Healed-ish

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Trigger warning: Domestic Violence, Pregnancy Loss

Alissa Gray’s story is one of survival against overwhelming odds. What began as a relationship full of promise quickly spiraled into years of physical and verbal abuse. After enduring countless assaults and a terrifying police escape with her children, Alissa managed to break free - but her journey through domestic violence did not end there. She entered another relationship marked by abuse whenever alcohol was involved, even marrying her second abuser at Disney World while hiding bruises on her arms.Through therapy and intentional healing, Alissa has reclaimed her voice. Today she bravely shares her story to raise awareness, shed light on the hidden realities of domestic violence, and encourage others who feel trapped to know they are not alone. Her resilience is a reminder that healing is possible, even after unthinkable trauma.-If you or someone you know is experiencing domestic violence, please reach out for help:

National Domestic Violence Hotline (U.S.): 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) or thehotline.org

RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) or rainn.org

International resources: Find hotlines worldwide at ⁠hotlineproject.org⁠

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Part 1 of 2

Trigger warning: Domestic Violence, Pregnancy Loss

Alissa Gray’s story is one of survival against overwhelming odds. What began as a relationship full of promise quickly spiraled into years of physical and verbal abuse. After enduring countless assaults and a terrifying police escape with her children, Alissa managed to break free - but her journey through domestic violence did not end there. She entered another relationship marked by abuse whenever alcohol was involved, even marrying her second abuser at Disney World while hiding bruises on her arms.

Through therapy and intentional healing, Alissa has reclaimed her voice. Today she bravely shares her story to raise awareness, shed light on the hidden realities of domestic violence, and encourage others who feel trapped to know they are not alone. Her resilience is a reminder that healing is possible, even after unthinkable trauma.

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If you or someone you know is experiencing domestic violence, please reach out for help:

• National Domestic Violence Hotline (U.S.): 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) or thehotline.org

• RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) or rainn.org

• International resources: Find hotlines worldwide at hotlineproject.org

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Patreon:

⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠

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Alissa’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/absolute_gray_media/

Alissa’s Podcast:https://open.spotify.com/show/171GL1rfMCB9QdeWn4W1Sa

Alissa’s Website: https://www.makeituncomfortable.com/

Alissa’s Ebook: https://stan.store/absolute_gray_media

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You might know Jake Deyton from TikTok, where he shares Taylor Swift chart updates and debunks excessive Easter eggs. But behind the music commentary is a powerful story of survival, deconstruction, and acceptance.

Jake grew up in a rural Appalachian town in North Carolina, where church attendance was essential if you wanted friends or acceptance. At just three years old, he was told he needed to repent or burn in hell forever. When he learned what being gay meant, his immediate thought was “uh oh,” because he knew deep down that was him. Fearing rejection from the church and his community, he buried that truth for years and even promised himself he would never come out.

Today, Jake is married to his husband, raising two children, and living free from the beliefs that once held him captive. In this conversation, he shares how he went from hiding in fear to becoming exactly who he was taught to fear.

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You might recognize Samantha as a licensed therapist who now helps others heal from the very belief systems that once shaped her. But before she began that work, Sam and I actually sat in the same small group at Bethel.

In this episode, Sam shares her story of being introduced to JH Ranch at just 14 years old. She attended a father-daughter retreat where she was asked to sign a contract pledging to remain pure until marriage. That contract became a cornerstone of her identity, and she returned to JH Ranch as a volunteer for many summers.

Her journey eventually led her to the Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry, where she attended all three years. During her third year, she began to question the teachings and became increasingly disillusioned with the environment. That season marked the beginning of a deeper unraveling and healing process.

Today, Sam is a somatic therapist who specializes in working with individuals recovering from religious trauma. She shares how she reconnected with her body, learned to trust herself again, and how she now helps others do the same.

This conversation touches on identity, purity culture, embodiment, and what it means to reclaim your story after spiritual disillusionment.

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You might recognize Lyssa from her viral letter board post on TikTok that said: “My separation is 11 weeks along - and it's the size of the hole in our bathroom door from his temper tantrum”

In this episode, Lyssa (@lyssagetsherlifeback) shares the story that started her series. Raised in extreme purity culture and once dreaming of becoming a missionary, Lyssa found herself in the middle of an identity crisis after leaving ministry and struggling with her mental health. It was in that vulnerable season that she met her abuser.

