At a Total Loss

Molly talks about her precious Roman who was stillborn at full term just over a year ago. Molly provides insight on her faith, her support group, and gives advice to anyone who is afraid to experience joy after baby loss. We also talk about signs and how she whole heartedly believes she receives them letting her know Roman is ok. The stories will give you chills.

Find Molly on IG at @champagnegetaway 

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

I asked what y'all wanted to hear about. So many of you wanted to discuss the added losses after our babies die. I took your submissions and I discuss the following in this episode:

• The inability to relax and always have to run at max capacity.
• The loss of innocence
• Losing our faith.
• Becoming an extreme introvert now.
• Unable to look at old photos
• Accepting this reality
• No longer having a tolerance for petty stuff
• Debilitating Anxiety that we never had before
• Loss of trust that things will be ok.
• And a lot more...

I also go on a tangent about lawn maintenance so I'm sorry lol.

I do a lot of these polls to see what y'all want to discuss, so if you don't already follow on Instagram, go here and be a part of the next poll>>>  @thekatherinelazar

Want to watch this episode? Go to my YouTube At a Total Loss channel!>>>  YOUTUBE

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Courtney's precious Conrad was born still after a seemingly perfect pregnancy. Her journey to this point is super insightful and extremely raw. We chat about literally everything in this episode. No really, like, wanna hear 2 loss moms just going IN on this whole situation, this is the episode. Does it sound like we're ranting? GOOD because we are and we are allowed to. Most *normal* mothers do this but with wayyy less intense subject matter. We are keeping it very real here.  Here is what else we talk about in this almost 2 HOUR episode...

• Being sent home without babies but with our mental health in extreme danger.
• Post Partum struggles
• The loss of her parents + the loss of her baby.
• We are expected to "move on" when we just cannot do that.
• Society likes to distance themselves from death yet sensationalize it on TV & film.
• Letting medical pros know how horrible this is so that they get it.
• The struggles of having a living baby after loss.
• Medications to take while struggling
• Relationship with God
• I told you we tackle a lot lol... AND there's more!

We just want this to help. You might not agree with everything you hear (that's ok) but at least one little nugget or glimmer is what we're going for here.

Find Courtney on Instagram at @courtneydouglascoaching

https://www.instagram.com/courtneydouglascoaching/

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Bri's daughter Caroline was diagnosed with a rare form of CHD called Ebstein’s Anomaly. Living in Sacramento, her and her husband moved to Stanford to ensure she received the best possible care. After Caroline was born, she spent 27 days fighting for her life until ultimately passing away peacefully in her mother's arms. Among her diagnoses it was also found that she had Pallister-Killian Syndrome (PKS) after she was born. 

Bri talks about this journey. From finding out about her daughter's rare disorder, to how to proceed, to giving birth to her daughter alive, to then deciding to do surgeries and the days she lived in the NICU. Bri walked away with zero regrets, something a lot of loss momma's wish they could do. 

Our hope is that this story finds someone who needs to hear it. Bri would love to connect with anyone who can resonate with Caroline's story or needs guidance navigating their own.  But no matter what your experiences are, it helps to hear about how to cope, how to hold onto hope, and how you are anything but alone.

Information on Ebstein's Anomaly: HERE

To connect with Bri, find her on Instagram at @brihansen 

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions! For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops! Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop  Instagram @thekatherinelazar  Youtube: @thekatherinelazar Email: [email protected] Website: www.katherinelazar.com  Some helpful resources: https://countthekicks.org/ https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/ https://www.pushpregnancy.org/ https://www.tommys.org/  Local to Atlanta: https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Loss of relationships is a HUGE topic after  baby death. In this episode, I break down the 4 categories of family & friend relationship loss that I see and hear about all the time.

1) People who choose to exit your life

2) Toxic people who you choose to separate from

3) Good intentioned people who just don't see your loss the same

4) Awesome people whose stage of life is too hard to be around.

I break each of these down and also dig into the fact that we have to take into accountability our own behaviors. It's a sticky situation and one that no one tells us how to navigate. i hope to shine light on this, help you feel less alone, and to potentially guide you in a way that helps you navigate it all.

Watch it on my At a Total Loss YouTube Channel!

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

I'm tackling the topic of having to make decisions after loss. While some don't think this is an issue, Loss Moms find it to be a massive one. Especially when it comes to PAL, babies, loved ones, & anything having to do with choices. 

\Loss changes us radically. So much so that everything becomes a matter of life & death even if it's a casual situation. The weight of having to make choices is almost paralyzing sometimes. Here I dive into it and shed some light on how I feel about it and what others I've spoke to feel as well. 

Hope it helps! 

To watch on YouTube:  At a Total Loss YouTube Channel

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions! 

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops! 

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop  

Instagram @thekatherinelazar  

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar 

Email: [email protected] 

Website: www.katherinelazar.com  

Some helpful resources: 

https://countthekicks.org/ 

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/ 

https://www.tommys.org/  

Local to Atlanta: https://www.northsidepnl.com/ 

Sharon's life changed forever with the tragic death of Matthew, her only child, when he was just 17 years old. She felt she had no purpose and became angry and lost. She then consulted with many mediums and received validating messages, proving that Matthew was still “alive” and was helping from the other side. Sharon realized that we all have the natural ability to communicate with our loved ones in spirit and that she too could become a medium.  This was her destiny, and a way to make some sense out of her tragedy by helping others.

This episode is Sharon's perspective on life after death and how our loved ones are still with us. Many Loss Mommas seek out the guidance of psychic mediums. So if you have ever been curious, here is a glimpse of what to expect if you work with one like Sharon.

To watch this episode, head to YouTube: At A Total Loss YouTube Channel

If you'd like to contact her:

Email: [email protected]

Website: https://sharonmcgregor.ca/

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

For Edlyn, lightning has struck twice: Her first son, Emiliano, was born still 6 years ago. And just 2 years ago, her daughter Avianna died at just 5 months old. She tells us their stories and how she has dealt with such incredible pain and heartbreak, as well as, the tremendous blame she puts on herself. Her perspective is inspiring and for anyone who needs a reminder of how to keep going, Edlyn is it. If she can, we can too.

This story is not to tell you not to have hope. This story is to show you how one person can survive the worst things a mother can go through and still stand, still laugh, still be a good person, and most of all still love herself. We hope this helps.

To talk to Edlyn, find her on Instagram at @edlynn.hernandez 

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Serena joins me to talk about her beautiful son, Christopher who died from Cord Stricture just one year ago. We talk about signs from him and the strong connection she has. Serena believes that we are all intuitive we just have to pay attention and recognize it. The signs from Christopher that she tells me about are WILD y'all. You have to listen!

I think once our baby dies, we still feel so connected. But what does that connection look like now that they're gone? This episode really does shine light on this and Serena radiates peace and simplifies what it means to stay connected to our babies.

I hope this episode helps

Please reach out to Serena if you feel called to. Find her on IG at @serena.elizabeth93 

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Anna joins me to talk about her beautiful daughter Evie, who was born still after a uterine abruption. Anna's pregnancies have been extremely high risk and accepting that it was ultimately too dangerous to carry again, she decided to contact a surrogate, or in this case a gestational carrier. She explains to us the complicated journey of finding one and going through the entire process.  We hope that this sheds light on a topic that is rather common within the loss community but that we find isn't spoken about as much.

*Please note that this was recorded after the ruling in Alabama therefore we do not discuss this topic.

If you are curious about surrogacy or have any questions, please feel free to reach out to Anna on Instagram @_anna.e.russell_ 

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: [email protected]

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/