Jillian Tinkel lost her husband and son in a car accident nearly a year and a half ago. She is simply a hero of mine. After seeing and talking to people like Jillian I have felt much less alone, much less crazy, and much more normal. It also kind of gave me a type of measuring stick I could look at. People like Jillian and Kuri Bolger who had had on previously, they are kicking ass. Jillian somehow is back at work as a teacher at the same school her son went before he passed away. Not sure how she does it. I basically do public speaking gigs and podcasts and in between those moments it's a real struggle. In bed a lot still. Jillian's story inspired me to get a job, so I don't mope around so much. I am now a pool boy as my day job and I love it. Thanks for your example, Jillian and so sorry for your loss of Randy and Korbin. 

In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, we sit down with Amanda Hurst.  Amanda lost her husband, Clever Hurst, to suicide on June 5th, 2020.  Mason and Ryan talk with Amanda about the persistent taboo surrounding suicide and the need to recognize signs of depression in those we care about.  They discuss the experience Amanda had being married to Cleve for 12 years, the nuances between grief and depression, and the crucial importance of reaching out for help if you're experiencing suicidal ideation.

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast we talk again with Tyson Holt.  We talk about Tyson's divorce, Tyson's decision to get sober and the importance of being vulnerable and talking with your partner about your emotions.

On this episode of the 10 Ninety Podcast Mason talks with his life long friend Tyson Holt.  Tyson talks about the experiences he had growing up with his parents that struggled with drug abuse and financial instability.  Mason and Tyson talk about how even our closest friends sometimes are not expressing what's actually going on in their life.  Tyson opens up about the difficulty of losing his Mom who felt like the only anchor in his life.  He talks about the importance of therapy and how much that has helped him after the traumas that he experienced in adolescence and young adulthood.

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason and Ryan talk to Mitch Whetman.  If you haven't heard Mitch's story go back and listen to episode 15 where we first talk about Mitch's sister Whitney.  Whitney passed away from suicide on July 16, 2010.  Mitch said in the first episode we recorded with him that when you lose a loved one, "they die in pieces."  Since our last interview Mitch got married and had his first baby, and son, Nashton Bret Whetman.  On this episode we talk about the difficulty of accepting the good things happening in your life when your loved ones aren't there to witness it.  We talk about what we do to tap into the idea of We>Me and we talk about Mitch's spiritual journey while walking with grief.  

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast we interview Ryan Stream.  Ryan Stream is TEDx speaker, best selling author, Veteran, and entrepreneur.  Ryan shares his story about growing up in poverty, battling drug addiction, going to war, and building his life up from rock bottom.  Ryan talks about how life happens for you instead of life happening to you.  He shares with us gifts that he’s been given that have impacted his life and people who have seen the potential within him when he couldn’t see it himself.  Ryan’s a great dude.  Happy to have met him and share time with him on this podcast.  

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason and Ryan talk about how people aren't looking for you to fix their problems when something bad happens.  They talk about how sometimes its about being emotionally supportive.  

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast we talk with Kelly Jewel.  14 years ago Kelly lost her husband Clint to Leukemia.  Mason and Kelly talk about the importance of talking about your grief throughout your life because the grief will be with you forever.  Mason and Kelly talk about the battle you have with hope as you're going through trauma.  Kelly talks about how the grief of Clint's passing has been on her mind more as her kids get older.  Kelly talks about the moments before Clint's passing, hyper fixating on small moments, and how opening up about her pain helps her carry it better.