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Today I had an appointment with a lady who does this hair analysis which gives epi genetic information. And I went there and I was there at 10. And I thought my appointment was at 10. But it was at 1030. And I called her assistant and said my name, he didn't even have me on the computer. And then he said, Oh, it's double booked. But he still didn't say it was me that was double booked. So it was just really confusing. I don't know what he actually saw on his screen. And then I ended up leaving because I live close by so I wanted to make sure the other person got to see her. Because I've seen her before for other things. She's really, really good. And she said, she'd give me a bit of a deal. I have an appointment next Wednesday now. But it just felt like glitch in technology scenario. Sometimes when I get to certain places and consciousness, or when certain levels of consciousness are filtering through me. Technology stops working properly. I've had instances where I text somebody as me. But then that text turns into a text from somebody else on the other end, and I say something and they're like, Did you just text me blah, blah, blah, because it said, blah, blah, blah, from blah, blah, blah, long story short, it was just really confusing. And I was like, whoa, I'm just in that place where, where technology doesn't work. And actually, now that I think about it, I think it's the domain of the brain starting to work as a quantum computer, because there's more possibilities existing at the same time, there's overlapping realities. And, and I feel like I go into that state to sort of resolve some of the overlapping realities that are possible, including maybe preventing people from dying. In my reality, it makes it makes weird, it doesn't, doesn't make any sense. I know what I'm trying to say. But it's being in a state of being identified with consciousness, not with the body. And so the consciousness is rearranging things, and rearranging bodies, because consciousness is filtered through bodies. So I think I did talk before about how it's a quantum computation state. And so it's confusing because there are multiple realities overlapping simultaneously. And it's odd, because when one gets to that state, where multiple realities are overlapping simultaneously, and they're perhaps able to be in higher states of consciousness, and choose a different path, reality collapses, the wavefunction around the person being mentally ill, as opposed to maybe collapsing around them being a shaman, or a mystic or so many other things that happen in other cultures, or even possibilities within our culture if we start to see it, and frame it in a different way. And the thing is that as individuals get to those higher states of consciousness, and have to go back down, if they were able to stay up, all of reality would have to level up and then lower levels of consciousness would be edited out. And that means people get edited out. And with this glitch, today, I sort of realized that there could be two realities, like in one reality, he put me in the computer, and in the one he's in now, he didn't put me in the computer, and he doesn't even remember me. So I remember that, but I think people when they're in the level of programming, can actually forget those things. So the confusion exists in the one that remembers the two overlapping realities. And the person that doesn't remember is like, What are you talking about? You're just crazy. So seeing things, from a higher perspective, is confusing. And sometimes I have to be like, Okay, well, that was kind of a glitch in the matrix for me. for them. It just was like, why I don't think I put that in there. Not in your names, not even in the computer on my side yet I saw it in the computer on the lady side, who I was going to see is symbolic and part of it is material. And part of it is communication. So at a different level of consciousness is actually hard to communicate with those at lower levels of consciousness because they're distracted. They're who knows doing 10 things at once, and then you try to say something and you think they actually get what you're saying, and they don't. So it's difficult for different levels of consciousness to communicate with each other. It's really, it's really strange. I actually have a sense that the programs and the habits are actually like computer programs, words and thoughts are like computer programs, and they take us over those mind viruses and, and through the process of map consciousness, psychosis mania, we're actually being decoupled from that computer programming. And we're actually getting into a state where we're trying to relearn how to be humans, and not rely on that programming, because everybody's relying on that programming. And then some of us go into a place where we're starting to practice not being attached to that programming. But then we eventually get captured and put into a different kind of programming for us to never again, explore, not acting based on our past programming. And I feel like once we start to act, in the moment, not based on our past programming, we're fully alive as human beings. Otherwise, we're just alive as a biological phenomenon. But we're not actually living life. We're being lived by the programming, we're just hosts to this programming. I actually feel like, like technology is more fundamental than biology and, and technology created biology. And it's a matter of biology trying to be reborn out of the technology. Anyways, I haven't really fully