Released on my 35th birthday, this episode is a cozy conversation between me and one of my closest friends about iboga integration. We discuss what life has been like in the nine months since I had a shocking Iboga experience. One that allowed me to access the source of deepest shame within myself, after six years of working with psychedelic medicine. Since then, I have been given the opportunity to transform my relationship with that shame.

This is a cozy story time style episode where I reflect on everything I have been learning, integrating, releasing and opening up to, after iboga at etereo. I definitely haven't "figured it all out", and I am in still in process. This is a glimpse into it the inner work that helped me befriend my shadowiest shadow.

Show Links:

ETÉREO: Center for Truth

@etereo__baja

Doing the Work w/ Iboga

Topics covered:

• What Iboga reveals about self-deception, truth, and identity
• The shock and grief phase of post-Iboga integration
• Why integration often feels harder before it feels lighter
• Slow healing vs. making healing your whole personality
• Anxiety, thought spirals, and learning not to act from them
• Releasing control, oversharing, and curated self-image
• Cultural shame, father wounds, and returning to the Balkans
• Creativity as integration (photography, fashion, expression)
• Entering a secure romantic relationship after years of singleness
• Anxious attachment, earned security, and emotional regulation
• Living long-distance as part of the medicine’s curriculum
• Why “life is the integration plan”
• Stepping away from facilitation and the savior role
• Choosing to enjoy life without abandoning depth or devotion

Beliefs aren’t real — and yet they shape our lives in very real ways.

In this opening episode of Season Six, Lana explores a paradox that sits at the very root of personal development, consciousness work, and psychedelic integration:
beliefs are not truth… yet they determine how we experience reality.

Lana breaks down what beliefs actually are (and what they aren’t), why we need them to function, and how outdated belief systems quietly run our lives long after they’ve stopped serving us.

This episode is an invitation to step out of unconscious patterning and into agency — to see your beliefs not as fixed truths, but as stories you are actively participating in, reinforcing, and therefore capable of updating.

As Lana explains, you may not be able to control everything that happens to you —but you can influence how you interpret it, the meaning you give it, and how you respond.
That’s the power of belief systems.

What You'll Learn:

• How beliefs differ from objective truth — yet why they still matter deeply
• How beliefs shape perception, energy, behavior, and results
• Why many of our core beliefs are inherited unconsciously in childhood
• How beliefs that once protected us often become the very things that limit us
• A real coaching story that illustrates how outdated beliefs create burnout and stagnation
• Why changing beliefs isn’t about “positive thinking,” but about alignment and agency

Explore Coaching with Lana:

• Psychedelically Informed Consciousness Coaching (6 Month Program)
• Focused Transformation Coaching (6 Week Program)
• Iboga Integration & Prep Coaching⁠⁠⁠ (NEW-now enrolling)

Stay Connected to Modern Psychedelics:

• Instagram: ⁠⁠⁠@modernpsychedelics⁠⁠⁠
• YouTube: ⁠⁠⁠Modern Psychedelics YouTube⁠⁠⁠
• Website: ⁠⁠⁠www.modernpsychedelics.net⁠⁠
• Substack: The Healthy Ego⁠⁠

Free Resources:

• FREE Iboga Preparation Guide⁠
• FREE Set Better Goals⁠
• FREE Integration Journal ⁠
• FREE Intention Setting Journal⁠
• FREE Psychedelic Ceremony Checklist⁠
• FREE Playlists for Psychedelic Journeys + Integration⁠

DISCLAIMER: Modern Psychedelics does not endorse or support the illegal consumption of any substances. This show is meant for entertainment purposes only. Modern Psychedelics does not sell or promote the sale of any illegal substances. The thoughts, views, and opinions on this show should not be taken as life advice, medicinal advice, or therapeutic guidance.

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In this deeply inspiring instalment of The Journey series, Lana reconnects with her former coaching client Nadi Miri, a powerhouse architect, business owner, and newly minted PhD student whose transformation over the past year reveals what happens when we become the architects of our own inner world.

Through their conversation, Nadi reflects on how coaching helped her move from burnout, overextension, and people-pleasing into clarity, alignment, and authentic leadership. Together, they explore how Nadi redefined her relationship with money, boundaries, creativity, and self-worth—and how learning to say “no” became the foundation for saying a fuller “yes” to herself, her values, and her purpose.

