Can personality be altered of who we are at our core? Can I change my comfort in routine and and discomfort in change? Will that ever fall away or is that my personality?

 I love listening to you, and look forward to next weeks, final webinar. I find myself feeling like I’ve been told suddenly that the sky is not blue, having been a student of the three principles and the idea that it’s all a thought that brings us pain. I have been sad most of my life and have done everything to feel it and exorcise this unhappiness. And yet it persists. Years of therapy, Hypnosis, breath, work, mushroom work, 3P’s on and on. I don’t understand how much more I can feel this pain to be rid of it. I know where it’s from and have had deep feelings about it.

What am I missing? I’m confused.

I have just listened to Elana's conversation around her fear of driving and its 1 mile boundary.  This has been so helpful to me as right at the moment I am sitting in intense fear around the fact that my husband has had to travel interstate for an overnight business trip today.  This is a situation that I have had a lot of fear around for awhile now.  Over the last couple of years he has managed to only travel interstate on day trips, so home in the evenings. The day trips are now something that I don't see a lot of fear or thought around anymore.  

So from what I heard in the conversation and then saw for myself is that exploration of the fear is the key here.  Having the fear - with all its intensity - around whatever boundaries we have created and exploring it with curiosity.  I see there is an overnight stay, some alone time for me and whatever else arises.  Am I on the right track with exploring this fear.

Such a delight seeing you again. For me, the webinar was super clear. I loved your fun and enthusiasm. 

Sometimes, I notice that noticing sensations is just happening. At those times, it feels like coming home. Other times, I notice a mind that desperately wants to feel sensations because of the assumption that if it does that, some magic enlightenment will happen. Of course, at those times i don’t experience the feeling of coming home at all. 

The logical question seems to be: “what can I do about this”? But I don’t think that question is helpful. Because it is coming from the separate self. So.. no question. Just a quick reply. Keep up the good work!