every day is dress rehearsal for the life you want to live and the person you want to be.

if you're trying, you're trying too hard.

let this episode remind you of the truth of who you are -

stop trying.

start being.

let go of the story & start LIVING your truth.

and start now.

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Chapters:

0:00-4:00: You're Not Special, but You Are Powerful

4:00-8:00: Coming Clean

8:00-10:00: your worth starts right now

10:00-12:00: What you want reveals who You Are

12:00-14:00: what is driving you? Fear or love?

14:00-16:00: what if I don't believe it?

16:00-18:00: the distinct polarities

18:00-20:00: don't stare at fear. don't linger.

20:00-21:00: the trap of "trying" and how it keeps us stuck without realizing it

21:00-23:00: life is a process of creation, not discovery.

23:00: let go of the story & start LIVING your truth

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"What aspects of myself do I wish to experience now in the face of this calamity? What aspects of being do I choose to call forth? For all life exists as a tool of your own creation, and all of its events merely present themselves as opposites for you to decide to be who ou are. There are no victims. Only creators" - Neil Walsch, Conversations with God

Thought-Daughtering my way through every major challenge and transition in my life and remembering:

Everything is an opportunity to deepen your most high truth - especially, your biggest challenges. Layers within them, are blessings.

CHAPTERS:

0:00-7:00: life update & backstory: where am I... living?

7:00-19:00: challenges & hardship are opportunities to go deeper into who we really are

19:00-25:00: we are pure creative potential

25:00-29:00: you are not a victim!!!

29:00-31:00: the misconception of the higher self

31:00-35:00: how lucky are we to have a last time?

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life is happening FOR you, not to you.

your access to freedom is right here and now - in the chance and opportunity to trust when your faith is shaken.

on this week's episode, i give you background into how this mindset is keeping me steady and strong after finding out i may have to leave my home of three years on a week's notice (stay tuned to find out what happens next week! figuring sh!t out in real time! haha! it's so not funny! but i have to laugh! because what else! is there! to do!! haha!!)

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Chapters:

0:00-4:30: If You're Forcing: Stop. 

4:30- 13:00: Backstory of Being (potentially) Displaced in NYC: 

13:00: Resisting vs Surrendering, The RatRace & Hamster Wheel

15:00: There is nothing that could take you from your path. it will emerge 

19:00: tests of trust come through uncertainty 

23:00: the process is the point

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This episode is an ode to reclaiming your creativity and individuality after being flooded and energetically dulled from phone addiction, a noisy world of aesthetics and trends, and overstimulation.

In it, I give you a six-step ritual to reclaim spaciousness inside of your own head, to hear your own voice, and to unravel the subtle signal of yourself beneath all of the noise.

In a world that demands so much of our attention, where every desire is boxed into a trend or an aesthetic to curate onto a Pinterest board, where we are drowned by stimuli the moment we step into the deep-end of unlocking our phones - individuality and autonomy is no longer a birthright, but a skill. 

And in a culture of immediacy and urgency, choosing to listen, have patience, and prioritize play is a radical act.

This is not performance.

This is learning how to breathe again.

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-2:00: Coming Home to Yourself. Even "Good Noise" Is still Noise

2:00-10:00: What Inspired this Episode: My Experience with Energetic Density

10:00-13:00: Energetic Hygiene: All it Takes

13:00-14:00 The Art of Hearing Your Own Voice

14:00-17:00: The Unraveling, Creativity Cave, Sensory Reclamation, Boredom As A Portal

17:00-19:00: We Have to remember this was always Ours

19:00-21:00: How Trends, Labels, and Aesthetics Keep us in a Box

21:00-27:00: The Artist's Way is the Spiritual Path

27:00-34:00: Dopamine & Scrolling

34:00-39:00: Oh My Darling, It was Never That Serious.

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What if your expression: your voice, your vision, your rebellion was the most direct line to the divine? What if Art was your prayer?

In this conversation with my dear friend Etai, we explore the thin veil between art and spirituality and the daily devotion of creativity and leading life with an open heart.

We discuss in depth - The Artist's Way, fear, rejection, finding the right audience, living with an open heart, and returning to wholeness through expression.

Etai has built an online community of over 400,000 who use his yoga videos to get closer to themselves and their truths. He's built this platform in the last year through a brave spirit of pure authenticity as he finds himself calling other parts of the globe his home and sharing his truth. May his words, voice, and presence inspire your path forward and let you live in your calling. 

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CHAPTERS:

00:00-07:40: Discovering Oneself

07:40-10:20: One Year of Solo Travel & Spiritual Unfolding Showing Up Online

10:20-14:00: The Sacred Contrast: Collectivism vs. Free Expression

14:00-17:00: Showing Up Online, Yoga as a Muse, Building a Digital Devotional

17:00-20:00: Living with an Open Heart & True Authentic Freedom

20:00-25:00: The Artists Way + Inseparability between Art & Spirituality

25:30-35:00: The Company We Keep

35:00-40:55 – Yoga as Muse & Art as Offering

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We become so busy "getting our lives together" that we forget that we've achieved some of our childhood dreams. 

