In this episode, we sit down with the incredible System of Gardens and Flowers—a French polyfragmented system of over 900 parts and a RAMCOA survivor—to explore what it really means to live, work, and heal while navigating complex dissociation and programming.

Together, we explore:

* How they discovered they were a system and began mapping 900+ parts (00:02:03)

* The difference between “parts” and “fragments”—and how they manage internal communication (00:04:10)

* What it’s like to be out at work as legal counsel while managing internal dynamics (00:16:00)

* How programming shows up in everyday life (and what helps dismantle it) (00:23:00)

* The real-life emotional toll of navigating therapy, memory loss, grief, and trauma (00:24:00)

* Why love, compassion, and community are lifelines in recovery (00:40:00)

This is a deeply human, unflinchingly honest, and profoundly hopeful conversation. Whether you're a provider, a survivor, or a fellow system, we hope you'll feel seen here.

Content Warnings: This episode includes references to trauma, RAMCOA, programming, and grief. Please listen with care and take what you need.

Resources Mentioned:

* Hearts Multiplied Forum

* Couple of Multiples Podcast

* Follow System of Gardens and Flowers on Instagram: @systemofgardensandflowers

* Follow Healing My Parts on Instagram

@healingmyparts

* Visit our website for more resources

healingmyparts.org

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What happens when eating disorders and dissociative disorders meet?

In this deeply human conversation with Annie Goldsmith, RD, LDN, we explore how food, body, and trauma are wired together—and what healing can look like when care is somatic, polyvagal‑informed, and truly system‑aware.

✨ Whether you’re a system, a clinician, or someone navigating mealtimes in a nervous system that’s been through a lot—this episode is for you.

💬 We talk about:▫️ Why eating disorder care so often misses dissociation (07:00)▫️ How parts experience food differently (yes—some don’t have a body) (22:00)▫️ What it means to build safety before behavior change (57:00)▫️ Intuitive eating in systems—does it work? (44:26)▫️ Health at Every Size in the context of systems (48:50)▫️ Why healing isn’t one size fits all (1:02:45)

🎧 Listen now: 💌 Let us know your thoughts—drop a comment or DM. We’d love to hear what resonates.

🖤 No parts left behind. Always.

👉 Annie’s Practice: Second Breakfast Nutrition

#DID #OSDD #EatingDisorderRecovery #PolyvagalTheory #SomaticHealing #TraumaInformedCare #HAES #IntuitiveEating #HealingMyParts

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If you’ve ever felt like the system wasn’t built for you… you’re not wrong.

In this episode, we’re joined by Anne and Lexi from Beauty After Bruises, a nonprofit that’s reshaping how survivors of complex trauma and dissociative identity disorder (DID) are supported when the traditional paths don’t—or won’t—show up.

We talk about what real care looks like when you’ve been through layers of harm. Whether you're a system trying to navigate healing, someone who loves a system and wants to understand, or a provider trying to get it right, this conversation offers practical insights, grounded validation, and real-world examples of what’s possible when advocacy is trauma-informed and action-oriented.

🎧 In This Episode:

* (00:49) The origin story: how Beauty After Bruises started with heartbreak and turned into healing

* (03:00) Lexi shares her experience as a system—and how it shaped their mission

* (12:30) Therapy boxes: what they are, who they help, and why they matter

* (20:20) “Trauma-informed” isn’t the gold standard—it’s the baseline

* (27:40) Why some therapists feel overwhelmed—and what systems need instead

* (33:15) When there’s nowhere to refer: facing the care gap

* (42:10) Designing support with survivors, not just for them

* (50:05) The myth of perfection: why it’s okay to show up imperfectly

* (56:30) Clinician burnout and the emotional toll of this work

* (1:02:00) What collaborative, client-centered care actually looks like

* (1:07:00) A reminder: healing happens when we’re not doing it alone

👥 About Our Guests – Beauty After BruisesFounded by Anne and Lexi, Beauty After Bruises is a nonprofit offering practical support, crisis intervention, and community care for people living with DID and complex PTSD. With a mix of professional insight and lived experience, they meet survivors where they are—whether that’s on a waitlist, in the middle of a breakdown, or just trying to survive another day.

🌐 beautyafterbruises.org📸 @beautyafterbruises💌 Support their work, apply for aid, or explore their survivor + provider resources.

📚 Resources Mentioned:

* Therapy Box Program

* Survivor Blog + Education Hub

* ISSTD (International Society for the Study of Trauma and Dissociation)

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We are so excited to welcome back the Gianu System for one of our most insightful (and joy-filled!) conversations yet. In this episode, we talk about what healing looks like across time, modalities, and parts — and what it meant for the Gianu System to experience a fusion.

