Perfectionism doesn’t always look like high standards and color-coded excellence.

Sometimes it looks like spinning, overthinking, procrastinating—and waiting for Monday to start again. Ask me how I know. 😂 

In this episode, I’m sharing how I interrupt the perfectionism-and-procrastination loop, take imperfect action, and use my MEfirst Guide to get moving again—even when overwhelm tells me I need the perfect plan. 

I’m talking through the three mindset shifts I use when perfectionism and overwhelm have me frozen:

• Why “imperfect” needs to become the new finish line
• How one small, imperfect action creates momentum
• Why I deliberately choose one thing to bomb every day 💣
• How I use the MEfirst Guide to stop carrying an impossible list in my head
• Why getting back up quickly matters more than never spiralling. 

The goal isn’t to become a woman who never gets overwhelmed, misses a habit, overeats, or has a weird day.

The goal is to become the woman who doesn’t abandon herself when she does.

We don’t stop. We adjust as we go.

SELF-REFLECTION

What are you willing to bomb today so the thing that matters most can actually move?

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I’m a skinny bitch.

Yep—I said it. At 262 pounds, after losing 120 pounds, regaining 80, and now being down 30 pounds this year.

And nobody can convince me otherwise.

Because being her doesn’t begin when the scale finally gives you permission. It begins when you decide who you are, practice believing her thoughts, and keep showing up long enough for the evidence to catch up.

In this episode, I’m riffing straight from our MEfirst 90 planning event about what it actually takes to believe in yourself again—especially when you’ve started over before, regained weight, or have people waiting to roll their eyes at your next attempt.

We’re talking about:

• Why I put on my detective hat instead of my judge’s robe
• The Obstacle Playbook that exposed what was really behind my afternoon overeating
• How commitment, courage, capability, and confidence build on one another
• Why self-trust matters whether you’re losing weight, using a GLP-1, building a business, or chasing any big goal
• How I practice new thoughts before I fully believe them
• The bridge thought that can carry you when “I’m already her” feels too far away
• Why your dreams have to get bigger than weight loss

YOUR 1% ACTION:

Choose one goal you want to reach in the next 90 days and ask yourself:

What would I need to believe to be the woman who makes this happen?

Then get honest about what you believe now. No judgment. Just curiosity.

You don’t have to jump straight to “I’m a skinny bitch.” Start with a thought you can practice:

I’m going to keep showing up, learning, and loving myself through this until I figure it out.

That’s how belief gets built.

TIMESTAMPS

00:00 — “Who’s a skinny bitch? That’s me.”
01:38 — What believing in yourself looked like at the beginning
03:42 — Put on your detective hat, not your judge’s robe
04:18 — Building an Obstacle Playbook
07:15 — What my overeating was actually helping me avoid
09:14 — Identity work and GLP-1 weight loss
10:30 — Commitment, courage, capability, and confidence
13:18 — Practicing the identity before the evidence arrives
16:51 — Finding a bridge thought you can believe
19:20 — Why goals start feeling possible
20:17 — Your 1% action for the week
21:54 — There is no shame in regain
23:21 — What if your dreams became bigger than weight loss?

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What if your biggest dreams aren't behind you...

What if they're just waiting for your permission?

In today's Future Self Diaries, I'm taking you behind the scenes as I dream out loud about the life I'm intentionally creating. No perfect plan. No pretending I've arrived. Just an honest conversation about the future I'm choosing to build—and why I think every midlife woman deserves to do the same.

Because here's what I've learned...

You don't accidentally become her.

You become her one tiny decision, one tiny habit, and one tiny act of courage at a time.

If you've been putting your dreams on hold while taking care of everyone else, this episode is your reminder that your next chapter doesn't have an expiration date.

It's time to dream bigger.

