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Infinite Devotion episodes

August 31Ask Dawn Anything: Your Fear Is What Drives Away What You Want | Infinite Devotion Episode 147
We haven't done one of these in a long time, so we sat down by the fire and answered your questions. Yours, all 6,500 plus of you who follow along on email and social, and Dawn's own following too. This week is every safe for work question you sent in. The sexual ones, the kinky ones, those are coming soon to the paid platforms.

In this episode Dawn gets into:
How she handles getting emotionally dysregulated without asking me to fix her, and why "help me" used to be a crutch
Practicing trust and surrender when the future of your marriage feels genuinely uncertain
The fear of losing this connection, and why what you're actually afraid of is never what you think it is
Why "life gets in the way" is the wrong frame entirely, and what to do instead
Her advice for a younger dom sub couple trying to build something that lasts
How she handles public opinion, criticism, and being recognized in public
Her favorite version of me that almost nobody else ever gets to see
What she's had to unlearn about sex, marriage, and monogamy
What she thinks couples misunderstand most about staying alive to each other over the long haul
Our actual morning and evening routines, no filter
How I show up for her when she's sick
What to do when your partner's preferences don't match your needs, and how to tell the difference between a hard no and a freeze response
The words that actually comfort her when she's struggling, and why there's no perfect sentence a man can say
How she handles it when she feels like I'm dropping the ball, and why that question itself was worth taking apart
And the one we get asked every single time we do one of these: when exactly did she fall from heaven

All the NSFW questions, the sexual ones, the dirty ones, the kinky ones, will be coming in the weeks ahead on Dawn's OnlyFans and inside the Infinite Devotion Community. Keep an eye out.

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CHAPTERS & TIMESTAMPS:

00:00 Fireside Chat Setup
02:09 Ask Dawn Anything Begins
03:08 Self Regulation and Support
06:47 Surrender in Crisis
09:57 Keeping the Dynamic Alive
15:02 Fear of Losing Connection
16:44 Advice for Engaged Couples
19:25 Handling Public Image
22:33 Containment and Desire
28:04 Favorite Side of Andrew
29:51 Unlearning Marriage Myths
31:31 Desire Keeps Love Alive
33:23 Fantasy Versus Real Kinks
33:54 Learning Self Love
36:11 Morning Night Rituals
38:33 Care When Sick
39:53 Needs Wants And No
43:54 Support Without Fixing
49:24 Sub Dom Control Trap
54:52 Closing And Heaven Joke
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58 min
August 24How Good Can This Get? Leadership, Health, and Loving Her Body Better Than a Doctor Would | Infinite Devotion Episode 146
This week we get into one of the most practical ways I lead in our relationship: taking ownership of our health optimization. It started with a routine idea to get full blood work done and turned into a discovery that Dawn's ferritin was at seven, that I have early markers for Hashimoto's, and that Dawn carries a genetic marker (lipoprotein A) that changes how her body handles certain fats.

Along the way we talk about what it actually means for a man to lead, why individualized data beats throwing darts at a dartboard, and how being cared for this deeply lands for the one receiving it.

A few things we cover:
Why circulating iron and ferritin are not the same thing, and why it matters
What a standard yearly checkup tends to miss
Using your own body's data instead of internet rules about "good" and "bad" foods
How health optimization becomes a place to lead, and to be led
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CHAPTERS & TIMESTAMPS:

00:00 Welcome Back Lakeside
01:11 Leading Through Health
02:50 Ferritin Wake Up Call
07:37 Taking Charge of Care
10:35 Function Health Discovery
14:27 AI Powered Tracking
20:05 Biometrics Environment Data
26:09 Supplement Tweaks Results
27:50 Dawn Perspective Perfectionism
31:45 Cholesterol LpA Genetic Risk
34:18 Actionable Heart Risk Plan
35:14 CT Scan Peace of Mind
36:20 Lowering LDL Ammo
37:29 Rethinking Cooking Fats
38:56 Fear to Self Trust
44:12 Love Leadership Polarity
47:20 Body Signals and Salt
49:03 Different Bodies Same Meals
52:57 Grounding the Fear
56:31 Why He Leads Health
01:00:52 Advocacy and Wrap Up
Andrew Reign's book, Infinite Devotion: How Love and Desire Grow Together for a Lifetime: infinitedevotion.com/book
1 hr 4 min
August 17The Newest Version of You Is the Most Authentic One | Infinite Devotion Episode 145
The first version of us you ever saw was the least authentic version of us you'll ever see. Same goes for you, if you’re doing the work and going inward in your life. Every new thing that surfaces as you shed conditioning is truer than what came before it, which means the person your partner is becoming is more real than the one they used to be.

