Even though it has been declining, Lithuania still has the highest suicide rate in the world. Each year we lose almost 1,000 people who take their own lifes. And yet it’s very hard to talk about it openly.

Craig Miller was 20 when he attempted suicide. After three days in a hospital, he was saved. For years Craig was silent about it, he felt ashamed and alone. But eventually he found a community of other survivors. He realized that he needs to share his story so that other people with similar thoughts would feel less alone.

"It's not so much a fear of dying." he explains. "It's a fear of living. I was very afraid of what would happen tomorrow. Not so much of what would happen if I died."

Craig Miller is the guest of today's NYLA podcast episode in which we analysed why people have suicidal thoughts and what are the right ways to help.

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