimer: What we talk about on In My Truth tends to be very raw and can be triggering. Resources for support and help are included at the end of show notes - scroll down for more information.

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Welcome everyone to this episode of In My Truth!

Today I have a superstar friend from Fit For Service joining us from her spot in the sun in Mexico: Lucie Dawson. Somewhat different to where I recorded this episode in Colorado!

Lucie is originally from England and has spent the majority of her adult traveling and working as a private chef. She’s spent the last ten years living in Byron Bay, and the last couple of years have seen a topsy-turvy turnaround in her life.

Something just didn’t feel right, so Lucie packed up her bags and followed her intuition, jumping back into her traveler lifestyle.

We recorded this episode on Lucie’s very last day in Mexico after manifesting her dream of getting to live and work there. A lot was coming up for her.

So, shall we dive in?

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Join your host Sarah Riegelhuth as she’s joined by Lucie Dawson in this episode of In My Truth, as they dive into intuition, manifestation, our paths of purpose… and having no money left and no idea what’s next.

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“We’re living in this amazing paradise also known as reality, and it’s a participatory environment. You have to be open to everything that’s happening around you and you have to acknowledge all of these tiny little subtle signs, and the more that you start to notice them, the more you start to conscious of them, the more they start to notice you back.”

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Lucie and Sarah also get vulnerable with the stories they’re living with around:

manifesting

aligning with our truth

red flags and intuition

synchronicities and pushing forward

perceiving worth through productivity

veering off course

running out of money

starting a business

not knowing what is coming next

raising capital

being confronted by self-doubt

gratitude

non-monogamy and unconventional paths

compartmentalising

“Money is such an energetic thing. There’s so much around it to figure through and it’s so representative of so many things in our lives.”

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Remember you’re not alone, and there is hope, even though it may not feel that way at times. Talk to someone, a friend or family member and let them support you. Reach out to a professional. Do whatever you need to do to start your journey back to feeling good.

Here are some resources I found on Google (because I am not a professional, these are not recommendations, just suggestions with love and empathy from me to you):

Lifeline (Australia): 13-11-14 is a confidential telephone crisis support service available 24/7 from a landline, payphone or mobile. Beyond Blue (Australia): 1-300-22-4636 OR chat online between 3pm & 12am 7 days a week No Shame On You (USA): 1-800-273-(TALK) 8255 OR text 741741 for a 24/7 crisis text line (a live, trained crisis counsellor receives the text and responds quickly) OR visit I’m Alive for 24/7 online crisis chat National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (USA): 1-800-273-8255 Crisis Services (Canada): 1-833-456-4566 OR text 45645 between 4pm and 12am daily

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