Dawn joined me for this one, and we recorded outside by a lake in northern Wisconsin. Bugs, birds, wind, squeaky lawn chairs, all of it. Slowest, easiest conversation we've had on here in a long time.

What we get into:
Where we've been since April (Grand Canyon, Page, southern Utah, Moab, Yellowstone, the Black Hills) and why moving weekly burned me out
Why I've been pivoting away from the dominant/submissive framing, and why none of the teaching actually changes
The version of you that lives in everyone else's mind, and what happens when you stop matching it
What it means when someone else's life makes you think "how dare they"
Permission versus acceptance, and why permission can't be used as a tool to pry something out of your partner
Why intimacy and sex are not the same word
One year of adult content: what surprised us, what Dawn found in it, and what I'm still working out for myself

We'll probably do more of these outside.

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CHAPTERS & TIMESTAMPS:

00:00 Lakeside Podcast Setup
01:57 Why We’re Here Today
04:15 Beyond Dom Sub Labels
09:20 RV Pace and Burnout
11:44 Southwest Route Highlights
16:50 Boondocking and Remote Living
18:25 Page Arizona and Lake Powell
21:25 Antelope Canyon Must See
22:39 Moab Parks and Mountain Detour
24:50 Yellowstone Awe and Wildlife
28:56 Dakotas Stops and Badlands Take
32:56 Wisconsin Reset and Fan Meetup
34:53 RV Parking Requests
35:19 Avoiding Big Cities
36:14 Adult Content Backlash
38:58 Authenticity Evolution
48:52 Acceptance in Relationships
52:44 Permission vs Safety
57:37 Porn First Then Depth
01:00:54 First Year Reflections
01:07:48 Romance Books Mirror
01:12:55 Lakeside Wrap Up
01:14:20 Rate and Review

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1 hr 16 min
August 10Love and Sex in Relationships Can Be Easy | Infinite Devotion Episode 144
Most couples who have been together a decade or two are not fighting. They are holding their breath. Somewhere along the way the relationship became a landmine map, a whole terrain of subjects you don't raise, tones you don't use, days you don't bring up money. Nobody signed up for that. It accumulated, one unhandled thing at a time, until the ground you could safely stand on got smaller every year.

This is part two of the abundance versus scarcity conversation, and it takes last week's idea straight into love, sex, and embodiment. Abundance is trust. Here is what that trust does once you put another person in the passenger seat, and why the couple who can find it is the one still laughing, still adventuring, and still having sex ten and twenty years down the road.

If you haven't heard part one yet, it stands on its own, but you'll get more out of this one if you go back to it after.

In this episode:
Why scarcity turns your partner from a person into a supply line to be secured and monitored
Two people, two brakes, one car, and why you both keep blaming the other for the fact that nothing is moving
The landmine map, how it forms without anyone deciding it should, and why it explains a fading sex life better than "we fell out of love" ever could
What abundance actually looks like in a man, why control is always the tell, and why he can lead, hold her, and hear a no without it landing as a verdict on his worth
Why a woman's nervous system reads a man's nervous system first, and why neediness pushes away the very desire it's reaching for
What abundance looks like in a woman, why the guard she built for good reasons is the thing standing between her and the surrender she wants, and why no man can install that trust for her
The shift from facing each other looking for threat to standing side by side looking forward at a life of possibility
Why "whatever happens, we'll handle it" is the most valuable thing a couple can own, and how it dissolves the landmine map instead of tiptoeing around it
How losing the scarcity makes money conversations, sex conversations, and honestly the whole rest of your life easier
An honest word on the in-between, why the first attempts to let go will feel reckless, and why that feeling is information about the size of the fear rather than proof you can't do it

The whole point in one line: love and connection do not have to be hard. Fear, control, and lack are what make them hard. Trust is what makes them easy.

