Holy mother of Jesus, Mary and Joseph. The last four days have been some of the most intense, in your face healing that's taken place for some time. I have breakthroughs regularly, but this one was one of those almighty one's that cracked me open so I could see, hear, feel and be in new ways. Ways that were more in line with my truth, my authentic self - my essence.

In these last four days our family has undergone very deep and radical healing. I woke up on my birthday plagued with the same thoughts about my family, not belonging and wishing for a different life. I woke sad, unhappy and anxious. This made me really fking mad and so over myself and my ego. I knew something had to change and today was the day!

In today's episode I share the change that has taken place and why radical change was imminent and vital!

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It's been a long process to land in owning that I don't want to have children of my own. I've wrestled with this for some time, listening to others opinions, watching others with their children and thinking, "fk, am I missing something?" I've  been told me many, "oh but Kat, you'd be such a great Mum!" I look at my parents and think I'm robbing them of something wonderful, come on Kat, just do it!

But to be radically honest, I just don't have that deep down feeling in my guts to have a child. And when this deep down feeling has spoken to me about other areas of my life, I know, "yep, this is for me!" 

I feel pretty raw about sharing this and uncomfortable. But this is my truth and I'm becoming more confident in owning this, despite what my ego, or others, say.

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When I don't live true or closely to my values, my inauthenticity radar starts ring-a-ding-dinging! Most of my life before the age of 25 years old was having no values or saying I had them but never being able to stick to them. People pleasing and seeking approval came first and as a result my self esteem, confidence and trust in self dwindled. No wonder I struggled to look at myself in the mirror.

Over time, I started paying attention to what truly mattered to me, how I wanted to show up, how I could be proud of myself and like myself. As a result, my values started to come forth and challenge the way I was thinking, feeling and behaving. It's been one heck of a journey and to this day they still challenge me.

In today's episode I share about my path to becoming vegan. I thought this was fitting as it's Be Kind To Animals Week this week and I wanted to share the time it took to finally land in a place where I am congruent with my value of Kindness with regards to animals. To be real, it's been a long road of 9 years to get here.   

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Pam Ahern is a deadset super hero in my eyes. She's the creator of Edgars Mission here in Victoria, one of my most favourite places on Earth. A lifelong animal lover and activist, Pam always had her heart for the animals. After being a long-time champion equestrian, everything changed when a tiny piglet, the eminent Edgar Alan Pig, trotted into her life in 2003 and led her down a path she’d never imagined. 

She gave up her full-time paying job, hung up her riding boots, and dedicated her life to the protection of farmed animals. With Edgar firmly at its heart, Pam built the sanctuary, Edgars Mission from the ground up and set in motion outreach programs that would bring farmed animals out of the dark unknown and into public view. 

Pam is also the proud Australian Ambassador for World Animal Day and was a 2014 Victorian Local Hero Finalist in the Australian of the Year Awards. In the lead up to Be Kind To Animals Week, I have brought Pam on the podcast to talk all things kindness and how we humans with beating hearts and change animals' fate through our choices.

Edgar’s Mission: https://www.edgarsmission.org.au/

Edgar’s Mission Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/edgarsmission/

Be Kind to Animals Week - Make the pledge: https://bekindtoanimalsweek.org.au/

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I rate Cathy. She's an awesome human who took a huge leap of faith that was driven by her heart and values. Cathy couldn't comprehend that calves were being taken from their mother's and slaughtered so we could drink their mother's milk. I for one stand with her on this matter, big time!

HOW NOW Dairy is the end result of her heart and vision. It's what happens when a music industry exec (that's Cathy) meets a third generation dairy farmer, and together they decide to challenge the globally accepted inhumane dairy industry practices and create an ethical dairy farm based on the simple premise of kindness.

Third generation dairy farmer and renowned dairy nutritional consultant, Dr Les Sandles found himself becoming increasingly disenfranchised with the direction of the Australian dairy industry toward mega-dairies and in 2012, he and partner, Cathy Palmer, a passionate animal right activist who had built a career in the music industry, decided to stop complaining about the problem – and become part of the solution.

