It can be terrifying to listen to a subliminal if the body reacts extremely heavy. I was ‘lucky’ to recognize these reactions – because they are part of my life already for several years. It was the first time, straight from the beginning of this subliminal (not during the subliminals of THEM and GOLD).  This heavy reaction IS the proof for me because thís subliminal hit me right in the core of the defence- and beliefsystem.

It is what I need to regain faith in what I feel. With faith and trusting the body, all these anxious stressfeelings begin to feel no longer like a real danger for me. My high build up defencesystem can more and more calm down and so reveil more and more of who  I really am – ‘An all tollerent loving peace- Home’. I can feel somethimes this beautiful peace in an acceptance moment of a stressfeeling.(can be grief, fear, distrust, lonelyness, resistance, anger..) 

It helps me(babysteps by babysteps) to trust to embrace everything I feel, and stay with ‘me’ instead of running away, as I did all my life. I don,t judge this running anymore because it is my believed only way ‘out’. I begin to see that a way ‘out’ does not exist . It is all-in.  THAT was the neverending fight of which I can see more and more the uselessnnes. It exhausts me and causes physical problems I told you about. On the 2nd day I listen to the subliminal, my body was much calmer. I’m curious to see what the next period will bring.

So all these words mean: I just say YES to the subliminal  that helps me to trust the many reactions in the body and reveil who I really am. The body knows what it is doing . The emotions just want to feel alife. And therefore, I will feel alive again – at last 😊