What happens when addiction takes almost everything from you, but recovery gives you a chance to build something entirely different?

In this episode of Sober as F*ck, we sit down with Myke Murray, better known in our house as “Boston Myke,” for one of the most raw, unfiltered recovery conversations we’ve had.

Myke’s story spans generations of addiction, alcohol, cocaine and methamphetamine use, homelessness, psychiatric hospitalization, suicide attempts, an abusive relationship, criminal charges, and the consequences of choices he made while deep in addiction. He doesn’t minimize any of it, and he doesn’t pretend recovery erased the past.

Instead, Myke talks openly about learning to live with accountability, guilt, mental health struggles, and the reality that sobriety is still a decision he has to make every single day.

But this episode isn’t only about how far addiction took him. It’s about what he decided to do next.

Today, Myke is rebuilding his life in Boston and using his experience to help other people find the connection he desperately needed when he was struggling. He helped create Robbie’s Group, an inclusive recovery group designed to welcome people regardless of sexual orientation, gender identity, race, or background, while working to expand support for people who are too often left out of traditional recovery spaces.

We talk about:

• The progression from alcohol and prescription drugs to cocaine and methamphetamine
• The connection between addiction, sex, relationships, trauma, and validation
• Homelessness, suicidal ideation, psychiatric hospitalization, and finally accepting help
• Why lived experience matters in addiction and recovery
• LGBTQ+ recovery and the need for genuinely inclusive spaces
• Mental health, shame, guilt, and learning to ask for help
• Facing the legal consequences of addiction while rebuilding your life
• Why structure, work, meetings, sponsorship, and community became critical to Myke’s recovery
• Turning painful experiences into a reason to help the next person
• Why recovery isn’t about becoming perfect, it’s about what you choose to do with the next 24 hours

Myke carries 24-hour recovery chips with him because he never knows when he’ll meet someone who needs one. That idea becomes one of the most powerful themes of this conversation: no matter how much time you have, recovery ultimately comes back to the same thing. Today.

Myke puts it simply: “We all have 24 hours.”

This is a conversation about addiction, mental health, accountability, identity, second chances, and what can happen when someone who once needed a safe place decides to start creating one for other people.

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What if the question that changes your life isn’t “How do I stop?” but simply, “What if I did?”

Billy Hyland, author of The What If Shift, joins Ryan and Jess to share how one question helped him walk away from nearly 30 years of drinking and begin rebuilding his life from the inside out.

After years of binge drinking, blackouts, “one more” nights, health warnings, and convincing himself he still had everything under control, Billy reached a point where he could no longer ignore what alcohol was costing him. Instead of trying to figure out the rest of his life, he asked himself a much smaller question: What if I stopped drinking right now?

That question became the beginning of more than six years of sobriety and eventually the foundation for The What If Shift, a framework designed to help people move through change, uncertainty, hard truths, and the moments when they feel stuck.

Billy opens up about the deeper reasons behind his drinking, including his experience growing up adopted, struggling with belonging, and using alcohol as a shortcut to connection. He also shares why quitting drinking was only the beginning. Real recovery meant confronting the damage left behind, working through therapy, rebuilding relationships, and accepting that personal growth doesn’t have a finish line.

Ryan and Jess also get candid about their own marriage, the impact Ryan’s drinking and gambling had on their family, Jess’s decision to work on herself before Ryan got sober, and why sobriety doesn’t magically erase years of hurt, resentment, or trauma.

In this episode:
• Why “What if?” can become a powerful catalyst for change
• Billy’s journey from nearly 30 years of drinking to more than six years sober
• The connection between belonging, identity, and alcohol
• Why focusing on today can make sobriety feel possible
• How small rituals helped Billy build a new identity
• Why quitting drinking doesn’t automatically repair relationships
• The difference between changing yourself and trying to change someone else
• How therapy helped uncover what alcohol had been masking
• Why loved ones need their own healing process
• What it means to make amends without expecting forgiveness
• Why recovery is about progress, not perfection
• How Billy transformed his sobriety experience into The What If Shift

Whether you’re questioning your relationship with alcohol, supporting someone in recovery, rebuilding a relationship after addiction, or standing at a crossroads in your own life, this conversation is a reminder that you don’t need to know what the next five years will look like.