The dairy is small, family owned, and fiercely independent. They're proud of their commitment to a more ethical approach to dairy production.

Keep your ears and heart open in this one and see how much impact the value of kindness has when it's put into action.

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Been doing my darnedest to keep Captain Asshole at bay, however, she's making a regular appearance at the moment and it's been a real face ache. It's been exhausting coming back to my senses, getting out of them, coming back to then and so on, and I want to share here I manage myself during these times.

It’s not always easy sharing when I’m not okay. I fear that people will think I’m unstable or not fit for the work that I do. I fear I’ll turn people off and fk up my business. But, I’m a firm believer of not posting about not being okay one day of the year and then showing a highlights reel every other day. That to me is inauthentic.

I hope this serves you well. Love Kat x

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For a lot of years, I numbed pain through drugs, cigarettes, dysfunctional behaviours and avoiding being with myself. To feel meant I had to address what I wanted to turn a blind eye to. It meant  that there were truths for me to face or accept as reality when it was preferable to live in la-la land.

These days, feeling all the feels can be incredibly overwhelming, especially in areas I give a fk about - the environment, animals and the state of humanity. Accepting the extreme contrast of beauty and pain of this world can be a real struggle, so it's important that I have tools at the ready to support that feeling journey.

But I'd rather feel than numb out, than turn a blind eye, then pretend something isn't happening, when it is. Feeling the feels allows emotions to move through me, each of them communicating a different message that helps me make an empowered choice once I've allowed them to pass.

Have a listen to today's episode about allowing yourself to feel again. I hope you enjoy it and take some gold nuggets from it.

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My ego's greatest fear is being taken down. I have a story that goes something like this. "If I be me, I'll be taken down and have nothing left. I'll have everything to lose and I can't bear that pain again. So don't have anything to lose".

Recently this came up when I was doing a process on being my real and raw self. The same story reared its head and it became obvious that my ego is so consumed with, "not being me", because if I'm not the true me, then nothing can hurt me. As a result, if I stayed focused on that, protecting myself for fear of being rejected and alone, I'd abandon my soul for a false sense of security.

Listen to the podcast for the deep insights and how this can relate to the stories your ego sells you.

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I've got big dreams that I focus on and act in favour of. I call them my True North Stars, or end results. These are the desires in my heart that long for me to live into, embody and materialise. They help me grow, be more resourceful and challenge the shit outta my limiting beliefs.

A few of my clients ask me, "but what about on the daily Kat? What about little goals for the day, do you set them?" For sure I do. I call these, "my daily practice". When I ask myself, "what am I in the practice of today?", I intend for the practice to help me serve my highest good and the good of others. This becomes a mini end result for me to keep me in check and remind myself that this is the matter I want to make matter.

In today's episode I share about how I go about this in greater depth in hope to serve you in your journey.

Lotsa love x

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In 2013, I wrote a peace essay on what peace means to me. It was an essay competition led by Rotary, that would see 10 young people chosen to go to the Rotary Global Peace Forum in Japan. 60 applicants sent their essays in, me included, and I was one of the 10 chosen to go.

At this time in my life, I had overcome chronic pain, stopped taking medication, broke up from my co-dependent six year relationship and felt like something in me was calling for more. I had overcome so much adversity and felt like an overflowing cup of energy, power and a new zest for life. Something in wanted to give back and take the learnings I had learned and share them.

I spoke to my Dad about this. Dad's a devoted Rotarian and pointed me in the direction of some programs I could get involved in, plus the peace essay. These were the first steps I took towards a path that I couldn't see clearly into, but I could feel it.

In today's episode I share this journey and the essay that I wrote (with a few tears). I believe this episode is an important one as when I wrote this essay, I had no firm vision around what I wanted to do, but had a feeling in me that wanted to be explored. Choosing to follow the feeling led me to where I am today, and maybe there is a feeling inside of you waiting to be acted upon too.

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