Episode Summary

Episode 113: The Final Dom Sub Devotion (of 2025)

In this special year-end episode, Andrew and Dawn reflect on a transformative 2025. 

After 113 consecutive weeks of podcasting, Andrew announces a December break to recharge before returning in January, stronger than ever.

This isn't a typical recap episode. It's an honest look at what building a business from lived experience actually requires, the curriculum life puts you through before you're ready to teach, and what happens when you stop performing and start living.

Since we’ll be taking a break for the next month, here are some of our favorite and most popular episodes from this year, for you to watch back in December!

Dawn joins Andrew: I let my erotic truth take over: https://youtu.be/q-vWW1yBZkQ

Why submissives resist their Dominants: https://youtu.be/vE4xNe532CI

Dom/sub is more than just kink, it’s deep intimacy: https://youtu.be/r6DIf9vZxXo

The World is terrified of a free woman (and so are you) https://youtu.be/OF-35F3pgds

What We Cover: 

The evolution of Infinite Devotion over the past year, doubling following and income while Andrew did less, not more. The reality behind the highlight reel, why they don't film ego deaths, and what it actually takes to decondition yourself from beliefs about who you think you have to be.

A full year of nomadic living across Louisiana, Texas, Arizona, Utah, Colorado, and Nevada. The majesty of red rock canyons, 8,000-foot elevations, and why pictures will never capture what it feels like to stand inside those moments.

Andrew's journey with his inner child, learning to actually love himself and bring compassion to the scared little boy still living inside. Dawn's evolution into deeper trust, more surrender, and stepping fully into her sexuality without shame or suppression.

The paradox of polarity, when it's okay to "fuck up" the dynamic for the sake of being real, and how breaking down together actually made them both more solid.

Key Insights: 

The things you're most afraid of are generally the things that are most right for you. The tension, the triggers, the resistance? That's your ego trying to protect you from what would have to die about yourself in order to move toward what you actually want.

Validation seeking versus genuine feedback. Andrew shares how his internal work shifted his relationship with external approval, from needy emptiness to genuine appreciation for impact.

Life puts you through the curriculum before you're ready to teach it. Every course launch, every new program, every podcast episode comes with its own set of lessons you have to learn first.

You don't have to live in shame or suppression. Every time you step toward what feels wrong to your mind but alive in your body, your soul will continue to speak to you.

The point of working through heavy stuff isn't to stay in the process forever. It's to get back to a point where you can live and enjoy your life.

What's Coming in 2026: 

In-person events for couples and men (details TBD, let them know what you'd love to see) 

A new project specifically for men launching next year 

More OnlyFans content because it's the most fun thing they're doing 

Getting back to human connection in a world increasingly mediated by screens and AI.

Resources & Next Steps 

If you’re ready to go deeper, explore our courses and offerings:

 • Rapture — a journey into devotional D/s and erotic embodiment. https://infinitedevotion.com/rapture

 • Becoming a Dominant Man — Andrew’s path for men ready to lead with clarity and integrity. https://infinitedevotion.com/becoming-a-dominant-man

 • Structuring Your D/s Dynamic — build a relationship structure that actually works for you. https://infinitedevotion.com/structuring-your-ds-dynamic

 • OnlyFans. Take a look inside our bedroom. https://dawnofdesire.net

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Episode Summary

In this raw, unscripted episode, Andrew tackles the toughest questions from Instagram followers—covering everything from spirituality and authenticity to jealousy, commitment, and what real dominance actually looks like.

Topics Covered: 

Key Insights: 

Resources & Next Steps 

If you’re ready to go deeper, explore our courses and offerings:

 • Rapture — a journey into devotional D/s and erotic embodiment. https://infinitedevotion.com/rapture

 • Becoming a Dominant Man — Andrew’s path for men ready to lead with clarity and integrity. https://infinitedevotion.com/becoming-a-dominant-man

 • Structuring Your D/s Dynamic — build a relationship structure that actually works for you. https://infinitedevotion.com/structuring-your-ds-dynamic

 • OnlyFans. Take a look inside our bedroom. https://dawnofdesire.net

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Episode Summary

In this powerful episode, Andrew tackles the aspects of polarized relationships that most people don't expect—and aren't prepared for. While many are drawn to dominant-submissive dynamics for the intensity and passion they create, few understand that these relationships are designed for transformation, not comfort.