In this episode:

✨ Why dreaming is more practical than you think
 🧭 How your Future Self becomes your compass
 🌅 The power of visualizing an extraordinary life
 💗 Why becoming always comes before achieving
 🚀 One simple way to start becoming her today

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I lost 120 pounds. Regained 80. Losing it again, live, right here with you. 👇 Come build your ritual with us this week: [SKOOL LINK]

Diet culture has us believing the happy is at the skinny. Lose the weight, and then the happy shows up.

I did the opposite. I stopped chasing skinny and started chasing joy — and the weight came off anyway.

Then the opposite happened. Joy went out of my life, and the weight came back on. So it became a mission to create a life I loved again. And as I stepped into that, the weight started coming off again.

I'm still in it. I've still got work to do. And I'm doing it right here with you.

If you're a midlife woman who knows exactly what to do and still can't stay consistent, this one is for you. This isn't another video about discipline or willpower. Sustainable weight loss after 50 doesn't come from trying harder. It comes from building habits and rituals you actually want to wake up to.

In this episode I'm telling you the thing that finally made my habits stick. I was a 300-pound ball of misery in Phoenix, and the first habit I ever built was a 20-minute meditation I bribed myself into with a cup of coffee. That one small ritual started everything.

WHAT WE GET INTO:

→ Why your habits don't stick, and why it's not a discipline problem
 → The coffee bribe: why bribing yourself isn't cheating, it's the mechanism
 → Habit stacking (James Clear, Atomic Habits) and why a ritual is a habit stack with soul
 → How to build a morning routine you don't have to force yourself into
 → The beach house: I got everything on the vision board and I was still miserable
 → The candy jar, the meditation room, and quieting the food noise
 → Your primitive brain isn't broken, it's trying to keep you safe (nervous system regulation)
 → Weight regain: showing up through the sickness, the eczema, the gaining, and why I never stopped
 → Curiosity over judgment, and why awareness is your superpower

MY PROMISE EVERY EPISODE: one small thing you can actually do this week, or one idea that shifts something in your brain. Not more information. You've got plenty of that.

CHAPTERS:

0:00 The happy isn't at the skinny
 0:57 If you're new here
 1:38 My promise every episode
 2:37 Back in Phoenix, where it started
 3:00 The 300-pound ball of misery
 4:26 My very first habit stack
 4:57 I could just go walk five minutes
 5:22 Where does your ritual live?
 6:32 The coffee bribe
 7:12 James Clear and habit stacking
 8:53 Sick of doing it the same old way
 9:13 Pulling the card
 10:34 The beach house and the vision board
 13:37 The candy jar
 14:29 Your primitive brain is keeping you safe
 21:58 Showing up through the eczema and the flare-ups
 26:18 Curiosity over judgment
 26:34 The awareness is your superpower

This week inside Midlife Badassery we're building joy on purpose all week, leading into the Habits & Rituals workshop this Sunday. If you're done with diet culture and ready to build a life you love living, come walk with us.

 Get on the ride with me, because I'm not stopping. 

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Six months ago, I sat on this very mountain wondering what the next chapter of my life would look like.

Today, I'm back.

I'm 30 pounds lighter, my community has grown from an idea into 450 incredible women, and somewhere along the way... I stopped chasing a perfect life and learned to truly love the one I was living.

In this deeply personal reflection, I share what actually changed over the past six months—including the things I never saw coming.

We talk about:

✨ Why the biggest transformation wasn't the number on the scale (although, I'll take 30 pounds down)!

✨ Building an alter ego that changed everything

✨ Learning to love my life—even when it was confined to one room

✨ Healing, health challenges, and why progress isn't always linear

✨ Dreaming bigger than weight loss

✨ Why I'm planning to work from Scotland next year (yes... really!)

✨ What I hope the next six months will bring

If you've ever felt like your life is meant for something more than simply losing weight, being on the hamster wheel of life, same day in and out...

This episode is for you.

Because sometimes the greatest transformation isn't becoming someone new.

It's finally becoming yourself. 

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Have you ever known exactly what you wanted to do... and still couldn't make yourself do it?

