November 13, 2025

Processing the Heavy: Anguish, Hopelessness & Despair in Medicine: Episode 192

24 minutes

This one's heavy, but it's SO important. Recorded during National Physician Suicide Awareness Day, Amanda, Laura, and Kendra dive into the emotions we're taught to push down in medicine: anguish, hopelessness, despair, sadness, and grief. No toxic positivity here—just honest conversation about what it really means to be human while practicing medicine.

💔 The Reality We Face

The Compartmentalization Trap Medicine teaches us to "stay professional"—which often means push it down, don't cry, keep moving. But as Brené Brown reminds us: we can't selectively numb emotions. When we shut down grief and despair, we also lose access to joy, hope, and connection.

Understanding the Emotions:

Anguish: Almost unbearable pain that takes you to your knees—you feel it in your bones

Hopelessness: One of the strongest feelings related to suicidality—when you can't see a way out

Despair: The belief that suffering will never end ("tomorrow will be just like today")

Sadness & Grief: The whale of a mother, the empty chair at morning rounds, the bad news no one saw coming

🏥 How This Shows Up at Work

Real scenarios we all recognize:

Standing at the bedside knowing it won't be a good outcome

Running out of drips, out of options, feeling powerless

The 16-year-old trauma patient—just information until the parents arrive

The "routine checkup" that becomes devastating news

Tearing up in your car on the drive home

Snapping at your kids or shutting down with your partner

Here's the truth: If you're feeling grouchy and don't know why, you might actually be depressed or carrying unprocessed sadness. Many of us don't manifest it the "textbook" way.

🛠️ Micro-Resets at Work (Because We Don't Have Time for 30-Minute Yoga)

Quick grounding techniques:

Doorknob ritual: Feel the handle as you enter each room, set an intention

Deep breaths: Gets you out of fight-or-flight back into calm

Notice & name: "This is grief, and I'm glad I can feel it because it means I loved"

Noticing + naming = 50% reduction in emotional intensity

Remember: The visual memories won't go away. Process them as you go instead of creating a decades-long pile-up.

🏡 Processing After Work

When you have more time:

Talk it out with someone who gets it (friend, colleague, coach)

Journal about what you're feeling—especially after giving yourself compassion

Move your body (walks are magic for big emotions)

CRY (it's an incredible release!)

Self-compassion practice: "This is hard. Anyone in my shoes would feel this way."

Rituals of closure: Write their initials, light a candle, honor them

EMDR therapy: Especially if you have a visual memory

💡 The Antidote: Hope (Martin Seligman's 3 P's)

1. PERSONALIZATION (It's not all your fault) We're quick to self-blame. Reminder: You cannot take credit for good OR bad outcomes. There are factors outside your control. The universe/God has a plan—thank goodness we're not in charge of everything.

2. PERMANENCE (This won't last forever) Ask yourself: Will this be a big deal in 5 minutes? 5 hours? 5 days? 5 months? 5 years? This pulls your thinking brain back online.

3. PERVASIVENESS (It hasn't touched everything) "I'll never be competent again" vs. your daughter texting about her goggles for practice. See? It hasn't touched your whole life.

⚠️ Why This Matters

Unprocessed anguish, despair, and grief show up as:

Cynicism in daily practice

Accumulating burnout

Loss of meaning and connection

Self-criticism spirals

The good news? Even if you weren't taught emotional skills growing up, they can be learned. You can start TODAY.

🎯 Your Action Steps

Notice what's happening in your body (tight chest? nausea? heaviness?)

Name the feeling (use feelingswheel.com if needed)

Don't judge the emotion—just observe it

Practice self-compassion (Would you talk to your child this way?)

Create a ritual of closure for difficult cases

💙 You're Not Alone

This is heavy work. If you need to debrief, the team is here. Book a free session at www.thewholephysician.com or email [email protected].

You are whole. You are a gift to medicine. The work you do matters. ✨

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