Rise Up Restored

Introducing Rise Up Restored: Moments — the new season of the Rise Up Restored podcast. One question, five minutes, every Monday, all season long.

This is the final episode of the old format — and the doorway to the new one.

For six years, this podcast has been real stories from real women, men, daughters, and sons, honest conversations with experts, and a community that says out loud what betrayal trauma makes you feel like you have to hide. In this five-minute episode, I'm telling you personally what's changing — and why.

So we're evolving — and the show has a new subtitle to match: Rise Up Restored: Moments. Because that's what these are — five-minute moments of clarity you can grab in the middle of a hard day.

In this episode:

• The problem: betrayal trauma doesn't come with a spare hour — and you deserve answers sized for the crisis moment
• The new format: one question, five minutes, every Monday
• The questions come from YOU — send them to [email protected] (first name or no name, whatever feels safe)
• The archive: every interview, story, meditation, and Q&A from the last six years lives on riseuprestored.com and YouTube — searchable and preserved
• What never changes: the mission, and the reminder that you are not broken — you are injured, and injuries heal

This is now home to both: the complete Rise Up Restored archive (88 episodes of stories, meditations, and the music playlist) and the new Rise Up Restored: Moments — dropping every Monday.

Subscribe and hit the bell 🔔 so you don't miss the season premiere next week: What Exactly Is Betrayal Trauma — and How Is It Different From Regular Hurt?

I'm Becky Ruff, APSATS-certified partner specialist and betrayal trauma therapist serving Utah and Idaho. Keep rising. 💜

Have a question for the new season? Email it to [email protected] — "Is it me?" "What is trickle truth?" "How do I tell my kids?" No question is too small, too embarrassing, or too dark.

Becky, host of the Rise Up Restored podcast, begins the new year discussing the importance of rest in the middle of everything going on in life.

She reminds listeners to REST through: Release, Empty, Surrender, and Trust.

Becky then shares the "R.E.S.T Meditation" with listeners.

Show notes:

For more episodes and resources, please visit https://riseuprestored.com/

And join us online at Rise Up Restored on Instagram and Facebook.

Have questions? Send them to [email protected]

In our second special Listener Music episode, listeners' songs focus on God's Love and awareness for each of us, self-forgiveness, strength in survival, and more!!! Listeners share how these songs have helped them in their healing journeys.

We hope you enjoy the music and gain strength from others' experiences!

Show notes:

For more episodes and resources, please visit https://riseuprestored.com/

And join us online at Rise Up Restored on Instagram and Facebook.

Have anonymous questions you would like us to discuss? Send them to [email protected]

In this first special Listener Music episode, we share some of the songs that listeners said have helped them in their healing journeys and how these songs have helped them.

We hope you enjoy the music and gain strength from others' experiences!

Show notes:

For more episodes and resources, please visit https://riseuprestored.com/

And join us online at Rise Up Restored on Instagram and Facebook.

Have anonymous questions you would like us to discuss? Send them to [email protected]

***Special Announcement- The podcast begins with an announcement about a special upcoming episode where listeners are invited to share a song that has helped them through this healing journey and why it helped them. Listeners can email this information or submit a short voice recording of "the why the song helped" to be shared on the future podcast. Please email your song info to [email protected]

In this new episode, host Becky welcomes Jeni Brockbank to share a powerful resource, a trauma-sensitive 12-step organization through the TS 12 Anon organization.

The conversation explores how facing difficult times can feel like a struggle to simply survive, yet also how these moments can lead to growth and new possibilities. With the focus on healing through trauma-sensitive support, this organization was created to support those in the betrayal trauma journey, those in abusive relationships, and in the general trauma space, with separate trauma-sensitive groups for each.

The episode touches on overcoming self-doubt, letting go of blame, and finding the courage to speak truth even when it shakes. As the discussion unfolds, listeners are reminded that healing can be slow but deeply rewarding, and that grief and hope often exist side by side. The episode highlights the importance of connecting with supportive communities and utilizing available resources.

As the episode closes, Jeni offers a hopeful reminder: "Eventually we do get that ability and privilege to soar. And it's really about that."

Show notes:

TS 12 Anon website: https://www.ts12anon.org/

For more episodes and resources, please visit https://riseuprestored.com/

And join us online at Rise Up Restored on Instagram and Facebook.