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CHAPTERS & TIMESTAMPS:

00:00 Abundance Recap
05:23 Scarcity Creates Clinging
07:12 Partner As Resource
11:02 Landmine Relationship Map
14:58 Abundance For Men
17:48 Control Versus Presence
24:33 Hearing No With Trust
26:06 Why Women Feel It
30:05 Abundance For Women
39:39 Shared Abundance As Couple
43:28 Truth Play Adventure
49:08 Devotion And No Pressure
50:47 Practice And Grace
53:34 Wrap Up And Review
Andrew Reign's book, Infinite Devotion: How Love and Desire Grow Together for a Lifetime: infinitedevotion.com/book
56 min
August 03The Mindset That Decides Whether You're Desirable | Infinite Devotion Episode 143
This episode is Part 1 of a two part series on the single biggest factor I've found underneath what makes a relationship work or fail, and it has almost nothing to do with what you think.

Most people hear "abundance" and think money. I want to blow that idea open. Abundance and scarcity aren't financial categories, they're the lens your whole nervous system looks through before you make a single decision, and that lens is either quietly running your relationship, your body, your time, and your sense of what you deserve, or it's setting you free to actually live.
In this episode I get into:
Why abundance isn't about money, it's about trust
The image that changed how I think about this completely (a car with one foot on the gas and one on the brake)
A real moment from my own week where I had to trust instead of fix
Why people with the most money are often not the most abundant people you'll ever meet
Where this pattern shows up in your time, your capacity, your trust, your health, and your creativity

Next Monday in Part 2, I'm taking this same pattern into relationship specifically, why scarcity is quietly killing sex lives and making people undesirable, and why abundance is the thing that actually makes someone magnetic. Come back for that one.

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CHAPTERS & TIMESTAMPS:

00:00 Welcome to Infinite Devotion
02:45 Abundance Versus Scarcity
03:51 Car Brake Metaphor
06:06 Defining Abundance
09:56 What Abundance Feels Like
14:12 Personal Funk Example
21:42 Scarcity Mindset Explained
26:55 Money Is Not Abundance
32:27 Tour Through Life Areas
40:08 Take Your Foot Off Brake
41:33 Next Week Relationship Teaser
42:21 Closing and Thanks

Andrew Reign's book, Infinite Devotion: How Love and Desire Grow Together for a Lifetime: infinitedevotion.com/book
43 min
July 27A man's path to overcoming neediness | Infinite Devotion Episode 142
Last week I went live to walk through Receiving To Give, the essay for the women. This week I'm going live again for its twin, Giving To Receive, the men's essay I published Friday. It's the most personal thing I've written, about a pattern I lived inside my own marriage for years without being able to name it: a man who gives everything and still comes up empty, because underneath the giving was neediness.
This one's for the men. If you're a woman listening, there's a section near the end written just for you, and it may help you understand the man beside you in a way nothing else has.
In this episode:
The child support story: the years I covered everything for Dawn's daughters, called it generosity, and the quiet sentence running underneath it, now she'll love me, now she'll want me
The simple test for whether a gift is really a gift: what happens when nothing comes back
Why I wasn't actually a giver at all, I was oriented around getting, reading Dawn's mood every day to know if I was okay
Needs versus neediness: a real need resolves when it's met, and why the ones that never resolve aren't needs at all
Why sex was where this showed up loudest, and what I was actually trying to get from it
The boy who learned his feelings weren't welcome, and why that closes a man's heart to survive
Why it wasn't that Dawn didn't love me, it was that I couldn't receive love no matter how much of it she gave
The two men in the same kitchen, same touch, and why she can feel the difference between a gift and a test
The only way out: taking her completely out of the equation and learning to give yourself what you never got
Why meeting that pain will feel like weakness before it feels like anything else, and why it's the doorway to real strength
A note for the women watching: you were never the shortfall, and why you can't fill a bottomless hunger no matter how hard you try
The whole thing lands here: what you think you need from her was never actually hers to give. The moment you learn to give it to yourself, your heart opens, your giving goes free, and what she gives you finally has somewhere to land.
Read the essay: Giving To Receive
Andrew Reign's book, Infinite Devotion: How Love and Desire Grow Together for a Lifetime: infinitedevotion.com/book
54 min
July 20 What I Learned Watching Dawn Almost Break Herself | Infinite Devotion Episode 141