Together, we explore the winding, non-linear nature of trauma recovery — and how systems like ours navigate therapeutic work that meets all of us where we are.

We explore the complexities of being a system in trauma therapy: trying different modalities, navigating misattunements, and learning to getting alters communicating. We talk candidly about what it’s like when therapy doesn’t work — and what happened when they finally found something that did.

You’ll hear about the modalities they explored, including:

* 🧠 CBT (and why it didn’t land)

* 💬 IFS (what helped and what felt misaligned)

* ⚡ EMDR (how it helped — and what was hard)

* 🌀 Deep Brain Reorienting — the approach that finally changed everything

We dive into:

* Why screening tools like the DES and MID should be given more than once (because who’s fronting matters!)

* How missing a DID diagnosis can derail trauma work

* The power of self-compassion, communication, and humor in the healing process

* What fusion really is (and what it’s not)

Whether you're a therapist, a supporter, or part of a system yourself, this episode offers nuance, hope, clarity, connection, and so many "oh wow" moments.

🔁 With all the lightbulb moments and deep valiation, this is one you’ll want to come back to again and again.

Resources Mentioned:

* Deep Brain Reorienting (DBR)

* DES II

* MID Assessment

* Gianu System on Instagram

* Gianu System on TikTok

* Gianu System Navigating DID & Relationships (with their Hubs!)

Let’s Stay Connected:Follow us on IG at @healingmypartsSubscribe to our newsletter/blog at healingmyparts.substack.com

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Kathy Broady is BACK with Part 2 of our incredible discussion about her powerful work at Discussing Dissociation!

In this episode, we dive deeper into:

* What the forums are like

* What happens during retreats

* What small group intensives are all about

Kathy shares how people can make rapid progress in understanding their system by participating in group work with other systems. There's something deeply healing about sharing space with others who have similar experiences.

This episode is full of valuable insights for both systems and providers, offering new perspectives on the healing journey and what certain parts might need along the way.

🎧 Tune in now and don’t miss out on this wisdom-packed conversation!

And be sure to check out Kathy’s amazing resources at www.discussingdissociation.com

Let’s keep learning, growing, and healing together! 💜✨

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This is PART ONE of an incredible conversation with Kathy Broady, MSW, the powerhouse behind Discussing Dissociation.

Kathy’s deep knowledge and strength-focused approach bring validation and clarity for those navigating life as a system—and powerful insights for providers who work with them, too.

Here’s a taste of what we dive into:

* Building relationships with parts

* Amnesia and how it shows up in DID

* Switches and how to notice them

* The goal of communication with parts

* The deeply meaningful relationships within systems

Kathy makes complex topics approachable, all while delivering so much heart. 💙

We had so much to talk about, this conversation needed TWO parts! 🙌 Part 2 drops next week, but for now, don’t sleep on Part One.

LISTEN IN NOW. And check out Kathy’s work at

www.discussingdissociation.com

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Other Specified Dissociative Disorder 1a & 1b are very similar to DID. Prompted by an OSDD1b system reaching out to share that they initially did not think that they would find a podcast dedicated to DID to be helpful to them. They shared that they were surprised to find that not only was it helpful, but they found many similarities in what they experience reflected here. It made us all wonder how many other people living with OSDD might feel the same…and how many folks with OSDD might be seeking reflections of their experiences and haven’t fully found it in the DID literature and shared stories in online spaces and haven’t yet found it. In this episode we are joined by an OSDD1a and an OSDD1b system, who both generously share parts of their journey of system discovery and healing.

Resources

An Infinite Mind

The Rings System YouTube Channel

General OSDD info

Carolyn Spring on OSDD & DID

Beauty After Bruises on Dissociative Disorders

Power to The Plurals on OSDD

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This episode brings a light hearted view to the challenges and adventures of daily system life. From discovering their system to the evolving ways of “what works for them,” this conversation will inspire, validate and intrigue you. The Curious System offers a wealth of resources for DID and OSDD systems and their providers to explore.

Resources referenced in this podcast episode:

The Crisses

PluralKit

Otter ai

DID We Write

DID We Write Tildy's Little Book for Littles

The Rabbit Listened book

The Rabbit Listened read aloud

CTAD Clinic

CTAD Clinic YouTube Channel

Layering of Emotion CTAD Clinic Video

Growing Up Again Book

Alix Amar LCSW

Amy Wagner LMFT, LMHC

Petals of a Rose Documentary

Healing Together Conference

An Infinite Mind

An Infinite Mind Speaker Series

Yes Please by Amy Poehler

Dissociation Made Simple by Dr. Jamie Marich

Institute for Creative Mindfulness

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This episode is filled with so much heart and wisdom. Amanda Ball discovered they were a system later in life and that discovery turned everything upside down. Amanda shares her story of how she discovered she was a system We dive into an authentic conversation that covers topics from loss, deep grief, and real stigma to aphantasia, preventing switching, relationships and much more. We recognize that not everyone can access therapy and even those who can are often on long waitlists. We discussed many accessible resources for healing that can be found free online.