Have questions? Send them to [email protected]

***Special Announcement- The podcast begins with an announcement about a special upcoming episode where listeners are invited to share a song that has helped them through this healing journey and why it helped them. Listeners can email this information or submit a short voice recording of "the why the song helped" to be shared on the future podcast. Please email your song info to [email protected] ***

In this powerful episode, Courtney shares her journey through betrayal trauma, childhood wounds, and the impact of her husband's sex addiction. She opens up about the darkness she carried for years and the ways therapy, boundaries, and connection helped her find her voice again.

Courtney talks about the transformative power of sand tray therapy, the importance of safe support groups, and learning that she is not defined by what happened to her, but by what she chooses to become. She describes how anger, grief, and shame were parts of her story, yet God patiently met her in each place with love.

Today, she sees God's tender mercies even in small, everyday moments and has shifted her perspective from despair to optimism. Her story reminds us that healing is not quick or easy, but it is possible. As she beautifully concludes, "I know that as I've grown my connection with God, He's the only one who really, truly got me. He helped me heal, and I have peace now. I don't have the dark and twisties anymore."

Show notes:

For more episodes and resources, please visit https://riseuprestored.com/

And join us online at Rise Up Restored on Instagram and Facebook.

Have questions? Send them to [email protected]

Ep. 83- Softness in Healing

***Special Announcement- The podcast begins with an announcement about a special upcoming episode where listeners are invited to share a song that has helped them through this healing journey and why it helped them. Listeners can email this information or submit a short voice recording of "the why the song helped" to be shared on the future podcast. Please email your song info to [email protected] ***

As the podcast begins, Rise Up Restored host Becky sits down in-studio to talk about softness and vulnerability in the healing process. She shares that each helps in psychological healing, while an "unbreakable only" approach in healing can slow down and even hurt recovery.

Becky shares what it means to be soft in the healing process and encourages a balanced approach that supports cultivating soft strength vs emotional fragility. She also emphasizes the importance of boundaries and sharing and receiving support from trusted individuals.

Becky then shares the "You, The Unbreakable Water" poem by John Roedel

Show notes:

For more episodes and resources, please visit https://riseuprestored.com/

And join us online at Rise Up Restored on Instagram and Facebook.

Have questions? Send them to [email protected]

Ep. 82- Q&A Grief

In this episode of the Rise Up History podcast, co-hosts Becky, Tiffany, and Autumn come together to answer listener questions about grief in the context of addiction and betrayal. They candidly share how grief has shown up in their lives during the darkest seasons—describing sacred moments of crying on bathroom floors, numbness, despair, and the isolation that often accompanies deep loss.

The hosts reflect on how grief isn't linear and emphasize that complex grief—the kind that resurfaces with repeated injury—is distinct from other kinds of loss. Listeners will hear how healing began through therapy, 12-step work, music, journaling, nature, and learning to recognize God's "love notes."

Hosts discuss the importance of recognizing when grief is present, reaching out for help, and using tools to move through it without shame. They end the podcast with the powerful reminder that healing grief often begins by acknowledging our pain, trusting safe connections, and believing that God provides people to walk with us, so we never have to walk alone.

Show notes:

For more episodes and resources, please visit https://riseuprestored.com/

And join us online at Rise Up Restored on Instagram and Facebook.

Have questions? Send them to [email protected]

In this deeply honest episode, Becky and Autumn are joined by Rachel as shares her story of betrayal trauma, spiritual wrestling, and healing through boundaries, surrender, and divine grace.

From discovering repeated deception in her marriage to reclaiming her identity and anchoring herself in Christ, Rachel's journey reveals the power of letting go and rising strong.

Don't miss her original song at the end—a moving reflection on finding strength through God when all else falls apart.

Show notes:

For more episodes and resources, please visit https://riseuprestored.com/

And join us online at Rise Up Restored on Instagram and Facebook.

Have questions? Send them to [email protected]

Ep. 80 Ocean Shore and Loving Christ Meditation

Rise Up Restored host Becky talks about visualizations. She discusses vision boards and guided meditations and the benefits that can come from using these tools.

She then shares the "Ocean Shore and Loving Christ Meditation" with the listeners.

Show notes:

For more episodes and resources, please visit https://riseuprestored.com/

And join us online at Rise Up Restored on Instagram and Facebook.

Have questions? Send them to [email protected]