Andrew explores why truly polarized relationships feel threatening to the ego, how they amplify both light and shadow, and why the version of yourself you are now will resist everything these dynamics require. This isn't about making your partner conform to your desires—it's about your own evolution.

Key Topics Covered

The Nature of Polarized Relationships 

What Really Happens When Polarity Deepens 

The Uncomfortable Truths 

On Real Love 

Quotes to Remember

"You don't get to have power without surrender, leadership without responsibility, or devotion without being exposed."

"To the ego, a highly polarized relationship is going to feel like a toxic relationship."

"Her surrender is sacred. It is not a weakness. It's a full body devotion."

"You don't get to be right and be free."

"If it doesn't risk anything, it's not going anywhere."

Resources & Next Steps 

If you’re ready to go deeper, explore our courses and offerings:

 • Rapture — a journey into devotional D/s and erotic embodiment. https://infinitedevotion.com/rapture

 • Becoming a Dominant Man — Andrew’s path for men ready to lead with clarity and integrity. https://infinitedevotion.com/becoming-a-dominant-man

 • Structuring Your D/s Dynamic — build a relationship structure that actually works for you. https://infinitedevotion.com/structuring-your-ds-dynamic

 • OnlyFans. Take a look inside our bedroom. https://dawnofde

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In this deeply personal episode, Andrew pulls back the curtain on the daily practices and intentional habits that create the foundation for his dominance. This isn't about what he does TO Dawn—it's about what he does WITH himself that makes their dynamic work.

Key Topics Covered: 

Key Quote: "Dominance is about how you feel about yourself. When you feel confident, when you feel good about yourself, when you feel solid in yourself, other people feel that and they want to follow you." 

If this episode resonated with you, please leave a 5-star review on Apple Podcasts or Spotify, and subscribe/like on YouTube. Your support helps this message reach others looking for a different path.

Resources & Next Steps 

If you’re ready to go deeper, explore our courses and offerings:

 • Rapture — a journey into devotional D/s and erotic embodiment. https://infinitedevotion.com/rapture

 • Becoming a Dominant Man — Andrew’s path for men ready to lead with clarity and integrity. https://infinitedevotion.com/becoming-a-dominant-man

 • Structuring Your D/s Dynamic — build a relationship structure that actually works for you. https://infinitedevotion.com/structuring-your-ds-dynamic

 • OnlyFans. Take a look inside our bedroom. https://onlyfans.com/dawnofdesire

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In this episode, Andrew speaks directly to one of the deepest sources of pain in the BDSM and power-exchange community: the instinct to hide.

He explores how secrecy masquerades as safety, how it keeps shame alive, and how the simple act of being seen becomes an act of leadership.

Drawing from five and a half years of living and teaching dominance and submission in real life and online, Andrew unpacks:

 • The childhood roots of hiding. How we learn early that approval is safer than authenticity—and how that same nervous-system conditioning later fuels shame around desire.

 • The illusion of safety. Why hiding behind faceless profiles and “privacy” stories reinforces the belief that what you love is wrong.

 • The feedback loop of shame. How secrecy feeds the very fear you’re trying to escape, and why authenticity—not control—is the only real safety.

 • The difference between privacy and secrecy. Privacy is a boundary. Secrecy is a cage built by shame.

 • Visibility as cultural leadership. When ethical, loving couples live their truth openly, they don’t just free themselves—they re-educate the world and remove cover for predators who exploit the shadows.

 • Integrity and wholeness. You can’t live at peace when your inner world and outer life don’t match. Hiding fractures your self-trust.

 • Courage before safety. Waiting to feel safe before living authentically keeps you small. Courage creates the safety you’re seeking.

 • Embodied freedom. The power that comes when there’s nothing left to hide—when you own your story so fully that no one can weaponize it against you.

Andrew closes with a reminder that this work goes far beyond kink.

Hiding any true part of yourself—your desire, your faith, your power, your voice—is a quiet form of self-betrayal.

Shame dies in the light, and every time one of us stops hiding, the world becomes a little freer.

