Okay so this isn't one of those "just checking in 😇" message.

It's the last day to join FMBM. Like, ever.

No reopening.

No "maybe later."

It's *closing time* 🎶

And I wanted to send something that actually felt like me.

Which is why I'm ending the HELD IN HER STORIES series with a story from a lovely FMBM graduate, Dana.

Dana talks about how, very quickly into TTC, the pressure took over. How age narratives, fear, and scarcity turned something so special into an emergency.

She joined FMBM because even more than wanting a baby, she wanted herself back.

⭐️How surrender sounded nice… but felt impossible.

⭐️How reading my book gave her the first sense of relief she'd felt in a long time.

⭐️And how joining FMBM didn't magically make things easy – but gave her a place where she didn't have to pretend she had it together – so she could unravel what wasn't working.

What stood out most to me in this conversation is how clearly she describes the shift: Nothing changed because she tried harder. Things changed because she stopped fighting herself.

FMBM gave her the space, support, and surrender to face the fear underneath the urgency, and to learn how to be with uncertainty w/o turning on herself.

And guess what? She's now weeks away from giving birth 🥹

But the part that matters most to me? She learned how to trust herself before life resolved anything.

That's the heart of Fertility Mind-Body Mastery. Not just getting pregnant. But knowing you can feel relief on the way to what you want the most. You can stop waiting to get your life back ❤️

So if you've been listening… reading… circling… If something in your body keeps saying this feels different —

I just want you to know: This is the absolute last day to join Fertility Mind-Body Mastery.

And my honest question for you is:

Do you want to keep resisting this experience…

or meet yourself inside it?

👉 LISTEN NOW!

If you've ever hit that one-year mark and thought, "Okay. That's it. Something's wrong with me…" this episode is going to land in all the cells of your body.

In today's Held in Her Stories episode, I sit down with Chelsea — one of the incredible women inside Fertility Mind-Body Mastery — and she lets you into the real behind-the-scenes of her journey:

Not the polished Instagram version. The crying to a friend because it's been a year version. The buying every book, every supplement, every device version. The "I'll try anything that worked for someone else" version.

You know… the human version.

Inside this episode, we go there:

• The moment she realized she'd spent so much money trying to "do it right"… and why none of it actually touched the part of her that was truly hurting

• What it really means to be "in tune" with yourself when you're TTC (hint: it does not mean you're pregnant yet, and it does not mean you never have fearful thoughts)

• The HUGE shift that happened when she stopped outsourcing her decisions to doctors, family, and the internet — and started trusting her own channel again

• The wild sign she and her husband received on a hill in San Francisco… from a dog… with the exact name they want to give their baby 😭

• How FMBM helped her go from critiquing her body (former dancer life, mirror always on "what's wrong") to thanking her body for a cycle and feeling her emotions as proof that she's alive

This isn't a story about someone who did one mindset shift and got pregnant overnight.

This is about a woman who reclaimed her self-trust, her body, her voice, her creativity, and her life while still on the journey to her baby.

Meaning, you don't have to keep waiting to feel good.

Listen if…

• You've bought all the things, done all the things, and still feel like you're failing somehow

• You secretly believe you have to be perfectly healed / perfectly positive / perfectly self-loving before your baby will come

• You're tired of fertility content that talks at you instead of making you feel less alone and less broken

This episode is a love letter to the part of you that is so done performing and so ready to be loved and accepted — exactly as you are.

Let it release all that tension while you go for a walk, fold laundry, or lie in bed doing absolutely nothing productive.

You get to be human here. AND incredibly fertile.

👉 LISTEN NOW!

If you've ever thought…

⭐️"I should be further along by now." ⭐️"Once I finally get pregnant, then I'll feel okay." ⭐️"If I don't control this, it won't happen…"

…then this week's Fertile Ground episode is for you.

It's part of my Held in Her Stories series — real women, real fertility journeys — and this one with my client Macey is… a lot. In the best, most honest way.