You want to stretch.
 You want to meditate.
 You want to lose the weight.
 You want to build the business.

So why does your brain seem to hit the brakes?

In this episode, I'm sharing one of the biggest breakthroughs I've had in years of coaching midlife women. What started as research for my EFT tapping workshop turned into a completely new way of understanding motivation, procrastination, and why so many of us get stuck during life's transition moments.

You'll learn why I no longer believe motivation is the problem—and why your nervous system may be trying to protect you instead.

We explore:

✨ Why traditional morning routines aren't the whole answer

✨ How your nervous system influences motivation and procrastination

✨ The "Smoke Alarm" analogy for fight-or-flight

✨ The ancient Chariot story and what it teaches us about the mind, body, and soul

✨ Why I see our Arch Nemeses (like the Wine Wench and Fog Witch) as protective parts instead of enemies

✨ A new concept I'm calling The Transition Chamber—a simple way to move from survival mode back into alignment with your Highest Self

Plus, I end with a short EFT tapping exercise you can use the next time you find yourself stuck, overwhelmed, or unable to take the next step.

If you've ever asked yourself...

"What's wrong with me?"

I hope this episode helps you start asking a better question:

"What is this part of me trying to protect me from?"

Because I have a feeling that question might change everything.

Chapters (Approximate)

00:00 – Why I think I finally figured this out

02:15 – My client's morning routine struggle

06:00 – Why morning routines aren't the real answer

09:30 – The nervous system & the Smoke Alarm

15:00 – The Chariot: an ancient map for the modern mind

22:00 – Why your Arch Nemesis might be trying to protect you

28:00 – The Transition Chamber

34:00 – EFT tapping for motivation & overwhelm

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If you've ever felt like you know exactly what to do but still can't seem to follow through, this episode is for you.

After losing 120 pounds, navigating a regain, and spending years exploring everything from mindset work to coaching to EFT Tapping, I've come to believe that most of us aren't stuck because we need more willpower.

We're stuck because something inside us doesn't feel safe.

In this episode, I'm sharing four powerful questions that can help uncover the hidden fears, beliefs, and emotional patterns that may be keeping you stuck—not just in weight loss, but in business, relationships, money, and life.

We'll also talk about EFT Tapping (Emotional Freedom Technique), why it's become one of my favorite tools for nervous system regulation, and I'll walk you through a simple tapping exercise you can use yourself.

The Four Questions

✨ What Happens If It Changes?

✨ How Will Other People Feel About It?

✨ What Pain Might I Experience If I Change This?

✨ What Will I Lose If I Make This Change?

The answers may reveal more than you expect.

Because they usually aren't about food.

They're about safety.

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Something cracked open inside Midlife Badassery this week — and Addie couldn't NOT talk about it.

In this episode Addie shares what happened when a group of midlife women showed up for a free 7-day kickstart challenge and had some of the most profound transformation moments she's witnessed in 8 years of coaching. No $10k mastermind. No suffering. Just alter egos, daily prompts, and a whole lot of fun.

In this episode:

• The one ingredient missing from every weight loss plan you've ever tried
• How Addie lost 20 pounds from meditation alone — and why that made her furious
• The birth of Slayer — her alter ego born from rage at a broken system
• Why the "you only value what you pay for" coaching myth is bulls**t
• Real wins from real women in the community this week
• Why groups create exponential transformation (and what Human Design says about it)
• What happens when you stop measuring macros and start measuring joy

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What happens when creativity becomes more than a hobby — and turns into a lifeline, a healing tool, and a business?

In this episode of Midlife Badassery, I’m joined by Katya McEwen, creator of Oracle Connections and Oracle Cards Magic, mindset coach, hypnotherapist, and soulful creative guide. I also fully confess that I am basically Katya’s biggest fan. Badge included. 😂

Katya shares her powerful story of being born in Russia, raised in Ukraine, and moving through the grief and identity crisis that came after the war in Ukraine began. When her usual mindset tools stopped working, she found her way back to creativity through painting, AI art, and oracle cards — eventually turning pain into purpose and “war into art.”