Sometimes you only need to ask: What if I made a different choice today?

Learn more about Billy Hyland, The What If Shift, and his resources at thewhatifshift.com.

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Is drinking officially becoming uncool?

In this episode of Sober as F*ck, Ryan and Jess dig into the cultural shift happening around alcohol, sobriety, mental health, and wellness. From the explosion of non-alcoholic drinks and mocktails to younger generations questioning whether drinking is even worth the hangover, the social pressure around alcohol may finally be starting to change.

But there’s another side to the wellness movement that deserves a conversation.

Ryan and Jess talk about the difference between becoming more informed about mental health and self-diagnosing based on something you saw online. Jess shares her own experience with anxiety, ADHD, OCD, therapy, and learning that understanding your brain requires more than relating to a TikTok or checking boxes on a symptom list.

They also get into better sleep after quitting alcohol, why Ryan is obsessed with his blackout sleep mask, the growing popularity of NA beer, supplements and wellness claims, placebo effects, therapy, moderation in everyday life, and why removing alcohol doesn’t automatically fix everything underneath it.

The bigger question: Are we actually getting healthier, or are we just replacing one trend with another?

Sobriety doesn’t have to mean hiding from life. It can mean understanding yourself better, taking your mental health seriously, and realizing you don’t need alcohol to belong, celebrate, relax, or have a good time.

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After more than 42 years of sobriety, Randy Haveson believes most people are asking the wrong question. In this powerful conversation, he explains why putting down alcohol or drugs is only the first step, and why lasting freedom comes from doing the deeper work of recovery.Randy shares the heartbreaking moment that nearly ended his life, the phone call that gave him hope, and the decision that changed everything. From being expelled from college twice and struggling with addiction, shame, and low self-worth to becoming a best-selling author, award-winning speaker, life coach, TEDx speaker, and university administrator, his story is proof that recovery is about far more than abstinence.Together, we explore the difference between simply collecting sober days and actively healing. We dive into self-esteem, ADHD, OCD, perfectionism, childhood experiences, gratitude, journaling, service, and the daily habits that build a meaningful life. Randy also shares why learning to quiet your inner critic and strengthen your "best friend voice" can transform not only recovery, but every area of life.Whether you're newly sober, have years of recovery, love someone struggling with addiction, or simply want to become the healthiest version of yourself, this episode offers practical tools, hope, and a fresh perspective on what lasting recovery really looks like.In this episode:• The difference between sobriety and recovery• Why self-worth is the foundation of lasting change• Randy's powerful story of surviving addiction and finding hope• ADHD, OCD, perfectionism, and their connection to addiction• The importance of gratitude, journaling, and service• How to stop listening to your inner critic• Why recovery is a lifelong journey of growth, not a finish lineAbout Randy HavesonRandy Haveson has been sober since May 28, 1984. He is a best-selling author, award-winning speaker, life coach, TEDx speaker, university administrator, and founder of Club 528. With a Master's degree in Counseling and decades of experience helping others build confidence and self-worth, Randy has been featured by CNN, Johns Hopkins, CNBC, and FOX News. He is the author of "Worth at Work" and host of the "Becoming Your Own BFF" podcast.

What happens when addiction recovery, chronic illness, and eating disorders collide? In this powerful episode, we're joined by licensed therapist, author, professor, and speaker Tamie Gangloff, whose remarkable journey through 29 years of sobriety, chronic illness, and eating disorder recovery has made her one of the leading voices advocating for compassionate, whole-person care.Tamie shares how childhood trauma, scoliosis, body image struggles, and alcohol addiction shaped her life and ultimately led her to a career helping others heal. She explains why so many people living with chronic illness feel dismissed by the healthcare system, how medical trauma impacts recovery, and why learning to trust your own experience is one of the most important steps toward healing.Together, we explore the surprising connections between addiction, mental health, chronic illness, and eating disorders, while discussing practical ways to advocate for yourself, build resilience, and find recovery through connection instead of shame.In this episode:• Tamie's 29-year sobriety journey• The hidden relationship between addiction, eating disorders, and chronic illness• How trauma influences physical and mental health• Why patients are often dismissed by the medical system• Self-advocacy strategies for medical appointments• The importance of community, compassion, and believing your own story• Hope for anyone navigating recovery or chronic illnessWhether you're in recovery, living with chronic illness, supporting someone you love, or simply looking for a deeper understanding of healing, this conversation offers practical tools, expert insight, and a powerful reminder that your pain is real, your voice matters, and lasting recovery is possible.Connect with Tamie Gangloff:Website: www.tamiegangloff.comInstagram:  @TamieGangloff  Substack: open.substack.com/pub/authortamiegangloff🎧 LISTEN & WATCH ON OUR WEBSITE SAFPODCAST.COM🔗 Linktree: linktr.ee/Soberasfck📸 Instagram: @safpodcast_jess.ryan🎵 TikTok: @soberaftok🎥 YouTube: @SoberasFckPodcast]

