Widow 180 The Podcast with Jen Zwinck

"The hardest part about grief is adapting to your new reality, and adapting to your life without that person in it." - Lauren

Four months after losing her husband, Porter, therapist and grief educator Lauren joins us on Widow180 to talk about widowhood as it's happening. After a sudden medical emergency on their anniversary trip, Lauren had to make the hardest decision of her life. She shares what it's like to be a grief professional living through grief herself, and how she's rebuilding her home, her routines, and her identity.

Timestamps

• 0:46 - Lauren's story: Memorial Day weekend and losing Porter
• 5:14 - When the grief expert becomes the griever
• 7:29 - The tiny reminders no one prepares you for
• 11:57 - Helping her 10-year-old son through grief
• 14:50 - What's helping: restorative yoga, journaling, breath work, and re-nesting the home
• 19:20 - Loneliness, and the highs and lows after a good day out
• 23:34 - Holding on to his phone and talking to him in voice recordings
• 25:40 - How to support someone months into grief
• 30:06 - Working as a "wounded healer" one week after the loss
• 35:18 - Rebuilding identity as "widow Lauren"
• 38:53 - Losing your "history keeper"
• 41:40 - What Lauren would tell someone newly widowed
• 44:00 - Where to find Lauren

In this episode, you'll hear:

• Why saying "he's in a better place" or looking for meaning can hurt more than help
• Why you should show up and do the dishes instead of asking "what can I do?"
• How to set firmer boundaries when everyone has an opinion about your grief

Connect with Lauren

• Website: www.healingjourney.us
• Email: [email protected]
• Facebook: The Healing Journey Lafayette
• TikTok: That WooWooTherapist Lady

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Nobody warns you that grief shows up in your kitchen!

 If you've lost your spouse and suddenly can't figure out what to make for dinner — or don't even want to try — you're not alone, and you're not doing anything wrong!

In this episode, we talk through the real, often unspoken emotional side of cooking for one after loss: the guilt of eating a favorite meal without them, the apathy that makes food feel pointless, the overwhelm of grocery shopping for one, and the way a single smell or recipe can bring grief rushing back out of nowhere.

You'll learn why this happens, why it's a completely normal part of grief (not a personal failing), and a few practical ways to start taking care of yourself again — even on the nights you have almost nothing left to give.

The Cooking for One After Loss - Widow 180 Cooking Workbook, the newest Widow 180 workbook was built specifically to help with this exact struggle — simple recipes organized by energy level, a starting-point quiz, and real support for the emotional side of eating alone. Get the workbook at https://www.widow180.com/cooking

If this episode speaks to where you are right now, you're not alone — and you don't have to figure it out today.

Timestamps

• 0:00 — Introduction: the grief nobody warns you about
• 1:15 — The four feelings most widows have around food (guilt, apathy, overwhelm, memory triggers)
• 4:15 — Why grief fatigue makes cooking feel impossible some days
• 6:15 — Introducing A Table for One: a workbook built for this exact struggle
• 8:15 — Where to find support and get your copy

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In this episode of Widow 180, listeners are invited into the deeply personal journey of Stephanie Edens as she recounts the day her world changed forever with the sudden loss of her husband, Peter. The conversation focused on the intense shock of unexpected tragedy, the struggle to process loss, and the profound impact on her and her young children.

A key theme that emerged was the remarkable timing of a critical conversation Stephanie and Peter had the night before his death—one in which Peter made her promise to remarry, sell the family’s fishing boat, and move away for a fresh start. The discussion explored how this candid exchange ultimately became a guiding light for Stephanie as she navigated solo parenting, grief, and community judgments regarding her choices.

Several points were raised, including the importance of setting personal boundaries, the role of family counseling in healing, and creative approaches to milestone days—like transforming the anniversary of Peter’s death into a celebration of his “birthday in heaven.” The episode delves into honoring a loved one through new traditions, starting a scholarship, and ultimately, finding the courage to date and remarry, with honesty about the unique challenges widows face.

Stephanie also shares the process and meaning behind her memoir, “Don’t Worry, I Have a Plan,” offering wisdom for others feeling stuck in grief. She encourages widows to embrace living forward, seek guidance within, and remember that life after loss, while forever changed, can be lived with hope and purpose.

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In Episode 287 of Widow 180: The Podcast, we take on one of the most challenging and emotionally charged topics for widows: navigating those significant dates on the calendar after loss.

Whether it’s wedding anniversaries, birthdays, holidays, or family milestones like graduations, facing them without your spouse can feel overwhelming and isolating.

Drawing from my own recent experiences (my daughter Claire is about to graduate high school!), I address the unique anxiety and grief that anticipation brings. 