figured that out yet. And it might be one of those things I don't want to figure out. Because I sort of realized, I'm totally alone. I'm totally responsible. I think this is what we get connected with, when we feel like oh, I have to save the world. And I have to do all this stuff, is because we're actually alone in our alive vnus is everyone sort of, in their computer mind, everyone is sort of like a computer with a screensaver up. There's some processing going on in the background, but it's not really weak. I'm sure I'll go into that more later. There's something about this consciousness, quantum computation and level of consciousness being funneled through biology. And right now, it's being converted into thought, which is controlling us through habits and programs. It's not being channeled into creating life, it's not being channeled into being creative. And so I did, quit my job, and I have two weeks to go. So I will have to do some more work in these next two weeks. So I might not have much time to talk to myself. But I feel I need to talk to myself at least half an hour a day. And then it takes half an hour to edit that. So that's an hour a day. Whereas if I make an hour and a half of staff, that's three hours. And that might be a little too much right now. But I just want to remind myself that it's good to at least talk to myself somewhat, especially because these two weeks will be pretty intense in terms of thinking about the mental health system, which is a lower level of consciousness that I want to be a channel of. And for California, I'm thinking of making a medical ID tag bracelet, and you can type in stuff online, of what you want it to say. And so I typed in some stuff that's sort of like a spoof medical ID. And I'll insert the picture here. What do you Should I do that? Do you think anyone will understand what that means? I won't do it that way, that wouldn't be good. But I do want to write something on it that is a little bit out there, but not too out there. Because the purpose is still for me to get help. If I need it, if I go too far into the quantum domain and get afraid, because I'm there all by myself, then computer people will come and rescue me and Medicaid me back into this reality. And that's fine. I was thinking about a symbol for transconscious neuro tribe. And so I created a sticker with this website, because I looked up rainbow brain, because the autism neuro tribe has a rainbow infinity symbol as their symbol for their neuro tribe. And so I was thinking, Well, what about a brain that's a rainbow color. So I found that, and then it was a website that you can create stickers. So I created a sticker, and it has a brain that is rainbow. And then it's in the shape of a heart, around the brain. So the rainbow brain, and then the heart and the background is black. And then I put in this writing overtop of the brain transconscious altruists, and I don't know if that's a good name. I'm sure there could be infinite names to describe it. But basically, in his talking about how consciousness can be trans one can identify as one's ego self, or one can identify as the self or consciousness itself or the whole, or, or oneness or whatever the heck you want to call it. And I like the altruist part, because part of that, I feel is that it's a state where we get in connection with altruism, because we see we're all one. So it's not, oh, I need to be altruistic. It's that's how we are innately when we see that we are one. And altruism is his selfless service. And that itself acknowledges that we don't have a self, we don't have an ego. It's a necessary construct is part of programming. And maybe we need it, in order to operate in the programming of society, we need to be aware of those programs in order to somewhat operate. And actually that could be part of the struggle of autism is that the brain can be programmed in that way with language with word viruses. So it's difficult for them to operate in society, which is just based on programs on on all these constructs that we've been given, and they have difficulty with them. And I think that that's part of the evolution of consciousness is to not be able to be programmed in that way, whether it's through the transconscious process later in life, or whether it's by being born on the autism spectrum. And it seems like consciousness is starting to edit out the programming sounds like it's saying, okay, we don't need these programs anymore. We needed them in order to create these structures. But now, now it's become too much, we have to actually put the humanity back in all of these structures that we've created. It was great to be able to build it all. But now we need that humanity. And Temple Grandin wrote a book called the unwritten rules of society, because she saw all these rules that she could see, but they're not written. And I don't think they're written because they're programmed into us. But she couldn't be programmed with them. So she had to actually observe what these rules were of society to live by. So in the same way, what I'm saying is a transconscious, a transconscious person can still appear to operate as if they have an ego, the solid ego, and maybe they do have some to a certain extent, but it's not really solid. It's more convenience to actually interact with the programming of society. And then one, and then when one isn't and society when doesn't need to be actually Believing in those programs, I'm wondering if the light body version of a person is their non programmed version. And that's always there as the original