Superpowered Mind with Clare Dimond

It feels to me as if i want something and then that 'want' shows up but after it shows up THEN i panic and want to get rid of it or tell myself its unwanted. Its as if i resist letting the 'wanted' thing in fully once it shows up. Whats going on with this ? .. we want something, the want arrives or is got and then the resistance shows up. 

Does this reaction still mean that the original 'want' is unclean or is this reaction showing up due to some other dynamic. It seems different from the situation where resistance is preventing something wanted from being 'got' in the first place.

e.g's could be wanting money, then money turns up freely and then we freak out or we see something we want, we buy it and then freak out or (in my case) recently designing a wanted patio door, getting a quote, it being much more affordable then ever hoped but then i freak out and can't order it. It's almost as if the system fights against the 'upgrade' or the things that could make life 'nicer/easier' so wants to push it all away again once it arrives.

I just listened to your conversation with Caroline about freedom and presence. At one point you asked her „what money represents“… and I translated it inwardly for me to my issue :-)

„what having a man for me represents“…

The answers I got instantly were: 

- security

- being worthy of love

- being worthy in society

- being lovable from a society point of view (look at me I made it)

- being „normal“

- belonging to my „tribe“

I know that it is conditioning and beliefs… that a man does not give me security (rather the contrary, the men in my life made me highly insecure), I know that I am lovable from my female friends,… 

But I was thinking it would be great if you could talk a bit in WANT or in a podcast about wanting to belong, and not to be outstanding… I have the same issue with being happy, it feels dangerous to me because I do not belong anymore if I am too happy… 

I very much love everything you say and I am so grateful for your presence in my life

One question that is arising for quite some time is...What the F*** happened to learning capacity

over time?As you're saying learning happened or happens automatically. There is no decider no chooser or doer. 

And still it seems learning slows down through life comparing to this super turbo learning that happens in childhood years and when the system is a huge sponge absorbing lotz of different 

information.

Is rise of idea of SELF slowing all this down turning it into rusty old machinery only producing 

same old - same old reactions/behaviours?

On your recent podcast with Piers Thurston, I heard you say ’something that is manifested from within us and then held in place by our resistance to it.

I understand how we hold it in place by our resistance to whatever it is, but am not clear about the manifesting part.

Do you mean we create it due to our conditioning? Or is it something to do with the Law Of Attraction whereby we attract situations to us due to our way of being in the world? Or both?? Or something else altogether?

Thanking you in advance for any light you can shed on my confusion.

I'm in wondering mode.

I've long wondered about the phenomenon of multiple personalities. I guess it's called Dissociative Identity Disorder now. It's long fascinated me how each of the personalities can display abilities and even physical limitations that the other personalities don't have. 

I have a deep wordless feeling that this speaks to and illustrates what we're learning in your courses. The lack of solidity, the creativity of the identified mind.

I'd love to hear your take on what you think is happening when someone has multiple personalities. Not so much why it happens, but how from a nondualistic perspective. 

I was chatting to the sister of someone I knew 30 years ago.

She mentioned that her brother felt there was something off with me back then.

I felt denial rise and fall.

Before I replied saying something like well I'm in a better space now.

But then came a sense of dread - was it that obvious that I was fucked up?

I was oblivious to it. 

Was I that bad?

I've just listened to your podcast on "Unconditional Love".  Can you say a little about how to parent our inner child?  One of the reasons I was drawn to non duality was that I liked the idea of there being no self.  This is largely because I don't like myself.  Thru the years of listening I realize this isn't at all what it's trying to point to.  As with the previous writers' child, I too have a lot of suicidal ideation.  This might be too large a topic for a podcast, but maybe there's a few things you could say about it.

Could you speak a bit about common sense how do you see it? Is it the expression of intelligence behind life or it's well engraved learned program offering illusional stability to self and to maintain the belief that there is a seperate decider/doer from where we run our lives?

Somehow common sense has been a great GPS through my life as very solid & clear guidance.