Because of state laws, Lyssa was forced to remain separated for an entire year before she could even file for divorce. She walks us through that agonizing waiting period, the trauma of marriage counseling with your abuser, and what it was like to process it all while the internet watched in real-time.

Today, Lyssa is remarried, thriving, and helping others find hope after heartbreak. This is her story.

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Please note: This episode includes mentions of domestic violence, religious trauma, and sexual abuse. Take care as you listen.

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After Jedidiah Hartley’s two-part interview on Healed-ish, the response was overwhelming... and so were the questions. In this follow-up Q&A episode, Jedidiah returns to answer some of the most-asked listener questions about his upbringing, the prophetic movement, and the personal impact of speaking out against spiritual abuse.

We cover everything from whether he still believes in prophecy, how his dad made money, to his experience communicating with Bethel leadership. This conversation is honest, thoughtful, and a powerful extension of the story he began to share in his original episodes.

If you haven’t heard Parts 1 & 2 yet, be sure to go back and listen. 

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After Jedidiah Hartley’s two-part interview on Healed-ish, the response was overwhelming... and so were the questions. In this follow-up Q&A episode, Jedidiah returns to answer some of the most-asked listener questions about his upbringing, the prophetic movement, and the personal impact of speaking out against spiritual abuse.

We cover everything from whether he still believes in prophecy, how his dad made money, to his experience communicating with Bethel leadership. This conversation is honest, thoughtful, and a powerful extension of the story he began to share in his original episodes.

If you haven’t heard Parts 1 & 2 yet, be sure to go back and listen. 

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In this episode, I sit down with Cassandra, a survivor whose story shines a heartbreaking light on the intersections of spiritual abuse, grooming, and prophetic manipulation.

At just 14 years old, Cassandra was groomed and sexually abused by her youth pastor. He was 28. Instead of protection or justice, she was blamed by those who should have protected her. Years later, she was targeted again- this time by a worship leader at EHOP, a cult-like spinoff of IHOP. He stalked her on MySpace before drawing her into a cohesive dynamic built on power and control. After abusing at least 15 women in the church, the organization finally shut down…but not before the victims were forced to take the blame publicly. 

It wasn’t until she began learning about trauma, nervous system healing, and how to name abuse that she was finally able to break free. She began untangling truth from manipulation, and she’s been healing. This episode is for anyone who’s ever questioned their intuition because of leadership. For anyone who’s questioned their reality, their worth, or whether they were somehow to blame. You’re not alone.

*CW: Grooming, sexual abuse, and religious abuse.

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In this episode, I sit down with a guest joining us all the way from Wales. Kayley’s wedding day turned into the unthinkable. After months of planning, dreaming, and preparing to walk down the aisle, her fiancé vanished. He didn’t show up to the ceremony, and he never came back. No goodbye. No explanation. Just… gone.

We talk about what it’s like to experience that kind of betrayal on what was supposed to be the happiest day of her life. She shares what it was like to face it not just privately, but in front of an entire room full of people who came to celebrate her. And how, despite the heartbreak, she and her people decided to reclaim the day with joy, dancing, and celebration.

She shares how telling her story online has not only helped her process the pain, but connected her with thousands of new friends who supported her healing. From going viral on TikTok to redefining what healing looks like, she brings humor, heartbreak, and power to every part of this conversation.

This episode is for anyone who’s ever felt discarded, ghosted, or unsure if they’d ever feel whole again. You’re not alone, and you’re not too broken to begin again.

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Kayley’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@kayleystead

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In this special two-part interview, I sit down with Jedidiah Hartley, a former insider in the charismatic prophetic movement and the son of Bob Hartley, a once-renowned “prophet” within IHOP, Bethel, and broader New Apostolic Reformation (NAR) circles.

Jedidiah grew up watching his father gain global acclaim for prophetic insights , but behind the stage lights was a man faking words, using conference registration lists to look people up, and abusing his power to manipulate, control, and harm. Jedidiah opens up about the painful tension of loving someone who has caused harm, someone he still hoped would turn things around, while also feeling a deep responsibility to protect others by telling the truth.

This is a powerful look at what happens when charisma is platformed over character, and why Jedidiah is now speaking out against spiritual manipulation within the NAR. We also talk about how his story helped me process my own (including a false prophecy I received from his father).

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