At a Total Loss
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At a Total Loss episodes

  • October Talk

    It's me hi, and I'm going in on a bunch of different topics! I had you submit them and I speak real talk on all of them...

    Firstly, wtf October 15th. How was it that this day was on total steroids. Like, so many companies posting about baby loss and it's just weird.

    Then I go into PAL, navigating parenting living kids, moving and major changes, early inductions with rainbows, overall how my bond with Brody has changed over the past 3.5 years, and a bunch of other things that I hope help you!

    I'm hosting *free* Virtual Grief Support Groups so be on the lookout for announcements!

    Go to LossLink.com to find your Loss Posse this holiday season! And I need your help! Spread the word about LossLink so that we can get more mama's who need us on the platform.

    KatherineLazar.com has all the downloads, info, etc.

    I will be starting 1:1 Grief Coaching so be on the lookout for when sign ups open!

    I love you guys and your babies xxoo

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    NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

    For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

    Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

    Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

    Email: [email protected]

    Website: www.katherinelazar.com

     

    Some helpful resources:

    https://countthekicks.org/

    https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

    https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

    https://www.tommys.org/

     

    Local to Atlanta:

    https://www.northsidepnl.com/

    1 hr 11 min
  • Alexandra & Wells part 2

    In this episode, Alexandra shares how her company, Alexandra & Wells, came to life out of love and loss. Together, we reflect on how our grief has evolved over the years and how motherhood—five years after loss—continues to take on new meaning. We talk about the reality of running a “grief business,” what it means to mother an angel long-term, and how we continue to redefine ourselves while keeping their memory close.

    Find her website here: https://alexandraandwells.com/

    Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/alexandraandwells/

    Find your loss posse at LossLink.com

    All my resources are on KatherineLazar.com and @thekatherinelazar

     

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    NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

    For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

    Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

     Instagram @thekatherinelazar

    Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

    Email: [email protected]

    Website: www.katherinelazar.com

     

    Some helpful resources:

    https://countthekicks.org/

    https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

    https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

    https://www.tommys.org/

     

    Local to Atlanta:

    https://www.northsidepnl.com/

     

     

    1 hr 7 min
  • Alexandra & Wells Part 1

    Alexandra is the founder of the clothing brand Alexandra & Wells, created in honor of her son, Wells, who tragically passed away in 2019 due to a negligent labor and delivery. In this deeply emotional episode, Alexandra shares Wells’ story publicly for the first time, along with the legal battle that followed as she sought justice for him.

    Out of her grief, Alexandra built a brand that has reached and comforted thousands of loss moms around the world. Her iconic sweatshirt, Mother of an Angel, was the very first piece of clothing I bought in honor of my son, Brody. I needed the world to know he existed, and wearing it kept him close to me. For that, I will always be grateful to Alexandra and what she has created—something I know countless other mothers feel as well.

    Her love for her son, and for all of our babies, shines through in everything she does. Alexandra is a true inspiration, turning unimaginable pain into a source of connection, remembrance, and love.

    Find her clothing here: https://alexandraandwells.com/

     

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    NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

    For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

    Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

     Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

    Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

    Email: [email protected]

    Website: www.katherinelazar.com

     

    Some helpful resources:

    https://countthekicks.org/

    https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

    https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

    https://www.tommys.org/

     

    Local to Atlanta:

    https://www.northsidepnl.com/

     

    53 min
  • The Kaiden Paul Foundation

    Emilie is a mother to three boys: two on earth, one in heaven. Her identical twin boys were born - one sleeping, one living - on July 1, 2024 via emergency c-section due to spontaneous Twin Anemia Polycythemia Sequence (TAPS). She & her husband founded The Kaiden Paul Foundation to raise awareness, promote research & support families affected by TAPS. Emilie works as a pediatric neurosurgical PA-C & navigated going back to work at the hospital where her twins were born.

     

    If you have an insight on how to help, or to connect with a fellow TAPS mama, find Emily on Instagram here:https://www.instagram.com/the_kaiden_paul_foundation/

     

    FIND YOUR LOSS POSSE AT LOSSLINK.COM!

     

    Remember to hit SUBSCRIBE to help support the podcast

     

    All resources are located on KatherineLazar.com!

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    NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

     

    For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

     

    Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

    Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

    Email: [email protected]

    Website: www.katherinelazar.com

     

    Some helpful resources:

    https://countthekicks.org/

    https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

    https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

    https://www.tommys.org/

     

    Local to Atlanta:

    https://www.northsidepnl.com/

     

     

    1 hr 2 min
  • A Touch of Teddy

    Teddy’s mama, Elizabeth, started A Touch of Teddy 501(c)3 in 2023 in his memory, with a mission to send free teddy bear ornaments to pregnancy & infant loss families during the month of October. In this episode we discuss her passion for continuing her son's name by pouring her pain into helping other loss families.

    Find her and help support on Instagram: @atouchofteddy

    Website: https://atouchofteddy.org/

    Go to LOSSLINK.COM to find your local Loss Posse!