Nadi’s story is one of courage, reflection, and self-reclamation: a reminder that transformation doesn’t come from fixing ourselves, but from consciously rebuilding our belief systems, mindset, and creative process to align with the truth of who we really are.

Topics Covered:

• How Nadi went from burnout and overwhelm to joy and creative flow
• Reconnecting with her true values after years of over-giving and people-pleasing
• The inner work of setting boundaries and saying “no” without guilt
• Reframing money from shame to energetic neutrality and self-worth
• Letting go of control and learning to trust her team as a conscious leader
• Returning to creativity and curiosity through her PhD journey
• How self-acceptance became the foundation for new possibilities

Explore Coaching with Lana:

• Iboga Integration & Prep Coaching⁠⁠⁠ (NEW-now enrolling)

• Psychedelically Informed Life Coaching⁠⁠⁠ (6 Month Program)

• Focused Transformation Coaching - Mini Container (6 Week Program)

Stay Connected to Modern Psychedelics:

• Instagram: ⁠⁠⁠@modernpsychedelics⁠⁠⁠

• YouTube: ⁠⁠⁠Modern Psychedelics YouTube⁠⁠⁠

• Website: ⁠⁠⁠www.modernpsychedelics.net⁠⁠⁠

• Substack: The Healthy Ego⁠⁠

Free Resources:

• FREE Iboga Preparation Guide⁠

• FREE Set Better Goals⁠

• FREE Integration Journal ⁠

• FREE Intention Setting Journal⁠

• FREE Psychedelic Ceremony Checklist⁠

• FREE Playlists for Psychedelic Journeys + Integration⁠

DISCLAIMER: Modern Psychedelics does not endorse or support the illegal consumption of any substances. This show is meant for entertainment purposes only. Modern Psychedelics does not sell or promote the sale of any illegal substances. The thoughts, views, and opinions on this show should not be taken as life advice, medicinal advice, or therapeutic guidance.

Focused Transformation Coaching - A 6-week private coaching experience designed to help you move through one major block or transition in your life.

In this deeply personal and illuminating solo episode, Lana explores one of the most overlooked yet transformative aspects of healing and consciousness work—learning to receive. Drawing inspiration from her 5-MeO-DMT experience and her work as an Energy Leadership coach, she breaks down why receiving often feels so difficult, the cultural conditioning that drives over-giving and over-functioning, and how we can shift our energy to create balance, trust, and flow.

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Topics Covered:

• The energetics of receiving as an active surrender
• Breaking down the energy of the caregiver
• Recognizing when giving turns into over-giving
• Reconnecting to balance between giving and receiving
• Reprogramming the inner narratives that block receiving
• The four energetic blocks: limiting beliefs, interpretations, assumptions, and gremlins
• How to shift from catabolic to anabolic (low to high) consciousness
• Trusting life, love, and abundance as forms of receiving

Explore Coaching with Lana:

• ⁠Focused Transformation Coaching⁠ - 6 Week Micro-Program
• Iboga Integration & Prep Coaching⁠⁠⁠ (NEW-now enrolling)

• Psychedelically Informed Life Coaching⁠⁠⁠ (6 Month Program)

Stay Connected to Modern Psychedelics:

• Instagram: ⁠⁠⁠@modernpsychedelics⁠⁠⁠

• YouTube: ⁠⁠⁠Modern Psychedelics YouTube⁠⁠⁠

• Website: ⁠⁠⁠www.modernpsychedelics.net⁠⁠⁠

• Substack: The Healthy Ego⁠⁠

Free Resources:

• FREE Iboga Preparation Guide⁠

• FREE Set Better Goals⁠

• FREE Integration Journal ⁠

• FREE Intention Setting Journal⁠

• FREE Psychedelic Ceremony Checklist⁠

• FREE Playlists for Psychedelic Journeys + Integration⁠

DISCLAIMER: Modern Psychedelics does not endorse or support the illegal consumption of any substances. This show is meant for entertainment purposes only. Modern Psychedelics does not sell or promote the sale of any illegal substances. The thoughts, views, and opinions on this show should not be taken as life advice, medicinal advice, or therapeutic guidance.