You can find Amanda on Instagram. See below for their full bio!

Resources:

The Dissociative Disorders Alliance

An Infinite Mind

Beauty After Bruises

Theresa https://www.dis-sos.com/about-us/

Carolyn Spring

The CTAD Clinic Website

Dr Mike Lloyd

CTAD Clinic YouTube Channel

Adrienne & Co (Formerly Known as Dr. Adrian Fletcher)

Dr Arielle Schwartz

BIO: Amanda Ball (She/He/They) lives with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) and collectively she and other selves are known as the ETERNITY System. 

Amanda had a long career and held senior posts in the Food, Drink and Agricultural industry, mainly in Strategy, Planning, Training, Marketing and Communication roles and continue to champion British Food. Whilst no longer able to pursue a career, they continue to use their skills through mentoring and volunteering work and are a future trustee of a soon to be registered charity, ‘The Dissociative Disorders Alliance’.  Their professional values are ‘Focus, Clarity, Direction’.

They strive to make the complexities of living with DID accessible to others, by sharing everyday experiences through advocacy work. Notable highlights to date include planning and executing the launch of ‘The Girls Within’ a book written by debut author and retired therapist Gill Frost. The book launch provided a springboard for a live Webinar, ‘Dissociative Identity Disorder, The Hidden Condition’ and a follow up Webcast ‘Demystifying Dissociative Identity Disorder’. The recordings, hosted on Karnac Books YouTube channel, have had over 16K views to date.

They also undertake public speaking and media work and have appeared as guests on BBC Radio 2 Jeremy Vine Show as well as other BBC regional stations, sharing their lived experience of DID.

With their symptoms and subsequent diagnosis being relatively recently (2016), life and their identity until then was focused almost entirely on work. As a result, they are still finding their way when it comes to rest and play, however their determination and curiosity gained through work and life experience, are proving helpful characteristics in their journey through therapy.

Running has become an essential part of everyday life in the Cotswolds, not just through the exercise itself but by providing social connections being a member of a local club.  They have also started to keep a growing collection of house plants alive!

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Episode 15 welcomes Melissa Parker, LMHC, (they/them), a plural therapist who has expertise in working with clients who have PTSD, DID, OSDD and who live with other trauma related effects. We took a deep dive into the challenges systems face when seeking care and finding resources. Sharing anecdotes from personal and professional experiences, we connect around the need for more compassion, love, openminded perspectives and a willingness to truly individualize care. Part of willingness to treat the individual involves professionals removing hard and fast barriers such as “a diagnosis of DID is an automatic exclusion to psychedelic assisted treatment.” As you will hear, psychedelics do have a place in treatment and can be profoundly helpful for some. Given the propensity for great harm, caution also needs to be exercised. Melissa takes us through how to explore the possibility while offering concrete suggestions for safety.

Many systems will feel both validated and inspired by this conversation, while professionals may glean a deeper understanding around the impact of language, mindset and perspectives when delivering care to systems.

Professional Bio:

Melissa enjoys working with older adolescents and adults who live with the effects of complex trauma. Melissa’s work and perspectives are rooted in anti-oppression practice, and the lenses of trauma-informed developmental, humanist, and transpersonal psychology. They take an integrative approach to therapy and utilize whole-person modalities such as EMDR, humanistic talk therapy, ketamine-assisted psychotherapy (KAP), and sensory/somatic-based interventions. Melissa also offers psychedelic integration therapy.

Melissa welcomes the opportunity to connect with individuals from all walks of life and seeks to work from a place of cultural humility and respect. They hold a special interest in providing support and therapy to mental health professionals who have lived experience with mental health concerns, trauma, and dissociation. They also have an interest and experience in supporting individuals who seek to integrate profound spiritual experiences into daily life.

In addition to their clinical work, Melissa draws on their experience as a trauma survivor and clinical professional living with PTSD and DID, to provide anti-ableism-based training, supervision, and consultation to therapists who are interested in deepening their work with clients who live with dissociation

RESOURCES

Melissa Parker LMHC

MAPS

Dance Safe Fentanyl Test Strips

Melissa Parker on Braving The Way Podcast

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