What happens when healing, motherhood, trauma, and recovery all collide?

In this episode of Sober as F*ck, we're joined once again by bestselling author Jessica Guerrieri to celebrate the release of her powerful new novel, Both Can Be True.

Jessica opens up about the inspiration behind the book, why she chose to explore the ways women can disappear both literally and emotionally, and how her own recovery journey continues to shape the stories she tells. Together, we discuss trauma, sexual assault, consent, motherhood, sobriety, relapse, creativity, community, and the courage it takes to tell the truth through fiction.

Jessica also shares why authentic representation of recovery matters in literature, how audiobooks became part of her creative process, and gives listeners an exclusive reading from the opening pages of Both Can Be True.

Whether you're in recovery, love emotionally rich fiction, have experienced trauma, or simply enjoy meaningful conversations about resilience and hope, this episode is a reminder that healing doesn't happen alone.

In this episode, we discuss:
• Jessica's newest novel, Both Can Be True
• Writing honest fiction inspired by lived experience
• Recovery, relapse, and rebuilding identity
• Why representation of sobriety matters in books
• Motherhood, consent, and protecting the next generation
• Community as the foundation of healing
• The inspiration behind Jessica's upcoming third novel

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Childhood trauma doesn't stay in childhood. It follows us into adulthood, shaping our relationships, self-worth, mental health, and often our addiction without us even realizing it.

In this powerful conversation, Barbara Latinka shares her extraordinary journey from surviving abuse, neglect, addiction, and family dysfunction to breaking generations of trauma and creating a life rooted in healing. After years of living in survival mode, a breakthrough in trauma therapy led her to write an entire trilogy in just six days, transforming decades of pain into a roadmap for recovery.

Together, we explore why childhood trauma is so closely connected to addiction, how neuroscience explains our behaviors, and why awareness is often the first step toward lasting change. Barbara also shares how journaling, meditation, and storytelling became the foundation of her healing, and why understanding your brain can change everything.

If you've ever wondered why you react the way you do, why certain patterns keep repeating, or whether it's possible to truly heal from your past, this episode is for you.

• How childhood trauma can silently fuel addiction and unhealthy relationships
• Why awareness is the foundation of recovery
• The neuroscience behind trauma, PTSD, and the brain's survival response
• How journaling can uncover hidden memories and accelerate healing
• Why meditation is a powerful tool for emotional regulation
• How to break generational cycles instead of repeating them
• The difference between reacting emotionally and responding intentionally
• Why healing yourself is one of the greatest gifts you can give your children
• How self-compassion and accountability can exist together
• Why your past explains you, but it doesn't have to define you

Whether you're navigating sobriety, healing from childhood trauma, supporting someone you love, or simply trying to understand yourself on a deeper level, Barbara's story is a reminder that recovery is possible and that it's never too late to rewrite your story.

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What happens when the life you've built is slowly destroyed by alcohol, denial, and self-sabotage?

This week on Sober as F*ck, we sit down with Angelina Garrison, recovery coach for Reframe, who shares the brutally honest story behind her more than 8½ years of sobriety.

From binge drinking as a teenager to drug use, multiple DUIs, a devastating high-speed crash, toxic relationships, secret drinking, and becoming a single mother while battling addiction, Angelina spent two decades convincing herself she was still "functional." Behind the scenes, everything was falling apart.

Then one ordinary night changed everything.

Angelina opens up about the emotional breakdown that became her turning point, the conversation with her father that saved her life, and why true recovery required far more than simply putting down the bottle.