What is it like to spend a week in the deep jungle of Westen Africa, with nothing but a dirt floor, lots of Iboga, a skirt, and no necessities like water or a bed to rest in? In this intimate conversation, I welcome back my Iboga provider, and twice-initiated Bwiti practitioner Paije Alexandra West. With intention and care, Paije shares about her recent initiation into the Fang branch of the Bwiti tradition in Gabon. This is ultimately a conversation about what it means to walk the path of service with Iboga.

Paije shares carefully about her journey from working in ibogaine clinics to becoming a ceremonial iboga provider, and how initiation has shaped her life, her family, and her work with her retreat center, ⁠ETÈREO⁠ in Baja. She opens up about the realities of being a provider—the intensity, responsibility, and beauty of holding this medicine—and offers fresh insight into the role of women’s voices in the iboga space.

Show Links:

• ⁠Paije's Instagram⁠
• ⁠ETÈREO's Instagram⁠
• ETÈREO's website⁠

Explore Coaching with Lana:

• Iboga Integration & Prep Coaching⁠⁠⁠ (NEW-now enrolling)

• Psychedelically Informed Life Coaching⁠⁠⁠ (6 Month Program)

Stay Connected to Modern Psychedelics:

• Instagram: ⁠⁠⁠@modernpsychedelics⁠⁠⁠

• YouTube: ⁠⁠⁠Modern Psychedelics YouTube⁠⁠⁠

• Website: ⁠⁠⁠www.modernpsychedelics.net⁠⁠⁠

• Substack: The Healthy Ego⁠⁠

Free Resources:

• FREE Iboga Preparation Guide⁠

• FREE Set Better Goals⁠

• FREE Integration Journal ⁠

• FREE Intention Setting Journal⁠

• FREE Psychedelic Ceremony Checklist⁠

• FREE Playlists for Psychedelic Journeys + Integration⁠

DISCLAIMER: Modern Psychedelics does not endorse or support the illegal consumption of any substances. This show is meant for entertainment purposes only. Modern Psychedelics does not sell or promote the sale of any illegal substances. The thoughts, views, and opinions on this show should not be taken as life advice, medicinal advice, or therapeutic guidance.

In this solo episode, we’re discussing a core insight from my own medicine path: the crucial energetic difference between healing and integration.

After years of ceremonies, coaching, and personal exploration, I realized that the constant search for healing was actually keeping me stuck in an identity of being “broken.” It wasn’t until very recently that I fully understood that wholeness doesn’t come from fixing, but from integrating who you already are.

This episode is an invitation to shift from a “healing orientation” rooted in victimhood and fixing, into an “integration orientation” rooted in authenticity, creativity, and self-acceptance.

Key Topics Covered:

• The trap of the “healing identity” and how it can keep us stuck

• My personal journey from Ayahuasca, to 5-MeO-DMT, to Iboga

• Why integration is about seeing, not seeking

• The difference between a healing orientation vs. an integration orientation 

• Self-acceptance as the foundation of wholeness

• How reclaiming forgotten parts of ourselves—like play, creativity, and joy—is part of integration

• Practical reflections for recognizing when you’re fixing vs. truly integrating

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Explore Coaching with Lana:

• Iboga Integration & Prep Coaching⁠⁠⁠ (NEW-now enrolling)

• Psychedelically Informed Life Coaching⁠⁠⁠ (6 Month Program)

Stay Connected to Modern Psychedelics:

• Instagram: ⁠⁠⁠@modernpsychedelics⁠⁠⁠

• YouTube: ⁠⁠⁠Modern Psychedelics YouTube⁠⁠⁠

• Website: ⁠⁠⁠www.modernpsychedelics.net⁠⁠⁠

• Substack: The Healthy Ego⁠⁠

Free Resources:

• FREE Iboga Preparation Guide⁠
• FREE Set Better Goals⁠

• FREE Integration Journal ⁠

• FREE Intention Setting Journal⁠

• FREE Psychedelic Ceremony Checklist⁠

• FREE Playlists for Psychedelic Journeys + Integration⁠

DISCLAIMER: Modern Psychedelics does not endorse or support the illegal consumption of any substances. This show is meant for entertainment purposes only. Modern Psychedelics does not sell or promote the sale of any illegal substances. The thoughts, views, and opinions on this show should not be taken as life advice, medicinal advice, or therapeutic guidance.

