lovelustfear

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September 07, 2024 lovelustfridays | Trauma, Trust, and Rebuilding Relationships
Host Jake Deptula and former associate family court judge and family law attorney Michele Locke sit down with Kaitlyn, a domestic abuse survivor, from episode ten of lovelustfear, “We Didn’t Have Boundaries.” They discuss how trauma can disrupt memory, making it difficult for survivors to recall details and affecting their ability to seek justice effectively. They also explore how growing up in toxic environments can impair one's ability to trust gut feelings and make sound choices. The conversation also addresses the unique challenges faced by romantic partners of abuse survivors, highlighting the importance of empathy, patience, and open communication.

topics | toxic relationships, domestic violence, trauma, legal system, healing, support, trauma, relationships, recalibrating instincts, toxic environments, trust, picker, broken picker, compassion, understanding, abuse, validation, court system, support, partners of trauma survivors, understanding, compassion, communication, safe space, education, forgiveness, triggers, boundaries, domestic violence

Kaitlyn - Episode Link
"We Didn’t Have Boundaries"
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear-kaitlyn-we-didnt-have-boundaries/id1735876283?i=1000658756399
https://open.spotify.com/episode/3vQ4DO13Irvg50QWX74aZK?si=J0qsPr9aRhu1awFqQj6yfw

links

Michele Locke
https://www.michelelocke.com/
https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/

guest + story | submission information

If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below.

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30 min
August 26, 2024 lovelustfear | presents | Haunted Detective
Introducing – Haunted Detective

A true crime podcast that investigates the Macabre side of the world. Kelsey Childs and her friend Pamela J explore Paranormal mysteries nestled within the strangest crime cases you will ever hear about. From human doll makers and odd hauntings to people who vanished without a trace, the Haunted Detective podcast is a series that will make you question everything.

The Murder of Pravin Varughese: Police Negligence & Racial Discrimination

Kelsey and Pamela are going to be deep diving into the murder of Pravin Varughese; a case that has involved horrific displays of racial prejudice, police negligence and just overall bizarre court rulings.