Resources & Next Steps 

If you’re ready to go deeper, explore our courses and offerings:

 • Rapture — a journey into devotional D/s and erotic embodiment. https://infinitedevotion.com/rapture

 • Becoming a Dominant Man — Andrew’s path for men ready to lead with clarity and integrity. https://infinitedevotion.com/becoming-a-dominant-man

 • Structuring Your D/s Dynamic — build a relationship structure that actually works for you. https://infinitedevotion.com/structuring-your-ds-dynamic

 • OnlyFans. Take a look inside our bedroom. https://dawnofdesire.net

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In this companion episode to "Why Won't He Just Lead?", Andrew explores the genuine challenges women face when trying to surrender and submit—even when they desperately want to. This isn't about a woman's willingness; it's about her nervous system's ability to feel safe enough to let go of the protective control patterns that have kept her safe.

Understanding Her Resistance as Feedback Her resistance isn't defiance or rejection—it's real-time feedback about where your own avoidance and uncertainty live. When she tests you, questions your decisions, or tries to control outcomes, she's not being difficult. She's protecting herself from pain she's experienced before.

Your Nervous System Impacts Hers Women are hypersensitive feeling instruments. They pick up on your hesitation, your reactive energy, your uncertainty—faster than you can convince them with words. When you're tentative, she feels unsafe. When you're solid, she can exhale.

The Mirror of Resistance What looks like control is usually self-protection. She's not saying no to you—she's saying no to the ghosts of past hurt, broken promises, and times vulnerability cost her safety. Your job isn't to force her through this. It's to become someone whose presence makes it safe for her to trust.

Her Tests Are Her Path to Submission When she tests you—questioning decisions, poking at your edges, withdrawing to see if you chase—she's not trying to make your life hard. She's scanning for stability and safety. Every time you stay grounded when she wobbles, she learns something crucial: she can trust you. That's real submission.

Safety Isn't Built Through Words You can't think, talk, or write your way to dominance. Trust is built through consistency, repetition, and presence over time. The most powerful men in the room aren't the loudest—they're the calmest, most still, most present.

Structure Creates Freedom When you create plans, make decisions, and handle logistics, you're not confining her—you're giving her evidence that she doesn't have to do it all. She can finally relax.

Your Presence Is Your Real Power Dominance isn't about control; it's about being fully here. When you can stay present with her emotions without fixing, analyzing, or becoming reactive, her nervous system begins to recalibrate. This is what allows genuine surrender to happen.

Your submission isn't an event—it's a practice built on your practice of presence. This work takes time, commitment, and devotion. But when she begins to feel that you are a predictably safe entity, when her body learns you'll be calm when she expects collapse, that you'll tell the truth instead of appease, that you'll follow through—that's when she can finally let go.

If you're serious about understanding how to lead in a way that naturally invites her surrender, the next step is Becoming A Dominant Man.

This course goes beyond theory. It's designed to help you:

Explore Becoming A Dominant Man →

Your presence is the gateway. Let's develop it.

If you’re ready to go deeper, explore our courses and offerings:

 • Rapture — a journey into devotional D/s and erotic embodiment. https://infinitedevotion.com/rapture

 • Becoming a Dominant Man — Andrew’s path for men ready to lead with clarity and integrity. https://infinitedevotion.com/becoming-a-dominant-man

 • Structuring Your D/s Dynamic — build a relationship structure that actually works for you. https://infinitedevotion.com/structuring-your-ds-dynamic

 • OnlyFans. Take a look inside our bedroom. https://dawnofdesire.net

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This episode aims to help women have some compassion for the challenges that men face stepping forward in their lives and relationships. 

And, I show why his leadership is not missing because he’s lazy or because he doesn’t care…it’s missing because he’s conflicted and afraid. 

You’ll get: 

 • The mirrored fears behind his hesitation and her exhaustion

 • Why performance leadership falls flat and what embodied leadership feels like

 • How to invite direction without pressure and stay soft without collapsing

Core insight: His struggle to lead and her struggle to let go are the same fear expressed in two bodies.

Quote: “You can fake confidence. You can’t fake calm.”

