It's her oldest's 10th birthday which means she’s been a mom for a decade, and Colleen takes a look back at her viral Scary Mommy post from ten years ago about her struggle with postpartum depression. 

This episode isn’t really about kids, though. It’s about what nobody told her when she became a mom. It’s about postpartum depression, identity loss, brain chemistry, rage crying, and the relief of finally realizing ohhhh wait, I’m not broken… I just need sleep and probably a Prozac prescription.

Colleen reads an essay she wrote 10 years ago (that went viral on Scary Mommy) called “Why Didn’t Anyone Tell Me About the Darkness,” and then reflects on the human she’s become since. If you’ve ever felt like you were drowning in early motherhood—or just life in general—you’ll feel seen, heard, and slightly more normal after this one.