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49 min
August 09, 2024 lorraine | you have to be very careful with him
After her divorce, Lorraine sought advice from a shaman, who encouraged her to let others take the lead. She started taking dance classes and began dating her partner, who eventually revealed himself to be a manipulative and controlling narcissist, drawing her into a cycle of escalating abuse.
**This episode contains graphic depictions of sexual assault, racism, and mental, emotional, and physical abuse. Listener discretion is advised.**
quotes
“I decided to take therapy sessions from a shaman. And she said to Lorraine, you have problems being led.” - Lorraine
“I always already checking off all the boxes of how could I be the helper in this the Savior in this relationship?” - Lorraine
“...she said, it took me eight years to get my life back together after what he did to me. And she said, This man will break you down until you are absolutely nothing.” - Lorraine
“I would often lock myself in rooms to get away from him because sometimes things became violent…” - Lorraine
“...the Police officer flips open his gun, puts his hand on his gun and says to me, are you resisting arrest? And that's when it hit me. I'm like, Oh my God. I am a black English speaking woman in a French speaking province. I am fucked.” - Lorraine
“We keep our head up and we walk strong and we believe in God. And we believe in higher power, and we believe in kindness, and that's what's kept me through.” - Lorraine
music | sounds
Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres 002 & 003 by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
Other Music and Sound Effects by Alex Wit, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Samuel Kamau, Cybercutie, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay
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Narcissism The Comedy Night:
https://www.montrealimprov.com/shows/narcissism-a-comedy-night
Narcissism The Improvised Musical : https://www.montrealimprov.com/shows/narcissism-the-musical-a-fundraising-event
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Woman Aware:
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Natalie Bedard better known as NatNat
Energy Healing Specialist: Regulating the Nervous System and Relieving Emotional and Mental Pain Through Breathwork
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Youtube:
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National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/
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52 min
July 24, 2024 terra | i want you to always be available to me
At seventeen, Terra is captivated by a charismatic classmate who exploits her need for attention, leading them into a troubling cycle of drug abuse and criminal behavior. Terra's physical addiction to him only serves to deepen the toxicity within their relationship.
**This episode contains graphic depictions of sexual assault, murder, suicide, mental, emotional, and physical abuse, and drug use. Listener discretion is advised.**
quotes
“I found myself leaning into the attention whenever I would get it. And then when the attention would stop, I would seek it out.” - Terra
“…but then he smoothed things over. He was just so good at explaining everything so good at covering everything up.” - Terra
“With him coming into my life with him even bringing the drugs and creating that addiction, it created an addiction in the relationship with him.” - Terra
“It made me feel like I had to have my phone on me all the time. I need to answer him right away. I need to, be there for him. And, if I didn't answer that message, then I got punished.” - Terra
“I say before you even think about making that comment of ‘she should have left’ or ‘she chose this’ is go and do the research of how hard it is to leave. Go and do the research of what your brain actually looks like when you're in this toxic relationship.” - Terra
music | sounds
Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres (001 - 003) and Neon City by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
Other Music and Sound Effects by Alex Wit, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Cybercutie, AlesiaDavina, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay
Spacetime by Mountaineer
stay aware | follow | share (terra)
https://seasonofjustice.org
https://www.terranewellsurvival.com
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/
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39 min
July 10, 2024 emma | you should be scared
Emma seeks comfort in the arms of a former client whose initial charm and good looks give way to his darker traits, trapping her in escalating emotional turmoil and abuse.
quotes
“All in the same week, I lost a dog, a job, a relationship, and a house. It was just like one of those things where your world is completely turned upside down and you're very vulnerable, right?” - Emma
“I run into Ben again, and Ben is somebody that women do see and say, wow, that guy's very attractive. And, we exchanged numbers and decided to go out for drinks one night… within a couple weeks, he had said, I want you to be my girlfriend.” - Emma
“He'd always kind of put on this good face for other people and then if there was any sort of stress or something that he perceived as a stress it would set him off.” - Emma
“My sense of safety around him, I think I was always aware that the day could be a bad day or like, I hope he's not in a bad mood and anything could really put him in a bad mood.” - Emma
“And I said something like, you're really scaring me, and all of a sudden he goes looks at me and he goes ‘you should be scared’ and he puts his foot on the gas like all the way, you know, ninety miles an hour swerving, screeching, whipping around and I'm just absolutely freaking out.” - Emma
“I didn't want to give him the power to ruin romantic love for me or the idea of a relationship for me, I wasn't going to do that.” - Emma
music | sounds
Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres (001 & 002) by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
Other Music and Sound Effects by Franco Gonzalez, Cybercutie, Geoffrey Harvey, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay
Spacetime by Mountaineer
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Kimberly Weeks
https://www.thenarcissisticabusecoach.com/
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/
story submission information
If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.
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E-mail | [email protected]
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35 min
June 26, 2024 debra | i’ve always seemed to attract the crazy type
After her marriage is shattered by betrayal, Debra turns to alcohol, descending into addiction. Despite her efforts to maintain sobriety, she becomes entangled in a toxic relationship with an enabler who subjects her to emotional abuse, manipulation, and coercive control.

chapters

(00:00) listen with caution
(00:16) next on lovelustfear
(01:38) about debra
(02:18) debra’s story
(27:03) questions & answers
(34:50) closing thoughts
(35:36) charity & organizations
(36:15) submit your story
(36:26) disclaimer

quotes

“...but the end of that marriage is where I learned to equate chemicals with avoiding pain…alcohol became a problem pretty quickly for me.” - Debra

“I just like continued to choose worse and worse partners along the way because I lost my self-respect.” - Debra

“So, within record time, I'm like fired from my great job, already have given up the house that I had just re established. And so, at this point, I'm pretty realizing that I'm dependent on him.” - Debra