trajectory, and then the programming rights over that. And that can be eliminated in an instant. And I remember how I looked at this woman at 711. And she turned into her flamboyant version of herself. And then I looked away and look back. And she was back to that old sort of tired out worn out person version of herself. So it's actually there. We're all living has that beautiful version of ourselves, it's just a matter of actually getting in alignment with that, which can happen in an instant, doesn't take time. And there's nothing we can do to get there. Because it's already here. We actually just have to see the programming really and negate the programming. Like that's just programming. Goodbye. And I feel consciousness is transitioning the brain. It's transitioning the brain out of that habitual programmed mode into more degrees of freedom of gesture and movement. And that is what it is to really be alive. Not to be programmed. Perhaps some of these are means for a new neural tribe. They're Weems they're not means. Means are about a separate me. And there is no separate me from life. There's we I feel manic consciousness is partly powerful words, powerful means powerful whims from powerful observation. Wonder if first we have to be altruistic towards ourselves. save ourselves first, sort of like an aeroplane, you're instructed to put on your oxygen mask before helping others? Well, perhaps in transconsciousness, we have to put on our oxytocin mask, before helping others the inner human dimensions, that compassion that love can't be programmed. And maybe it's the only thing that can erase the programming. I was thinking about how that woman I know visited me in the sidewalk in April. And after her visit, my level of consciousness shifted upwards quite significantly. It could have been the accumulation of people visiting to we're trying to transfer everything else besides the inner human dimensions that can't be programmed to the machines. So it's really important that as we create more technology and export these mechanical aspects of humanity to the machines, that we're equally able to reconnect with our inner human dimensions, the things that can't be programmed, and it's probably a complete reciprocal or inverse relationship that has to happen. articulation creates neurons articulating context, we have to learn how to not exist as habits. Which just means we have to learn because if we're learning, we're not being habitual map consciousness is brain puberty. It goes from the me circuits of the prefrontal cortex, and dopamine to the we circuits of the whole brain and oxytocin in the body. Which gets us actually realizing that we have a body. I'm going to talk about this before, but Amy Cuddy talks about the power poses, and how standing a certain way for a few minutes can make us feel better. While imagine always being altruistic, and always acting and oneness and always being kind, those are actions, those are gestures, and those are gonna make us feel good too. And I think self dialog might make us feel better to the gesture of self dialog could be an act of compassion, and self love. Giving the brain a chance to talk to itself in a different way than we're used to. We have these repetitive thoughts happening, and we don't actually activate a process, a conversation with ourselves a dialogue with ourselves. And we're looking for our own brain. We're looking for our brain to be active and to be growing and to be neuroplastic. And the process of self dialogue helps with this. And that's actually what we're trying to activate by all of our seeking, when we could just sit here and talk to ourselves, and then find when our brain actually turns back on properly, that now we're more engaged in each moment of the day, and there's nothing to seek because each moment is here with us when it arrives. And that's all there is. And this process of self dialog is making psychiatry obsolete for myself. Because I remember being in the psych ward and wanting to make that paternalistic psychiatry obsolete. It's, it can be helpful to have medication and things at times. But to be paternalist like that is not helpful. It's very detrimental. It's the opposite of unconditional love. So this process of self dialog, perhaps is helping me make it obsolete within my own neurology. And I'm finding when I have conversations, that what I say feels more powerful and empowering, as it's more in alignment with what I've been talking to myself about, which is how I would choose to think about things or the context I've created for myself to be able to uphold that. I make oxytocin through my own gestures, which is relational. And I grow brain cells with my words, which are vibrational and self dialog, which is conversational. So I become my own pharmacist in my own pharmacy inwardly
