“We all just have different medicines that we reach for.”

That’s how Tim Sexton describes the real story behind the affair that blew up his life. Even though at one point that affair led to his downfall as a pastor, today it's not something he hides from. Instead, he's leaning into it in hopes to help others, and one of the ways he's doing that is by calling out the roots that run much deeper. Those roots for him? A lifelong addiction to people-pleasing and affirmation rooted in childhood trauma, fear, and spiritual confusion.

In this conversation, Tim opens up about growing up with two alcoholic parents, feeling responsible for their chaos, and carrying a distorted picture of God into adulthood—one built on fear, performance, and the desperate need to be enough. He shares how that inner ache followed him into marriage and ministry, how it quietly shaped his identity, and how flattery, secrecy, and emotional validation became the “medicine” that eventually led to infidelity.

But this is not only a story about destruction. It’s also a story about the long road back—through exposure, humility, counseling, discipleship, and the honest surrender that brings real freedom. Tim talks about the years he spent dismantling false identities, the painful undoing that came even after public confession, and the miracle of restoration he never expected.

If you’ve ever thought you've done something beyond forgiveness, this episode reminds you that there is always hope.

We explore:

—Why infidelity was a symptom, not the root
—How childhood trauma and alcoholic parents shaped Tim’s identity
—People-pleasing as an addiction
—Why fear of God (not awe of God) destroyed his early faith
—The moment everything collapsed on a high-school football field
—What public shame exposed in him
—Why approval addiction is every bit as powerful as substance addiction
—How Jesus rebuilt him from the inside out
—Why the church must rethink restoration
—What it really means when Tim says “The best definition of sin I’ve ever heard is you and me trying to get our needs met apart from Christ.”

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