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You spend all year working on non-attachment, mindfulness, and conscious consumption. And then it’s the holidays, and suddenly you're fighting for your life at the family dinner table and contemplating buying a $70 candle as a stocking stuffer. Welcome to the spiritual girl's guide to the holidays: a three-part survival guide for enjoying the magic of the season without losing your mind, your money, or your sense of self. Along the way, we’ll talk about the history of Christmas consumerism, what bell hooks can teach us about our relationship with luxury and material things, and the strange psychological phenomenon of holiday regression. I also share a low-consumption holiday gift guide full of thoughtful, thriftable, and DIY ideas.

If you want the holiday magic without the interpersonal chaos, financial ruin, and return of your teenage coping mechanisms, I made this episode for you.  

PS: If you want the PDF version of the gift guide, go to this link to give me your email and I’ll send it to you!!! 

EPISODE OUTLINE

00:00 Intro: the spiritual girl's guide to the holidays

05:52 1. Holiday regression: why going home makes you feel 16 again

07:25 How to make a plan for boundaries & weird conversations

12:12 2. The holiday spending spiral: the history of Christmas consumerism

15:20 How to give more thoughtful gifts

16:14 Low-consumption holiday gift guide: DIY, thrifted & meaningful gifts

21:27 bell hooks on beauty, luxury & conscious consumption

22:54 Extremely specific tips for mindful spending

25:49 Living the aesthetic you want to buy

27:00 3. How to stay grounded when your routines fall apart

31:39 10 journaling prompts for the holiday season

36:13 Closing poem: December by Hannah Rosenberg

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The best year of your life doesn't start on January 1. It starts with what you do before the year begins. Today, I come to you with three things you can do right now to prepare for 2027 to be the best year of your life. 

I know it’s still October, but every year we lose our collective minds from November until January. And soon it will be New Year’s Eve and we’ll be trying to make our vision boards without having given any thought to the actual vision. SO: we’re getting a head start on preparing for 2027 before the holiday chaos hits with 3 audits that will help you get clear on what you want, what's holding you back, and how you actually want to live.

Along the way, we're talking about why we're so bad at estimating how much we can get done in a day, why being harder on yourself might actually be holding you back, what the Stoics (the original chads) can teach us about new year’s resolutions, and how to chase your biggest dreams without wishing away the life you're living. 

PS: I made you a free worksheet to walk you through all three audits! It's got all the questions we talk about in this episode and space to work through them yourself. Find it here!! 

EPISODE OUTLINE

00:00 Intro + why we’re starting before January 1

06:40 Audit #1: the levels of energy audit

07:36 How to make an energy ledger

10:02 The energetic evolution of choices

12:32 Epictetus on how to handle temptation

14:02 Reflection questions to audit your energy

14:44 Audit #2: the promise audit

16:26  Why shaming yourself doesn’t work

18:01 The planning fallacy

20:25 How to actually plan your day accurately

21:57 Intentions are not plans 

23:08 Procrastination as a coping method 

24:54 Audit #3: the perfect day audit

26:17 How to design your perfect mundane day

27:08 My perfect day

29:12 Comparing your ideal day to reality

29:57 Loving your current self while working to meet your next self

30:46 lightning round recap + worksheet! 

33:48 The Orange by Wendy Cope

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We all have that one person who can ruin our day in less than 30 seconds. Why is it so hard to stay in our values around certain people? And how do we stop giving them so much power? In this episode, we're turning to the 19th-century philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche for five lessons on dealing with difficult people, navigating conflict, and becoming unbotherable. If you've ever let a five-minute interaction ruin your entire week, this episode is for you.

EPISODE OUTLINE - NIETZSCHEAN PRINCIPLES FOR BECOMING UNBOTHERED

00:00 Intro

9:13 1. Navigating other people’s opinions of you

14:50 2. Let them misunderstand

21:01 3. “They muddy the water to make it seem deep”

24:30 4. Are you actually keeping the peace?

31:10 5. Knowing when to walk away

35:40 Lightning round recap

38:08 Help keep Soul Gum ad free

39:05 To Take Back a Life by Kate Baer

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According to the existentialists, the core problem of being human is this: we are meaning-seeking creatures in a universe that is silent on meaning. But somehow, we're supposed to figure out what to major in, who to marry, and what to do with the approximately 30,000 days we get to be alive.

In this episode, we walk through six levels of living a meaningful life as described by Simone de Beauvoir in her 1947 work The Ethics of Ambiguity, moving from brainrotten aimlesness to a life driven by purpose. If you want to live a life that feels meaningful but have no idea what you’re supposed to be doing with it, this episode is for you.

EPISODE OUTLINE: THE 6 LEVELS OF LIVING A MEANINGFUL LIFE (according to 20th century existentialist philosopher Simone de Beauvoir) 

00:00 Intro 

04:57 1. The sub-man 

10:13 2. The serious man

14:17 3. The nihilist 

16:43 4. The adventurer 

22:06 5. The passionate man

24:10 6. The compassionate person

26:27 but btw life isn’t a ladder 

27:51 Reflection questions 

30:20 Lightning round recap

32:07 When Death Comes by Mary Oliver 

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The manosphere wants you to think charisma is all about dominance and control. But what if it’s actually about deep presence and social courage?

