I’ll never do that!  “Why would I practice scripts? I already know what to say”. ...  Why would I do it that way when I know this other way kinda sorta works 😉.  I think we’ve all been there.. we swore we wouldn’t do something and then we did after all.  We had to eat a little crow...  And it was for the betterment of our goals/life/mission..  Bottom line is that we’ve all been there and if you’ve not found yourself there in a while perhaps it’s time to re asses things because perhaps you’re more committed to the way things look than you are to your goals.