Let this episode allow you to remember.

You are right on time. This episode is an ode to LIVING and restoring your inner vision. 

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-6:00: But, where is your joy?

6:00:-8:00: Forgetting we've achieved our childhood dreams

8:00-9:30: The Lower Self / Higher Self & Pendulum Swing of Shadow + Light

9:30-12:00: Raising Your Baseline, Sitting with the Self in 40 days of Silent Meditation

12:00-16:00: Transformation is a process that is not linear

16:00-19:00: Vision without Strategy is just a To-Do List

19:00-23:00: The Proverbial "mountain," Sometimes It's Easier When You're Farther Away

23:00-27:00: How Would You Act If It was All Working out?

27:00-30:00: When You're Ready to Change, YOU WILL

30:00-37:00: Costa Rica, Artist's Way Circle

37:00-43:00: Create What You Wish Existed

43:00-44:00: If I'm still here I have a 100% Survival Rate!!

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no one relates to art that has all the answers - 

your power comes from all of the things you do not know, but have the courage to try and understand.

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-3:00: We're Always Figuring Sh!T Out

3:00-4:30: The GIFT of Imposter Syndrome & Uncertainty

4:30-6:00: You are Exactly Where You're Meant to Be

6:00-11:00: The Void & Gestation, The beauty of In Betweenness, Becoming

11:00-14:00: You Are Already Whole

14:00-18:00: What is Freedom?

18:00-21:00: Seeking, Lack, & How You Know It's Time to Take a Step Back

21:00-23:00: We are Not Meant to Walk this Path Alone

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6 months ago, I got off the hamster wheel, quit my corporate job, & traveled to Bali for Yoga Teacher Training.

I went through the highs and lows of choosing a yoga teacher training, learned the hard lessons of first-time solo transatlantic travel, and lived to tell the tale.

In this episode, I share about everything I gathered in my journey to Bali, how I chose a Yoga Teacher Training, what YTT was like, and what I learned from doing yoga in the jungle of Ubud for 3 weeks.

We cover the questions you should ask before choosing a YTT, the trade-offs of affordability and community, what it's actually like traveling to Bali, and what my experience was like at House of Om.

Touching on the transformation that happens within, the cultural complexities of Bali, and the spiritual truths that emerge when you step away from the familiar, this episode is a 101 guide for anyone thinking about buying that one-way ticket.

For more on the depth of my experience and to hear my journal entries and awakenings while there, watch my recent video on Youtube: Diaries of a Corporate Drop-Out.

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Resources:

Choosing a YTT

House of Om:

House of Om: Melati

Samten Kriya

Visitng Bali:

Indonesia Visa Regulations 

Official Link to Apply for a Visa (Website isn't Great)

Recommendations mentioned:

Sanur: Nice Beach / Calm / on West Coast

Ubud: YTT's & Spiritual Center of Bali

Uluwatu: Beach/Cliftown in the South - favorite part of Bali

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-3:00: Introduction

3:00-9:00 Why I decided on YTT & My Journey

9:00-11:30: Choosing a YTT: 3 Questions to Ask Yourself

11:30-13:15: Intentions

13:15-16:00: Class / Group Size

16:00-19:00: House of Om: Affordability & Experience

19:00-20:00: Be Prepared for Emotional Catharsis

22:00-24:00: Teachers & Kriya Yoga, Schedule & trade-Offs

24:00-25:00: Emotional Processing

25:00-27:00: Choosing a Training: Summary

27:00-30:00: All About Bali

30:00-34:00: Gentrification, Westernization: Paying Respect

34:00-40:00: Flights, Visas, Police, Female Solo Traveling

40:00-44:00: Finances & Cost, Justifying the Investment

44:00-48:00: What YTT Gave Me

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my reflections on the journey to the other side of the world seen through the eyes of my through journal entries.

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for this week, here is my heart.

NEXT WEEK, there is an episode all about the actual logistics of YTT and I give you my comprehensive guide to navigating choosing a yoga teacher training and going to Bali.

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Walk with me through six truths to remember and come home to when life feels impossibly heavy.

From the murky edges of uncertainty to the quiet wisdom of who we choose to surround ourselves with, this episode is a gentle guide for the tender, relentless act of becoming.

In this episode, I speak to the ache of transitions and the courage of leaning into what’s alive: movement as medicine, community as a balm, the exquisite alchemy of falling apart and piecing ourselves back together, and deepening into the beautiful, magical, unknowing, unfurling process of Figuring Sh!t Out!! (something we will ALWAYS BE DOING in case u forgot.)

We are in this TOGETHER

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-9:00: Life Update / Moving in NYC / Figuring Sh!t Out in Real Time

9:00-13:00: Uncertainty is an OPPORTUNITY!! The Great Big Void.

13:00-19:00: MOVE that sh!t out

19:00-23:00: Let Love In

23:00-30:00: Let it Go

30:00-33:00: Life is a Mess! But it's YOUR beautiful Mess!

33:00-40:00: The One Resonant Truth

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