If you've ever felt adored one moment and suddenly on the wrong side of a wall you didn't see coming, this episode is for you.

I open with my own experience of being in a relationship where warmth could vanish in an instant — where I replayed conversations trying to find the moment I slipped, and where I slowly became someone whose entire focus was managing another person's emotional state.

In this episode, I break down splitting — what it is clinically, what it feels like to be on the receiving end of it, and how it moves from a psychological defense mechanism into a tool of control. I walk through the patterns I lived: idealization to devaluation, emotional shifts with no warning, the refusal to repair, and the way my own distress was turned against me.

This isn't just about understanding a term. It's about recognizing the cycle that made you question your perception of reality, shrink yourself down, and chase approval you were never actually going to get — and beginning to understand that none of it was yours to fix.

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