Are you polyamorous and anxious? Does your chest tighten every time your partner mentions a new crush? Are you constantly asking yourself, “Why am I feeling this way if I chose non-monogamy?” You’re not broken and you’re definitely not alone.

In this episode of Nope! We’re Not Monogamous, relationship coach and recovering bathroom-floor-cryer Ellecia Paine (that’s me 👋) breaks down:

• Why relationship anxiety is so common in non-monogamy
• The real roots of jealousy (hint: it’s not just about your partner’s date night)
• Tools to regulate your nervous system without pretending to be chill when you're not
• How to build emotional safety that doesn’t rely on external reassurance

If you're tired of people telling you to “just be secure,” and ready for practical, compassionate tools instead… this one's for you.

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Music: Composer/Author (CA): Oscar Lindstein
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Have you ever thought, “If my partner can’t meet all my needs, maybe another partner will”?
In this episode of Nope! We’re Not Monogamous, I break down why that belief is one of the biggest traps in polyamory and open relationships.

We hear it all the time in the ENM community: “No one person can meet all your needs.” That’s true, but when we take it as a free pass to collect partners to fill every emotional gap, it backfires. Instead of feeling fulfilled, we multiply our insecurities, create pressure on new relationships, and leave our existing partners feeling like they’re not enough.

👉 In this episode, you’ll learn:

• Why seeking new partners to fill emotional needs can backfire
• How to stop jealousy in polyamory and open relationships
• Practical self-care tools to create wholeness within yourself
• Why community and friendships are just as vital as romantic partners
• How to build healthier, more joyful non monogamous connections

Polyamory isn’t about finding enough people to complete you. It’s about cultivating wholeness within yourself so every relationship becomes a choice — not a patch for what’s missing.

✨ Listen now and start creating the kind of polyamorous relationships that feel sustainable, nourishing, and fun.

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Music: Composer/Author (CA): Oscar Lindstein
STIM IPI: 572 393 237

Most people think the toughest part of polyamory is jealousy. But according to Richie, it’s actually… logistics. Yep, the calendar.

After a life-changing cancer journey with his partner, Richie realized that the hardest part of opening their relationship wasn’t emotions, it was managing schedules, consent, and privacy across multiple partners. With his background in software product management, he decided to do something about it, and created PYE, a scheduling and consent management app designed specifically for the polyamorous community.

In this episode of Nope! We’re Not Monogamous, Richie and I dig into:

• Why scheduling is considered an “unsolvable math problem” (and why we need more self-compassion when we feel polyunsaturated).
• How misunderstandings about dates, boundaries, and consent are quietly breaking relationships.
• The creative ways poly folks use calendars as safety tools.
• Why color coding, structure, and intentional planning actually free us up for more intimacy and fun.
• Richie’s vision for cutting down burnout and building more trusting, joyful relationships with better tools.

If you’ve ever juggled multiple Google Calendars, forgotten to communicate a boundary, or lost a relationship to logistics overwhelm — this one’s for you.

👉 Learn more about PYE and grab one of the free-for-life beta spots at www.lovepye.com

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Music: Composer/Author (CA): Oscar Lindstein
STIM IPI: 572 393 237

What if midlife wasn’t the decline everyone warns you about, but a second spring?

In this episode of Nope! We’re Not Monogamous, I sit down with Carla Wainwright, Holistic Wellness Coach, Sexual Awakening Facilitator, and self-proclaimed Midlife Alchemist. We talk about what really happens to women’s desire, relationships, and identity in midlife, and how it all ties into exploring non-monogamy, polyamory, and rewriting the love scripts we didn’t ask for.

Carla shares why:

• 🔥 Desire evolves with us (and midlife is often when it finally gets honest)
• 🧠 Communication has to start with the nervous system, not just words
• 🚧 Boundaries get sharper as we age, and that’s actually freedom
• 💋 Pleasure isn’t optional; it’s medicine for hormones, libido, and vitality

We also get real about:

✔️ What non-monogamy looks like in midlife

✔️ Why menopause can actually increase desire and sexual energy

✔️ How pleasure and presence help regulate hormones and deepen connection

✔️ Why this stage of life is a portal into power, clarity, and turn-on

If you ever think, “I don’t know what I want, but I know it isn’t this,” this conversation will remind you: you’re not broken, you were born lovable, and you get to want what you want.

👉 Don’t miss Carla’s Just the Tip segment, available exclusively on Patreon at patreon.com/notmonogamous. Become a friend with benefits and get access to the spicier stuff.

🔗 Resources & Links Mentioned:

• Connect with Carla + download The Vibrancy Guide: vibrancyreset.com or www.carlawainwright.com
• Support the podcast on Patreon: patreon.com/notmonogamous

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Music: Composer/Author (CA): Oscar Lindstein
STIM IPI: 572 393 237

Curious about open relationships but tired of the Instagram highlight reel version?