In this episode, we discuss:

• The warning signs of high-functioning alcoholism
• Why addiction is about far more than alcohol
• The hidden damage caused by shame, denial, and self-sabotage
• How childhood trauma shaped her addiction
• The truth about recovery after multiple DUIs
• Why getting sober has to be for you, not anyone else
• Learning to forgive yourself without forgetting your past
• Grief, losing a parent, and staying sober through life's hardest moments
• Building healthy routines, boundaries, and purpose in recovery
• How helping others became the foundation of her own healing

This conversation is raw, vulnerable, funny, heartbreaking, and ultimately full of hope. Whether you're sober, sober curious, supporting someone you love, or simply searching for a better way to live, Angelina's story is proof that no matter how far you've fallen, your next chapter can still become your best one.

Recovery isn't about becoming someone new.

It's about finally becoming the person addiction tried to take away.

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A breast cancer diagnosis changes more than your body. It changes your identity, your relationships, your priorities, and the way you see the future.

In this powerful episode, Kelly Gunn shares her journey through breast cancer, sobriety, forced menopause, body image struggles, and the often-overlooked reality of survivorship. While treatment and surgery were difficult, Kelly explains why life after cancer became one of the biggest challenges she faced and how it ultimately led her to create a thriving community for women ready to reclaim their lives.

Kelly opens up about decades of alcohol use, the culture that normalized drinking, the growing research linking alcohol and breast cancer, and the moment she realized she wanted more from life than simply surviving. Today, she is the founder of Feinix Haus and the creator behind Unapologetically After, helping women move beyond fear, trauma, and diagnosis to build lives they truly love.

This conversation is honest, emotional, funny, and filled with hope for anyone navigating recovery, health challenges, major life transitions, or the pursuit of a more authentic life.

• Kelly's breast cancer diagnosis and treatment journey
• Why survivorship can be harder than treatment itself
• The emotional impact of double mastectomy and reconstruction
• Forced menopause and rebuilding self-confidence
• Alcohol's connection to women's health and breast cancer risk
• The role sobriety played in Kelly's healing and recovery
• Learning to trust your intuition and listen to your body
• Creating Feinix Haus and the Unapologetically After community
• Why women deserve more than simply surviving
• Finding purpose, joy, and identity after trauma

Kelly Gunn is the founder of Feinix Haus and creator of Unapologetically After, a community dedicated to helping post-cancer women reclaim their lives, confidence, and purpose after treatment. Through education, community, and honest conversations, Kelly empowers women to stop waiting and start living fully.

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100 episodes.

What started as two people sharing honest conversations about recovery has grown into a thriving community built on connection, vulnerability, and real-life experience.

In this special milestone episode, Ryan and Jess celebrate 100 episodes of the Sober as F*ck Podcast by reflecting on the journey that brought them here. From the earliest recordings to the powerful stories shared by guests from around the world, they discuss the lessons, challenges, surprises, and moments that have shaped both the podcast and their own personal recovery journeys.

The conversation dives into the importance of community in sobriety, the evolution of their perspectives on mental health and personal growth, and the impact that authentic storytelling can have on healing. Ryan and Jess also share how the podcast has expanded beyond alcohol recovery to include discussions about gambling addiction, disordered eating, anxiety, relationships, grief, self-discovery, and the many ways people work to build healthier, more fulfilling lives.

They also reveal exciting plans for the future of the Sober as F*ck community, including free meetups, new challenges, expanded resources, and the launch of SAF After Dark, a new space for candid conversations about relationships, intimacy, personal growth, and the topics people often avoid discussing openly.

Whether you've been listening since episode one or you're discovering the podcast for the first time, this episode offers an honest look at what happens when people choose connection over isolation, progress over perfection, and community over going it alone.

In this episode, you'll learn:

• Why community is one of the most powerful tools in recovery and personal growth

• The biggest lessons Ryan and Jess have learned from 100 episodes and countless conversations

• How vulnerability creates deeper connection and lasting impact

• The role humor plays in navigating life's most difficult challenges

• What's next for the Sober as F*ck Podcast and community

• Why recovery is about so much more than simply removing alcohol

Thank you to every listener, guest, supporter, and community member who has been part of this journey. This milestone belongs to all of us.

Here's to the next 100 episodes.