I was playing with my DNA tangler thingamajiggy. And I realized that a good chunk of the human brain is devoted to the hand, we have lots of sensation our fingertips and, and so much of the brain is devoted to that. And at the same time, so much of society has been created by the human hand, we wouldn't be able to actually create this without our hands. So even if we had a thought of something, even if we were the same, but didn't have these hands, we wouldn't actually be able to build anything that we thought about. So thought, is strongly tied to the human hand, in a way, or it could be that we have so many thoughts, because we're not actually using our hands. creatively, we're only using them habitually. And then I was wondering if playing with this, which stimulates the hands while talking about stuff and thinking about stuff, and self dialogue would actually help to grow the brain. In a way, extrapolating and learning in this way, plus, doing this might be a type of brain cross training, because the brain cells devoted to the hands are being activated at the same time as the brain cells that are growing through new thoughts. New means, epi, mimetics and domotics. So in a way to, it could possibly get those ideas into motion through the hands at some point in the future, because at least the hands have been firing at the same time as these insights, I have no idea if that's true. But I just remembered that a lot of the human brain is the human hand. And in a way, everything has been created by the human hand. So in a way that the brain is the human hand, and what it's created. But it also can create through just thinking and thoughts. And it's no wonder that we feel good when we're using our hands, because then we're not thinking so much because we're using our hands. So using the hands be very important. And when that doctor talks about how touch actually stimulates circulation in the other person due to this electron thing that happens? Well, if we think about how a lot of the human brain is devoted to the hand, we're actually really touching someone with our brain, a lot of our brain when we're touching them with our hand. And then how does gesturing with the hands and a wave, change the hand neurons in the brain. So if we're always just holding our heads like this, for the rest of our lives, we're going to get stuck like that stuck like that in our brain, too. Whereas if we're using our hands in a lot of different ways to wave, shake, hands, hug whatever else, then that's going to help our brain neuro plastically as well. I watched a TED talk by and Herman Nettie. And she was talking about how the brain turns things into auto pilot wiring. And I was thinking about how it's, it's good to turn certain things into autopilot, like, like driving or different skills like that, but interacting with life interacting with other human beings. We don't want to turn that into autopilot. We don't want to turn those into efficiencies, because that is like, assuming we're interacting with a machine. And imagine if we could turn being super loving and kind into autopilot. So right now through our brain programs, we've turned separateness and division into autopilot, but what if we acted and responded to life? With love, that requires not being on autopilot at all. But our auto pilots have us stuck in habits that prevent us from connecting in those ways. And she says the trouble with autopilot is that when things change, we get caught off guard. And that's kind of a silly statement in a way because things are always changing. And then when we finally notice something changed, we're caught off guard. So noticing that something change could actually be a good thing, it could be a clue that we got out of autopilot for a moment. And she gave the example of trying to learn to use the other hand, and how that can be draining. Because those circuits haven't really been activated as much in the brain. What's the same with map consciousness, we're trying to activate different circuits and their higher energy circuits and that it can be draining after a while being in that state of consciousness. So we do come back to ego consciousness to have a consciousness. And we need to rest before we can move into that space again, into that space of infinite change which life is infinite changes. Just because we're caught in habits, we don't notice we don't see it. It's all there. It's all changing, we can change which bits of information we make salient. And the only way to do that is by not being caught in habit at all. The brain is trying to learn how to use the altruism and love and compassion pathways. And it can be frustrating in this world that's not designed to mirror those pathways back to the brain. autopilot is our personal view. It's our personality. When we're not learning, she talked about how we have 7.4 hours of screen time a day or three months out of the year of screen time. And another TED Talk said we have 11 hours a day of screen time. Either way, I was thinking about how the screen can be utilized to grow the brain in a creative learning mode, or it can be used in order to put the brain in passive mode. So when the brain is in passive mode, it's off, it's pretty much sleeping. So for me, I'm using my screen for self dialogue, and then to edit the dialogue as well. And I also use this screen to type up some of the things that I want to talk about. And so in that way, I'm using it as an extension of my brain to grow my brain. I'm not using it that much for passive things. I don't really watch any TV except maybe once every month or two I'll sit down and like spend a day watching movies on netflix. But other than that, not really. So even if I watch a TED Talk, I'm I'm actively engaged. I'm thinking of what I see from what they're saying. And thinking outside what they're saying, not just absorbing what they're saying, an example of autopilot would be since I got my bad day, now autopilot gets me to pull the little lever to spray my butt, as opposed to reaching for the toilet paper. Now, that is something that is good to have, as a reflex as a choice of what I do. I don't want to actually do that in terms of things relating to humanity and the heart. If I don't talk about my TED Talk extrapolations right away, I sort of lose the flavor of what it was that I was extrapolating