In this story episode of Unashamed, Unafraid, Sam and Mason interview Cam, a BYU construction management student preparing to commission as a combat engineer officer. He tells how his porn addiction grew out of achievement pressure, comparison with high-achieving siblings, and deep shame. After moving frequently and living in a high-performance community, Cam internalized “you’re stupid,” then attended a harmful youth program that taught him to see sexuality as evil and God as vengeful. Family stress, his dad losing a job, not getting into West Point, and later COVID intensified depression and escalated acting out, including on his mission. Through honest disclosure, therapy, sponsors, and “rescuing little Cam” with connection, self-care, and patience, Cam’s view of God shifted to a loving, patient healer, and with support from his wife he now reports 15 months sober and a renewed sense of purpose.

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Timestamps:

00:00 Welcome and UCAP Update

01:41 Meet Cam

02:31 Pressure and Shame Growing Up

04:23 Porn Exposure and Toxic Program

06:22 Family Stress and West Point Collapse

08:55 Rock Bottom and Escalation

09:42 Mission Struggles and God Image

12:28 Therapy and Finding Little Cam

16:04 Healing Through Pain and Self Care

19:41 Relationships and Marriage Safety

22:18 A New View of God

25:19 Your Own Recovery