I don’t want to be like the guy who uses scarce communication to hide his lack of depth and fear of commitment. I want to be like the people who make you feel cool just by talking to them, while radiating charisma themselves.

If you’ve ever wondered why some people can have fun talking to literally anyone, struggled to know what to say when someone asks you a question, or wished you were more comfortable saying what you actually think, this episode is for you.

In today’s episode, we unpack 5 habits of highly charismatic people, from what they say when they’re getting to know someone to how they navigate disagreements. Along the way, we’ll talk about what we can learn from Socrates about swag, dive into the science of answering any question well, and use Byung-Chul Han’s concept of “the smooth” to investigate how we can stay raw and real in a world that tries to sand our edges.

EPISODE OUTLINE: HABITS OF HIGHLY CHARISMATIC PEOPLE

00:00 Intro

07:14 1. How to ask better questions 

08:18 The science of how asking questions makes people like you 

10:18 The power of follow-up questions

13:41 2. How to answer any question without freezing 

14:37 The scary thing no one tells you about writing a book 

17:11 Why your mind goes blank when someone asks you a question 

18:03 The secret to answering questions with ease 

20:21 The link between storytelling and charisma

22:40 3. Stop performing agreement in conversations 

23:18 What is backchanneling? 

23:59 Upspeak, confidence, gender, and the way we talk 

26:05 Should we actually backchannel less?

28:58 4. How charismatic people handle disagreement 

30:27 What Socrates can teach us about intellectual humility

32:14 5. Stop treating human connection like a formula

33:36 Byung-Chul Han and “the smooth”

36:13 Btw you’re not a chad for wanting to be loved

39:04  Lightning round recap

40:44 Poem: Small Kindnesses by Danusha Laméris

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Pumpkin spice apologists wya? It’s the great lock in Charlie Brown!!!!! In this episode, I’m walking you through the exact five-step seasonal planning system that dramatically changed my life a few years back. Along the way, we’ll dive into the philosophy and psychology behind why it works. We’ll talk through Nietzsche’s philosophy on habits, Simone de Beauvoir’s ideas on how to reconcile your past and future selves, the planning fallacy, and more. Whether you want to change the trajectory of your life this fall or just set up some systems to make life a little less chaotic, this episode is for you. 

EPISODE OUTLINE: HOW TO PLAN YOUR FALL TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE 

00:00 Intro

06:21 I made you a worksheet ◡̈

09:30 STEP 1: THE AUDIT

10:36 Facticity vs. transcendence (de Beauvoir) 

11:11 The importance of considering both your past and your potential

12:55 Using self-distancing to self-reflect more effectively

13:31 How to audit your goals

14:56 How to audit your execution

18:24 STEP 2: THE PURGE 

19:07 The paradox of choice

Cleaning out digital and physical worlds

22:15 Choice architecture

25:15 STEP 3: THE CHOICE

25:55 The planning fallacy

27:54 Optimism bias & why overplanning feels good

29:00 STEP 4. THE TRADE OFF 

31:25 Nietzsche’s on the power of “brief habits” 

33:10 STEP 5. THE TIME 

34:33 Temporal landmarks and why they make you more likely to achieve goals 

35:44 the fresh start effect

36:05 Kairos: the opportune moment

37:28 Leaving room for life inside our lives

38:13 Lightning round recap

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If your early twenties are for your Sylvia Plath fig tree allegory crisis, then your late twenties are for your Joan Didion Goodbye to All That crisis. In her famous 1967 essay, Didion writes, “That was the year, my twenty-eighth, when I was discovering that not all of the promises would be kept, that some things are in fact irrevocable and that it had counted after all, every evasion and every procrastination, every mistake, every word, all of it.”

This episode explores a strain of existential dread that often shows up in your late twenties: the possibility crisis. Sometimes it hits you after capital-S Something happens. A bad break up, a wounding professional failure, or a friendship ending that felt like betrayal. Other times, there is no one defining moment or incident. You just realize one day that you are no longer as bright eyed, bushy tailed, or hopeful as you used to be, and can’t put your finger on why. 

Using Didion’s Goodbye to All That as our guide, we break down three key signs you might be experiencing a possibility crisis and what it might be trying to teach you.  Along the way, we talk about how to cope with the realization that certain doors really do close, what to do when new people stop feeling full of promise, and how to let go of the fantasy that someday you’ll magically know what you’re doing. Consider this episode a field guide on the strange grief of growing up. 

EPISODE OUTLINE

00:00 Intro 

04:23 What made Joan Didion great?