“Anything I told him, any vulnerability I shared with him would become his weapon the next time. It would be whatever he would control me with or, something to make me feel bad about.” - Debra

“And the closure will come when you finally see you are enough. Nobody else is going to make you more, you are fine as you are. and it's not something that you can just read a self-help book and get there, but you know, there's people that can help. Help you to see it.” - Debra

guest links | debra

The Alternative Hair Alchemist | Podcast
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/alternative-hair-alchemist-a-podcast-about/id1627588998

music | sounds

Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres 002 by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (https://incompetech.com/)

Other Music and Sound Effects by Cybercutie, Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay

Spacetime by Mountaineer

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National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism
https://www.niaaa.nih.gov/alcohols-effects-health/niaaa-middle-school/helpful-resources

The mission of the National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism is to generate and disseminate fundamental knowledge about the adverse effects of alcohol on health and well-being, and apply that knowledge to improve diagnosis, prevention, and treatment of alcohol-related problems, including alcohol use disorder, across the lifespan.

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/

story submission information

If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.

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37 min
June 19, 2024 kenzi | i think we met awkward twelve minutes ago
Following her divorce, Kenzi returned to her hometown and ventured into online dating, where she developed a promising friendship with romantic potential. However, the situation took a dark turn when Kenzi found herself subjected to his disturbing and abusive behavior.

chapters

(00:00) listen with caution
(00:16) next on lovelustfear
(01:42) about kenzi
(02:26) kenzi’s story
(22:00) questions & answers
(29:22) closing thoughts
(30:19) charity & organizations
(30:49) submit your story
(31:00) disclaimer

quotes

“I started to really realize like, okay, I'm going to have to leave this marriage because if I don't leave this marriage at some point, I'm not so sure I'm going to make it out at all.” - Kenzi

“I have got to rebuild my life. And I finally get to this point where I want to start the process of exploring dating.” - Kenzi

“And he just looks me dead in the face. And he says, If you're not going or staying the night, I might as well just go ahead and get this over with.” - Kenzi

“I'm just like, God, please let me get my shoes on and get the fuck out of here, like, please, just let me get the fuck out of here safe, like, please don't let anything happen to me.” - Kenzi

“And what I would tell them is that you have no idea what somebody is going through until you are standing right in their shoes and you're put into the exact same situation. You don't know how you would react. You don't know how you would act. You don't know what you would say.” - Kenzi

guest links | kenzi

Inside The Case | Podcast
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/inside-the-case/id1679471501

Instagram | Kenzi Durbin
https://www.instagram.com/thisiskenzi_/

music | sounds

Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres 002 by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)

Other Music and Sound Effects by Franco Gonzalez, Jan Hill, Alex Wit, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, and TheoJT from Pixabay

Spacetime by Mountaineer

stay aware | follow | share (kenzi)

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/

story submission information

If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.

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32 min
June 12, 2024 kaitlyn | we didn’t have boundaries
Despite longing for love and affection, Kaitlyn becomes caught in a cycle of toxic relationships marked by sexual assault, emotional abuse, and physical violence.

chapters

(00:00) listen with caution
(00:16) next on lovelustfear
(01:21) about kaitlyn
(02:11) kaitlyn’s story
(19:02) questions & answers
(23:30) closing thoughts
(24:18) charity & organizations
(24:48) submit your story
(24:59) disclaimer

quotes

“I thought that it was going to be, like, a romance novel because he painted that picture for me.” - Kaitlyn
“We didn't have boundaries. those, between him and I, those didn't exist.” - Kaitlyn
“He would wake up and decide that he wanted to be mad at me for something that he dreamt about, and he would take it out on me.” - Kaitlyn
“I had to get stripped of everything that I'd ever known. So those basic emotions that we get when we're children. I got stripped down to those emotions. in therapy, it was like, you think you understand guilt but you need to learn just happiness.” - Kaitlyn

music | sounds

Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres (002-003) by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)

Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, and TheoJT from Pixabay

Spacetime by Mountaineer

stay aware | follow | share (kaitlyn)

Cleveland Rape Crisis Center
https://clevelandrapecrisis.org/
Cleveland Rape Crisis Center supports survivors of rape and sexual abuse, promotes healing and prevention and advocates for social change.

