Thank you again for a insightful conversation we had during 1:1 call.

It was a big opener for me as I noticed that till then I misunderstood the principle of thought.

I understood that feelings are product of my thinking about circumstance in my life.

As i see it now from our conversation, feelings arise from thought (universal energy) and there comes feeling. For that feeling,  we then look outside in our circumstances to attribute it to something, to pin it to some happening in our life.

So through learning and conditioning the system body-mind made learned connections as solid blocks/platform on which our life operates. Going round and round in circles in a sense what a thinker thinks the prover proves.

Oh my God.. the platform is totally made up...

The Myth of Normal by Gabor Maté (part 1) Sunday Book

if we keep heading into and even appreciating the suffering, surely we’ll just keep finding ever more of it. In your mind that’s a good thing (!), in my mind ‘why would you want to ruin every day looking for more experiences of suffering?’ Why not choose to spend your time looking for all the obvious beauty, love and joyful moments instead? It seems to me we get more of what we focus on….? I guess I cannot get my head around the fact that you would rather be in suffering than happiness - so that you can find out true nature (ie happiness). Why not just cut out the awful middle man?

'Who f**king cares?' Listener comment on a post about free will

I listened to a Syd Banks talk in which he said we have the free will to use our thinking in any way we liked. He said if someone argues with you that they don’t have free will, they are using their free will to argue with you.

You talk a lot of a witness. If there is no separate self or part of us that is separate, isn’t a witness only another creation of the mind? 

How can we be a witness to feelings, thoughts or behaviours and be present and whole in the moment? Wouldn’t it mean that when we’re witnessing, we’re creating separation within ourselves?

The topic of calling in sick at work more than other people do.. Followed by guilt, and waiting for annoyed reactions of the people who get affected by this. Today I am sick for the second time this month. I called in sick, got an annoyed reply and started to be scared about not being good enough, eventually loosing my job and everyone gossiping about me. All those thoughts about am I just too weak, should I pull myself together and go there anyways, started showing up. 

And I don't know what to do with all this thinking.

What am I not seeing here?

Doing the thing - part 2 

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Its-not-you-its-break-ups-ebook/dp/B0BGCZDS7G/ref=sr_1_11?crid=OD7UFJ9EO5C3&keywords=clare+dimond&qid=1664185132&sprefix=%2Caps%2C147&sr=8-11

How to navigate?