At a Total Loss

Emmy is the mother of Layla, who was stillborn at 39 weeks in November 2022. She finds comfort and copes with her pain through taking care of her home and helping others find healing as well. Although it feels like it in the beginning, she believes baby loss is not the end. The best thing we can do for our sweet babies and the greatest way we can honor them is to learn to heal, grow, love and laugh again.

To follow along her journey of hope, follow her on Instagram @emmysmaz and check out her podcast entitled “Beyond the Pain: Heart and Home Healing After Loss"

Thank you to LOSSLINK.COM, check it out now to find your loss posse of mamas who get it. 

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

I'm back and with a mini "rebrand"...At a Total Loss is now Living the Loss Life because well, that's what I'm doing every single day and I'm here to share it with you.

When I first hit record, I was drowning. I had just lost Brody only 4 months prior. I was raw, wrecked, and trying to survive the total devastation of stillbirth. That title—At a Total Loss—fit where I was. But grief doesn’t stay in one place...and neither do we.

In losing him, I’ve also gained so much:

Perspective. Purpose. A community. A deeper love. A different version of myself.

So it’s time, for the podcast to evolve, too.

In this episode I fill you in on what's been happening since I took a mini break (whoops) and what's happening next. I had a wild experience in Albania and I finally tell Wolfy's birth story since he turns TWO YEARS OLD on June 6th! holy moly. 

All of this is to let you know you're not alone no matter what stage you're in. 

Thank you for staying on this path with me. We’re still grieving. We’re still healing. But now we’re living even though we've lost. 🖤

Go to katherinelazar.com for all the things and resources!

LossLink.com is where to find your Loss Posse!

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"I am not a licensed therapist, counselor, or medical professional. The conversations I offer are for peer support, personal sharing, and compassionate companionship. These episodes are not a substitute for professional mental health care, medical treatment, or crisis intervention. If you are in distress or need professional support, I encourage you to reach out to a qualified healthcare provider. By engaging in these episodes, you acknowledge that I am not responsible for any decisions or actions you take as a result of our discussions."

Anna and Kent are Atlanta Loss Parents whose son Seth was born and passed away on September 28, 2021. The film is screening this Saturday here in Atlanta and then soon nationwide at select theaters.

Official Website: https://www.invisiblemansion.com/rideinparadise

Trailer: https://vimeo.com/903818305

Evite to sign up even if you can't come and still get updates: https://evite.me/9FbezwVzAz

Podcast brought to you by LOSSLINK.COM! Find your Loss Posse today! 

NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Rio Richards, Grief & Trauma Recovery Therapist, is BACK to discuss all things grief. She opens up about what she struggles with after losing her father 4 years ago. We specifically talk about the 8 Ways That Perfectionism Makes Grieving Harder founded on an Instagram post that she made.

Here's what we unpack:

1. Constantly wondering if you're feeling the "right" thing at the "right" time
2. Hiding your feelings because they don't feel "appropriate"
3. Starting but never finishing memorial projects because nothing feels "worthy" enough
4. Avoiding support because you "should handle this on your own"
5. Comparing your grief to others and always finding yourself lacking
6. Apologizing for talking about your loss or for "bringing everyone down"
7. Exhausting yourself by trying to appear "strong" or "put together"
8. Criticizing yourself for not being "over it" by some arbitrary timeline

Follow Rio on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/andthatsgrief/

Substack: https://substack.com/@touchingthefire?utm_source=top-search

BROUGHT TO YOU BY LOSSLINK.COM! Join today and find your loss mom posse!

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

This is the 87th day of January and we are still doin the damn thing. I get on the mic to talk about the latest and greatest in loss life...

Here's what I talk about:

• This being the longest month ever and my one resolution has failed
• The absolute anger that comes with baby loss
• Being a *good* person despite loss
• A story about a pregnant chick next to me at the salon
• “A mother to 2 livings and an angel”
• Leaving the babies with someone.
• Staying connected to your partner.
• Breastfeeding chaos.
• Being a good mom to livings and babies that are gone.

Follow me on IG at @thekatherinelazar

Podcast brought to you by LossLink.com

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Mason of the 10ninety Podcast was the guest speaker at our 2025 raised By angels Charity Gala this past weekend. On July 25, 2021, Mason’s life changed forever when he lost his wife Kortni, son Riggins, and daughter Franki in a devastating car accident. He also lost his older brother, Race, and his nephew, Rider.