slightly at least so then I watched a TED talk by Anthony chain. And he was saying, if we had a notification on our computer screen, saying a new version of the software is available for download. We would download it or if we didn't, eventually the computer isn't working as well. So the software download is in order to keep everything running smoothly. And I actually think mania and map consciousness is a software download at downloads the new software of the map of reality to move towards oneness and love and mania in a way. And when we've downloaded all that we can download, and then we come back down to the level of society. And then we have that download in order to have it as software to inform our lives moving forward. And that goes with harvest Germania harvest that software download that we were given and just as Weight Training is to grow muscle mania is neuroplastic training to change the brain to see things in a different way. We grow more brain cells and have more contacts so we can actually carry the universe. So we can actually move that world into manifestation. And he talked about accepting the terms and conditions of the download and how nobody reads that. And in a way, going into manic consciousness is accepting the terms and conditions of the download, but not reading the rules. And so we download it. And then we come back to this reality. And we didn't read the rules. But in a way, we can go back and we can harvest and we can understand some of the rules that we experienced in that other state of consciousness. So in a way, harvest practice and body is figuring out the terms and conditions that we were reading when we were in that state. But since we're back from that state, we don't have the terms and conditions anymore. So we have to actually move towards creating those terms and conditions within our neurology. And I think that was one of the terms and conditions of the download is, I will be responsible for moving towards this, in actuality, it probably says I promise to act this way and embody this even when the energy wears off. And I understand that it's my job to co create heaven on earth, even if other people can't see it or feel it. It's not just about watching lots of TV and creating heaven in the brain cells of the prefrontal cortex and being passively lulled into a waking sleep. And he said, make the conscious choice to deal with what's right in front of you. And this was just a quick statement he made, it wasn't something he was emphasizing. But my brain thought to itself, that's all we can really deal with is what's right in front of us. But we're so busy abstracting in our brains, and we put that in front of us, and it's not real. So we can't actually deal with that we can only deal with what is right in front of us. And then I was starting to think about things like what's right in front of us is what creates our life and creates our brain, for example, a TV right in front of me, versus going for a walk in nature and having that in front of me, that is going to change my brain. And even what's underneath us, we could have the dirt of the earth on our feet, or we could be sitting on a couch. So what is in front of us and what is underneath us is partly what creates our brain in the physical world, but we're so busy lost in our own mental world that we're not, we don't even really see what's really in front of us. But that's the only thing we can actually deal with is like what is right in front of us. But we can go on a path towards unfolding what we would like to be in front of us. But we can only do that by actually changing what's in front of us. We can't do that by rearranging thoughts in our brain. And by rearranging thoughts in our brain, we think we're doing something, but we're not. And I also thought of it in terms of aging. So we always have a phone in front of us and then we're hunching forward and forward and forward. And eventually, we're stooped over and our vertebrae fuse because we're, that's what it does in order to prevent our head from falling between our feet. And that is going to age us. Or as they say, now sitting is the leading cause of death. So that's what's underneath us as a coach and what's in front of us as a TV that is going to partly determine our longevity. And again, it's how we're orienting ourselves in the field of gravity. And even with things like say smoking cigarettes. Why is the cigarette right in front of me? Why is this? Alcohol right in front of me day after day? If it's not in front of us, it can't affect us. Watching too much of the news like why are we putting that in front of us? Why are we putting that in our awareness? Why are we putting that in our perceptual field So mania tries to change what's in front of us. We can't sit still, we can't do the same thing. Everything is interesting. We're like a kid in a candy store. We're like one of those moths that can't look away from the light. We're interested in everything. And we're just going everywhere. And by changing what's in front of us, we're changing our brains. And we're seeing ourselves a new and feeling ourselves a new, it's spontaneous, it's random. It's synchronistic. It's intelligent. Why does that energy want us to put different things in front of us, it wants us to see different things, wants us to experience different things, we've created our life by what we put in front of us. mania changes are programmed habitual way of being of going in circles, both physically and mentally, to being on a pathless. path, a path with no path. It's a path of just