A couple weeks ago I wrote a blog post called Receiving to Give which you can read here: https://infinitedevotion.com/blog/receiving-to-give
and the response to it caught me off guard. My inbox was flooded for days. So many women told me they felt seen in a way they hadn't from anything else I've written, and it was clear I needed to bring my voice to it directly, which is what this episode is. I delivered this episode live, which gave it a special sort of energy.

I've been using the language of doing to get versus receiving to give with women for years, but I realized I'd never actually taught it outside our deeper courses and coaching work. So in this episode I'm breaking it down from the ground up, live, and taking your questions along the way.

I talk about where this language actually came from, which is watching my wife Dawn nearly run herself into the ground for years. She looked disciplined and responsible from the outside, but underneath it she was operating from fear, chasing a standard of perfection she could never let herself reach. I had to stop looking at her behaviors and start paying attention to the woman underneath them.

I get into the real diagnostic question that most women are afraid to ask themselves, which is simply, am I doing this because I want to, or because I'm afraid of what happens if I don't. I talk about what happens when that fear-based doing becomes so normal it starts to feel like responsibility instead of fear, and how that's exactly when a woman loses touch with her own desire, including in the bedroom.

Then I get into what receiving to give actually looks like in practice. Not passivity, not doing nothing, but checking in with yourself before you act so your doing comes from fullness instead of obligation. I talk about why performing feminine embodiment is just the same fear-based pattern wearing new language, and why the real practice is simply noticing, without judgment, when you've overridden your own signal.

I also spend some time talking directly to the men listening, about what it actually looks like to support a woman through this without trying to control or fix her, because force from you just reinforces the same pattern she's already fighting inside herself.

I answer a handful of questions live toward the end, including whether this dynamic shows up differently for men, what to do when you know what you want but can't seem to give it to yourself, and how to let a partner have his reaction to your no without absorbing it as your responsibility to manage.
Next week I'll be back with the other half of this conversation, called Giving to Receive, which turns this same lens on men.

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Andrew Reign's book, Infinite Devotion: How Love and Desire Grow Together for a Lifetime: infinitedevotion.com/book
1 hr 7 min
July 13Control Was Never Strength | Infinite Devotion Episode 140
This week it's just me, and I want to walk you through a paradox that has tripped up almost every man I've ever worked with.

I'm going to tell you that you need to lead. Lead your relationship, lead your life, take a position, hold the ground. And in the same breath I'm going to tell you that you control almost nothing. You don't control her, you don't control the outcome, you don't even control yourself. Both are true at the same time, and learning to hold both is what lets you actually lead instead of just forcing.

If you can grasp this one, it changes how you lead, how you relate to yourself, and how your woman relates to you. Take your time with it. If you're in a relationship, listen together and have some honest conversations about what comes up.

In this episode:
The three ways men fall apart when they can't hold the paradox: the man who forces, the man who flees, and the man who freezes, and why all three come from the same root of being at war with reality
Why the forcing man looks strong but is actually the most afraid man in the room
How everything you do to your partner, you do to yourself first, and why your relationship is always downstream of your relationship with yourself
Why control, inner and outer, is always fear wearing a costume of discipline, responsibility, and standards
What surrender actually is, and why it's the opposite of giving up, going passive, or becoming a doormat
The river as the model for real strength: yielding to every bank while carving the Grand Canyon
The hard reality I had to face about why Dawn didn't want to have sex with me, and how surrendering to it was the only thing that let me change
Why letting go feels like everything will fall apart, and what actually happens when you stop gripping
How to practice this in the small moments: the drink, the laptop, the phone, and the little pause that changes everything
Why the strongest, most untriggerable man isn't the one in control, but the one who stopped needing to be

The whole point lands here: you can't lead something you can't see, and you can't see reality while you're fighting it, fleeing it, or numbing out from it. Surrender is how you get back in contact with what's real, and that's the only ground you can actually change anything from.