Resources & Next Steps 

If you’re ready to go deeper, explore our courses and offerings:

 • Rapture — a journey into devotional D/s and erotic embodiment. https://infinitedevotion.com/rapture

 • Becoming a Dominant Man — Andrew’s path for men ready to lead with clarity and integrity. https://infinitedevotion.com/becoming-a-dominant-man

 • Structuring Your D/s Dynamic — build a relationship structure that actually works for you. https://infinitedevotion.com/structuring-your-ds-dynamic

 • OnlyFans. Take a look inside our bedroom. https://onlyfans.com/dawnofdesire

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In this episode, Andrew shares ten ways he’s learned to create a sense of calm, safety, and freedom in his submissive. Not through control or tactics, but through who he is.

Early in his journey, Andrew thought being a Dom meant he could finally get what he wanted: peace, obedience, and ease. What he discovered instead was that no woman relaxes because she’s told to. She relaxes because the man she’s with is safe in himself.

This episode explores how to stop managing your partner’s emotions and start embodying the presence that calms her nervous system on its own.

Andrew breaks down the difference between being a Dom and being Dominant. How true leadership starts with personal responsibility, emotional regulation, and a life that reflects order, beauty, and self-respect.

Through ten practices, from “My calm is her calm” to “Lead through your body, not just your words”, you’ll learn how to build an environment where her surrender feels natural, not forced.

Whether you’re leading a submissive or simply wanting more peace and polarity in your relationship, this episode will help you see that:

You don’t create calm by fixing her.

You create calm by becoming the man she can rest inside of.

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In this episode: 

 • The real reason you can’t “tell” a woman to calm down

 • Why her nervous system believes your body, not your words

 • The difference between being a Dom and being dominant

 • How to take responsibility without slipping into control

 • Building structure and rhythm that create freedom

 • Why praise and reassurance matter more than correction

 • How your inner calm becomes her permission to feel

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Listen if you want to: 

 • Feel more grounded and dominant in your leadership

 • Stop reacting to her emotions and start leading through them

 • Create an environment of safety, order, and beauty

 • Experience a relationship where peace and passion coexist

Resources & Next Steps 

If you’re ready to go deeper, explore our courses and offerings:

 • Rapture — a journey into devotional D/s and erotic embodiment. https://infinitedevotion.com/rapture

 • Becoming a Dominant Man — Andrew’s path for men ready to lead with clarity and integrity. https://infinitedevotion.com/becoming-a-dominant-man

 • Structuring Your D/s Dynamic — build a relationship structure that actually works for you. https://infinitedevotion.com/structuring-your-ds-dynamic

 • OnlyFans. Take a look inside our bedroom. https://onlyfans.com/dawnofdesire

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In this special livestream edition of Dom Sub Devotion, Andrew and Dawn go live with the audience for an “Ask Dawn Anything” session. For the first time in quite a while on the podcast, listeners get to hear Dawn answer your most personal questions about life inside their 24/7 D/s marriage, from sex and submission to everyday “normal” moments and how she’s grown into her sexuality.

This episode is part intimate conversation, part coaching, and part behind-the-scenes look at how their dynamic actually works in real life.

What We Cover in This Episode 

 • “Normal” life in a 24/7 D/s dynamic: how Andrew and Dawn integrate kink, leadership, and devotion into everyday moments like dinners out or running errands.

 • The truth about collars: what Dawn’s collar means to her, when she wears it, and how they navigate social situations where others may not understand.

 • Differences in libido & desire: how they’ve handled mismatched sex drives over the years, why communication and patience matter, and how they’ve shifted from obligation to authentic desire.

 • Dawn’s sexual awakening: moving from religious shame and dissociation to curiosity, kink, and deep pleasure.

 • Being on camera together: what it’s like to film intimate scenes for OnlyFans, how Dawn overcame fears of “performing,” and why exhibitionism fuels her.

 • Power, surrender & pleasing: the difference between healthy devotion and people-pleasing, and how Andrew leads her through resistance instead of forcing compliance.

 • Fitness, food & control: how Dawn has unraveled old control patterns around her body and movement, and what freedom now feels like.

 • Faith & sexuality: how exploring her erotic self has brought Dawn closer to God, the universe, and her own soul.

 • Their origin story: what originally attracted Dawn to Andrew before D/s was even on the table, and how their relationship began.

