"We had these intentions, but drugs and alcohol got in the way of everything. I knew I'd lost the power of choice"

"I didn't know how do do anything without drinking. I didn't know how to date. I didn't know how to hangout with friends...and in the beginning its very lonely."

Allen is the only person in this podcast series who knew me when I was active. We met in 2007, and spend much of the interview reminiscing and remarking on just how different life is today for both of us.