Macey got pregnant the very first month she tried. Then she miscarried two months later.

She was still bleeding from her loss when her best friends announced their pregnancy — the friends she had always dreamed of being pregnant with at the same time.

From there, she went straight into:"I need to get pregnant again. I need to catch up. I need that baby back. Once I get that baby, I'll be okay."

Every period felt like reliving the miscarriage. Every cycle felt like proof she had "failed" again.

Until she found my book Fertile Ground, and then joined Fertility Mind-Body Mastery — not because she was in a good place, but because she was miserable and would've tried anything to feel even a tiny bit of peace again. (Hint: You don't have to feel perfect to ask for help!)

In this episode, Macey shares:

• The moment she realised her suffering was coming more from her perspective than from her circumstances.

• How she went from obsessively needing a baby to realising, "If I never had kids, my life is actually… beautiful."

• The difference between clean grief ("I'm sad this didn't happen") and dirty grief ("I messed up, I failed again").

• How she stopped treating her body like an enemy and started seeing it as a teammate.

• The wild month she genuinely found herself looking forward to her period — not because she didn't want a baby, but because she knew she could hold herself through whatever came.

• Why getting a puppy instead of waiting for a "hypothetical baby" became a nervous-system-level turning point… and what happened right after. 😉

This is not a before-and-after "I suffered, then I did this program, and now everything is perfect" story.

It's a story about:

✨Letting go of the pressure to prove you're worthy.

✨Taking the baby off the pedestal (without pretending you don't want it).

✨Learning that you don't have to be "doing more" to deserve love, support, or a beautiful life.

✨What it actually looks like to get your life back while you're still on the fertility journey.

If your heart has been heavy lately… If the holidays amplify the ache… If you feel like everyone else is "moving on with their lives" while you're stuck in baby limbo…

I would love for you to curl up with a tea, take a deep breath, and listen to this conversation. It's soooo healing!

👉 LISTEN NOW!

If we're honest… for a lot of us, TTC quietly turns our partner into a project.

Did you take your vitamins? Don't get in the hot tub. Drink more water. Not that beer. Let me just manage literally everything so this can finally work.

On top of tracking, appointments, and Google spirals… you end up carrying the mental load for you, your body, and your partner.

And suddenly, the person you fell in love with feels more like… a fertility coworker you're constantly correcting. 😬

Today's podcast is medicine for that part of the journey.

🎧 New episode: Held in His & Her Stories — with my husband, Dan.

In this episode, I bring my husband Dan (yes, the famous spreadsheet-loving money guy 😉) onto the mic to talk about:

• What happens in a marriage when control becomes your default survival strategy

• How our differences (he's a doer, I'm a feeler) almost pulled us apart… and then became our superpower

• Why healthy conflict is not a sign something's wrong, but the doorway to deeper intimacy

• What it actually feels like, from a man's perspective, when he's being micromanaged vs. trusted

• The quiet, very un-Instagrammable power of vulnerability — and how it made our marriage feel like a dream again (his words, not mine 🥹)

We also share really honest stories about resentment, asking for what you need, emotional check-ins, and the moment I stopped being "mom" to my husband… and started letting him rise as my partner again.

If you've ever thought:

"If I don't control this, it won't happen." "If I let go, everything will fall apart." "I'm exhausted from holding all of this by myself…"

…this episode is for you.

And if your partner is open to it, this is a beautiful episode to listen to together. Let it be a starting point for one honest conversation about what you each need right now.

LISTEN NOW!

Ahhh – you don't want to miss this one!

The 2nd episode in our HELD IN HER STORIES series is for the woman who's smart (Like, scientist smart), resourced, doing all the things… and still feeling anxious underneath it all.

Today I'm talking to a member of FMBM with a PhD who came into fertility like it was a science experiment — 5 rounds of IVF, deep in the research, treating her body like a problem to solve. And then she walked through IVF and miscarriage… and had to learn how to trust her body again after loss.