Why This Episode Matters 

This conversation shows the real human side of living in a long-term D/s marriage—the patience, communication, and self-discovery it takes to create a relationship where kink, devotion, and everyday life seamlessly blend. Whether you’re a Dominant, a submissive, or simply curious, you’ll walk away with a deeper understanding of what’s possible when desire and trust replace obligation and fear.

Resources & Next Steps 

If you’re ready to go deeper, explore our courses and offerings:

 • Rapture — a journey into devotional D/s and erotic embodiment. https://infinitedevotion.com/rapture

 • Becoming a Dominant Man — Andrew’s path for men ready to lead with clarity and integrity. https://infinitedevotion.com/becoming-a-dominant-man

 • Structuring Your D/s Dynamic — build a relationship structure that actually works for you. https://infinitedevotion.com/structuring-your-ds-dynamic

 • OnlyFans. Take a look inside our bedroom. https://onlyfans.com/dawnofdesire

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Devotion is not discipline, loyalty, passion, or even commitment. It’s an orientation of being that is irrevocable and unconditional—chosen from love, not forced by fear. In this solo episode, Andrew dismantles the common counterfeits of devotion, explains why self-devotion must come first, and shows how two people who choose true devotion create a container where love deepens, desire grows, and evolution is permissioned—not policed.

What you’ll learn 

 • Devotion defined: Not what you do, but who you are while you do it. Identity, not strategy.

 • Irrevocability matters: Real devotion has no escape hatch. It doesn’t depend on moods, convenience, or someone else’s performance.

 • Devotion vs. discipline: One is love-fueled, fluid, and energy-giving; the other is fear-driven, rigid, and resentful.

 • Self-devotion first: Without it, you’ll self-abandon, people-please, or demand others fill your void.

 • Devotion in relationship: Mutual, freely chosen surrender that creates safety to evolve, explore, and keep passion alive long term.

 • Counterfeits to watch for: Duty, loyalty, white-knuckled commitment, and performative spirituality masquerading as depth.

 • The reward: A container strong enough to carry greatness—in love, sex, health, craft, leadership, and spirituality.

Key ideas & segments 

 • Why the word “devotion” is abused online: Advice without embodiment cheapens the concept.

 • Essence over effort: A monk doesn’t “do” devotion a few hours a day—he becomes it.

 • Freedom through permanence: Choosing an irrevocable path removes the exhausting “should I stay or go?” middle ground.

 • Permission to evolve: True devotion loves who your partner is, not what they do, which creates space for growth and exploration.

 • How fear sneaks in: When commitment is a survival strategy, you’ll get stability without aliveness—and a ton of resentment.

 • Practical contrast (health example): Fear-based control drains; love-based devotion sustains.

 • Dominance & submission nuance: Disciplined pleasing creates collapse and resentment; devoted surrender lights both people up.

Memorable lines 

 • “Devotion isn’t about gripping to commitment. It’s who you are while you live, work, parent, and make love.”

 • “If you’re devoted ‘for a year,’ you’re still in new-relationship energy. That’s not devotion.”

 • “Discipline says, ‘I have to.’ Devotion says, ‘I choose to. I’m grateful to.’”

 • “There are experiences you don’t even get to start having until you’ve decided there’s no backdoor.”

 • “My devotion is to her, not to what she does. That’s why she has permission to evolve.”

 • “Counterfeit devotion is revocable and fear-based. Real devotion is irrevocable and love-fueled.”

Who this is for 

 • Men and women who are tired of performative love and want the real thing.

 • Couples who crave growing closeness and hotter sex years in, not just at the start.

 • Anyone ready to trade white-knuckled control for love-fueled liberation.

Resources & Next Steps 

If you’re ready to go deeper, explore our courses and offerings:

 • Rapture — a journey into devotional D/s and erotic embodiment. https://infinitedevotion.com/rapture

 • Becoming a Dominant Man — Andrew’s path for men ready to lead with clarity and integrity. https://infinitedevotion.com/becoming-a-dominant-man

 • Structuring Your D/s Dynamic — build a relationship structure that actually works for you. https://infinitedevotion.com/structuring-your-ds-dynamic

 • OnlyFans. Take a look inside our bedroom. https://onlyfans.com/dawnofdesire

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Stay Connected 

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 • Join our email list for updates and new episodes: https://infinitedevotion.com

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