John started using alcohol and drugs when he was just 13. He drank alcoholically from the start, but his constant nemesis was marijuana, amphetamines, LSD, prescription opioids, and ultimately heroin. His parents, who divorced when he was five, desperately tried to help him. Nothing seemed to work. Every treatment failure and non-successful attempt to get John sober, including half-hearted stints in AA, only validated the label “unlucky” his mother had pinned on him at an earlier age. It seems that John was the one always getting caught using or drinking while everyone else was getting away with it. Even the realization that he was using in situations where he knew he’d get caught did little to abate the tumultuous whirlwind his life had become. By 19, he was living on the streets of L.A., as a daily heroin user. Traumatized by the bleak environment, John was sick and malnourished, floundering around death’s door with seemingly no way out. Though his well-meaning, albeit enabling, parents did what they could, none of the turning points John experienced were effective until in his mid-20’s, when he finally came all the way in and sat all the way down in AA. Getting a sponsor and working the steps in earnest for the first time pulled him from the mire of self-destruction a little over 4 years ago.

After much work, John now resides in the middle of the Program, practicing a true spiritual connection to his higher power and the fellowship. He sponsors many men and stays centered in the Big Book. He’s also careful in the way he shares his experience with drugs while he’s in an AA meeting, highly respecting AA’s singleness of purpose. He has re-established a close connection with his family, based upon the mutual understanding and love that we in the Program cherish. As you listen to John’s story on today’s AA Recovery Interviews podcast, you’ll hear the kind of humility that only a life like his could encapsulate. I’m grateful he survived to be of service to God and his fellows. I’m thankful to share with you the love I have had for him since he was a baby. So, for the next 72 minutes, please enjoy my 57th interview in this podcast series with my friend and AA brother, John F.

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[Disclaimer: In strict adherence to A.A.’s traditions, my anonymous guests and I speak for ourselves only, not for Alcoholics Anonymous at large. We share only our personal experiences with A.A. recovery. We acknowledge that AA’s sole concern is the recovery and continued sobriety of those alcoholics who turn to the Fellowship for help. As members of AA, our primary purpose is to stay sober and to help other alcoholics achieve sobriety. – Howard L.]