This convo is raw and so, so validating.

We get into:

• That belief: "If I don't control every detail, it won't work" — and how it actually creates more contraction in the body

• Anxiety and OCD on the fertility journey (we actually name it) and what it looks like to stop resisting the resistance.

• Moving from "I can think my way out of this" to "my body is telling me in real time what it needs"

• Rebuilding trust after loss

• And the sweetest part: creating relationship with baby before they arrive (her French blue nursery curtains are iconic)

She said: "I realized how much I withheld love for myself. Once I let myself have it, I became a better wife, daughter, and future mom."

And I have to say it plainly: what she learned inside Fertility Mind-Body Mastery was how to love herself before becoming a mother — so she didn't need a positive pregnancy test to give her permission to do it.

The amazing news? Self-love isn't just a cute concept — it's biology.

Because when you start loving yourself, your body finally feels safe. Your nervous system settles. Your hormones find balance. Your heart opens up to receive life again.

LISTEN NOW!

I'm thrilled to share something brand spankin' new with you — a special Fertile Ground podcast series called HELD IN HER STORIES.

These are real conversations with women inside my program, Fertility Mind-Body Mastery, who are rewriting and rewiring what it means to trust life, their bodies, and themselves. Each story is a living example of what happens when we stop trying to "get it right" and start letting ourselves be held — by the messiness of our emotions, the safety of community, and the unseen forces conspiring in our favor.

In today's chat – I sat down with Amber, a returning FMBM member who got pregnant with her first baby inside the program. She came back — not because she was broken — but because she wanted to see what this fertility, this pregnancy, this baby had in store for her.

In this episode, we explore the moment Amber realized she'd tied her value to a number—and how she gently untied it. We talk about why we so often think we're failing when we're really not, and the difference between shame-based self-awareness and compassionate self-awareness — how one closes you while the other opens you. You'll also hear what joy actually feels like in the body (think: grilled cheeses, pumpkin carving, laughter at the park) and why receiving your real life now isn't "giving up" but actually getting you closer. Plus, we dive into fear vs. desire — letting your desire be just a little louder so your life can change — and how modeling sovereignty for our kids helps them learn to trust themselves, too.

"I stopped looking for proof that something was wrong with me, and life got a thousand times easier — even though nothing outside me changed."

If you've done all the work and still secretly wonder, "What's wrong with me?" — this one's for you.

LISTEN NOW!

Let's talk about a belief that's quietly running the show for so many brilliant, high-achieving women trying to conceive: ✨ "If I get support… if I make this easier… then I won't be/feel worthy of my baby." I believed that for years. But it's a bullshit lie — and it's one that's keeping way too many brilliant, sensitive women stuck in cycles of shame, burnout, and isolation. In this week's episode, we're naming it all. The stigma. The pressure. The perfectionism. And we're diving into the shocking research that reveals just how little emotional and mental health support women TTC are actually receiving — even though up to 40% meet the criteria for anxiety or depression, and less than 7% get help. Let that sink in. So many women are suffering in silence — doing everything "right" on paper, while quietly breaking inside. In this episode, I share: ✨ Why shame is sneakier than we think — and how it's the biggest barrier to change. ✨ All the ways perfectionism makes you think you're being a "responsible good girl" when really, you've just been taught you need to prove your worth. ✨ The trap of believing "ease = not enough effort = highly unlikely to create new outcomes" ✨ How "waiting to feel better once you're pregnant" is secretly delaying what your body needs now This one's juicy, honest, and full of truth bombs you didn't know you needed. Listen now! Because support is not a f*cking luxury. It's part of the medicine. And you don't have to suffer your way to your baby. Not anymore.

