I tried to stop vaping yesterday, I finished the book and everything made sense. I didn’t last very long! I’ve been writing it out and it clearly feels very unsafe to stop vaping. The identity is terrified and I felt so unsafe. 

Logically I know that vaping cannot make me safe, but it feels like it does, as it’s keeps the identity and separate self alive. It is bad for me and I am bad so… I can only stay alive in that identity. (It doesn’t feel anywhere near as threatening to do the walking/ water/ food side of things)

What is going on here? I want health and I put poison into my body! I, I, I ?? 

Does it only shift in the subconscious and can nothing change until that happens? Or is that a cop out of me not wanting to take responsibility? 

Everything about stopping makes sense, so wtf?/child.  It feels so much more than it is, like if I step into this freedom from harm, it’s game over for me, yet it also feels like it’s game over if I don’t stop???  I say I want health, life, energy but do I really or I am happy in the victim role? why is it so so terrifying??? 

I will keep looking at the threat of it, feeling so unsafe. I guess the deal was, I don’t matter so let me live and I’ll spend my live saving others and suffering myself, hurting myself? 

Love to hear your thoughts on this.

Thank you for a brilliant today's podcast. 

It helped to see it also from a bit different angle.

We could so easly  end our 1:1 conversation in total different direction...

we could end in war.

 What are the odds of two people out of 8 bilion, who are different age, different cultur, different nationality, different background, different language, etc. to have a sane conversation which is healing for both sides :)

What we demonstrated in our conversation and what you teach fills me with hope for all the humanity.

And it really isn' t rocket science.

What is your definition of mental health? Listener question

How does forgiveness fit into this conversation? 

My question is regarding this mind-body returning to being a tube….is this the same as Mindfulness (as in being the Observer?) And if not, what is the difference?

Do you know that when you write “accountability” I scratch my head a bit. What is accountability again ? 🙄😂