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Dawn of Desire adult content: dawnofdesire.com

CHAPTERS & TIMESTAMPS:

00:00 Welcome and Setup
01:18 The Leadership Paradox
04:06 Fight Flight Freeze
09:57 It Starts Within
15:39 Fear and Control
19:44 What Surrender Is
25:00 River Metaphor
28:28 Facing Relationship Reality
32:26 Leading Without Force
35:38 Practice the Pause
45:30 Unshakable Leadership
49:49 Closing and Next Steps
Andrew Reign's book, Infinite Devotion: How Love and Desire Grow Together for a Lifetime: infinitedevotion.com/book
51 min
July 06Church Girl to Porn Star: A Life Beyond Shame | Infinite Devotion Episode 139
Dawn is back for the second week in a row, and this one goes somewhere raw and real.
This episode is about shame. Specifically, what it costs you to carry it, what it does to your relationship, and what becomes possible when you finally set it down.
Andrew and Dawn have spent the last year living about as openly as two people can live. The podcast, the coaching, the blog, the Instagram, and yes, the OnlyFans. All of it is them, all of it is real, and none of it is an accident. This episode is the honest conversation about why they've chosen to live this way and what it has meant for each of them individually and for their relationship.
Dawn's journey from church girl to the woman you see today is not a cautionary tale. It's an invitation into whatever freedom might look like for you, through an example of what it feels like for us.
In this episode:
Why shame doesn't just hurt you individually, it cuts off parts of you that your partner can never access, and what that actually costs a relationship
The shame economy and why the people judging you most loudly are showing you exactly what they've locked away in themselves
What happened when Andrew and Dawn started making adult content together and why it was never really about the money
The connection between suppression and sexuality, and why the bigger the shame, the bigger what's underneath it
Why you can't borrow someone else's permission to be yourself, and where that permission actually has to come from
The difference between living openly and performing openness, and why only one of them actually sets you free
Dawn's experience going from someone who wouldn't even say the word porn to becoming one of the fastest growing creators on OnlyFans
What shameless living has done for their sex life after 17 years together

This is not an episode about kink or porn. It's an episode about what happens to two people when they stop hiding.

Connect with us:
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Dawn on Instagram: instagram.com/dawn.of.desire
Infinite Devotion on Instagram: instagram.com/_infinitedevotion
Dawn of Desire adult content: dawnofdesire.com
Andrew Reign's book, Infinite Devotion: How Love and Desire Grow Together for a Lifetime: infinitedevotion.com/book
1 hr 2 min
June 29It Was Always About More Than Dom/sub | Infinite Devotion Episode 138
It Was Always About More Than Dom/Sub
This week marks a turning point for this podcast and for the Infinite Devotion brand.
After several years as Dom Sub Devotion, the podcast is returning to its original name: Infinite Devotion. Not as a retreat from what we've built, but as a homecoming to what this was always actually about.
Andrew and Dawn sit down together to talk through why this change is happening now, what Dom/sub dynamics actually taught them about themselves and each other, and why the lessons from that world have never belonged exclusively to that world.
If you've been here from the beginning, nothing is being left behind. If you're finding us for the first time, you don't need to speak our language to belong here.
In this episode:
Why the podcast started as Infinite Devotion, became Dom Sub Devotion, and is returning to the original name
What the Dom/sub container actually required of each of them individually, and what it taught them that has nothing to do with labels or lifestyle
The shame economy inside the kink world and why it's been a ceiling on the reach of this work
Why depth is the only thing that actually changes people, and how AI and social media are reinforcing the very patterns that cause the problems people are trying to solve
The full integration of Infinite Devotion, Dawn of Desire, and OnlyFans as different facets of one shameless, openly lived life
What devotion actually means to each of them, and why the name has kept proving itself more right the longer they've lived it
This is Infinite Devotion. Welcome back, and welcome in.

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Andrew Reign's book, Infinite Devotion: How Love and Desire Grow Together for a Lifetime: infinitedevotion.com/book
1 hr 1 min

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Most long-term relationships end up in the same place. Two good people who love each other, living like roommates, wondering where the fire went and whether it's ever coming back.