I've noticed more and more people online saying "there's no such thing as unexplained infertility." That if you just test enough, fix enough, try enough… you'll find the root cause. And although that may sound comforting to some — I respectfully and fully — disagree. All those years I was TTC, I do not believe my body was missing something that I could have found in a test. I believe I was being asked to trust something deeper. To stop playing the martyr. To stop micromanaging every second of my life in the name of "doing everything right." And to start seeing fertility not as a puzzle to solve…but as a relationship to build. This episode isn't for everyone. But it is for the woman who's:

• Tired of being told to focus and search for what's wrong with her body, her cycle, or her timeline—only to feel more anxious and less hopeful.
• Noticing that the constant testing and tweaking is affecting her mental health. (Like it was for me)
• Starting to wonder if there's another way—because fixing and forcing hasn't worked, and maybe… just maybe… it's time to try trusting in the mystery of fertility instead.

If that's you, come listen here. And if you listen and think, "Okay, this is what I want — but how do I actually do that?" Then come join us inside Fertility Mind-Body Mastery. That's where we take this truth and make it tangible. Where you learn how to regulate your nervous system, trust your body, and create the conditions for life to feel safe to land. No more perfection. No more proving. Just deep trust, steady support, and powerful transformation Listen now!

I have to tell you about one of the most powerful full-circle moments I've ever witnessed in my coaching career — and now you get to witness it too. In the latest coaching call of the Fertility Mind-Body Mastery, something magical happened. One of my longtime clients — who just completed her third (!!) round of FMBM — shows up to her very last call… with her newborn baby in her arms Baby Daniel. (Yes — partly named after a good man. My husband Dan, actually ) But that's not even the most touching part. She opens up about a powerful force she felt all throughout trying to conceive. One she thought was pressure… or obsession… or maybe even her "crazy" for wanting another baby. But the moment she gave birth? That force left her body. And she realized… It was never fear. It was never lack. It was never selfishness. It was love. It was purpose. It was something far bigger than her, moving through her. A divine current saying: I choose you for this And now that Daniel is here, she can feel the peace again. Not because she finally got what she wanted… but because she followed the call. So my love, that's what this episode is all about: What if your desire isn't coming from you… but for you? What if that ache isn't a problem to fix… but a guide to follow? What if you're not crazy for wanting more… but chosen for it? This is one of those episodes that will soften every harsh voice in your head and help you feel safe to trust your desires again — especially if the world tells you you're asking for too much.

Let's cut the fertility fluff. You say you want the baby. And I 100% believe you. But the real question is: Does your nervous system—the bodyguard of what gets let in—believe it's actually safe to receive this? This week's episode is not for the surface-level manifesting girlies. This is for the woman who's done so damn much and still feels like she's stuck in fertility purgatory. Because here's what no one tells you: Sometimes, it's not the heartbreak you're scared of anymore. It's the vulnerability of letting yourself have it. This episode will hit if: You see your baby in a meditation—soft cheeks, tiny toes, you even feel their energy in the room with you—and without even thinking, you snap your eyes open and shake it off like it was too much. Too real. Too soon. You tell your friend, "Honestly, I'm okay either way." But you feel your throat tighten—because you're not. Not really. You just don't want to sound desperate. You told yourself you'd rest today… but suddenly you've "accidentally" created a 12-point plan for optimizing your fertility routine again. Spoiler: That's not self-sabotage. That's nervous system survival mode just doin' its thang. This week on the pod, we're diving into:

• 4 reasons why receiving can feel like a threat, not a reward.
• How perfectionism kills your ability to hold paradox which is what regulates your nervous system.
• And how to stop managing the fertility journey like a job ...and start actually becoming the woman who can let it in that baby!

LISTEN NOW! And if this episode lands like truth in your bones? Omg you have to join my new program HELD at www.spenserbrassard.com It's where we stop gripping, overthinking, and efforting... and start building real capacity to receive. Because yes, you want the baby. But deep down? You want so much more than that. You want your softness back. Your peace. Your permission to have a full, juicy, supported life And that's exactly what we're practicing together inside HELD. We start May 7. It's $149 Let this be the season you stop pretending you're fine with "maybe someday." Let this be the season you become the woman whose God damn ready to receive.