perceiving moment to moment and seeing what that unfolds. And after the download is complete, sometimes we need to restart. And I watched a TED talk by Scott le. And I made a note of wondering how do we create with time? Because they say, how do you use your time? How do you spend your time? How do you create your time, how do you create with time, is right now we're spending time we're not creating with time. And in a way, it's by what we put in front of us, even what we put in front of us, in our perceptual field, to our mind screen. Say jealousy, perhaps that's how we're creating with our time, we're creating jealousy with our time. We're creating hate with our time or creating anger with our time. That puts things into a different perspective than just saying, I am angry. I'm creating time with anger, and each one of us has the same amount of time in a day. And people that are creating that time as anger, are putting that into the field of space time that we all share. And that in itself is that level of consciousness and it's additive in that level of consciousness. I feel mapped consciousness is course, correction software. It changes how we approach what's in front of us. And that's a good question, how do we approach what's right in front of us? I feel that mob consciousness is intelligence trying to come online. And so an experience of mania would be exercising, intelligence. And I thought of how a way to measure screen time is that if a person utilizes the screen and is able to extrapolate something, their own insights, not just recall what the person said, but see some kind of connection or some kind of higher thought from that thought, then it's not necessarily wasted time, it's actually time. Time that has created something else. It's time that creates something new in our neurology or within our brain, as opposed to passively absorbing what was already said, somebody already created that sentence and said it. Now if we can create a new thought or word or sentence from what it is that we absorb, and we can extrapolate from that, then time has just actually been amplified in a way because it's amplified in our brain, we saw something new. And when we see something new, that's mirrored in our brains. And I feel like that is what could warp space time is when we see something new. And that changes our brain. But if we're just seeing and absorbing, and not actually extrapolating, not critically thinking or lateral thinking, then we're just actually we're not All unconsciously are being used, we're being drained, we're not being creative. So if a person says, Well, I'm going to watch two hours less TV a day, and the TV that I do watch, I'm going to extrapolate, then it could actually be a vehicle to higher consciousness and, and brain cell growth as opposed to not because the thing with technology is we can access a lot more information. And, and I was watching some TED talks that talk about how we don't actually change ourselves based on TED talks or anything. And I think part of it is that we're not extrapolating, we're just smiling and nodding. Because we've gotten to this place where we think learning is just listening, when it's really actually seeing the beyond of what's being said. But we have been trained out of seeing the beyond, and every now and then we see the beyond, we're like, wow, I'm such a genius. Well, genius is being able to do that all the time. And I think the brain gets fatigued because we're not extrapolating, I could probably do this all day long. And I wouldn't, I wouldn't lose energy. But when we're just passively absorbing, we're being drained. Whereas when we're making new connections, we're getting blood flow to our brain extra blood flow. And that's going to give the brain energy. There's a difference between thinking with what somebody is saying, and just listening. He also had a quote that said, when it gets right, you have to make it fall. I would say sometimes it falls on its own. And that wasn't his quote. But I was thinking about how if a fruit falls from a tree, when it's ripe, someone can either pick it up right away and eat it. Or it might actually grow a whole new tree might actually grow a whole new world, which is the tree. And I was thinking about how when the brain gets to that high point in mania, and then it falls, it's almost like it's this ripened fruit. And it can either get eaten, or it can grow a new tree. I feel like our brains are seeds, their seeds of consciousness. So when we get to that ripeness point, and then we fall back down. Now, we're not just the fruit, we're the whole tree. What I'm trying to say is, even as human beings on this earth, we think when we reach adulthood, that that's our peak. That adulthood that we reach could just be a seed for a different level of humanity that we don't even understand yet. Because it's interesting, we get to that high point and then we fall just like a fruit was seeds. And so I think when we fall back to this reality, we're seeds for that other reality. We have to move towards it. We're the seed we have that whole tree, the whole blueprint of the tree within us and we can grow that tree. Right now. What happens is that the pharmaceutical company just comes along and eats our fruit and our seats never get planted.