05:13 Signs of a Goodbye to All That crisis

05:46 1. You realize future you is just you

07:41 Weird girl money 

08:22 The 90s’ overly adult depiction of your 30s

10:41 2. You stop believing in new faces

11:32 Hope springs eternal on Love Island

12:09 Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first

12:58 POV you’re 28 & have met every person alive

13:55 3. Some doors are actually closing

14:52 The first time I felt a door close

16:14 When the doors start slamming left & right

17:03 It’s easy to see beginnings and harder to see ends

18:54 Perspective shifts that got me out of this crisis 

19:29 1. Idk what I’m doing but neither does anyone else

20:59 2. Trust means more when it’s a choice not an instinct

21:45 3. On “it’s never too late”

22:27 Possibility must be unactualized to exist

23:10 The U-shaped happiness curve

23:55 Has the internet made the possibility crisis start earlier? 

24:28 Socioemotional selectivity theory

25:25 The happy ending Joan Didion doesn’t tell you

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Be honest: do you ever perform for no one? Do you spectate your own life instead of living it? Have you ever caught yourself changing pieces of you, from your clothes to your voice to your hobbies, in order to impress someone you don’t even like? 

This episode is for you if you’ve ever sucked in your stomach in a completely empty room. Or scrolled through your own social media posts, imagining someone else looking at them. It’s for you if you've ever looked at yourself through someone else's eyes for so long that you've forgotten what you look like through your own.

In it, we’ll unpack how we get trapped under the male gaze through the work of Jean-Paul Sartre, Simone de Beauvoir, Susan Sontag, Margaret Atwood, Ada Limón, and more. Then, I'll walk you through 7 rituals that have actually helped me climb out from under it.

This is not an episode about giving up on love. It is a field guide on how to stop twisting yourself into inauthentic shapes to earn validation to fill the void of love. If you want to become the subject of your own life again, I think you'll like this one.

RITUALS FOR DE-INTERNALIZING THE MALE GAZE: EPISODE OUTLINE

00:00 Intro

07:28 1. The gaze audit (Sartre)

08:40 Subject self versus object self

10:01 Foucault’s panopticon & self-surveillence 

10:54 How to do a gaze audit 

14:11 2. Photo and mirror detox (Sontag)

15:42 3. Interrogate “I do it for myself” (de Beauvoir)

16:50 de Beauvoir v. Sartre: existence precedes essence?

17:21 Do we have to stop shaving to be good feminists?

18:14 How to trace the origins of your grooming habits

18:47 The marketing origins of shaving

20:02 5. Bechdel mode

21:35 The importance of non-man focused conversation

22:25 6. Pleasure inventory (Mary Oliver)

22:56 The antidote to self-surveillance according to psychology

23:45 How to take a pleasure inventory

24:49 7. Pre-situationship prep

26:44 Love poem with apologies for my appearance (Ada Limon

27:51 The surprising unobjectifying power of being really loved and really seen

28:48 Lightning round recap

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In stories, the narrator tells you which ordinary things are portals to magic and adventure. In real life, you have to find them yourself.

This episode reveals 5 secret portals to the next version of yourself: seemingly ordinary choices, traits, and habits that are thresholds to the future version of you who lives with more courage, clarity, and freedom. It’s for you if an old version of you has died but the new one hasn’t been born yet. You might have recently experienced a big life change: a move, or a relationship ending, or a career change. Or maybe you know one is coming. It’s for you if you have an unshakeable feeling that there is a more alive version of you out there, if only you could figure out how to get to them. 

We’ll examine the work of philosophy’s greatest minds, like Nietzsche, Kant, Kafka, and the Ancient Greeks, to uncover the hidden thresholds between who you are and who you're becoming, and point out clues for how to spot them when they appear in your own life.

EPISODE OUTLINE 

00:00 Intro

04:54 I missed you

06:05 Help me keep Soul Gum ad-free

07:35 Talk to me!!! 

08:18 1. Intuition is a portal

08:49 Nietzsche’s beef with Socrates

10:44 The neuroscience of intuition (Gary Klein)  

12:31 I exist because of a woman’s intuition

13:03 The tension between ambition & intuition

14:13 Mary Oliver on reacquianting with your intuition

15:05 Small ways to reconnect with your intuition

15:42 2. Solitude is a portal (Pascal)

16:39 The fear of being alone with your thoughts

17:33 2014 study on the discomfort of being un-stimulated

18:05 Solitude as a tool in my creative process

18:58 Brain drain study: it is that d**n phone

19:30 Going phone n*k*d

20:12 3. Aligned friendship is a portal

21:36 Nietzsche: Friends should be your “best enemies”

23:06 Friendship as a mirror 

23:40 The research of social contagion 

24:18 Look for friends that show you what’s possible 

24:52 4. Nature is a portal

25:40 Our increasingly sanitized relationship with nature

26:15 Kant, the sublime, and the gorpcore of it all

28:41 The ego-interrupting power of awe

29:45 5. Action is a portal (Kafka’s Before the Law)

31:29 Mary Oliver on the most regretful people 

32:00 You deserve to know what’s on the other side of fear

32:33 Leap by Joy Sullivan

33:34 For the Ones Who Left by Me (Victoria Hutchins)

34:29 Lightning round recap

35:40 Subscribe, rate, share, talk to me!!! 

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