This episode gets real about what it actually takes to make non-monogamy work — the messy feelings, the constant negotiations, and the communication skills you didn’t know you needed until it was too late.

As a relationship coach, I’ve seen the glossy fantasy and the gritty reality. Spoiler: opening your relationship isn’t a shortcut to freedom — it’s a crash course in radical honesty, emotional intelligence, and navigating fears you thought you buried years ago.

Whether you’re just poly-curious or already in the thick of it, this episode will give you the clarity and tools you need to decide if non-monogamy is really for you.

What You’ll Learn in This Episode

• The different types of non-monogamy (open relationships, swinging, polyamory, relationship anarchy) and why defining your terms matters.
• The 4 brutal truths about open relationships, including constant renegotiation, jealousy, networked heartbreak, and social stigma.
• Why rejection hits different when you haven’t dated in 10+ years (hello, modern dating apps 👀).
• The communication skills that make non-monogamy sustainable — like weekly relationship check-ins, compersion practice, boundaries, and building a “couple bubble.”
• Research insights: how CNM couples report commitment and satisfaction rates on par with monogamous couples.

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Music: Composer/Author (CA): Oscar Lindstein
STIM IPI: 572 393 237

What happens when you leave monogamy… but bring patriarchy with you?

In this episode of Nope! We’re Not Monogamous, I sit down with Cass Banker (they/them) — a polyamorous, eXvangelical, non-binary human on a mission to deconstruct patriarchal masculinity in themselves and the world. Raised and socialized as a man for most of their life, Cass knows firsthand how entitlement, dominance, and pre-written gender scripts sneak into all kinds of relationships — yes, even ethical non-monogamy.

We talk about:

• How patriarchy shows up in ENM (and why “polyamory” doesn’t automatically mean anti-patriarchal)
• The Chooser vs. Chosen dynamic and how it harms everyone
• Why polyamory can be a playground for men who speak “progressive” but live patriarchal
• The ghost of patriarchal programming — and how it can haunt your sex life
• The emotional labor trap: why your deconstruction work isn’t your partner’s job
• Self-acceptance vs. self-erasure: why shame won’t actually change you
• Building non-monogamy rooted in equity, care, and genuine love

Cass also shares their own polyamory journey — the mistakes, the heartbreaks, and the moments of beauty that make it all worth it. And yes, they drop a Just the Tip bonus for better sex that will change how you listen to your partner’s body.

Whether you’re new to polyamory, deep into your ENM life, or just curious how gender and power dynamics shape love, this conversation will give you language, insight, and maybe a few “ouch” moments worth sitting with.

Follow Cass:

TikTok: @cas_of_the_void

https://besafecoaching.com/

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Music: Composer/Author (CA): Oscar Lindstein
STIM IPI: 572 393 237

“What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I just be happy with what I have? Why do I keep wanting more when I already have a ‘good’ relationship?” 

If that question has been looping in your head, this episode is for you. Spoiler: there’s nothing wrong with you. You’ve just been taught your whole life that love only “counts” if it fits in the monogamy box—even if that box is crushing you.

I’m getting real about my own story—how I contorted myself in my first marriage until I barely recognized who I was, why I stayed way too long, and how my second marriage turned into something more honest, more spacious, and more us once I stopped shrinking and started telling the truth.

We’re diving into:

• The sneaky, everyday ways self-erasure shows up in relationships.
• Why “compromise” isn’t the same as collaboration (and how to tell the difference).
• How your nervous system tries to keep you small—and how to rewire it so you can take up space.
• A quick grounding practice you can use before those scary, important conversations.
• Six tools to help you be fully yourself without automatically burning it all down.

If you’ve ever thought you’re “too much” for wanting more—more love, more connection, more you—this one’s your permission slip to stop twisting yourself into a shape you don’t even recognize.

Links & Resources:

• Join Breaking Free From Monogamy → https://www.elleciapaine.com/breakingfree
• Hang out with me on TikTok → http://tiktok.com/@elleciapaine

Share the Love:

If this episode hit home, send it to your partner, your best friend, or that one person who’s definitely tired of playing small. Let’s stop pretending everything’s fine and start talking about what love could look like when it actually fits.

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Music: Composer/Author (CA): Oscar Lindstein
STIM IPI: 572 393 237

What happens when you grow up being told your body isn’t yours, your desires are dangerous, and your worth is tied to being someone’s “only one”… and then you finally break free?

In this powerful conversation, I’m joined (again!) by Leah Carey, relationship and intimacy coach and former host of Good Girls Talk About Sex, to talk about what so many folks discover after leaving high-control environments like purity culture, religious abuse, cults, or narcissistic family systems:

→ The floodgates of curiosity open—and suddenly queerness, kink, and non-monogamy are on the table.