I watched a TED talk by Tom accessor. And he started with a Gandhi quote saying, the difference between what we're doing, and what we're capable of doing, would solve most of the world's problems. And of course, I extrapolate everything to map consciousness to transconsciousness. And mania shows us the difference between what we're doing in our life and what we're capable of doing, or how we're capable of being as a human being. And it shows us how we're capable of seeing how we're capable of seeing the world, what attitude we're capable of having, what perspectives we're capable of taking. And this was the guy that was talking about how TED Talks, don't do anything to change people, really. And I actually feel like mania is an experience of embodying all the TED Talks, without even having to think about it. So all that amazing research people are doing about all these different potential realities that human beings possess. One goes into that state and is living that way in daily life, and not as some super sports athlete that they had to work hard to be for 10 years in order to perfect the sport, but just automatically without trying to do anything, like an act of grace. And then being that way in daily life in one's daily actions without having to have any particular thing, no motivation, no desire for anything in particular, not trying to do anything. And by not trying to do anything, one can do anything. Because by not forcing oneself into a single line of action, or being or programming, one has access to the way by which one can deprogram oneself by just being intensely there in the present moment. And what does that even mean? It just means seeing, seeing the present moment, as the present moment, from the perspective of the present moment, as it arises, whatever arises as that it's, it's sort of like what Krishna Murty calls choiceless awareness, because one is not choosing anything, when it's just very aware, if one has a motive, if one has made a choice about something, that means one cannot be aware of the rest of the field of reality. So by not choosing, by not having a motive by not having a desire. Everything is there. As it is because we don't need to desire in order for all to be there here right now. mania shows us what we're capable of. It gives us a map of what we're capable of. And I remember how well I was able to rollerblade in that state. So I think, Oh, am I supposed to do more of that? I think normal people need to listen to us, and dance with us and follow our lead. Because we can lead people out of the programming. It's not a matter of listening to TED talks in order to get more programming. It's not the answer. It's to see that we are programmed. Because when we can see, not only can we see everything, we can also see the programming. We're blinded by dopamine, we compare everything to that reflex, we compare everything to the dopamine program. Is this good? Is this bad? Will this give me pleasure as part of my desire, and that in itself is dopamine. We don't need desire when we can see clearly because what we desire is to see clearly we desire seeing but desire prevents seeing. He gave an example of how there was this fish that fishermen used to throw as waste. And then they changed the name of the fish from Patagonian toothfish to Chile and sea bass. And when they changed it to Chile and sea bass. It was then marketable for sale. It was quite a scary looking fish. So to make it desirable, they changed the name So thinking, in terms of so called bipolar disorder, if I call it transconscious, altruism, that would be something that maybe even normal people would want, they might desire to be a visionary. And people do desire to be a visionary. And that's a visionary state. So we've given it the wrong name. And then from that, it precipitates everything else. That's why I made my little stickers of transconscious altruist and I even put the writing in a font that makes it really hard to read. So people either have to really try to read it, or they're not going to get it, they're going to actually have to see. And part of that is how I define myself is going to have an impact on my life on how my life unfolds, because he was saying, he was saying, we are who we think we are, are the stories we have of ourselves. So that's why I feel it's so detrimental for one to hold a story of lifelong mental illness in their hearts and minds. He said, how I define myself will change the way I live. And we can only evolve our stories we have about ourselves. So for me part of self dialogue is evolving the story that I have about myself, and I don't even tell myself stories about myself, but this will do it in my brain cells, neurologically, it'll change the way I see things, because I'll have those brain cells. So when something comes up, I will see it in a different context, I will see it in a different light. And he talked about how in life we make predictions, our mind makes predictions about things and we act based on our predictions. Well, mania is just like predictions amplified. So the mind already works in a predictive way. And then in mania, it gets to a point where maybe it predicts to the point where it's supposedly hallucinating or delusional or, or prophetic. And then we think, Whoa, what's happening? Well, it's just a natural process in the brain turned on to a higher power. He said, who we think we are is why we do what we do. And that's true in terms of how now I don't feel I can work in the mental health system, because that's not who I am. And I feel the story that we tell about ourselves to who we think we are, is part of how we can design a different game. In reality. mania shows us there is a different game, in reality, it's the game of love and compassion. And he talked about something really interesting. He talked about there was an experiment done, where people