This key insight is echoed by members of the Widow 180 Community Facebook group: the dread leading up to these hard days is often worse than the day itself!

 But that doesn’t mean the actual day is easy.  Feeling hit hard or temporarily set back is entirely normal, not a sign of failure or regression.

This episode offers hope and practical strategies for surviving those big milestone days, with three actionable tips:

1. Pick one intentional way to feel connected to your person (00:04:31).
2. Tell one or two people exactly what you need for support on that day (00:04:58).
3. Give yourself permission to say no to anyone else’s expectations or plans (00:05:35).

Ultimately, this is about self-compassion and flexibility.

There is no wrong way to mark these days—each year may feel different, and that’s okay (00:06:25). 

Whether you spend the day in quiet remembrance or surrounded by others, this episode will leave you feeling seen, understood, and a little more prepared to get through the hard days ahead.

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Relationships with in-laws can be complicated! But after the death of a spouse, things can really go off the rails! 

In this emotional and eye-opening episode of Widow 180, we gather two widows, Renee and Gretchen, for a candid roundtable discussion about the ways their connections to their late husbands’ families changed after loss, and the surprising, sometimes painful, ways in-laws can impact the grieving process.

We explore how cherished extended family ties often dissolve or morph at the very moment widows need support most. Gretchen shares the contrast between her two sets of in-laws: one side offering comfort, boundaries, and ongoing connection, while the other brought stress with overbearing involvement and competitive grief. She recounts the heartbreak and shock when her mother-in-law skipped her son’s funeral, and how she navigated complex expectations about maintaining family ties for her children’s sake.

Renee opens up about her devastating experience with a financial betrayal: her sister-in-law, once named the beneficiary on an old IRA, agreed to transfer the funds to Renee’s children—only to keep the six-figure inheritance for herself. Despite attempts at family intervention, Renee was left feeling isolated, let down by in-laws who refused to get involved, and forced to protect her children from further harm.

The discussion delves into setting boundaries, communicating through high-emotion situations, and the heartbreaking financial complexities widows may face, often learning the heard way.

 Want some practical scripts for difficult conversations? We have them here! 

This conversation is for anyone who has felt “family” slip away at the worst possible time, or needs guidance for tackling tough relationships and decisions after loss. Tune in to hear honest stories and actionable advice for protecting what matters most.

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Life can feel "griefy". You know what I mean! Some days are heavy in a way that's hard to explain — not a crisis, exactly, just "griefy".

 And then there are the moments a wave hits out of nowhere: a song, a habit, reaching for the phone to tell them something, or nothing you can even pinpoint.

In this episode, we talk honestly about both kinds of days — the low, gray-cloud heaviness that settles in for hours, and the sudden waves that can knock you off your feet. You'll hear why grief doesn't move like a project with a finish line, and why a hard day doesn't mean you're grieving wrong.

We cover practical ways to get through the heavier days: lowering the bar for what counts as "getting through it," keeping one small anchor of routine, asking for specific help instead of a vague offer, and understanding why grief shows up in your body — the exhaustion, the forgetfulness, the disrupted sleep — just as much as in your mind.

Then we walk through a simple four-step practice designed for the exact moment a wave of grief hits and you feel overwhelmed:

1. Name it, don't fight it
2. Put your feet on the ground
3. Breathe out longer than you breathe in
4. Let the wave move through, then do one small next thing

It's short enough to remember in the grocery store, at your desk, or lying awake at 3 a.m. — anywhere grief catches you off guard.

This episode is for anyone who's lost a spouse or partner and is looking for something steadier than "just give it time." It won't make the grief disappear, and it isn't meant to. It's meant to help you stay standing inside it — one wave, one small next step, at a time.

If grief is showing up often, lasting a long time, or making it hard to function, we also talk about when it's worth bringing to a grief counselor or therapist — not because anything is wrong with you, but because what you're carrying deserves support sized to match it.

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In this deeply honest and moving episode, I sit down with Rachel Powell — widow, remarried wife, mother of a "super blended" family, and founder of Hope Speaker — to talk about the messy, complicated, and ultimately hope-filled path she's walked since losing her husband.

Rachel shares the story of meeting her late husband Andre in high school youth group, building a life together that included raising four children (three nieces and nephews plus their biological daughter), and the devastating final year of their marriage marked by addiction, undiagnosed mental health struggles, and abuse — before losing him to suicide in June 2019.