In this solo episode, I’m diving deep into a crucial topic that doesn’t get talked about enough: how to differentiate between fear and danger when working with psychedelics.

This episode was inspired by my coach training at iPEC and the powerful concept of Fearlessness—the idea that fear is a projection of the mind, not a present-moment truth.

Understanding the difference between fear and danger can literally be the difference between a transformative psychedelic experience and a traumatizing one. And the line between the two is not always clear—especially when psychological or energetic safety is involved.

Topics Covered:

• Why fear is natural (and even healthy) when approaching psychedelic work

• How danger shows up in the psychedelic space—from unsafe facilitators to inadequate screening

• Clear examples of fear vs. danger in ceremony settings

• Why mistaking one for the other could cost you transformation—or your safety

• How prep coaching can help you work with fear and protect yourself from danger

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As a subscriber, enjoy ad free and intro free episodes, early access to new episodes + a monthly bonus podcast.

Explore Coaching with Lana:

Iboga Integration & Prep Coaching⁠⁠⁠ (NEW-now enrolling)

Psychedelically Informed Life Coaching⁠⁠⁠ (6 Month Program)

Stay Connected to Modern Psychedelics:

• Instagram: ⁠⁠⁠@modernpsychedelics⁠⁠⁠

• YouTube: ⁠⁠⁠Modern Psychedelics YouTube⁠⁠⁠

• Website: ⁠⁠⁠www.modernpsychedelics.net⁠⁠⁠

• Substack: The Healthy Ego⁠⁠

Free Resources:

• FREE Iboga Preparation Guide⁠

• FREE Set Better Goals⁠

• FREE Integration Journal ⁠

• FREE Intention Setting Journal⁠

• FREE Psychedelic Ceremony Checklist⁠

• FREE Playlists for Psychedelic Journeys + Integration⁠

DISCLAIMER: Modern Psychedelics does not endorse or support the illegal consumption of any substances. This show is meant for entertainment purposes only. Modern Psychedelics does not sell or promote the sale of any illegal substances. The thoughts, views, and opinions on this show should not be taken as life advice, medicinal advice, or therapeutic guidance.

In this episode, Lana sits down with Karis Malszecki, a creative professional and former coaching client, to dive deep into her transformative journey over the past year. Karis shares how coaching helped her navigate life’s transitions—from a major career shift to moving homes and embracing a more authentic way of living. Together, they explore the power of self-awareness, creativity, and embracing authenticity, especially when faced with life's stressors.

Support the show and ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠become a subscriber⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ for just $4.99/mo!

As a subscriber, enjoy ad free and intro free episodes, early access to new episodes + a monthly bonus podcast.

Explore Coaching with Lana:

• Iboga Integration & Prep Coaching⁠⁠⁠ (NEW-now enrolling)

• Psychedelically Informed Life Coaching⁠⁠⁠ (6 Month Program)

Stay Connected to Modern Psychedelics:

• Instagram: ⁠⁠⁠@modernpsychedelics⁠⁠⁠

• YouTube: ⁠⁠⁠Modern Psychedelics YouTube⁠⁠⁠

• Website: ⁠⁠⁠www.modernpsychedelics.net⁠⁠⁠

• Substack: The Healthy Ego⁠⁠

Free Resources:

• FREE Iboga Preparation Guide⁠

• FREE Set Better Goals⁠

• FREE Integration Journal ⁠

• FREE Intention Setting Journal⁠

• FREE Psychedelic Ceremony Checklist⁠

• FREE Playlists for Psychedelic Journeys + Integration⁠

DISCLAIMER: Modern Psychedelics does not endorse or support the illegal consumption of any substances. This show is meant for entertainment purposes only. Modern Psychedelics does not sell or promote the sale of any illegal substances. The thoughts, views, and opinions on this show should not be taken as life advice, medicinal advice, or therapeutic guidance.

⁠Doing the Work with Iboga: ⁠The World's Most Comprehensive Iboga Preparation & Integration Program.

In this episode, Lana chats with Leo Van Veenendaal, author of The Iboga Experience, about his profound journey with Iboga and the insights he’s gained from his personal experiences and the research he conducted for his book. Leo shares his unique perspective on Iboga, its role in healing, and the importance of preparation, integration, and guidance when working with this powerful plant medicine.