    *************************************

    NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

    For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

    Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

     Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

    Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

    Email: [email protected]

    Website: www.katherinelazar.com

     

    Some helpful resources:

    https://countthekicks.org/

    https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

    https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

    https://www.tommys.org/

     

    Local to Atlanta:

    https://www.northsidepnl.com/

    52 min
  • Lara: Losing Malek & Finding Answers

    In this episode, my ATL Loss Mama friend, Lara, tells us about her sweet 1st son Malek who passed at 28 weeks. She has since had her 2nd son Sami who is turning 1. Lara has a rare autoimmune disorder which could possibly play a part in her pregnancies. However, there just isn't much research or information out there. We discuss warning signs, not knowing what they were, lack of information during pregnancy and what that means for subsequent ones.

     

    We hope this shines some light for anyone dealing with similar disease and wanting to bring home living babies.

     

    Find Lara on IG at @lara.aqel

     

    Find your loss posse on LossLink.com!

     

    *************************************

    NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

    For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

    Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

    Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

    Email: [email protected]

    Website: www.katherinelazar.com

     

    Some helpful resources:

    https://countthekicks.org/

    https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

    https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

    https://www.tommys.org/

     

    Local to Atlanta:

    https://www.northsidepnl.com/

     

    1 hr 4 min
  • Lexi: Leaning into the Pain

    After losing her first daughter Lily at birth, Lexi set out to feel it all. To her it was important for her to lean into her pain, her grief, and her motherhood to a baby no longer here. Lexi poured herself into her poetry, that she self published as a way to connect with Lily as well as take time and space to just BE with herself and her pain instead of pushing it away. Since Lily's death, Lexi has since had her little sister Daisy. We talk about the beauty and sadness in raising a living child after loss and the complexity of parenting one here and one in the sky.

     

    You can tell her love for her daughters and the strength she exudes despite her pain is inspiring. Find her book on Amazon "The First 40 Weeks" as well as connect with her on Instagram: @grief.and.lily

     

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    NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

    For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

    Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

     Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

    Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

    Email: [email protected]

    Website: www.katherinelazar.com

     

    Some helpful resources:

    https://countthekicks.org/

    https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

    https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

    https://www.tommys.org/

     

    Local to Atlanta:

    https://www.northsidepnl.com/

    59 min
  • Loss Life Lately

    I'm on the mic to discuss what's been goin on in this sh*t show. I'm all over the place with my iced coffee and ketamine stories and punching the air and the fine line between crazy and not giving af and all the lessons I've learned in the last couple weeks. I hope this makes you feel less alone in this crazy Loss Life.

     

    Go to KatherineLazar.com for all my helpful resources

    Follow me on IG at @thekatherinelazar

     

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    NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

    For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

    Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

     Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

    Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

    Email: [email protected]

    Website: www.katherinelazar.com

     

    Some helpful resources:

    https://countthekicks.org/

    https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

    https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

    https://www.tommys.org/

     

    Local to Atlanta:

    https://www.northsidepnl.com/

    58 min
  • Elle: Triplet Loss Mom & Therapist

    Elle is mama to her triplets in the stars, Noah, Eden & Hudson who were born severely prematurely in June 2021. Since then she has had their little brother, Sonny born in 2023. Elle is a successful therapist for loss mamas, pregnancy after loss and parenting after loss mamas. She is the epitome of doing the work in order to help others function and navigate Loss Life.

     

    Find her on Instagram and DM her for a session: @ellemargetsonhypnotherapy

     

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    NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with loss life. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

    For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

    Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

    Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

    Email: [email protected]

    Website: www.katherinelazar.com

     

    Some helpful resources:

    https://countthekicks.org/

    https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

    https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

    https://www.tommys.org/

     

    Local to Atlanta:

    https://www.northsidepnl.com/

     

    1 hr 5 min
  • Kate: Grief & Beauty after infant loss

    In this episode I speak to my girl Kate, her precious son, Cameron James Miranda was born May 4, 2022. He spent 9 days at home before being diagnosed with Enterovirus Myocarditis. He fought for 4 months in the CVICU. Cameron may not physically be here but over the past almost 3 years, her family continues to navigate their grief, honor Cameron, and choose to live a life full of love that they hope he would choose for them.

    Kate has amazing insight as to how she has managed to live a beauty life along with her profound sadness. I especially love the part where she tells us about cooking her way through an entire cookbook for one year. It's truly inspiring and something I feel a lot of mamas would need to hear.

    Find Kate on instagram at https://www.instagram.com/kkmiranda915/

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    NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

    For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

    Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

    Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

    Email: [email protected]

    Website: www.katherinelazar.com

     

    Some helpful resources:

    https://countthekicks.org/

    https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

    https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

    https://www.tommys.org/

     

    Local to Atlanta:

    https://www.northsidepnl.com/

     

    1 hr 2 min

About At a Total Loss

From the publisher's feed

We’ve all had moments that leave us at a total loss — for words, for direction, for what comes next. For me, that moment came when my baby died at 37 weeks. I know firsthand what it feels like to have the world stop and to wonder if you’ll ever find a way forward again.

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