In this deeply personal episode, I’m taking you all the way back to my first love, my most toxic relationship, and the breakup that completely shattered my world… and eventually led me to booking a one-way ticket to Thailand, which completely transformed my life. I share the real story I usually “brush over” when people ask, “So what brought you to Thailand?” — the emotional rollercoaster of an 8-year codependent relationship with an avoidant partner, the red flags I ignored, the moment I finally said “enough,” and how that pain became the portal to the biggest breakthrough of my life. I share this story with those who are stuck in toxic relationships, terrified to leave, or trying to rebuild their lives after a breakup. I want you to know that you are not alone and to inspire hope in your broken heart that this painful chapter of your life is about to crack you open. In this episode, I talk about: - Meeting my first love at 15 and how our “obsessive teenage romance” slowly turned into codependency - The early red flags I ignored - How I lost myself completely and made him my whole world - The emotional abuse that chipped away my self-worth - The exact moment I knew I had to leave and how I actually found the courage to end it - The aftermath: depression, anxiety, social anxiety, and rebuilding myself piece by piece - How solo travel, self-love, and spiritual connection led me to a completely new identity -The nudge from God that led to Thailand and why I never looked back ➡️ Leave a comment below and let me your biggest takeaway from this episode! ➡️ Join my IG Lives at the end of every week where we unpack each episode & your questions Love, Samantha xx If you enjoyed the episode, It would mean the absolute world to me if you would take a second to rate & share this podcast. And don’t forget to connect with me on social media, share this podcast episode with anyone who needs to hear it and share it on your IG stories & tag me: www.instagram.com/samireedcleaver Freebies: Healing Anxious Attachment Guide: https://relationshiprehab.mykajabi.com/healing-anxious-attachment Anxious to Anchored Masterclass: https://relationshiprehab.mykajabi.com/anxious-to-anchored Workshops & Courses 1:1 Coaching Program: https://relationshiprehab.mykajabi.com/coaching Website: https://relationshiprehab.mykajabi.com SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/relationshiprehab Instagram: www.instagram.com/samireedcleaver TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@samireedcleaver