Episode 72: Why Dawn is pulling back from Dom Sub Devotion
Lots of tears in this episode. But make no mistake, this is a celebration.
A few weeks ago, I had a massive realization. I had still been living so much of my life as an absolute lie.
Sitting down with Sir over breakfast, I was feeling pretty agitated, and as he always does, he encouraged me to just open up and let it out.
And what I said next changed my life.
“I am not here to help people.”
I didn’t intend to say those words when I opened my mouth. But when they came out, my whole body breathed a sigh of relief. It was like I had finally spoken up for the biggest lie of all.
That I had to use my experiences to help other people in order to be a good person.
In that moment, I realized that I had gone through my whole life living for everyone else. Never just letting myself be good enough for myself, just as I am. Never able to just enjoy my own life for my sake.
It was always about someone else. Helping someone. Giving to someone. Sharing for someone.
And it became obvious pretty quickly that I couldn’t continue doing this podcast in the same way. Because while I absolutely love that my experiences have been helpful for so many of you, I’ve been so wrapped up in talking about how I got here that I haven’t really let myself just enjoy this life that I’m so fucking grateful to be living.
Every time I sit down and talk about how religion affected me, about how I used to show up, about all of the fears I’ve let go of, all of the pain I’ve overcome, how controlling and tense and stressed I used to be…
Those things are all getting dragged back out of the past and into the present. They’re still in control of my experience, because I’m constantly reflecting on them. I am not that woman anymore. I have come so fully into my body, my life, and my truth. And all of that stuff from my past needs to be left in the past.
I finally saw how deeply that was affecting all of those moments of my life outside of this podcast and business.
I’m here to live my own life, and living it is what I intend to do.
So this isn’t goodbye forever, but it is goodbye for now. Andrew will continue with the podcast, and it’ll continue to be great. He’ll keep everyone updated on our life, our dynamic, and how I’m doing. He’ll also be bringing on guests and diving even deeper into D/s dynamics.
And when you do see me again in the future, I’ll be bringing more of my true self. I’ve shared everything I have to share about what it’s taken to be here, now it’s time for me to go enjoy it.
Thanks for having me as a part of your lives.
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00:00 Introduction to Dom Sub Devotion
01:02 Realizations and Reflections
02:42 The Feminine Monthly Cycle
04:30 A Life-Changing Realization
05:38 The Lie of Helping Others
15:56 Living in the Present
17:30 Navigating Change and Letting Go
28:22 Future of the Podcast
33:12 Reflecting on Personal Growth and Closure
34:49 Embracing New Freedoms and Responsibilities
38:57 Exploring the Dynamics of Submission and Leadership
43:32 Navigating Uncertainty with Excitement
47:33 The Power of Letting Go and Moving Forward
57:35 A Heartfelt Goodbye and Future Aspirations