We also talk about the money blocks spiritual creatives carry, why women need to stop martyring themselves, how oracle decks become transformational tools, the ethics of AI, community over competition, and why midlife women belong in rooms where money, magic, and impact are all allowed to exist together.

This conversation is soulful, practical, funny, a little woo, and deeply human.

In this episode, we talk about:

Katya’s LIFE philosophy: love, impact with integrity, freedom of expression, and evolvement

Why so many women think they “aren’t creative anymore”

Using art and AI as a way to process grief

The story behind Katya’s Ukrainian goddess of protection images

The ethical conversation around AI and creativity

Money, spirituality, and why Katya says, “I know my shit and I’m going to get paid for it”

How oracle cards can become healing tools, business tools, and transformational tools

Why your next deck, offer, or body of work may already be hiding in your Google Drive

Community, collaboration, and the power of women lifting women

The magic her younger self would see in her life now

Chapters / Timestamps

 00:00 — Meet Katya McEwen + why I’m her biggest fan
 03:04 — Katya’s LIFE philosophy: love, impact, freedom, evolvement
 08:05 — What to do when you don’t feel creative anymore
 12:38 — Katya’s childhood in Russia and Ukraine
 16:11 — The war in Ukraine, identity crisis, and finding AI art
 22:38 — The ethical conversation around AI and creativity
 28:11 — Detaching from outcomes, goals, and the Skool Games
 34:17 — Money blocks, spiritual work, and getting paid for your gifts
 41:07 — Oracle cards as healing tools, business tools, and transformational tools
 49:36 — Community, collaboration, and women lifting women
 59:06 — The signature magic question 

Katya McEwen joins Midlife Badassery to talk oracle cards, AI art, creativity, money, community, and her powerful journey of turning grief from the war in Ukraine into art, purpose, and transformational work.

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I thought I was bringing Slayer back.

You know... the weight loss alter ego who helped me lose 120 pounds and completely change my life.

I showed up to an Alter Ego workshop ready to resurrect her. Instead, I walked away with a surprising realization: the woman I need now isn't exactly the same woman I needed back then.

The weight is coming off.

The business is growing.

But my sacred morning time? The time that keeps me grounded, creative, and connected to myself? That's been getting hijacked.

In this behind-the-scenes episode, I'm pulling back the curtain on the exact Alter Ego process I teach inside MEFirst and sharing what happened when I used it on myself.

We talk about Slayer, Brookster, the Wine Wench, the Time Bandit, and why identity—not willpower—is what actually changes your life.

If you've ever felt like you're becoming someone new, or like the version of you that got you here might not be the version that gets you where you're going next, this episode is for you.

In This Episode:

✨ Why I originally created Slayer and how she helped me lose 120 pounds

✨ The surprising problem that showed up this time

✨ Why I think my new arch nemesis is The Time Bandit

✨ Future Self vs. Alter Ego—and why the distinction matters

✨ The role identity plays in lasting transformation

✨ Midlife, menopause, healing, and learning to work differently

✨ The question that changed everything for me:

What am I capable of doing that I'm not doing?

Grab a notebook and come behind the scenes with me.

Until then, witches and bitches...

Dream big.

Become her.

Chapter Markers

00:00 - My Weight Loss Alter Ego Returns

03:12 - Why I Needed Slayer Again

07:08 - The Problem Wasn't the Scale

10:42 - Current Reality vs. Wonder World

15:06 - The Health Journey Nobody Sees

19:20 - Identity Shifts and Lasting Change

24:14 - Midlife, Menopause & Energy

29:48 - The Question That Changed Everything

33:11 - Future Self vs. Alter Ego

38:05 - The Batman Effect

42:52 - Meeting a New Alter Ego

47:20 - The Wine Wench & The Time Bandit

52:04 - Creating New Beliefs

55:18 - My New Creed

57:04 - Slayer Out

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