Figuring Sh!t Out

let your tenderness speak, let it lead you into darkness, and let your darkness lead you into light.

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My darling, I have news for you. 

You are here to feel safe enough, trusting enough - to pause, land, and unravel your very existence at the feet of something loving.

And if you are, (like too many of us are) living a frantic, disordered life, one that feels like you’re chasing a plot that never comes -

If you are clogging your heart with unwarranted worries -

If you are unknowingly caught in the hamster wheel of more, more, more -

Stop right there.

Have you noticed lately:

The sky? The tulips? The daffodils? The wind?

Have you listened to Figuring Sh!t Out on a good ol' day while strolling softly?

Let these things ground you down and bring you back.

I love you.

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How to hear the call of your divine assignment & listening to your Sacred Marching Orders - beyond what the inner critic has to say.

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I LOVE YOU!!

This episode is your reminder that there is a future version of you who is thanking you deeply for doing it scared.

This episode is proof that the first step is always the courage to admit.

This episode is proof that you WILL figure it out, even if you have no f*cking clue how.

How do I know?

Three years ago, I started this show in my bedroom while working full time in Corporate America.

Two years ago, the night before I ran my first marathon, I recorded this episode - breaking through a shaky voice to utter the words, "I want to do this full time."

One year ago, I was 6 months out of quitting my job to Figure Sh!t Out full time.

And today, I can confidently say that I know that I am where I'm meant to be. And that Figuring Sh!t Out along the way is part of the damn process.

I did it scared. I am DOING it scared.

And this episode is a sign that You can too.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you.

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"I believe that your highest path lives in the hands of a greater knowing. 

And the cure to all of your anxieties lies in that subtle desire to reach for these hands when you know you need them most. 

But what if I told you - that you actually need them all the time? And that they’ve been silently guiding your steps - here, in this moment, to receive these words, so that you can see that you are being given help, direction, grace, guidance - if you just ask for it.

So many of us WANT help. We NEED help. But we won’t ask for it. We don’t know how. We don’t know that we can. And the truth is: many of us won't humble ourselves for a mere moment, removing the idea that it’s all up to us, in order to receive it. 

We are committed to our helplessness, our hopelessness, our story that it’s all us to us - because that means we get to stay in control, even if it means we’re miserable.

If there is a small seed of belief in you already, water it with intention. Thank it for existing. 

And if you worry that it will not grow, that it does not exist - pray for clarity of vision to see it sprout right in front of your eyes, and open yourself to receive it.

And I can nearly guarantee - that you will receive that and so much more." - An excerpt from my essay written for this episode 

This discussion is about the absolute emotional alchemy that occurs when you lean on the power of prayer & give your worries, doubts, and fears up to something much larger, greater, and more knowing than you could ever be. 

I share how my spiritual journey is changing day by day and what practices and tools I'm leaning on - and how to begin implementing these tools of purification and surrender in your life.

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If you liked this episode, you'll like these, too:

1. The veil is dropping, God is Real 
2. Surrender the Clenched Hand of Control

This episode is being posted live from a jungle in Costa Rica two days after hosting my first retreat. 15 women expressing their most true selves, accessing their inner child, creating art from the depths of their hearts - all because I had an idea for a podcast almost three years ago and decided to act on it.

If that's not evidence that your ideas are blessings that must be honored, respected, and listened to - I don't know what is.

In this episode, we talk about the divine workings inside of the creative process - from conception, to discovery, to creation.

If you know you have more inside of you waiting to emerge and blossom and be let free, if you're scared to be bad in order to be good, if you're scared to be seen but crave to be known -- this episode is the reminder you need to tap into the flow that wants to call you forward.

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Creativity & self-expression is how you heal.

This episode is about excavating your creativity - using your life and experiences as a devoted practice to the creative process and your art as an offering and symbol of your resilience.

And on the other side - a powerful, potent, peaceful you emerges.

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Who told us that we were not supposed to hurt - when to feel is our greatest gift? 

Who told us that we could have ease - without a little grit?

This episode takes you on a journey discussing The Purification Process of the Dark Night of the Soul & the GIFT of enduring the transformation within it.

(Spoiler: You Can Do Hard Things & in fact, you were made to.)

After all, the darkest hour is right before dawn.

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Honest admittance: I'm a little scared to publish this episode.

But what would Figuring Sh!t Out be if it wasn't a testament to overcoming fear, time and time again, by getting as deeply honest as possible and sharing truths from this raw and reflective place?

This is Figuring Sh!t Out - in real time.

This episode is an existential conversation about God, Existence, and using our critical thinking and discernment when approaching spirituality. (From a girl who has not, up until recently, used a lot of discernment when approaching spirituality.)

It is a journey reflecting upon my own - and one that I simply ask you allow to let you question, let you think, let you feel your own inner judgements as they arise, let you wonder about the beliefs you're married to, and reflectively ask: is this my own?

Topics covered in this episode:

• reflections from turning 26: how almost dying at birth gave way to a sentimental thought-daughter with lots of existential questions
• i am reading the bible?? for the first time?? ever?? (and tbh i would recommend and if you're immediately like "no," yes that was me too up until last week. lowkey profound.)
• getting out of the way to receive (including putting your ego aside) and how this connects us to artistry + God
• critically thinking: spirituality / new age as a trend (that i have also fallen into) and why it's not the whole story
• impure vs pure actions / intentions and how that impacts the quality of the information we receive
• surrendering: we were never meant to do it all alone
• discernment
• God as The Judge vs God as Love: getting curious, seeing beyond religious dogma
• shattering your own illusions as a ragebait for your inner evolution & growth
• the fallibility of self-help / development content: you do not have to (and were never meant to) do it all on your own
• the fallibility of our flesh & bone - the necessity of humility & respect
• how this all helps you do hard things
• God vs The Universe

Thank you for being on this journey with me.

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There's your potential - and then there's the power that you DECIDE to have to embody it.

And it is a decision.

One you must make every day.

This episode is a short tough-love transmission reminding you of your limitlessness, your inevitability, the power of your deepest truth when it is aligned in the actions of your highest path, and serves as a first-step to what you know you're ready to move towards.

Let this be your reminder: you cannot change what you do not accept.

& Let this be your anchor: acceptance is the first step to full surrender and the catalyst to change.

So - what are you avoiding that you know you need to do? Why have you been avoiding it? What are you unwilling to face in yourself, that you are ready to change? And what has this avoidance taken from you?

Are you actually showing up in a way that will give you every possible chance to succeed? Or are you sleeping on yourself, waving your potential in front of your face while day-dreaming and pretending that's enough to actually *change?*

I believe in you. But that doesn't matter.

What matters is: Do you believe in you? Are you acting like you do?

Because the truth is: what you're not changing is what you're choosing.

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