You’re convinced you’ve found your soulmate. When you’re around him/her, colors are more vivid and everything is magnetized. You think the sun rises and sets on their form and you’re on cloud 55 (screw cloud 9—that’s not high enough!). Except the person has been clear from the beginning that they’re not available, either in words or actions (likely both). They keep contacting you and wanting to hang out or have sex, so you’re stuck in the delusion of thinking someday they’ll wake up and realize you’re the best thing that ever happened to them. But instead, it’s you who needs to wake up and look at how you’ve avoided yourself. Everyone in your life is a mirror back to YOU.
Or when you’re emotionally closed off, alone and disconnected, you may be thinking all is well (you tell yourself you’re comfortable where you are, but you’re really just numb). Until this person enters your life. Then all of a sudden you can’t eat or sleep and are anxiety-ridden; it’s the beginning of a downward spiral. You start to people-please, flirt to hold their attention, share a little of yourself and tell yourself fantasies… whatever it takes to keep them around because you’re terrified they’ll abandon you. And yes, they will abandon you because their words and actions tell you they’re not committed, but you’re avoiding the signs in favor of what COULD be. You're ignoring yourself by putting all of your focus on them. I encounter these predicaments all the time with my clients, whether in a current relationship, with a past love they can’t let go of or in the form of a new and unavailable love. It’s an emotional roller coaster, and staying in your head will keep you on it, repeating these relationships over and over. It’s time to look at these people as a reflection of how you value (or don’t value) yourself. How’s that for a wake-up call?! Join me for a tough but honest look in the mirror so you stop trying to turn crap into diamonds.