Key Topics Covered:

• Leo’s Journey with Iboga: How a transformative Ayahuasca experience led Leo to discover Iboga and the deep shifts it created in his life.

• The Role of Iboga in Healing: Insights on how Iboga functions as a powerful tool for personal transformation, healing, and uncovering blind spots.

• The Challenges of Writing About Iboga: Leo discusses the process of writing The Iboga Experience, navigating cultural sensitivities, and helping others understand the diversity of Iboga experiences.

• The Importance of Preparation & Integration: Leo emphasizes the necessity of setting clear intentions and preparing properly for an Iboga ceremony, as well as the long-term integration process.

• Iboga’s Influence on Other Plant Medicines: How Iboga has shaped Leo’s experience with other plant medicines, including his observations on the unique energy it brings.

• Lessons from Bwiti Tradition: Reflections on the spiritual teachings of the Bwiti people and the importance of patience, wisdom, and taking a long-term perspective on life.

Resources Mentioned:

• The Iboga Experience: Stories from the Sacred and Secret Plant That Saves, Heals, and Transforms Lives [Leo's book]

• Recommended book on Bwiti tradition (by HW Fernandez) 

Explore Coaching with Lana:

• Iboga Integration & Prep Coaching⁠⁠⁠ (NEW-now enrolling)

• Psychedelically Informed Life Coaching⁠⁠⁠ (6 Month Program)

Stay Connected to Modern Psychedelics:

• Instagram: ⁠⁠⁠@modernpsychedelics⁠⁠⁠

• YouTube: ⁠⁠⁠Modern Psychedelics YouTube⁠⁠⁠

• Website: ⁠⁠⁠www.modernpsychedelics.net⁠⁠⁠

• Substack: The Healthy Ego⁠⁠

Free Resources:

• FREE Iboga Preparation Guide⁠

• FREE Set Better Goals⁠

• FREE Integration Journal ⁠

• FREE Intention Setting Journal⁠

• FREE Psychedelic Ceremony Checklist⁠

• FREE Playlists for Psychedelic Journeys + Integration⁠

DISCLAIMER: Modern Psychedelics does not endorse or support the illegal consumption of any substances. This show is meant for entertainment purposes only. Modern Psychedelics does not sell or promote the sale of any illegal substances. The thoughts, views, and opinions on this show should not be taken as life advice, medicinal advice, or therapeutic guidance.

In this heartfelt solo episode, I shares about my personal journey of reclaiming my roots in various ways. I reflects on how my psychedelic healing journey has helped me reconnect to my family, culture, and authentic self. As I prepares for a month-long trip to the Balkans, I shares how this healing journey, aided by psychedelics, has led me to re-engage with true passions like photography and fashion, as well as heal old wounds with my family of origin.

This episode is a reminder that the work of healing is not about becoming someone new, but about embracing who we truly are.

Coaching Opportunity:

Lana has one spot available for her Six-Month Transformational Coaching Program. This program helps integrate a higher state of consciousness into daily life, focusing on creativity, flow, and personal alignment. To apply, visit HERE.

Topics Covered:

• Reclaiming our roots: How personal healing and psychedelics bring us back to who we truly are

• Rediscovering lost passions like photography and fashion

• The role of psychedelics in reconnecting to family and culture

• Healing family dynamics: Lana's experience of working through her relationship with her parents

• The importance of honoring cultural traditions while letting go of those aspects that no longer serve us

• Living authentically: The journey of shedding masks and embracing your true self

• Preparing for a trip to the Balkans and reconnecting with her roots through travel and photography

Stay Connected to Modern Psychedelics:

• Instagram: @modernpsychedelics

• YouTube: Modern Psychedelics

• Website: www.modernpsychedelics.net
  

Free Resources:

• FREE Iboga Preparation Guide⁠

• FREE Set Better Goals⁠

• FREE Integration Journal

• FREE Intention Setting Journal⁠

• FREE Psychedelic Ceremony Checklist⁠

• FREE Playlists for Psychedelic Journeys + Integration⁠

Disclaimer:Modern Psychedelics does not endorse or support the illegal consumption of any substances. This show is meant for entertainment purposes only. Modern Psychedelics does not sell or promote the sale of any illegal substances. The thoughts, views, and opinions on this show should not be taken as life advice, medicinal advice, or therapeutic guidance.