We dig into:

• Why exploring outside monogamy can feel like a reclamation of autonomy
• How high-control systems shape our nervous systems and sexual wiring (and why “just getting over it” isn’t a thing)
• The sticky shame messages ex-purity-culture kids drag into adult relationships—and how to start untangling them
• How non-monogamy can be a massive relief during seasons of mismatched desire (and Leah’s refreshing take on letting a meta meet your partner’s needs)
• Why true sexual freedom often starts with learning what your real yes and no even are

If you’ve ever thought, “Why can’t I just be normal about love and sex?” this episode will remind you—you’re not broken. You just weren’t given a roadmap. And you get to write a new one.

Links & Resources:

• Connect with Leah: leahcarey.com  | YouTube | @XOLeahCarey on socials
• Leah Carey is a Relationship and Intimacy Coach and host of the podcast Good Girls Talk About Sex, which ran from 2019-2024. In a world full of confusing and contradictory messages about intimacy and relationships, Leah helps sex make sense. Drawing on her own healing journey from fear and repression, she specializes in working with people from High-Control childhoods like Purity Culture, narcissistic abuse, cults, and other religious abuse. Regardless of your background, she works with clients to unlearn stigmas and unhealthy patterns around intimacy and communication. Her work has been featured by Buzzfeed, Yahoo, NBCThink, The Journal of Cancer Education, and more.
• Learn more about non-monogamy support at elleciapaine.com
• Join the Nope! We’re Not Monogamous

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Music: Composer/Author (CA): Oscar Lindstein
STIM IPI: 572 393 237

In non-monogamy, being misunderstood often feels like the default—and being truly seen? That’s the exception. But finding your people truly changes everything.

In this episode of Nope! We’re Not Monogamous, non-monogamous love, sex, and relationship coach Ellecia Paine cracks open the emotional exhaustion of constantly explaining your relationships—especially to therapists, friends, or family who just don’t get it. She shares what real support actually looks like, how it feels in your body, and why tolerating your truth isn’t the same as honoring it.

You’ll learn:

• The nervous system relief of being seen without explanation
• The emotional toll of defending your relationships
• A 3-part framework to stop performing and start protecting your peace:
• ✦ The Triage Method – who gets access to your truth
• ✦ The Information Diet – how much to share (and with whom)
• ✦ The Boundary Script – what to say when someone crosses the line
• Why the right support isn’t just validating—it’s healing
• How to find (or create) a space where your love doesn’t need a disclaimer

Whether you’re solo poly, partnered, or somewhere in between, this episode is your reminder that you don’t have to keep explaining yourself to feel worthy of support. You just need the right people who meet you with curiosity, not correction.

🔗 Resources & Links:

• Join the “Nope! We’re Not Monogamous” Facebook Group → https://www.facebook.com/groups/156086393074950
• Book a free Clarity Call with Ellecia → https://elleciapaine.podia.com/clarity-chat
• Get support in Breaking Free From Monogamy → http://www.elleciapaine.com/breakingfree

Let’s Keep the Conversation Going:

If this episode gave your nervous system a big ol’ exhale, leave a review or share it with a fellow polyam pal who needs to feel seen too. And don’t forget to subscribe—because your support helps this show keep doing its thing.

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Music: Composer/Author (CA): Oscar Lindstein
STIM IPI: 572 393 237

Do you worry that your desires make you “too much”?

Like wanting more connection, more honesty, or more love means something is wrong with you?

You're not broken—you’re just becoming.

In this episode of Nope! We’re Not Monogamous, I’m getting all the way real about the internalized guilt so many of us carry when we crave “more” in our relationships. More connection. More truth. More you. And especially inside non-monogamy, where wanting more can trigger every insecurity we’ve ever inherited from monogamy culture.

🔍 We’re unpacking:

• Why wanting more doesn’t make you greedy—it makes you honest
• The myth of being “enough” in non-monogamy and why it’s total B.S.
• How monogamous conditioning gaslights our desire and shrinks our relationships
• What “enough” actually means—and why it’s YOUR definition that matters
• Why non-monogamy isn’t inherently chaotic (but support + tools matter)
• How to let go of the shame and build relationships that are truthful, not performative

✨ If you’ve been asking yourself, “Am I selfish for wanting more?” or “Would they still want others if I were enough?”—this one’s for you. And spoiler: no, you're not selfish. You're self-aware.

Mentioned in this episode:

👉 My 3-month coaching program Breaking Free From Monogamy—for folks ready to stop surviving and start creating love on your terms. Learn more at elleciapaine.com

If this episode made your heart exhale…

➡️ Leave a review.

➡️ Share it with someone who needs to hear it.

➡️ Or DM me on Instagram @elleciapaine and tell me what hit.

Because you’re not too much. You’re just ready to stop pretending crumbs are enough.

And that? That’s the beginning of something real.

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Music: Composer/Author (CA): Oscar Lindstein
STIM IPI: 572 393 237