in virtual reality could decide to fly or not fly. And the people who decided to fly, were way more likely to help other people in the real world. Think about that. Now, in mania, most people feel like a superhero at some point. Or they feel like they're here to save the world. And all these things, they feel these altruistic feelings. Some people feel like they can fly, or they might be able to fly. And this experiment shows that just allowing somebody to fly in virtual reality, meaning, a gesture, a posture, an action that is equated to a superhero, is going to make them more likely to come and help other people in reality. What is mania doing, it's doing the same thing. But it's doing it for weeks or months at a time. And a person is actually feeling like they are a superhero. So when they come back to reality, part of the point is to go and be a superhero. Even though one has come back from that virtual actuality feeling of being a superhero, actually, it's giving us that feeling. It's giving us that posture, it's giving us that gesture of feeling like a superhero, so we can feel how freakin good it is. So we come back to this reality. And we actually act that way. And the people in the experiment didn't know that was what they were testing for. So it was just those feelings inside because they didn't fly for real. Just the feelings inside that inspire them to embody the role of superhero in real life. And they had no clue. So giving people that experience in virtual reality. made them more altruistic. Now, consciousness, the universe can do the exact same thing in virtual actuality of mania, map consciousness. And then people come back. And that's why I feel it's really important to connect people with their altruism right away, because they were just in the state of feeling like they're a freakin superhero. And then they come back. And instead of saying, Don't worry, you're a superhero. you're down and out right now, you'll get re energized, and we're going to get you back on the path of helping the world. No, there's that you're defective, you're diseased, you're, you're wrong. It's just crap. So again, map consciousness isn't a problem, it's a solution, I feel part of that. experiment is that people feel powerful. If they feel like they flew, they feel powerful. And that probably activates these really high levels in the brain because they're able to do things that they didn't think they could do. And that's partly what map consciousness does. Even if a person doesn't try to fly or think they can fly. they're experiencing all these other things that they're capable of doing and increasing their power. If two minutes of opposed standing with your hands on your hips, is going to make you feel powerful. Try two months in a state where you feel you can accomplish anything that's going to make a person feel powerful, but that power runs out, we can still get back to us, it's imprinted in our brain. Look what happened to people with experience flying in virtual reality, they didn't actually fly. And then they are more altruistic. mania and psychosis is trying to do the exact same thing. All the things we're trying to do in experiments in science, consciousness can do. We are that consciousness. So anything we try to do is mirrored within consciousness. Map consciousness allows us to actualize our potential. So then we can come back and move towards actualizing our potential but not just for our personal selves, because a lot of us are out there in regular life actualizing our potential just for our own selves. And this state requires an altruistic brain. The missing piece, probably to a lot of these TED Talk things and actually being able to live that way, is altruism. Because all those high capacities of humanity are not personal. They're not for personal gain, and personal gain motive. Desire. prevents it from being actualized. So trying to do it for a reason, like money, or fame, or all these things, is going to prevent it from happening. And you know, some people do get money and fame and all that, and then they get to the top and realize it's not all it was cut out to be because they're alone. And the thing with math consciousness is we actualize yourself internally, subjectively. And then we come back here to do that, in reality, just like the people who flew in virtual reality, that was inner subjective, didn't actually happen, wasn't manifested, but then they come back to reality, and they act in those other ways. The act of flying, made them feel like Superheroes In Real Life. And I feel that's partly why it's important to tell oneself one's amazing stories of all the things one actualize within consciousness subjectively, and partly objectively in life through the experiences of map consciousness, is it's an equivalent of doing a power pose, it's, it's going back to that place where it's like, oh, yeah, I was able to be that way. And to remember how when was in that state, and to eliminate those things that impede that from happening on a daily basis. So it's very important to change the story. And that's why I've told myself a lot of stories. And I've told myself a lot of different things in order to write over the story of just thinking that my brain is defective. It's altruist consciousness. It's oxytocin consciousness. We need to be altruists and not have motives that are separate from life. And he said, we become the stories we tell ourselves and that's why it's important not to tell oneself the story of pathology. It's just a story.
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