Now focused on raising his surviving son, Blue, Mason draws strength from the 10/90 Principle, emphasizing that life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you respond. He shares his journey and message of resilience through his podcast, The10ninety, and as a public speaker, inspiring others to find hope and purpose in adversity.

This was a  *dream* episode as Mason is one of the first voices I heard when searching for guidance after losing Brody. I love this conversation. Two grievers (with very different losses) just speaking raw and unfiltered.

More info on Mason: WEBSITE

Find him on IG: https://www.instagram.com/10ninetyrule/

My Charity Org: https://raisedbyangels.org/

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Hey everyone! I'm on the mic just yappin away, it's fun for me. I talk about this new year and how literally nothing is going to change (resolutions are dumb after your baby dies).  I also have some crazy random story that happened to me that I'm still shocked about. I'm your biggest hype girl so there will def be a TedTalk/motivational speaker moment in there so you're welcome babes :)...I think sometimes it's nice to just hear perspective from a "regular loss mama" just trying to do the damn thing every single day after her baby dies. SO HERE SHE IS.

Hit me up on IG @thekatherinelazar

Brought to you by LOSSLINK.COM. Join now to meet other loss mamas just like you.

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

This is one of THE most powerfully inspiring episodes I've done to date. PLEASE, if you are a loss parent and even if you are not, listen to this episode....Dr. Joanne Cacciatore is a bereaved mother to her daughter Cheyenne born still 30 years ago. She is also the founder of the MISS Foundation, an international NGO that serves families whose children have died. She is also a tenured research professor and senior Wrigley Institute of Sustainability Scholar at Arizona State University, spearheading the Graduate Certificate in Trauma and Bereavement. Her best selling book, Bearing the Unbearable: Love, Loss, and the Heartbreaking Path of Grief, is a national award winning best seller that has helped revolutionize the way our culture thinks, and feels, about grief. She works with and counsels families from all around the world who have experienced catastrophic deaths. Dr. Jo, believing that current practices around food production are a social, ethical, and environmental justice issue, is a vegan and hasn’t eaten meat since 1972.  She also teaches meditation, mindfulness, and compassion and ahimsa practices to students and clients from around the world.  

Dr Jo started The Selah Carefarm just outside of Sedona, AZ. It is the first carefarm for the traumatically bereaved in the U.S. It is a very special place on 20 acres of beautiful farmland where bereaved family members can come to both give and receive connection, compassion, and understanding. All the animals on the carefarm have been rescued from abuse, neglect, torture, or homelessness. Our grieving families know what it means to suffer, and so do these animals.

Dr Jo is truly a power house and a dream guest of mine, I am a different person after getting to speak with her.

To get more info on the carefarm: The Selah Carefarm

I mention her Open Letter to Grievers. I saved it to my phone screen and read it almost every day after losing Brody. Read it here: Open Letter To Grievers

This pod is brought to you by LossLink 

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Tallia Deljou is a fellow loss mom and life coach specializing in healing emotional wounds. Her loss journey includes 2 recurrent miscarriages followed by the loss of her son Araam, who was born prematurely at 22 weeks and 3 days and joined us earth side for 15 hours. She takes a gentle and compassionate approach to healing after loss, teaching us how to welcome every emotion and feel it all.

I won't lie to y'all, we do a mock session and some things that I'm feeling do come up. It's raw, it's real, it's a no judgement zone. This is how it is...for me at least. If you want to contact Tallia for your own session, the info is below...

Links to instagram @talliadeljou and workshop replays:

On managing triggers after loss: https://talliadeljou.myflodesk.com/lossreplay

On protecting your peace and setting boundaries after loss: https://talliadeljou.myflodesk.com/protectpeace

On navigating anger after loss: https://talliadeljou.myflodesk.com/anger

Podcast is brought to you by LOSSLINK.COM

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Liz from Episode 1 is back to check in about where she is 2 years after our first recording ( I cannot believe it!) At the time, I was 6 months out from losing Brody and Liz was 9 months out from losing her Harrison. We talk about anger, and owning our grief, how it's managed now, and how we've gotten stronger and able to handle our grief. Being advocates for shaping our own loss life, we talk about how we have done that as well as what we continue to struggle with in the specific stages we are in. We hope to shed some light on how grief can progress over time. This is real talk, y'all we don't hold back on our thoughts and experiences and hope that this helps <3

This Podcast is brought to you by LOSSLINK. Go to LossLink.com to find other mothers to connect with in your home town or anywhere in the world. Loss Life is tough, find others to do it with who get it.

Thank you Liz for coming back on to catch up. Follow her on IG @lizmyers19 

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/