Futures Without Violence
https://www.futureswithoutviolence.org/
For more than 30 years, FUTURES has been providing groundbreaking programs, policies, and campaigns that empower individuals and organizations working to end violence against women and children around the world.

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/

story submission information

If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.

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26 min
June 10, 2024 lovelustfear | presents | L.A. Not So Confidential
L.A. Not So Confidential is a True Crime and Forensic Psychology podcast hosted by two Los Angeles - based psychologists currently working in the criminal justice field. Dr. Shiloh & Dr. Scott have a unique perspective on True Crime as residents of the center of the entertainment world and the birthplace of the Noir Crime Genre.

Listen on Apple
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/l-a-not-so-confidential-the-premier/id1293032240

Listen on Spotify
https://open.spotify.com/show/21dpgZ5V9I9m2RI8tB8Nr2

Listen on Amazon Music
https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/4e44887d-a989-4d5b-afb7-e10fff6b6acb/l-a-not-so-confidential-the-premier-forensic-psychology-podcast

Website
https://www.la-not-so-confidential.com/

Instagram
https://www.instagram.com/lanotsopodcast/

TikTok
https://www.tiktok.com/tag/lanotsoconfidential

54 min
June 05, 2024 lena | he’s your problem now
Lena, compelled by her strict upbringing, marries a culturally appropriate man who promises to provide for her needs. But after discovering his success and adoration are a facade, she finds herself trapped in a marriage of deception, control, and abuse.

chapters

(00:00) listen with caution
(00:16) next on lovelustfear
(01:46) about lena
(02:47) lena’s story
(33:10) questions & answers
(37:59) closing thoughts
(38:50) charity & organizations
(39:19) submit your story
(39:30) disclaimer

quotes

“I came from a traditional Armenian family. my cultural heritage is from Turkey. my grandparents were both survivors of the Armenian genocide. my parents were first generation, I'm second. And I was raised in a very strict household.” - Lena

“My father would say conflicting statements like you can do anything you want to do in life as long as you put your mind to it. Whereas my mother on the other side would say a girl's place is in the home taking care of her family.” - Lena

“He took me to the most extravagant Restaurant. he was dressed to the nines, and he got me flowers and gifts, and you're beautiful. You're perfect. I've never imagined myself with anybody so wonderful as you and I think that we could build a future together.” - Lena

“It progressively got worse and worse and worse. he started to degrade me, and he got very controlling. He told me what I could wear, how I could wear it. how to wear my makeup, how to wear my hair, And he told me what type of underwear to wear, and if I didn't do it, then there was going to be some form of emotional punishment.” - Lena

“And she said, ‘You've got 30 minutes to get your cats in their carriers, get your purse on your back, and get out of the house or I'm going to call the police.’” - Lena

“...if you're in a situation where you're dealing with a narcissist and you're married to that, start planning, look for a way out. stash money away, get your jewelry, and hide it. And when the time is right, it's going to present itself and you get the hell out when you know you're supposed to leave and don't look back.” - Lena

music | sounds

Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres (001-003) by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)

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Spacetime by Mountaineer

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The Midnight Mission - TMM (Downtown Los Angeles, CA)
https://www.midnightmission.org/
https://www.instagram.com/themidnightmission/
Phone: 1.213.624.9258
The Midnight Mission is the oldest continuously operating human service organization in the Los Angeles region. Centered in the Skid Row area of downtown Los Angeles, The Midnight runs one of the most efficient direct service operations in the country. With only five executive managers throughout its 100-year history, The Midnight has been a consistent beacon of light for those with nowhere else to turn.

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/

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