为你读英语美文 | 往期回顾·第76期 Keep on Walking 
 
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Keep on Walking
作者：Lena Toporikova


Someone once said, love does not walk away, people do. I will add, and they take love with them.
有人说爱永远在那，只有人才会离开。我想说，离开的人们是带着爱消逝的。


It is like taking it out of an old box, folding it carefully, packing into a bag and taking it away from you. And you are left with nothing but pain, memories and a great feeling of a loss.
就好像把爱从旧盒子里拿出来，小心折叠，放进另外一个袋子，然后离你远去。留给你的只有痛苦、回忆和强烈的逝去感。


A loss of something big. Something important. Something meaningful. Once it is gone, the world is not the same anymore. You are not the same anymore.
逝去的是那些重要的、有意义的。当一切不再，其他都已无关紧要。世界不是原来的世界，你也不再是原来的你。


And you find yourself thinking, retrospecting and wondering.
突然你会发现你自己沉思许久，回忆许久，徘徊许久…


And months will go before finally you will be able to look back and realize how much time you have wasted just sitting there, sorting out the pieces of your heart according to the various degrees of pain you feel.
在你最终能够去回头看时，已经是数月之后，你会发现原来自己坐在原地疗伤时已经浪费了很多时间。


And months will go before finally you will be able to let go and you finally give another someone a chance.
数月之后，你才能够放手并且给另外一个人一个机会。


But it will be months later. And for now, here you are, stuck in the past, wishing it was the present.
但是那只是在数月之后，而现在，你寄希望于过去，希望现在依然和过去那样。


Months will go before you realize quite a number of things.
你需要一段时间去明白一些事情。


You will learn that people always turn out how they promised they wouldn’t.
你会意识到承诺仅仅是承诺。


You will learn that forever does not really last forever and that feelings have their expiration date.
你也会知道永远其实是不存在，感情也会有自己的保鲜期。
You will learn that people lie. You will learn that people leave.
你还会知道谎言依旧存在，总有人去茶凉的那一天。


But most of all you will learn that memories fade. You  sit there thinking about time spent and promises made.
但最重要的是，你会懂得记忆会消散。你坐在原地想着曾今的那些海枯石烂。


You remember all the happy smiles and all the cheerful moments.
你会记得所有的灿烂和笑容和开心的时刻。


You let the joys of the past put you into illusion of love and warmth.
你会让过去的快乐将自己置身于爱和温暖的幻觉中。


You feel the presence of your loved one when you close your eyes, but when you reach for them, you feel them slipping away.
你会在闭上眼的时候感觉到曾经的ta就在你身边。但当你靠近时，幻想已经早早溜走。


You feel your memories fade.
你会发现回忆已逝。


And you keep wondering how come that something so strong made you this weak. It will make you confused and lost. Lost to the world. Lost to yourself.


为什么曾近让你那么无畏的一段感情会让现在的你变得如此脆弱，你会绞尽脑汁地想，以至于迷失自己。


You take time to get over it. You take time to adjust to a new reality. And then the moment comes when you start to pretend that everything is alright.
你需要时间去忘记和适应现实。接下来你假装一切都很好。


Because people expect you to be. And because when the whole world thinks that you are fine, sometimes you forget for a while that you are not.
因为周围人希望你是这样子。因为当整个世界都觉得你很已经没事了的时候，有时候你真的会感觉自己已经好起来了。


And you will learn new things again.
这时候你成长了。


You learn that people mistake your strength for ability to hide the pain deep inside.
你知道周围人把你的坚强错当忍痛的能力。


You learn that no matter how much you wish they could be, things will never be the same.
你知道不论你多希望一切都是原来的样子，但这永远已不可能。


And you will learn that no matter how good you are, it does not guarantee a happily-ever-after.
你更会知道你的好不会换来一个幸福快乐的结局。


But it all does not matter. It all will not matter.
但这些都不重要。将来也不重要。


You will wake up every day and keep on walking.
每天醒来，你的生活依然继续。


No matter how many pieces your heart consists now of, you hold them all together, as a whole. 
无论你的心多么地破碎不堪，你依然会继续向前走。


And even if it is damn painful to let go, even if it is the toughest thing in the world not to cry when it is the only thing you actually want to do, even then you still keep on walking.
即使放手是如此之痛，即使伤心是最难的选择，但又只是唯一你想做的事情，你依然会选择向前走。


Even when you know the past can’t become the present and surely can’t turn into the future, you still keep on walking.
即使你知道过去不会变成现在，更不会变成将来，你依然会继续向前。


Because you will also learn that after every storm will always come the sun. Be it weeks, months or years. The sun will come. Maybe not the way you expected it to be, but most probably the way it is meant to be.
因为你会知道，雨后的太阳会来，可能不是自己期待的那样，但很有可能就是命中注定。




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