What if nothing is wrong with you, you’re just being asked to hold two truths at the same time?

In this episode of Codependency Alchemy, I explore polarity: the embodied experience of holding joy and grief, love and loss, fulfillment and longing—without collapsing, numbing, or forcing resolution.

Through a deeply personal story involving my great-grandmother, my fertility journey, and stepping onto a stage to share my life’s work, I share what polarity actually feels like in the body, and why learning to witness it instead of fixing it is profoundly healing.

What you’ll learn in this episode…

* What “holding polarity” really means (beyond the concept)

* How polarity shows up in relationships, grief, and identity

* The difference between thinking your feelings and witnessing them

* How witnessing yourself helps heal the mother wound

* Why acceptance isn’t giving up… it’s embodied truth

This episode is for you if…

* You feel emotionally overwhelmed by mixed feelings

* You’re holding joy and grief at the same time

* You struggle with overthinking instead of feeling

* You’re healing codependency, attachment wounds, or the mother wound

* You want to feel more grounded and self-trusting in uncertainty

Your invitation…

As you listen, consider: What polarity am I being asked to hold right now?

Name the two opposing experiences without judging them. I invite you to share your reflections in the comments.

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