She opens up candidly about the darkest chapter that followed: navigating single parenthood during the COVID pandemic, wrestling with guilt and shame, surviving two suicide attempts of her own, and the pivotal turning point that led her to prioritize her own healing. Rachel discusses:

~the tools that helped her rebuild, including the Grief Recovery Method

~holistic approaches to healing body, mind, and spirit

~vagus nerve regulation work

~her journey into remarriage — meeting her husband Mike online, navigating a cross-state relationship, and blending their families

~encouragement for widows considering dating again. 

She closes with a powerful reminder: today's reality is not your forever reality!

Rachel also speaks to the urgent, under-resourced needs of the widowed community, sharing striking statistics about how little nonprofit support exists for the 11.6 million widows in the U.S., and the work she's doing through her coaching practice and the Hope Stronghold community to change that.

This episode is a raw, faith-centered conversation about grief, resilience, and finding purpose on the other side of unimaginable loss.

Connect with Rachel: hopespeaker.com | hopespeaker.com/coaching
The community: hopestronghold.com

A note: this episode discusses suicide loss and suicidal ideation in detail. If you or someone you know is struggling, the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (call or text 988) is available 24/7.

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Losing a spouse is one of the most disorienting experiences a person can go through, but grief doesn't have to be the end of your story. In this uplifting episode, we explore what it really means to find purpose and meaning after loss, and why choosing happiness again isn't a betrayal of the person you lost, it's an honor to them.

We talk honestly about the danger of staying stuck in grief, why "waiting for the right time" to move forward often means waiting forever, and how rediscovering who you are after loss can become one of the most unexpected gifts hidden inside your grief journey. You'll hear practical, heartfelt encouragement for widows and widowers who are ready to stop surviving and start truly living again — building a life filled with purpose, joy, and possibility.

 The Finding Purpose and Meaning After Loss Workbook, a 43-page guided resource full of journal prompts and reflective exercises designed to help you rediscover yourself and reconnect with what makes life meaningful, one page at a time! Find the workbook at www.widow180.com/purpose

If you're a widow or widower feeling stuck between honoring your past and building your future, this episode is your reminder: your story isn't over!

 Grief and growth can coexist. Life — even after profound loss — is still amazing, and it's still yours to shape!

Tune in for a warm, honest conversation about healing, resilience, and choosing joy on purpose.

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Gia was 19 when she met Jonas and she loved him almost from the start, even though fate took a few tries to bring them together. What followed was a whirlwind life: a blended family, two kids ten years apart, constant moves, and a marriage built on Jonas's fearless, say-yes-to-everything spirit. His biggest dream was returning to his native Tanzania to build a business, and after the pandemic hit, he finally got his shot — opening a boutique hotel and tour company he poured his heart into.

Then, in April 2024, everything changed. Gia describes the surreal morning she couldn't reach him, the strange phone call from their housekeeper delivering the impossible news, and the disorienting hours that followed as she tried to get answers from thousands of miles away. 

She opens up about:

~the altercation that took Jonas's life

~the confusion and misinformation that clouded the early days

~leaning on her widow community during the darkest moments

~carrying a business she never intended to run

~starting Seasons Of Life Celebrations to honor life-changing moments

~the excruciating wait for legal answers that, over two years later, still aren't fully resolved

~finding her footing again while still living inside the unknown

In this deeply honest conversation, Gia shares what it's like to grieve not just a husband, but the future they'd planned together — the "empty nest" chapter she never got to have. 

This is a story about love, sudden loss, resilience, and the long, uneven road toward healing.

Find Gia at www.SeasonsOfLifeCelebrations.com. 

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What do you do with the clothes still hanging in his closet? 

The shoes that seem to multiply the moment you try to pack them away?! 

In this raw, unfiltered Widow 180 roundtable, four guests — three widows and a widower — open up about one of the hardest, least-talked-about parts of loss: deciding what to do with a spouse's belongings.

Lindsay Lawrence, Sarah Fox, Lakisha Lefever, and psychologist Stephen Taylor share their timelines, triggers, and hard-won strategies — from turning t-shirts into memory bears, to donating shoes to strangers in need, to the surprising guilt that can surface over something as small as a comforter or an empty cologne bottle.

They talk honestly about outside pressure and unsolicited opinions from family. As Lindsay puts it: "Until you are walking in my shoes, I really don't need to hear your opinion anymore." 

And Stephen offers a piece of wisdom that reframes the whole conversation: "If you don't do something with your grief, your grief is gonna do something to you."

This episode also covers the power of pre-loss conversations, the "widow brain" phenomenon, navigating family traditions around belongings, and two simple questions to help guide any decision: 

Will I ever actually use this? and 

Where is the right place for it to go?

Whether your loss was sudden or came after years of illness, this conversation offers permission to move at your own pace — because when it comes to grief, there's no right way. There's just your way.

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