We often think "being present" means that we are able to cultivate a sense of peace and happiness in our lives. As much as we might want to be present, particularly during the holidays, this can be much harder than it seems.  Last week, I explored the concept of holiday ambivalence - both loving and hating the holidays - and how this creates, rather than peace, a conflict in our mind as we beat ourselves up for not being more grateful and happy. I invited you to accept this concept of ambivalence and try to see what it might have to teach you. In this episode, I share the many emotions being present with my ambivalence - the love and hate of the holidays -  gave me the opportunity to learn and experience.